At the beginning, she chose Chu Yanchen.

She knows his feelings, she is actually guilty, so she will feel guilty, will want to make amends, and will not help but care.

But...... It seems to put the cart before the horse, adding to the snake.

……

The next day, Jiang Yanzhou came to the Fumin Community, he opened the door with the key, and carried a breakfast bought by the way.

However, as soon as I opened the door, I saw a clean carpet in the hallway.

When he left yesterday, Qi Suya's shoes were lost here, but now they are gone.

He was stunned for a long time, and his shoulders collapsed, as if he was enveloped in a dull atmosphere.

With his head down, he slowly changed into his indoor slippers and went to the dining room to put the take-out breakfast on the table.

He rubbed his face, his brain empty.

At this moment, he suddenly remembered Chu Yanchen.

Chu Yanchen is not addicted to smoking, but if he is really upset, he will smoke.

And he is different, his addiction to smoking is much greater than Chu Yanchen, but when he is really sad, it seems that all his energy and energy have been drained, he can't lift his strength, and he is not interested in smoking.

He sat for a long time, and then finally got up.

The entire second floor of the Fumin community is opened into a family, and there are many rooms here.

Jiang Yanzhou walked into his room and saw an iron box on the windowsill that had faded after being exposed to the sun.

He went to the window, opened the box, and saw the glass shards of the soda bottle.

Suddenly remembered that winter, his feelings were still hazy, and he had not yet understood his thoughts, but he tried his best to grasp anything related to Qi Suya.

Is all this predestined for a long time?

It was already predestined from that time.

The more you want to cherish, the more you want to lose.

The more you want it, the harder it is to have it.

It's like this box of glass shards.

That year, Qi Suya and Wang Xiao were sitting downstairs by the flower bed drinking soda together, he was looking at her at the time, she mistakenly thought that he also wanted to drink soda, so she asked Wang Xiao to buy him a bottle.

Later, he brought back the bottle of soda and placed it on the windowsill all day, so that he could see it as soon as he opened his eyes. Until one time, Brother Rong accidentally broke the glass bottle of soda.

But even if there were only shards of glass left, he kept them, and he stayed for so long, as if he was using this to grasp a connection, to grasp the overly shallow past between him and her. It's like if she doesn't work hard to grab it, from now on there will be no place for herself by her side, in her heart, and in her eyes.

But even if you work hard, what can you do?

When she was in Prison No. 3, she became like that, and he always thought that he was very responsible, and thought that he was responsible.

It was his failure to control his selfish desires and his failure to restrain his thoughts and behaviors, which led to such serious consequences.

Later, she asked him, "Do you know Paratu?" ”

At first, he was shocked and excited, thinking that she was referring to a soul mate, a spiritual lover.

But it turns out that Plato also represents another meaning, idealism.

From then on, she no longer struggled with the things she had struggled with in the past, and after that, she chose to be disgusted.

He's been thinking a lot lately...... No, not just recently.

In fact, he's been reflecting.

How exactly did he lose?

Where is it good to be disgusted? Where is he not as good as disgusting?

After analyzing them one by one, he later realized that his biggest flaw was passivity, because he was not as good at expressing himself as disgusted with Chen.

It's not that she didn't give him a chance, it's that he didn't grasp it.