173. The sins that should have been atoned for
King Chu Kang replied to Yasukuni, Xia Ye died of illness, expressing deep sorrow, and his posthumous affairs have been handled by his daughter Xia Nuanyan, I hope to mourn!
Xia Ye's matter, that's it, it's in the past, Bai Ruyue has no fault, Jun Shinuo has no fault, King Chu Kang has no fault, even Duan Wangye, there is no fault, the only one who can't get over is Xia Nuanyan.
Xia Nuanyan has been three days and three nights, not eating or drinking, the whole person seems to have collapsed, no matter how Qian Mo persuades, she just can't swallow anything, and she refuses to see Jun Shinuo.
"Qianmo, is the prince in the house?" Xia Nuanyan supported her body strongly, her pale face, as if she had just crawled out of the snowdrift, trembling, and there was no trace of blood, Qian Mo saw it in her eyes, and it hurt in her heart.
Qian Mo nodded again and again, "Princess, are you willing to see the prince?" ”
"Well, help me call the prince over." Xia Nuanyan swallowed her tears and nodded, but she didn't know that this point was not a lifetime, but it was just, a lifetime of sorrow, a lifetime of entangled love and hatred.
Qian Mo was so happy that he forgot to smile, and after a pause, he remembered that he ran out with a smile!
Xia Nuanyan squeezed up and sat up, walked to the window, the breeze caressed her face, slightly refreshing, she tried hard to pull her mouth, smiled to herself, lonely and sad, these days, she has thought a lot, there are things about Xia Ye, there are things about Jun Shinuo, there are things, there are things about Bai Ruyue.
Xia Nuanyan's life is all about Bai Ruyue, as long as she thinks of Bai Ruyue's things, she finally feels uncomfortable in her heart, she has thought about it, she has no strength to hate Bai Ruyue, hate a person, it's too hard, and moreover, from Bai Ruyue's standpoint, Bai Ruyue is not completely wrong, thinking that at the beginning, she was pregnant in October, she lived a miserable life every day, and now, when she has grown up, she has to hate Bai Ruyue to the bone, so it is very unfair to her.
Therefore, Xia Nuanyan made the biggest decision, whether it was for Xia Ye, Bai Ruyue, or Jun Shinuo, all these debts should be repaid by her.
Jun Shinuo said that there is a dilemma between love and righteousness, but Xia Nuanyan is just a little woman, she understands that what Xia Ye said is that he wants to die Mingzhi, but he wants to exchange the last remnant life for Bai Ruyue's innocence, but innocence is not a matter of life, he thinks that seeing Bai Ruyue and watching Bai Ruyue live and be fine, it is enough, and there is no regret in death.
However, seeing that Bai Ruyue was indifferent, and she had to face Jun Shinuo, Xia Nuanyan was really unable to pass the hurdle in her heart, and she finally understood, there is a saying that out of sight is clean!
I haven't seen Xia Nuanyan for a few days, and seeing Xia Nuanyan so haggard, Jun Shinuo felt a lot of bad things in his heart.
Jun Shinuo took Xia Nuanyan's hand, shook it in the palm of his hand, and said distressedly, "Nuanyan, you can not see me, why torture yourself, I will feel distressed." ”
Xia Nuanyan pulled her lips, she wanted to smile, but she couldn't, she choked her eyes and looked at Jun Shinuo, "Shinuo, do you know, I don't want to hate you, I really, I don't want to hate you, I love you so much, how can you teach me to hate you?" ”
"I'm sorry, Nuan Yan, believe me, really, give me some time, we will definitely get back on our feet."
Jun Shinuo's oath is frank, it sounds, there is a firmness that people can't question, he has his firmness, but Xia Nuanyan has her own position, she no longer knows where Jun Shinuo's belief comes from, they will return to the same as before!
Love is a far-reaching road, a persistent love, Xia Nuanyan has always felt that she can go far, far away, but there is a life in between, Xia Nuanyan has no strength to go on.
Xia Nuanyan raised her eyes sadly, deeply imprinted Jun Shinuo's outline in her eyes, she turned her eyes, and suddenly, tears rained down.
Jun Shinuo wiped Xia Nuanyan's tears in a panic, "What's the matter, I'm thinking about those things again!" ”
Xia Nuanyan shook her head insistently, bit her lip tremblingly, breathed a sigh of relief, and finally, gently activated her lips, "Shinuo, you said you loved me, and you still do, love me so much, can't you lose me?" ”
"Of course." Jun Shinuo didn't think about it, and replied straightforwardly, "Nuan Yan, you are the person I can't lose in my life!" ”
Xia Nuanyan smiled with tears, "Shinuo, I'm sorry, I've really thought about it a lot these days, I love you so much, but when I think of my father, when I think of the scene where you killed my father, I don't know, what to do, how to live this day." ”
"Warm Swallow ......"
"Shino, let me finish!" Xia Nuanyan stretched out her hand to block Jun Shinuo's mouth, swallowed, and continued, "I don't want to hurt you, and I can't let you be hurt, so I can only deal with this entanglement in my own way." ”
"What do you want to do?" Jun Shinuo asked anxiously.
Xia Nuanyan smiled warmly, she thought, leave Jun Shinuo with the most beautiful smile, "You killed the person who loves me the most, I can only kill the person you love the most!" ”
After Xia Nuanyan finished speaking, a dagger had been inserted into the abdomen, without too much pain, yes, maybe, just relief, she could only use this way to end her life that should not have come to the world, to be able to love Jun Shinuo like this, it is God, give her the best gift, people can not be too greedy, the origin of the fate is extinguished, in fact, it has nothing to do with Xia Yeben, but she should also atone for her sins, this is Bai Ruyue owes Xia Ye, and Jun Shinuo owes Xia Ye, the mother and daughter are repaid, it is justified, and the husband and wife are repaid, and it is understandable.
When Jun Shinuo reacted, Xia Nuanyan's abdomen was already gushing out with hot blood one after another, and he hugged Xia Nuanyan's trembling body in horror and roared, "Come on, come on, come on, come on, come on, ask for a doctor, please get a doctor!" ”
Xia Nuanyan stretched out her bloodstained hand and stroked Jun Shinuo's face, with a sense of reluctance and a sense of relief, "Shinuo, please forgive me for my cowardice, I really ...... It's true...... I don't want to hate, you, love you, so deep, I, I, hate no, you ......"
Xia Nuanyan finished this sentence intermittently, slowly closed her eyes, and lowered her hands.
"Nuan Yan, I won't let you have anything to do, don't think about leaving me, I said it, I will pester you for the rest of my life, don't think about escaping halfway, don't dream." Jun Shinuo hugged Xia Nuanyan and said tremblingly, with a handful of tears and snot.
Life is impermanent, there are some things that you never thought would be lost, but all of a sudden, they are gone.
The cruelest thing in life is to tear up beautiful things at the most beautiful moments, life should be a little regretful, which is really distressing, but if it is too much regret, it will make people miserable for the rest of their lives.