In the box, there were people gambling and drinking, some singing, some playing games, and some making loud noises.

I pinched my swollen eyebrows, and I felt unusually noisy.

Xia Wanyin was right next to me, and every time she got closer to me, I wanted to shrink back a little.

Jane has always liked to be boisterous, and I thought she would definitely come tonight, after all, it was a graduation party.

I didn't expect that there were forty-nine people in the class, and she didn't come.

I should have thought of it earlier, she no longer likes to be lively, and she is no longer willing to be my little tail, Brother Yan An, Brother Yan An, screamed and followed behind her.

Not long after the party started, I couldn't stand the noise and withdrew.

Xia Wanyin followed, and it was not until the secluded corner of the door that she gently called my name.

A faint unhappiness had already risen in my heart, and I stopped and waited for her out of politeness.

Xia Wanyin lowered her head and lowered her eyebrows, her lips were shy and tight, and her beautiful eyes wanted to look at me but didn't dare to look at me.

"I have something to tell you."

"Say it." I replied.

She suddenly had the courage to look at death as if she were at home, and stood on tiptoe and closed her eyes.

At that moment, I pushed her away in disgust.

He was ashamed, and he was a little guilty.

Xia Wanyin's dust-free eyes were covered with a layer of mist, "I know." You like Jane One. ”

"I can feel how cold you are."

"As soon as she appears, you either suddenly don't speak, or you're deep in thought. Your eyes don't look at her, but your ears still hear and your brain thinks. ”

"You're only going to ...... When there is her, accept my approach. ”

I didn't speak, acquiescing to everything she said.

The night Jane kissed me, I actually had a premonition.

She turned around and called my name, and when her eyes were full of the girl's shyness, I realized what she was about to do to me.

There was a suffocating palpitation in his chest, and his breathing was messy.

I pretended to be indifferent, holding my breath and waiting for her next move.

She told me to close my eyes, and I obediently closed my eyes.

She told me to open my arms, and I obediently opened my arms.

My eyes were closed, my eyelashes twitching slightly.

Feeling her closer, her soft hands on my back and scorching my skin.

Her snort was full of her fragrant smell, and my chest was swollen to the limit.

At the moment when she kissed it, there was a rumble in her head, and there was only a white light.

I opened my eyes to meet her calm, relaxed face.

I can't tell why I can't suppress the panic in my heart, I know all her premeditations, I don't refuse to accept her, I don't resist.

Unexpectedly, my strength was surprisingly strong, and by the time I could react, she was already lying on the hard stone.

I saw her expression of pain and disappointment, and another tingling pain in my chest.

But in order to hide my panic and prove my indifference, I pretended to be angry and fled.

I hid at home all day without contact with her, and I didn't know if it was her or my own heart that I didn't dare to face.

I hid from her for a long time, and she finally stopped showing up. There was a great loss in my heart, so great that it could swallow everything.

I longed for her appearance, but I feared her appearance.

I was scared of this emotion that I couldn't control, I couldn't concentrate on reading my books, I didn't have the heart to do what I wanted to do.

Time was quick but painful, and she and I hadn't seen her for three months.

Subconsciously, I feel that she will always be released in the land where I am.

In my first month of high school, I saw her again.

I pretended not to see her, and casually talked to Xi Chu, asking him if the things in the school were not delicious.

I didn't hear anything about what Xi Chu said to me.

I was waiting for Jane to call me as before, and finally I heard her voice.

"Brother Yan'an."

Her voice is crisp and cheerful.

I heard my own pounding heartbeat and turned to look at her with a blank face.

She ran towards me with a smile and the sea of stars in her eyes.

I waited for her to come to me and talk to me, and I would answer them one by one, and then the two of us would return to their previous natural relationship.

But she didn't, she stopped there, timid, a little afraid to look at me.

She took a step back at me, and I took a hundred steps back in fear.

I know she likes me, but I'm just stingy.

She moved to a house near the school, rarely came home, and we saw each other less often.

In school, I often saw her and the girl named Ah Ruo together, going to school together, leaving school together, buying water together, doing everything together.

Maybe she's put me down a long time ago, and I'm still here to be amorous.

I didn't expect her to be in the same class as me.

She had just walked into the classroom that day, and all eyes in the class were on her face.

In fact, this is not surprising, she has always been the existence of the stars holding the moon.

It's just that the boys in the class made me feel extremely uncomfortable, and there was a fire burning from the bottom of my heart, and I really wanted to take their eyes off.

Later, someone came in again, and it was Gu Yuan!

I subconsciously looked at Jian Yi sideways, she looked adoring and admiring, and her eyes never left Gu Yuan.

What made me even more angry was that Jian Yi and Gu Yuan actually talked, and Jian Yi also shook Gu Yuan's hand.

At that moment, Gu Yuan's stunned and distracted eyes all fell into my eyes, and I had an intuition that Gu Yuan would definitely like Jian Yi.

Those two people who shine brightly and shine everywhere they go look inexplicably compatible.

The air smelled very sour, very sour, and it smelled so bad that it made me very uncomfortable.

Xia Wanyin asked me to borrow an essay, I lent it to her without thinking about it, and I prevaricated casually when she talked to me.

As soon as I found out that Jian was looking at us, I deliberately talked a lot to Xia Wanyin.

I don't know much about the relationship with Xia Wanyin, but whenever Jane appears, I always subconsciously act like I have a better relationship with Xia Wanyin.

Jian talked a lot, and she talked endlessly after class, every time she spoke, Gu Yuan would make a sound, and her mind was full of the sound of them chirping and wahing throughout the semester.

Sadly, I feel more and more that they are a natural pair.

I know she doesn't like me coming into contact with Xia Wanyin, and the more she doesn't like me, the more she wants to do this.

The class uploaded a scandal between me and Xia Wanyin, and I didn't stop it.

Does she still like me or not, does she like me as much as she used to? How could she like me as always, and how she liked all of me.

I let the flame of jealousy and inferiority grow bigger and bigger, and pushed away the girl who was full of me with my own hands again and again.

Before going home, I drank some wine, my head was very hot, and the wine was rolling in my stomach.

I saw her from afar.

She only wore a pale yellow dress, which was thinner than her skirt.

She stood in the bleak night, her eyes lonelier than the moon.

I felt sorry for her, but I didn't have the courage to go up and hug her.

Of course I love you, and it was my fault that I didn't make you feel it.

She asked me to say this to him.

My lips wanted to open and close several times, but I couldn't open my mouth anyway, and I just watched her turn indifferently, her eyes full of disappointment and hurt.

I never saw her again, whether it was the Chinese New Year or the summer vacation, I really never saw her again.

I consoled myself that it was okay not to see me. The more I have seen, the more I will never forget.

I kept myself busy, memorized jurisprudence, Chinese legal history, foreign legal history, constitutional law, civil law, etc., and did not give myself a chance to breathe.

I forced myself not to think about her, but she ran into my dreams on her own.

Even if she was very indifferent and ignored her, she spoke to me enthusiastically with crooked eyebrows, saying that she liked me and would not leave me.

The first time I went out for a drink with my dorm friends, I was so drunk that I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

She came back to my dreams, dressed in the pale yellow dress of the last night I saw her.

She faded her skirt as thin as a cicada's wings, and her thin and slender body walked towards her.

Her soft, warm body covered me and hugged me, I breathed messily and hugged her tightly with my backhand.

"Jian Yi, you're back."

I was so excited that I woke up to find that I had just had a big dream.

The chest is empty, and the bottom of the eyes is the melancholy formed by the condensation of longing.

Raising his hand and blindfolding himself, even his breathing was cloudy.

When I heard the news of Jane's accident, I just got out of class and went to the cafeteria to eat.

Dad called and said that Jane's plane to Tibet crashed, and her life and death were uncertain.

Immediately pick up the mobile phone and press the number you know by heart, and the voice display cannot be dialed.

Jane One!

All of a sudden, the world was spinning, I couldn't breathe, and I pressed my chest, and it was getting more and more stuffy.

My stomach was churning violently, and I couldn't help but vomit in front of all the students in the cafeteria.

It was the most embarrassing scene of my life.

I don't care if people look at me differently.

At that moment, I realized that I loved her so much.

I immediately bought a ticket to Tibet, and waited there for many days, but there was still no news of Jian Yi.

Later, my father told me that Jian Yi is now safe and has been taken to the hospital in City A.

I immediately bought a ticket to City A, and I was in a hurry to get to her as soon as possible.

Unfortunately, when I arrived, she already had a loved one by her side.

It was a very clean and good-looking young man, and he sat on the edge of Jian Yi's bed, looking down at her gently.

Something suddenly stung in my eye, and I pulled away and fled.

I often couldn't help myself sneaking to see her, she had amnesia, and without those sad memories, she loved to laugh again.

That's fine, as long as she can be happy.

That's good, that's good.

I repeatedly persuaded myself to let go, hoping for a good death.

When I decided to give up, my fate took a turn again.

She broke up with Qiao Yi, largely because of this indirectly.

In order to marry her, I sowed one panic after another, and set one trap after another for her.

I panic all day long, for fear that she will leave me and return to Qiao Yi's side.

She still found out my true colors and wanted to run away from me and go to Qiao Yi.

A city earthquake, I know that she went to Qiao Yi's side, I got late at night from early morning at home, and finally waited for her, and she actually had the smell of that man on her body.

I was angry, and jealousy lost me.

The dark, filthy self that I had been trying so hard to hide all escaped.

Despite her struggles and begging, I stripped her of her clothes and crushed her underneath.

Destroying her with his own hands, ruining himself, ruining our possible future.

She remembered the past, silent every day, and her eyes saw nothing, let alone a few words with me.

Her health also became poor, and she often had a high fever that did not go away. I asked the doctor how this happened, and the doctor said she was depressed.

I think it was wrong to force her to be with me.

She didn't feel happy by my side, but more pain.

I wanted her to be happy, so decided to let it go.

If I could, I would like to be less inferior and braver.

When she loved me the most, I just had the courage to say that I loved her too.

At Fei Fei's wedding, I saw the couple in pairs, and some people got happiness.

The wedding ceremony music played, the music was happy and beautiful, and it was graceful and beautiful.

I was relieved in that moment.

Separate, separate, sad, sad, at least once owned, not too sad.

At least she's still with me, and another look is enough.