Chapter 14: Not Leaving Still around

When I realized that the young woman in my eyes was a fox fairy, my mouth couldn't help but open, and if my heart hadn't jumped to my throat, I might have said "ah". I was a little overwhelmed, my mind was a little upside down by the sudden surge of emotions, and everything in my eyes became cloudy except for her. She has become a piece of oily fat jade protruding in the middle of the Yellow River.

She was looking at the window, unable to tell if she was staring out the window or thinking something. The color light of the advertising light box through the car window reflected on her beautiful and somewhat cold face, changing like a colorful cloud. I thought I should have seen this kind of scenery in my dreams, but I couldn't be sure what period of time it was in my dreams. I noticed that the light reflected on her face was very different from the light reflected on other people's faces. Not only will the color on her face increase the brightness, but there will also be a noticeable sense of flow. On the other people's faces, not only did the brightness not improve, but became more and more dull, like a thin layer of gray. Bright colors and strange light waves swirled on her face, outlining the pointed chin, the bridge of the nose and the upturned corners of the eyes, and the light gray tweed coat with a white fur collar swayed a faint sigh. All of these have an irresistible charm, a soul-stirring brilliance, and an incomprehensible and unreachable blur.

I've said this to someone before: The world doesn't exist because of your existence. These words were very suitable for her at that time. But I quickly pulled myself out, making sure it was in a shaking subway car, not something out of the ordinary.

When I looked at her again, I was a little puzzled: fox fairies are very good at camouflage, and it is difficult to see flaws without the eyes of others. This is also the reason why I, a caring person, have not been able to meet the fox fairy for so many years - I am not afraid of face to face, but I am afraid of not knowing each other in person. I don't understand, how can this fox fairy be so deceitful? Why do you want to let the fox fairy look at a glance? Is she trying to expose herself to reveal to the world that they exist on earth?

There is no need for this, your existence in the human world has been confirmed for more than a thousand years, and if you still do this, it will be a bit of a snake to add to it. As for the infinite desire for you in order to provoke the men with ghosts in their hearts again, there is no need for this, are the men of the present who are worthy of your infinite desires? Ignore them, the mediocre men who are flooded by the rolling red dust, and the vulgar people who are brutally enslaved by wealth, let them continue to be in the psychedelic fantasy of becoming billionaires, and become rags that they don't want to put in the dustbin as soon as possible. However, for me, the people who have been waiting for the fox fairy year after year, this kind of manifestation is necessary, otherwise my longing and expectation will pass me by.

But to be honest, I am not very happy with this kind of situation that came too easily, because I have been waiting for many years, and this scene has been pulled into the old saying: there is nowhere to find the iron shoes, and it takes no effort to get it. I'm tired of this old adage, I've never wanted my own circumstances to fulfill this old adage, and I've never "come to it without effort". This is good, let me wait heavily, empty and gone.

Just thinking about it, the car arrived at the fifth station. Without any foresight, she turned and got out of the car. The agility of the movements is by no means beyond the ability of a woman in the world.

She had to squeeze through the car door as well, but I could clearly see that her body didn't touch anyone, but she wasn't air! Although she is as slender as a girl in the world, her outstanding female body characteristics still have to occupy a certain space size, how can she be like a piercing wind? After getting out of the car, she walked in the direction of the rear of the car and quickly disappeared from my sight. What remains in my retina is her lithe form.

After the car started again, I realized my sluggishness: why was she still in the car, and it should be behind her now! What you see in your eyes should be the waist of the willow and the flowing hair, instead of the lazy and tired face in the modern city, swaying and not knowing the joy and sorrow of tomorrow. What corrupted my instincts, suppressed my desire to fulfill, and forced me to continue to be carried forward by wheels? Could it be the class that managed to sustain life?

That's right, it's the class that can get paid, and the sword is like a sword that forces me to disobey myself.

The swaying carriage swayed with a sense of loss that could not stop falling, the filth in the carriage became more and more unbearable, and the sound of clangling wheels was like a steel needle thrown into my heart, sending out bursts of tingling.

Why get off the bus? Did she notice that I, a layman, were watching her, and that there was an element in my gaze that defiled her holy body? I can't recall exactly what I was thinking of when I looked at her, so I can't assume what was in my eyes. If my gaze offends her, disturbs her state of mind, and forces her to change her original plans, then I am so sorry for her.

Speaking of which, I'll give you a secret: the subway is a place that fox fairies like to haunt very much, because the subway is the most popular and does not see the sun. You have to know that the fox fairy who has become a humanoid has to suck popularity from time to time in order to maintain an intact humanoid form. Popularity is the bones and flesh of the fox fairy that make up the human form, and if the stock is insufficient, the original form will be revealed. is not like in film and television dramas, if you want to maintain your human form, you have to eat the hearts of living people, cut them into pieces, tie them with toothpicks and send them to your mouth. This is all deliberately fabricated by those bad screenwriters and bad directors to fight for the box office and attract ratings, and the creativity and expression techniques are extremely inferior and vulgar, which is shameful for mainstream values. These bad screenwriters and directors, in order to satisfy the audience's psychology and taste for rottenness, do everything they can, and they don't hesitate to demonize the fox fairy, and ignorantly equate the fox fairy with the demon.

But it can't be completely said that these bad screenwriters and directors are not. Isn't it strange that we in China are easy to talk about those who don't know! These rotten things are indeed unknown, and it is unfair to blame too much. But it has to be explained that the reason why the rotten people don't know is precisely from themselves. Because the utilitarian nature of their bodies is too strong, the smell of copper is too strong, and the armor of the tank can poke holes out of the selfish desires, and the good people hide away in disgust. The fox fairies are extremely disdainful of the rotten goods on this road, and they are too close to avoid thousands of miles away, how can you say that the rotten goods have the opportunity to get close to the fox fairy? Understanding the fox fairy is even more nonsense. It can be regarded as out of helplessness, in order to carry out the business of collecting money to the end, the rotten people can only make up nonsense by blind people, so as to fill the rotten audience's desire for rottenness, so as to muster up their enthusiasm to dig out their pockets. Other than that, there is no other way. These rotten things are pitiful enough.

In fact, the fox fairy only absorbs popularity and does not eat people, which is essentially different from demons. Although fox fairies and demons are inseparable from each other in the shaping of human appearances, and they can also take care of each other very charming, but the hearts of these two kinds of things are different from the purpose of coming to the world. To put it simply, sticking to the fox fairy can get benefits and happiness, sticking to the demon, hum, is sticking to the disaster. Especially men, the shape is skeletal and the face is yellow and thin, they are polite, if they don't suck up the bone marrow, dig out the heart and liver, and leave you empty, you can be embarrassed to call a demon! Oops, I'm sorry, you said you were a demon the other day, I didn't mean to, that's what I said about it.

She glanced at it, meaning it didn't matter.

Hey, I'm really, just say fox fairy, say fox fairy, what do you do with the demon? Is this really a lot of talking, trying to bring disaster to yourself? Demon, we can't afford to provoke it, and then talk about the fox fairy.

In order to maintain enough popularity, the fox fairy basically chooses to go to the popular subway. The popularity in the subway is not only strong, it is simply strong, so strong that the eye can see it. Fox fairies disguised as ordinary people love to mingle in the crowd during peak hours, eating a big meal like devouring popularity, until they are full. Therefore, when the peak hour comes, the fox fairy is the most active, and the chance of recognizing the fox fairy at this time is also the greatest.

During normal operating hours, fox fairies are disguised as ordinary passengers, and they will spend time at this station and that station, and will not stay at one station for a long time, so as not to arouse the vigilance of security personnel and invite trouble. Now each site is equipped with monitoring equipment in all directions, but who has ever heard of the monitoring personnel discovering the fox fairy from the monitoring screen? There are no public reports, and there are no folk rumors. So, why didn't you find that the clarity of the monitoring equipment was not enough? No, it's the fox fairy who avoids it well, and there are no flaws in his behavior. There is also a phenomenon that is not easy to be noticed: the fox fairies who need to replenish their popularity sneak into the subway before sunrise every day and leave after sunset.

Fox fairies are afraid of sunlight, and the ultraviolet rays in the sunlight are easy to burn fox fairies, and if they don't get it right, they will show their original form. There are so many bored people on our streets, and they are all good at taking advantage of them, so suddenly there is a fox on the street, and they can stand by with a kind face? The sun really has to come out of the west, and when you sing again, it has to be: "The sun is about to set in the east, and the mountains are quiet." Oh, interject gossip. The common people, whose eyes spew greedy green light, designated a swarm to chase and intercept, capture, slaughter, take the fur to please the woman, and stew the meat and wine.

It's a shame to mention such things. That year, when I went to play on the dam with my friends, we visited a fox farm. The head of this farm is my friend's buddy. At noon that day, when we had dinner at the restaurant in the field, the head said enthusiastically that our meal was mainly served with fox meat. Then he showed off: This fox meat is not the meat of the fox we raised in captivity, but the meat of the wild fox that I personally went up the mountain to collect, and it is N times more delicious than that of the captive. Then the head introduced: This damn wild fox who is about to eat has been in estrus in the mountains two days ago, but he couldn't find a companion in the mountains. It must have been too big to control the emotion, so I followed the smell and touched the outside of the wall of our farm, probably dreaming of getting along with the captive foxes. When the people in the field found out, they were about to set up a trap to catch it, but the guy felt bad and fled back to the mountains. But it is a thief and loves the dust, so it is not willing to run away. When I found out, I took my shotgun and tracked it down into the mountains, thinking that I had to carry it back. I'm also an old hunter, and it's easy and pleasant to deal with this kind of fox that is not cunning, so I didn't take a few turns in the mountains to find it. I only took one shot and killed him, not wanting to make it up for our dinner today. Let's drink well. There are friends from afar, and they are happy.

When I started eating, I didn't stretch my chopsticks to the plate of fox meat because of my psychological barrier. The drinking friends who ate heartily looked angry and shouted, you don't eat such a rare game, waiting to drink the milk of the Queen Mother! The leader of the self-proclaimed old hunter also came to encourage me, and I was so enthusiastic that I held my breath and went down for a few pieces. I can't say whether it's good or not, but there is a faint smell in my mouth. Probably my psychic effect.

Afterwards, I regretted it very much. For a person who sincerely waits for the fox fairy, how can he eat fox meat, isn't this taking the initiative to stand on the opposite side and digging his own way with the fox fairy! I've been waiting for the fox fairy year after year, and those who can't wait, will they get farther and farther away from the fox fairy after this apace? What is even more negligible is that no one knows the origin of this wild fox, how many years it has survived in the world, and no one can say, so who can guarantee that it has not lived in human form, and has had close contact and life with the world? If it has taken the form of a human and lived with people, then eating its flesh is equivalent to eating human flesh, and I can't escape becoming a madman in Mr. Lu Xun's pen. The fox immortals with vast magical powers know everything, and they remember the people who are against heaven one by one. In all fairness, I didn't wait in vain in my life, and I saw the fox fairy with my own eyes, which is really fortunate, and I have to thank the fox fairy from the deepest part of my heart for not holding grudges and giving face.

In fact, before I met or said that I didn't know the fox fairy, I concluded that the fox fairy would be most optimistic about the ring line subway, and this time it was confirmed. This is also easy to explain. We all know that the starting point of the Ring Line subway can become the end point; The end to the start and the start to the end can all be done in a circle without turning around. As a general rider of the Circle Line Subway, I always believe that the Circle Line Subway itself is a philosophical proposition that can stand up to scrutiny, which is suitable for both the East and the West, and of course the most suitable is the Tao of the East. I think that the philosophical meaning of going around in circles on the subway can drive the fox fairy's meticulous thinking, weave the earth-like latitude and longitude, and satisfy the desire for reincarnation, right?

Fox fairies are philosophers.

I came to the station and figured out a reason: although our world has been messed up by industrial civilization, the fox fairy has not completely abandoned us, and is still with us for a long time. Although they are no longer involved in our lives, they still pay attention to our lives and connect with us through popularity. However, they are very cleverly camouflaged, and they can't be recognized without considerable Dao nature, so it's not so much waiting for the fox fairy as waiting to see through the fox fairy. But there is a very crucial question here, that is, whether the fox fairy wants you to see through it. If the fox fairy doesn't want to, even if you have a considerable Dao nature, you can't do anything, and your waiting will be a fruitless wait forever.