174. There is no strength to love anymore
Xia Nuanyan's dagger was inserted into the lower side of her chest, although it was not a heart, anywhere, as long as it was deep enough, it could kill people on the spot, and Xia Nuanyan could wait until the imperial doctor came, perhaps, it was really just the blessing of God.
Imperial Doctor Zhang finished bandaging Xia Nuanyan's wound, and when he sat aside to check her pulse, his thick horizontal eyebrows suddenly rolled up, and finally, with a long sigh, as if it was not enough, he lowered his head again, as if he was speaking in a deep voice.
Jun Shinuo couldn't wait to ask, "Imperial Doctor Zhang, how is Nuan Yan?" ”
"The princess is fine, she doesn't hurt her life, but!" Imperial Physician Zhang stood up and made a gesture, his expression was very solemn, "Lord Wang, the princess is fine, but the fetus is not protected." ”
"What?" Jun Shinuo almost didn't stand still, and took a step back, it was Qingfeng who supported him, "You mean, Nuan Yan, she's happy, and then ......"
"The princess is already two months pregnant, don't you know?" Imperial Doctor Zhang was surprised and regretful, "The dagger happened to be inserted into the placenta, the fetus has been stillborn, the most important thing now is to let the princess take good care of her body, the princess is very weak now, and she shouldn't wake up for a while!" ”
Jun Shinuo held his forehead in his hand, and after thinking for a long time, he raised his head and said firmly, "No one is allowed to mention this matter in the future, if the princess hears half a word, you are the only one who asks." ”
Qingfeng choked tears in her eyes and whispered, "Lord, the princess has the right to know, this is unfair to her." ”
"There is some pain, it's good to bear it alone, Nuan Yan is already physically and mentally in pain, and if there is more pain, she can't stand it, send the imperial doctor out!"
Jun Shinuo sat at the head of the bed, caressing Xia Nuanyan's cold face, and finally, he couldn't cry anymore.
Happiness turned out to be very short-lived, thinking of the happiness of herself and Xia Nuanyan, but for a short period of time, at that time, she was still hugging Xia Nuanyan and saying that she wanted to give birth to a bunch of children, and now, it has become like this, if Xia Nuanyan knew, would she not, more, life is better than death.
Jun Shinuo guarded Xia Nuanyan and did not leave an inch, for fear that Xia Nuanyan would wake up as soon as possible, and it would not be him who would be seen, or for fear that when Xia Nuanyan woke up, he would do something stupid again, perhaps, what Jun Shinuo didn't understand was that if a person still loved in his heart, dying once would be salvation and liberation, but if he wanted to seek death for the second time, it would take a lot of courage.
When Xia Nuanyan woke up, it was the night of the next day, she opened her eyes vaguely, closed them weakly, and slowed down for a long time before she had the strength to open her eyes again.
Jun Shinuo was lying on the side of the bed, already asleep, his brows wrinkled slightly from time to time, and then opened, and wrinkled again, perhaps, he was having a heavy dream, Xia Nuanyan thought so, closed his eyes again, and when he opened it again, a line of tears crossed, everything about Jun Shinuo, she no longer had the strength to participate.
Qian Mo came in with a bowl of medicine, and when he saw that Xia Nuanyan had woken up, he ran in happily for a while, "Princess, you're awake!" ”
Jun Shinuo was awakened by Qianmo's scream, he sat up sleepily, and when he saw Xia Nuanyan, he grinned, "Nuanyan, you're awake, you're finally awake." ”
Jun Shinuo completely acted as if nothing had happened, straightened Xia Nuanyan's messy hair, and Qian Mo came over with medicine, "Lord, the medicine is ready, give it to the princess to drink while it's hot!" ”
"Just give it to me, you can go down." Jun Shinuo took the medicine, picked up Xia Nuanyan in his chest, and fed Xia Nuanyan spoonful by spoonful with concern, a bowl of medicine, he could treat Xia Nuanyan as if she was just sick, he was completely okay, and he didn't show a little suppressed emotion on his face.
Xia Nuanyan finally couldn't help it, she turned her head and looked at Jun Shinuo with a desolate look, "Jun Shinuo, how can you act as if nothing happened, do you think that this is really possible, do you start all over again, you take me too lightly." ”
Jun Shinuo lowered his eyes, and when he raised his eyes again, he had calmed down a lot, his eyes didn't have any sorrow, and he didn't have too much emotion, "Nuan Yan, can we, let's not mention this matter first, you take care of your body first, let's talk about it, okay." ”
Xia Nuanyan smiled bitterly, laughed and cried, tears kept mottled on her cheeks, "Shinuo, you are so cruel, how can you be so cruel to me, why don't you mention it first, why don't you mention it until I am well, what do you want to say to me, can my father come back to life when I am well?" ”
"Nuan Yan, I ......"
"Forget it, I don't want to say it," Xia Nuanyan swallowed, swallowed back her tears, and smiled sadly, "Shinuo, I don't blame you, I only blame me for being too affectionate and trusting you too much, if I didn't believe in you too much, maybe, that day, I wouldn't have handed over my father's life to you, maybe, I rushed to the palace earlier that day, I pleaded with the emperor, or, give Bai Ruyue out, everything, everything is different, although the fact is that some people have been injured, at least, the body is not injured, but you don't even give me this opportunity, You can't even get along with me, do you? ”
"Nuan Yan, believe me, I just want to minimize the harm to everyone, you have always been the most sensible, it is impossible for you not to understand me."
"Hehe, minimize the damage to everyone, Jun Shinuo, you said it so well, Bai Ruyue's past is just to make Duanwangye's face dull, isn't it, his face, in your heart, is more important than my father's life?"
Xia Nuanyan stared straight at Jun Shinuo, she seemed to feel that the person in front of her was so strange, the person in front of her was really herself, how could it be possible to be a humble gentleman who had been thinking about it for so long, thinking about it for so long, and loving it for so long.
Jun Shinuo lowered his head, "Nuan Yan, I'm sorry, Duan Wang Ye is really kind to me, and Chu State is also kind to me, so I can't let them be stained at all." ”
"Heh, you finally said the truth, at least, I also understand, in your heart, all love is not as important as kindness, I don't blame you, blame me for taking you too seriously." Xia Nuanyan swallowed her breath and said sneeringly, she moved her body to pull away some distance from Jun Shinuo, and then said slowly, "You go out, I don't need you to take care of me, and I can't afford you to wait." ”
"I," Jun Shinuo hesitated, "I'm still here to watch you, I promise not to speak, I won't let you feel that I exist." ”
Xia Nuanyan said, "Lord Wang, presumably, are you afraid that I will do stupid things again?" Xia Nuanyan put her hand on the wound in her abdomen, "To tell you the truth, I don't have the courage to go here and insert a knife, like that, I'm so sorry for myself, besides, I'm not afraid of death, I don't believe it, I can't live!" ”
Xia Nuanyan's words were so cold, so sad, Jun Shinuo listened, the pain in his heart spread, after all, it was he who destroyed Xia Nuanyan with his own hands, he, unexpectedly, ruined Xia Nuanyan!