October 19, 2019

Around 11 o'clock this morning, I returned to the county where my home is located. The night before, I had agreed with my roommate to play games all night, but we all broke our promises, so maybe we were all tired of it. That's right, today's college students are like this, they don't sleep in the middle of the night every day: those who play games play games, and those who watch videos watch videos. Of course, there are also classmates who stay up late to complete a certain teacher's task.

The alarm clock set for 8 o'clock last night because my high-speed train departs at 10:22. But for some reason, I woke up at 7:30 last night after I went to bed at 1 o'clock last night. Pack your luggage, put on makeup, and arrive at the high-speed rail station before 9 o'clock. So, I watched the American drama "Bankruptcy Sisters", which I downloaded in advance last night. It's not because I like it, it's just because the senior sister who keeps us studying in the morning recommended it for us to learn English.

In an hour, I had a simple breakfast (a box of biscuits and a box of real fruit pieces), and I didn't want to eat breakfast, but who told our school to be so close to the high-speed rail station? I came too early! However, this hour, I haven't even finished watching an episode of more than 40 minutes of funny TV series, maybe my heart is impetuous, as they say: the current society is impetuous. I still chose my previous collection of manga, which is always a lot of fun to read.

However, I myself am a little strange that I, who am immersed in these short-term pleasures, have no interest in "Douyin". This is a popular entertainment project in the country!

On the high-speed train, I am still reading comics, and as before, I will collect comics with a good style of painting no matter what genre. Maybe that's why this society looks at faces, and all people like beautiful things. I actually took a photo.,I want to send a space or something.,But,One point open QQ.,I don't want to send it out.。 I don't think there are 100 pictures left in my album like this, but 50.

After getting off the high-speed train, I waited at the bus terminal for the bus that could reach my neighborhood. I'm still reading manga because I like it. I was the penultimate to get on the bus, and anyway, my house was only a few stops, and the seats were for the rest of the people. I still read comics, and I actually like novels because the world of novels can be imagined at will. I also write my own novels, and I said in my self-introduction in college that my biggest dream in life is to publish a comic book that belongs to my novel. Of course, it's the kind you have to draw by yourself.

It wasn't long before I got home. Mom took over my big bed because my dad was on the night shift last night and tonight, and now he's sleeping in their bedroom.

After a brief chat with my mother, she began to urge me to pack my things back to school before I even opened my suitcase. Due to my heavy homework this week, and the two tasks given to me by my counselor as a newly appointed administrative assistant, I not only booked my return ticket for tomorrow morning in advance, but also brought back my heavy computer.

After lunch, my mom and I lay on my big bed, she watched her quickened costume TV series, and I turned on my computer to adjust my word tweets. Sure enough, I woke up early in the morning and became sleepy in the afternoon. So, I slept beautifully for half an afternoon.

When I woke up again, at half past five in the afternoon, my mother said, "Do you want to go out to eat or eat at home?" Me: "Huh? Let me see! "I decisively turned on Meituan on my phone and started searching for food shops in the vicinity.

Finally I chose one, called my dad to be our driver (he got up in the afternoon to have lunch and went back to sleep), and went out like that.

There was always a bit of traffic jam on the road on weekends, so I ordered my order and drove the navigation to get my dad to take a detour.

At this time, his mobile phone rang, and my mother answered the phone, and hung up after two or three sentences. My dad said, "Old man? "(My grandfather) I don't know what my mom's expression was at the time, anyway, I looked confused and didn't know anything.

It took another five seconds for my mom to tell me to cancel the order and my grandpa suddenly had a headache. So, we went straight home, and my mom just started cooking, and I looked at my grandfather and felt that he was in okay condition. And my grandmother was at a loss for what to do, here and there. When my dad was already driving away, she decided to go along, but she couldn't.

My mother has long been tired of this family's life pattern, and I have long been surprised. Since a few years ago, my grandmother has been hospitalized frequently, almost once a month on average; Grandpa is also getting weaker and weaker, and often takes medicine or something. However, this time I also had a bad feeling that my grandfather might have a brain hemorrhage. As for the severity of this condition, I really don't know. However, it is not a small problem if something goes wrong in the brain.

At home, we had dinner, and my grandmother kept babbling to follow along. My mother and I both know very well, what can she do as a 60-year-old grandmother in the past? I tried to persuade her, but I also knew that my grandmother was never a person who listened to persuasion. When she was young, it was the period of the Great Revolution, she didn't read any books, and she was only a few grades in elementary school, and she didn't even know many everyday words. But she just loves to worry about others, she has never lived for herself in her life, she is a complete feudal woman. My mother is really tired of her, and the nice words were said about a few years ago, and in the past few years, all the persuasive words have been sarcastic.

Grandma walked out worriedly, and we called my dad to check on the situation, and they had just done a check-up, and the results were still unknown.

After a while, I realized that my grandmother was gone. So, I tentatively walked out the door, and heard a cell phone ringing in the distance. "What are you doing?" I asked my grandmother directly. "I want to call your dad, but I can't find it." Grandma said. I sighed inwardly and didn't speak, knowing that she didn't know a few words, and we had taught her many times, but she still couldn't remember. Is it really old。。。。。。

"Instead of worrying like this, you should wait for them to come back at home. What can you do when you pass? "I still can't help but be the middleman like the guy.

Grandma didn't speak, but she didn't go back either.

After a while, my mother came out. She suddenly asked me about my daily expenses, and she was really worried and tired. I only go home once in half a month, and as soon as I come back, I have to listen to some preaching, which is really annoying. Still, some of her words pierced my heart, and she cried again. My mother is a strong woman, and I rarely see her crying. But since I started high school, she's cried five or six times in front of me.

She said, "I'm tired of going on in this house, and I don't want you to do anything else." “

It's a very ordinary sentence, but it carries a lot of weight. In fact, before entering this university, I thought clearly that my life is destined to be much harder than others, and my road needs to be paved by myself. Not only to lay my own, but also to lay out this home.

After that, we went to the hospital, and it was indeed an intracranial hemorrhage, and it was an internal hemorrhage from a ruptured aneurysm, and there was a lot of bleeding. I have been transferred to the intensive care unit for observation, and I may need to have a craniotomy tonight。。。。。。 Although listening to my aunt, who studied medicine, explained that the problem was not too serious, I clearly remembered one thing: an operation may cost 3-40,000 yuan, and this is only the cost of one operation, not including room and board, medicine, etc.

I had expected this kind of thing, and of course, my parents should have thought about it a long time ago. The financial situation in my family really doesn't allow me to be willful, which is something I knew three years ago.

I sometimes forget inadvertently, but there are always many things that remind me all the time. However, I was only a freshman, and all I could do was make myself better.

My mother is actually a very understanding person, she said, "I don't expect you to finish college like your sister and have a deposit of tens of thousands of yuan, I just hope you don't give me a debt back." (My cousin is a wonderful person, gets a scholarship every year, and does short-term work during vacations.) Of course, I also want a scholarship and I want to earn money, but I still want to stick to my dream, which is really humbling to say)

I really wanted to say, "No." However, it was completely impossible to say. Not because I can't guarantee it, but because saying this sentence is more like a comfort to her, and it's a counterproductive comfort. So, silence – this is the safest way I've learned to answer in the last few years.