Although some times are lonely, they are so beautiful, just like the green cherry blossom tree in my memory, it will appear in my dream after a long time, so beautiful that I can't forget it. When people come and go around you, you can also see the ** color cherry blossoms and gorgeous red peach blossoms blooming all over the mountain, only to find that these are very beautiful, but vulgar, no matter what, will not leave a deep memory.

Please call my name lightly

I will go to him

Be one of his flowers

——— Korean poet Kim Chun-so "Flower"

It's probably an ordinary spring afternoon, the sun is not very bright and dazzling, soft just right, after class, I walked out of the teaching building, down one step after another, walking aimlessly on this road, the spring breeze touched my face like a gentle hand, stopped, enjoyed this moment, looked up, and stayed on the green cherry tree, it is not tall, so it is not so conspicuous, and it will not fall like the white cherry blossoms on campus, but for some reason, when I see it, I can never forget it, think of it, Tears will well-follow your eyes.

Under that special cherry blossom tree stood a young man, an ordinary light blue shirt, ordinary dark blue jeans, but his back was very tall, the young man looked into the distance, thoughtful. I looked at the back of the boy, and the green cherry blossom trees formed a picture just right. The spring breeze disturbed the boy's hair, as well as his thoughts, he turned around and chuckled, "It's beautiful, isn't it?" I wish time had stopped here. It seemed to be talking to me, and it was more like talking to himself, and whatever it was, I don't think he needed to answer, because he was gone. And I was like a lost child, looking at the green cherry blossoms in the trees and not knowing what to do, in the beautiful scenery, forgetting the scenery and forgetting myself.

Who am I? I also forgot who I was, or because I didn't want to be remembered, I deliberately lived a little transparent with a vague personality. Dealing with people makes me very tired, so I talk less and think more, and it has become my code of conduct not to deal with people unless necessary. For a long time, I lived like this, or rather existed.

In the classroom, the German teacher spoke the affix selbst, and the German teacher said that selbst stands for self-awareness, which means knowing what to do and when. I think it's hard, and it's never easy to grow calmly. Janet Winterson wrote, "Few people are able to live like creatures of nature, never trying too hard, but rarely failing." We don't know who we are, and we don't know how to make our flowers bloom. "At this moment, I am a student sitting in the classroom learning languages, learning languages is the only thing I have been insisting on at the moment, learning Chinese, learning English and learning German, sometimes boring, sometimes interesting. For example, at a time like this, it's funny that the German teacher who always wears a black T-shirt is very much like the German language itself, and there are endless philosophies in the rules. It is said that all disciplines come to an end in philosophy, which is why we always find commonalities in two things that seem to be incompatible.

Why learn German? My first boyfriend, or the guy who wanted him to be my first boyfriend, was a German major, and I approached him on the grounds of learning German from him, and when I got close to him, I realized that what I wanted was love, and he wanted something different. We started with volunteer activities at school, he is a head taller than me, and his facial features are quite delicate, you must know that there are not many opportunities to meet handsome guys in real life. So I started Xiao Jiujiu in my heart, found his contact information in the group, and saw that his information said German major, so I started a plan to seduce him by learning German. On the day of the appointment, I deliberately took off the glasses like a thick bottle bottom, and made up a good shape, although the makeup skills are not very good, I chose a dark blue long-sleeved T-shirt, a blue and white checkered vest, and contact lenses, and blinking big eyes are the proudest places in my facial features. He was wearing a red T-shirt over a plaid shirt that day, and because he was tall, he looked good in anything. He asked me why I learned German, and if it were now, I would definitely answer because of you, because I wanted you. At that time, I was too young to flirt with such a blatant flirtatious guy as I am now, so my answer was that because German was very attractive and Germans were very well-behaved. This is how I started my journey of learning German and flirtatious, and I agreed to learn in the classroom two or three times a year, most of which started at 6 o'clock, so for a while I was looking forward to 6 o'clock, which was a happy moment for me. As is often the case, the closer you get, the faster the illusion will be shattered. In the classroom, he would be very close to me when he taught me phonics, I was sluggish, and if we were together, it would have been the starting point. Once, I saw him picking his nose, what kind of person would pick his nose in front of someone he liked. Half of my enthusiasm was extinguished, and it turned out that my hunch was right, not only did he not like me, but he also had a girlfriend. Since the nose picking incident, my German learning and flirting road has become a simple German learning road, one ordinary study day, his girlfriend broke in, wearing a pink cloak tweed, curly hair and round face, just like the characters in the Japanese comics, kawaii's sister broke in, and by the way, broke my last illusion, the German man said that we are here today, just like his girlfriend broke the door violently, I also slammed the door and left, and there was no contact for a long time.

When the weather is good, I like to sit on the lawn and bask in the sun, the grass here is green, probably because it is the south, it is not the same as my hometown, the trees here are all ficus microphylla, and my hometown is mostly camphor trees, I like here, the trees are more humid and the air is moist, which makes people feel very good. The wind blew down a small maple leaf, which I caught casually and squinted at the sun.

"This is Pentagon Maple." There was a nice voice coming, I looked up, it was the boy under the green cherry blossom tree, with clear facial features, clear outlines, today is a white T-shirt and jeans, the first love in the hearts of all girls.

"How do you know?" I asked casually, and the teenager sat down next to me, a meter away, just right for a conversation.

"Probably because I want to be a naturalist, but there are still a lot more things I don't know than I know now, and I guess that's why we want to explore the unknown." He smiled again, the healing smile was exactly the same as the last time I saw him under the green cherry blossom tree, and the boy with a bright smile always made people feel good.

"It's so good, the sun is warm, the breeze is blowing, the fragrance of flowers is overflowing, that is, this kind of moment can feel the beauty of life," I sighed, "This kind of moment is very important to me, I prefer this kind of empty time than busy fighting for a certain goal, some people say, this is called blank space, the blank space of life, just like a painting, a painting full of color is not necessarily more profound than a colorless painting put together by a few lines." ”

"Well, I'm reminded of a poem by W H Davies, 'What is this life if, full of ca.'

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e?’” He said, "I don't have time to accompany you to continue painting your blank painting today, so see you next time." And so he left.

"yes, okay." Answering at his back, people who don't know their names, who don't know where they came from or why they are going, actually said to me goodbye next time.