"Call your GP tomorrow." Lu Shenyan looked at the mist on her eyelashes, and the fire and ice in her heart soothed Zhu Man and let her sleep peacefully.

Zhu Man herself also felt strange, although the two were husband and wife, she always had an instinctive fear of Lu Shenyan, just like at this moment, she obviously couldn't sleep, but she would still listen to Lu Shenyan's words and lie obediently in the quilt.

The next day, Zhu Man got up early in the morning with two faint dark circles under his eyes. Mother Wu saw that Zhu Man's mental state was not good recently, so she asked, "Madam, do you want to call Doctor Zhu to come and see?"

After Zhu Man and Wu's mother got along for a few days, they felt that she was a very good person, at least for herself. "I just haven't rested well, it's okay, maybe it will be fine in two days." Zhu Man stiffly pulled out a smile, and Mother Wu saw it in her eyes and felt pain in her heart: "Madam, I think it's better to ask Doctor Zhu to take a look, your face is too bad, and it is still very important for women to be confined." ”

Zhu Man thought that he should not be able to refuse, so he nodded. Wu's mother immediately got up and called Zhu Jiu'an, Zhu Man looked at Wu's mother's back, and seemed to feel that this picture was familiar, as if the two were making cakes together.

Soon, Zhu Jiu'an rushed to the Lu Mansion and saw Zhu Manshi. Laughing like a big brother next door: "Hi." Nian Nian, long time no see. Yushu was in the wind, smiling like a flower, walked up to Zhu Man, and met her grape-like eyes.

"We know each other, too?" Zhu Man didn't know how many times he asked this sentence, "It seems that you really forgot everything." Zhu Jiu'an said disappointedly, "Yes, you're a doctor?" When will I be well? Zhu Man finally had a chance to meet the professionals, and couldn't wait to ask. Before, Lu Shenyan said that it was to protect herself and not let herself have too much contact with the doctors in the hospital, and she didn't know her condition.

"This ...... I can't say either, you can't remember all of them now? Zhu Jiu'an looked at Zhu Man with concern, "No, some things have been remembered, but I can't remember anything about He Shenyan, but in my dreams, it seems that I often have memories of the past." By the way, lately, I've been having the same nightmare at night, so my rest is not good. Zhu Man described his physical condition in detail.

Zhu Jiu'an thought for a while before he slowly spoke: "You should have forgotten something you don't want to remember because of a car accident, a head collision, or something you avoided or ..... someone." ”

"You mean, Shen Yan is someone I don't want to remember?" Zhu Man said a little hesitantly, being known by Lu Shenyan, he might be angry.

"That's probably the case, but although you have forgotten about it on the surface, its shadow still exists, and that's why you keep having that nightmare, because when you sleep, you are unconsciously affected by that event, and you may not be able to figure it out yourself, but if you can't remember it all the time, it may become a knot in your heart." Zhu Jiu'an said with a serious face, "Then what should I do?" Zhu Man was also very distressed about this.

"No solution, you have to recall it slowly, and then solve this problem with Shen Yan, there is one thing, I think it might be better for you to know it......" Zhu Jiu'an stared at Zhu Man, as if to say something earth-shattering.

"Well, you can say it." Zhu Man was ready to listen, and heard that Zhu Jiuan was Lu Shenyan's friend, so he should be able to learn about Lu Shenyan from him.

"I think Shen Yan might have some kind of mental illness, such as xingnve, or a kind of xingnve for someone." Zhu Jiuan said solemnly, "What??? "Zhu Man's heart is very complicated, is that dream ...... It's true, that vague man is Lu Shenyan, and the xingnve object he designated is himself, is it really as Song Zhiwen's mother said, Lu Shenyan really didn't marry him because he liked it.

"I know you may be scared, but through my observation of your married life, and the previous Shen Yan is not interested in women at all, he has never loved a woman, and he does not even have physical needs...... It's just you, it's different," Zhu Jiuan cautiously told Zhu Man the results of the study, hoping that she would accept it.

"So I want you to recall the past and Shen Yan, I mean the period before you got married, you have known each other for so many years, has anything happened to him, so that he may have an impulse to you." Zhu Jiu'an's urgent voice made Zhu Man feel more stressed about his amnesia, "But I really can't remember." Zhu Man was also in a hurry.

"It's okay, you remember it slowly, you may remember it, or ......" Zhu Jiuan deliberately didn't finish his words, because he didn't know if it was the right choice, "Or you can do something that Shen Yan can't accept, let him treat you Xingnve, maybe you will remember, but that is too risky." ”

When Zhu Man heard this, her little face turned pale, and she felt that Zhu Jiu'an's method was too risky, if Lu Shenyan was really angry, her life might not be guaranteed, for some reason, she really had an instinctive fear of Lu Shenyan, which seemed to go deep into the bone marrow.

Lu Shenyan walked in when the two of them were looking at each other in silence, and when he saw Zhu Jiu'an, he once again came over in a hurry to protect Zhu Man: "What are you talking about?" Lu Shenyan looked at the two of them quietly, and the more he looked, the more anger appeared in his heart. He was still taboo about Zhu Jiu'an taking Zhu Man out.

"Oh, I'm a little uncomfortable and let Dr. Zhu come over to take a look," Zhu Man quickly explained, she always felt that Lu Shenyan had been locking her in a cage of amnesia, unwilling to let herself recall the truest side of the past, but she really wanted to find out.

"Jiu'an, what's wrong with Niannian's body?" Lu Shenyan looked at Zhu Jiu'an, with a deserving expression, how could Zhu Jiu'an not understand Lu Shenyan, "It's not a big problem, it's just that the pressure of amnesia has been relatively high recently, which has caused restlessness, and I'll prescribe some tranquilizers later." ”

Lu Shenyan gave a faint sigh of gratitude, he wanted to see something from the expressions of the two, but it seemed that he couldn't see some reason.

"Prudently, I think we need to talk." Zhu Jiu'an made a sincere proposal, Lu Shenyan stared at the strange Zhu Jiu'an, and then looked at Zhu Man who pretended to be nothing, since Zhu Man returned home from amnesia, she seemed to have a lot of things hidden in her heart, which she couldn't see, she seemed to ...... It's different. Lu Shenyan took a long breath, suppressed the displeasure in his heart, then nodded, and took the lead in the direction of the study.

"What do you want to talk about?" Lu Shenyan looked up at Zhu Jiu'an, his brows tightened, showing his displeasure. "Shen Yan, since you were a child, you don't seem to have particularly liked a woman!" Zhu Jiuan decided to slowly open Lu Shenyan's mind and get straight to the topic, which would make him wary.

"Uh-huh~~ What?" Lu Shenyan couldn't figure out which set Zhu Jiu'an was now, but he still patiently listened to what his friend said, "What about Zhu Man?" Is it like? Love? Still is...... Just possession? Zhu Jiuan decided to test Lu Shenyan first. Sure enough, as soon as he met Zhu Man, Lu Shenyan would have irrepressible emotions, which was not Lu Shenyan at all, he used to be controllable about his emotions.

"What the hell are you trying to say?" Lu Shenyan couldn't help but roar, his expression was low. Zhu Man is like an accident in his life, once he thought he could control everything, until ten years ago, her simple and beautiful smile broke into her mind, she broke into her own world without warning, people are like this, for love will go to the soup and fire at any cost, there is no right or wrong in love, it is worth it or not, when this accident appears, you can forgive everything for her, even if there is grandpa that incident, I still like her.

Although he also thought about forgetting and no longer liking her, he just couldn't do it until this kind of liking deteriorated and turned into a pathological desire for control, whether he was stupid or cheap, he just loved......

Zhu Jiu'an saw Lu Shenyan deep in thought, and he didn't bother until he stared at him like a group of wolves again, and then said again: "Zhu Man told me that she has been having nightmares recently. Lu Shenyan didn't want to deal with Zhu Jiu'an, so he casually echoed him.

"That nightmare is the image of you raping her, and some filthy images, you know?" Zhu Jiu'an made it clear, Lu Shenyan raised his eyebrows, the first time he heard that Zhu Man had such a dream. "Actually, it's a memory hidden in her subconscious, but she selectively forgot that since she was discharged from the hospital, she has been quite estranged from you." As Lu Shenyan's friend, Zhu Jiu'an certainly knows how to get into his heart.

A faint wry smile bloomed on Lu Shenyan's peerless face, it is indeed like this, although Zhu Man has no problem with herself on the surface, her vigilance comes from her heart, how can she not feel it. But being said nakedly like this, Lu Shenyan's face couldn't hold back, "You think too much, she's just a little uncomfortable, and it will be fine in the future." "It is difficult for a Qing official to decide family affairs, not to mention that he wishes him a long time, why should he take care of his own family affairs, Lu Shenyan once he meets Zhu Man, he doesn't know what calmness is, it is nothing more than his friend.

“come on！！！ Be cautious, be sober, you have to face the vague emotions in your heart, in fact, you don't need to say it, I also have noticed it, as a friend, I really don't want you to live an unhappy life, bravely face your true self, okay? Lu Shenyan was very irritable now, and felt a burning pain in his middle finger, it turned out that the cigarette had burned out, but these pains were not enough for his heart.

"Finished? I do not send it. Lu Shenyan coldly issued an eviction order. If it goes on like this, it's not good for you and for Zhu Man, you can't open Zhu Man's heart and really get close to her, and Zhu Man will leave a knot in his heart because of this, and fall into that nightmare for the rest of his life. Zhu Jiu'an said excitedly, "I know the top psychotherapists abroad, you should think about it!" With that, Zhu Jiu'an left the study and left the space to Lu Shenyan.

In the evening, Zhu Man wrapped his hands around Lu Shenyan's waist, his face pressed against his broad back, and whispered: "Shenyan, what did Doctor Zhu say to you today?" Is it about my amnesia? ”

Lu Shenyan obviously didn't want Zhu Man to know too much, Zhu Jiuan must have told her something, "I didn't say anything." Zhu Man's inaudible sigh came into Lu Shenyan's ears, and the two were obviously so close, but they seemed to be separated by a thick high wall, "Doctor Zhu told you my dream, right?" Zhu Man still has that tepid tone, which is elusive.

Lu Shenyan was silent, today he had been confused by Zhu Jiu'an, and he didn't want to talk too much about this matter, "Actually, it doesn't matter if that dream is real or not, I hope it can help you and get out of your shadow." I always feel that I am so close to you, but it still feels far away, can I look into your heart? As if being poked in the heart by Zhu Man, Lu Shenyan untied her hand around her waist, and then got up and left the room, leaving no words.

Zhu Man looked at his departing back with a look of fear, and at the moment he got up, she saw his handsome face under the lamp, his lips were tightly pursed, and his eyes that could turn all beings upside down emitted a cold light, although he didn't speak, but he shocked his heart more than speaking.

The room suddenly fell silent, and Zhu Man's fragile and sensitive heart trembled again, did he make him unhappy again? Why are you so afraid, is Lu Shenyan just a possessive of himself? It's been another sleepless night, and sure enough, I still can't get into his heart and know the past he is hiding......

Coming out of the room, Lu Shenyan angrily flipped through the books in the study, as if venting, the past he didn't want people to know was going to be turned out after all? Lu Shenyan opened the mechanism and walked into the secret room.

It's full of photos of Zhu Man, as well as xingnve tools. Yes, he is a xingnve maniac, and he only has this kind of perverted thoughts about Zhu Man, and other women, he has no interest at all.

Lu Shenyan stared straight at Zhu Man's photos from childhood to adulthood, the more he looked at her sweet smile, the more annoyed he became, and he took out his mobile phone and dialed a call.

"Albert, do you want to drink together?" Then I drove to the bar that the two had made an appointment.

Albert, who was originally warm and fragrant nephrite and a beauty in his arms, was suddenly pulled out by Lu Shenyan to drink, "What's wrong?" What problem did Mr. Lu encounter again? Lu Shenyan didn't speak, just poured the strongest wine one by one.

"Sure enough, it still doesn't work......" Lu Shenyan's eyes leaked a sad expression, "What should I do with you?" Albert didn't have to guess to know that it was Lu Shenyan and Zhu Man's problem.

"Falling in love with someone can really be in a short moment, I fell in love with her, she was like a proud princess at that time, but like a warm sun, when I was teased for not having parents, I took the initiative to jump out and chase away other children, and she was so cute that she was so cute." Lu Shenyan said with a wry smile, no matter how strong and spicy the wine is, it is not as sad as it is.

"You unloved child, why compare with us, we have parents and you? Nothing. A group of little boys surrounded Lu Shenyan layer by layer, just after his parents had a car accident, although Lu Shenyan had the love of his grandfather, he was often teased by the neighbors' children for not having parents.

"You all get out of here, don't talk about him like that." An immature voice sounded loudly, Zhu Man crossed his waist with his left hand, held a stick in his right hand, and said to the group of little boys who were bullying Lu Shenyan.

"Who are you?" A little fat man in a tugging voice said, "I'm his neighbor, and what kind of man is a bunch of you guys bullying him." "Zhu Man had just moved to this villa area when he saw Lu Shenyan who was being bullied.

That fat man seemed to be the little bully in this district, and he was openly provoked by Zhu Man, which was obviously very unhappy, so he was ready to do it, repair Zhu Man, and let her know her status. As soon as the little fat man walked up, he was hit on the leg by Zhu Man with a stick, after all, he was a child, and he was always afraid of pain.

"They were scared away by me, what's your name?" Zhu Man threw down the stick, came to Lu Shenyan's side, and smiled smartly, "Lu Shenyan." He exuded a feeling of not being approached, in fact, he was not afraid of the group of boys just now, but if he injured them, he would hurt his grandfather again.

"My name is Zhu Man, Shuangmu Zhu, the thought of missing." Zhu Man has a fair complexion, a pink little blushing, delicate facial features like a ceramic doll, he has been a beauty embryo since he was a child, under the illumination of the afternoon sun, he reflects a faint brilliance, looks like a soft rag doll, and smiles sweetly at Lu Shenyan.

"Are you older than me? Then I'll call you Brother Shenyan! ”

"Where do you live, my house is the third house in front, you can come to play with me when you have time! I just moved in and don't have any friends," the eyes that were still bright suddenly dimmed.

"Why do they say you have no love?"

"Shall I love you in the future?"

……

Zhu Man chattered endlessly, Lu Shenyan was quiet by nature, so he frowned, is the girl in front of him talking so much? Although he was displeased, Lu Shenyan did not ignore him like ignoring others.

Since then, Zhu Man has been particularly fond of sticking to Lu Shenyan, and he is also used to Zhu Man's scoundrels, and occasionally his words are amazing.

"Brother Shen Yan, am I your little princess, today I heard at school that if a boy likes a girl, he will treat her as a little princess." Zhu Man, who went to elementary school, looks even more beautiful, but what remains unchanged is that she still likes to stick to Lu Shenyan.

"Brother Shenyan, can I be your first love? I was able to be your girlfriend when I was in junior high school, right? Zhu Man is still a childish primary school student, and Lu Shenyan is already in junior high school, he knows a little about men and women, he doesn't speak silently, and listens to Zhu Man's nonsense.

"Brother Shenyan, your first kiss should be left to me, and no one is allowed to touch you."

"Brother Shenyan, I want to be your bride."

But all this beautiful thing was dissipated by that birthday party, when Zhu Man was nine years old, a very grand birthday party was held, not only to celebrate her birthday, but also to celebrate Zhu Jianjun's promotion to a high-ranking official in the government, so some prominent dignitaries were invited to the seaside holiday house.

"Ah!! Zhu Man was swept away by the sea. A little girl screamed, wanting to get the attention of the adults, as the heir and manager of Lu's business, Lu Shenyan came to this party with his grandfather, when Zhu Jianjun was busy entertaining and did not hear the call for help.

Lu Shenyan's grandfather desperately jumped out of the sea to rescue Zhu Man, and when he rescued Zhu Man, because of his age, he was exhausted when he went ashore, and the ambulance had not yet arrived, so he left this world, and Zhu Man also forgot this memory because he was stimulated, and there were not many people who knew about it, and everyone chose to be silent in order to protect Zhu Man and prevent her from being traumatized......

Since then, Lu Shenyan's personality has become more withdrawn, for everyone's silence, Zhu Man's forgetfulness, he is difficult to accept and will never forgive, so he pretended to be indifferent to Zhu Man, didn't care, let her completely die to herself, he always maintained an anger towards Zhu Man, this anger, as he grew up, became more and more difficult to suppress in his heart.

Especially Song Zhiwen was so good to Zhu Man, the anger in Lu Shenyan's heart became even more distinct, accompanied by anger, and his love.

Only Lu Shenyan knows that he is definitely not only ruthless to Zhu Man, but also likes it that he hates, these years, he has been busy maturing on the surface, busy growing up, busy calculating, living like an indifferent man he will never love, in the middle of the night, he will go crazy, he will not be able to suppress his thoughts about Zhu Man, and he will shout Zhu Man's name in his dreams.

So he began to collect all kinds of photos of Zhu Man, posted them in the secret room of the study, and walked into this house when he was bored, Lu Shenyan was originally a person who was not interested in sex, but one night, Zhu Man's beautiful smile appeared in his mind, and he actually reacted, thinking about Zhu Man's face, while dafeiji......

He obviously hated Zhu Man's irresponsibility, hated her indifference, hated to the end, but fell in love with him in a ghost, at that time he was very entangled, day after day, year after year, Zhu Man took root in his heart, as time went on, Zhu Man's influence in Lu Shenyan's heart became deeper and deeper, thinking that she seemed to have become the instinct of life, just like breathing.

Although he seemed indifferent, indifferent, and ignored Zhu Man, just because he couldn't let go of his grandfather's incident, he always believed that Zhu Man indirectly killed his grandfather.