When night falls

I stood on the steps and listened;

Stars flocked to the garden

And I stood in the dark.

Listen, a star rings on the ground!

Don't walk barefoot in this meadow,

My garden is littered with fragments of stars.

—Edith Sodgrand

"I haven't been here this month, it's past the date." When I send a message to Li Hong, he always comes when he wants to come, and he doesn't contact him when he doesn't want to, and really defines me as a tool to vent his desires. Even if it was a tool, I thought he should know about it, so I messaged him.

"Oh, let's go to the hospital." He replied coldly, and did not take the initiative to take me to the hospital, which meant that I should go by myself.

I went to the hospital alone, I went to the nearest hospital on the street where our school was located, it was a private hospital, and it was all pink when I went in, and there was a medical guide, and it wasn't particularly crowded.

When I arrived at the doctor's office, the female doctor looked at me with disgust, "Why did you come alone?" Where's your boyfriend?

"Because it's a disease in my life, I'm here alone." For me, now is not the time to care about other people's eyes.

"What's wrong? What's uncomfortable? ”

"I didn't get my period."

"Let's go for a urine test first. I'll give you another ** mirror examination. "The female doctor gave me a bill, I went to pay the fee, I don't know if it's because of the private hospital, it's so expensive, I didn't think much about it, just check it well.

"The results are out, I am not pregnant, but I have cervical erosion, which is very serious, and I have to do surgery immediately, you have to contact my family as soon as possible, and be hospitalized as soon as possible, I will give you the operation list immediately, and you will pay the bill first." The female doctor said seriously, for fear that I would not pay for the operation.

"Yes, it's still so young, little sister, you have to have an operation, otherwise you will have problems giving birth to children in the future." The female nurse next to her helped.

"But after doing that, how do you have children? Didn't you say you might bleed profusely? I asked.

"You can break your abdomen, and if you don't have this surgery, you may have problems with pregnancy." The female doctor said.

"Oh, okay, I'll call and ask." I'm already frightened, most girls are innocent and chasing stars and dramas when they go shopping, but I am troubled by this kind of news, holding the operation bill in my hand, I called Li Hong.

"Sorry, your call can't be reached."

"Sorry, your call can't be reached."

"Sorry, your call can't be reached."

……

After hearing the same thing about a dozen times, I gave up, and I was at the corner of the stairs, looking out the high window, which was also gray, looking at the phone address book, and I didn't know who to call. I couldn't contain my emotions anymore, I couldn't help but cry, for the first time in my life, I felt this feeling of helplessness.

"What's wrong?" A cleaning aunt came over and asked.

I was still immersed in my emotions, ignored her, and then went downstairs, outside, and on the crowded street, my body walked with my will, and by inertia I found my way back. When I passed by the cafeteria, the food lost its attractive aroma, and so many flowers in the school lost its charming appearance. I walked to that road, the road with green cherry blossoms, and looking at the green cherry blossom tree, I asked, "I'm going to get through it, right?" ”

"Well, it's going to get through, there's nothing you can't get through, but what's going on? Crying pear blossoms with rain. The young man in the royal blue sweatshirt asked, no matter what time it was, he was as bright as ever.

"It's nothing, there was a kitten on the side of the road who was run over by a car, it looked miserable and uncomfortable." I wiped my tears and said to him.

"Well, it does seem to be a sad thing." Trying to comfort me, he put his hand on top of my head and retracted it again. What I like most about him is that he has empathy and a sense of proportion.

"Nanfang, there will be Mucha Exhibition coming to our city next week, are you free? Do you want to go and see it together? He winked at me and seemed to guess that I would like it.

"No, I'm not going, I still have exams to prepare." In fact, what I want to go to is already a pleasure to just look at Mucha's paintings on my mobile phone or computer screen, and if I go to see it live, it will definitely be even more shocking! It's just that the lily and the maiden are the symbols of Musha, and the lily represents purity, and now I have nothing to do with the words purity and maidenness.