"Do you regret it? Do you regret meeting him? "If they hadn't met that person, maybe their road wouldn't have been so hard.

Do you regret it? I feel a little drunk and confused, but the figure in my mind is unusually clear. A touch of pain on his cold face and under his eyes pierced her heart deeply.

"If I hadn't met him, I wouldn't have been so sad, and if I hadn't met him, my life wouldn't have been so hard. But...... If I hadn't met him, my life would have been so boring. So...... I don't regret it. I'm just blaming God, I'm so tricky. I didn't understand it before, and I didn't cherish it properly, so I wasted so much time. But now that I think about it, those bits and pieces together, whether it is joy or pain, it is impossible to come back. ”

"Sekina, you know what? I miss him so much, I really miss him. I'm in pain here. She clutched her heart, tears streaming down her face. There are more and more pearls like broken threads, as if after meeting him, she cries more and more times, but she still can't control it.

In the past, when she saw those so-called love in books, she felt that they were all deliberately written by literati and ink writers to fool people. A person's heart is so strong, unless it is a sharp sword, how can those shapeless things hurt.

But now she really understands that when someone walks into your heart, your heart will be drawn by him and change because of him. Now that the man is gone, her heart seems empty. It's like a heart that loses its soul and is left with nothing but an empty shell.

Helian Xu hugged her and sat down on the couch, listening to her incoherent but heart-wrenching words. Every word she said was not a harm to him.

"Xiaoxuan, you can't do this, it's unfair to me. Do you know that my heart hurts too, and what does it mean to me without you? ”

She had no way of knowing his heart, and she didn't want to know it, because she only had another man in her heart.

Looking at her little face that was gradually falling asleep, he was reluctant to put it down.

"Xia Xiaoxuan, do you know, I really want to dig out the person in your heart, and then forcibly race myself in, so that your heart is full of me." But he couldn't, so he could only watch as several of them were tortured together.

Whose fault is it, is he too selfish? He just wants to give her happiness, but he sees her getting haggard day by day, is this what he wants?

It's not that he doesn't want to wait, if there is a day, the day when she willingly stays by his side, he is willing to do it for the rest of his life. I'm afraid that even if he is willing to wait, he may not be able to wait. And it was a long and painful road, and he was willing to bear it, but he couldn't bear to let her bear it.

The rising sun rises from the horizon. The warm sunlight shines on the green earth, and everything is full of life because it is bathed in shine.

Saikina remembered that the two of them drank like mud last night, and she didn't know how she went back, so after waking up, she was very worried about Xia Xiaoxuan, so she came to see her.

It's just that she didn't expect that she was about to lift the curtain when she saw a tall figure coming out of it. I was stunned, reacted, turned around and left.

"Sekina, I'm sorry."

The petite back froze for a moment, and his nose was a little sour, but he didn't dare to look back at him. "I didn't ...... Never mind. He was about to leave, but he heard a voice behind him.

"Can you walk with me?"

“……”

The two walked for an unknown amount of time, but he didn't speak, and Secina didn't dare to speak. She hadn't reacted yet, and Brother Xuyang would let her accompany him.

Looking at the tall back in front of me, I couldn't bear it

Live with a fast heartbeat. Knowing that he already has someone else in his heart, he has told himself many times that he should stop having illusions. But when I saw him, I couldn't help but beat my heart faster, and I couldn't help but want to look at him more, even if it was his back.

The others finally stopped, facing the direction of the rising sun, and looked fixedly into the distance.

Secina didn't know what he was going to do? So I just stood with him in a daze. This is already very happy for her.

"Sekina, do you hate me?"

He suddenly spoke, asking this sentence so that Sekina didn't react for a long time.

"Brother Xuyang, why do you ask that, Saikina has never blamed Brother Xuyang. In the past, I was ignorant and caused you and Sister Xiaoxuan a lot of trouble, I'm sorry. ”

"Am I being selfish?" When I asked this, I felt very heavy.

"Brother Xuyang, what's wrong with you?" Saikina felt that Brother Xuyang was very strange today, and what he said was also strange.

With a wry smile, Helian Xu sat down cross-legged on the grass and spoke after a while, "If I told you that I did it on purpose in that competition, what would you think?" "My life is above board, but I didn't expect that I would make that decision at that moment. But to his surprise, he didn't expect Xiao Junluo to use internal force to save him.

"I knew I couldn't beat him, but I didn't want to lose Xiaoxuan, so I used such a despicable method."

Secina was stunned and speechless, she didn't expect Brother Xuyang to do this, and what she didn't expect was that he would tell herself about it. Should she be flattered?

"Brother Xuyang, I understand your feelings, if it were me, I would do the same."

Looking at her puzzled, "Are you comforting me?" Don't you think I'm mean? ”

Biting her lip, Sai Qina pulled her hair braid, and said slowly: "Actually, King Xiao didn't leave at all, he was at the foot of Ling Mountain, and he asked me to tell Sister Xiaoxuan that he would always wait there." But she told her that the man was gone, and told her not to look for him. In fact, they are just as selfish.

Helian Xu was surprised at this time, but he knew that Sekina did it because of him. In this way, the guilt in his heart deepened, and he hurt two good girls at the same time.

"Thank you, Sekina." This is what he should have said a long time ago.

Far-fetched smiled, "Don't say that, Brother Xuyang doesn't blame me for being nosy." I understand the reason why you like Sister Xiaoxuan, she is so kind and smart, you should like her. ”

"But she didn't like me. I kept her by despicable means, and if she knew, she would hate me. But if he didn't tell her the truth, his heart was always uneasy. Even if the two are really together in the future, he will feel that this happiness is stolen.

"Then never tell her." His happiness, she guards.

"But I don't want to see her unhappy, Cekina, I'm really miserable. Leave her, she is not happy, let her go, I am reluctant. ”

She didn't understand this, because her heart was the same.

"Brother Xuyang, do you want to listen to my heart?" Gathering courage, Secina sat down beside him.

"You say."

He didn't sleep all night last night, so he stayed by her side, listening to her call the man's name over and over again, and his heart was tormented all night. Now he really needs someone to give him some advice and show him the way.

Glancing at him, Cecina spoke her mind.

"Brother Xuyang, to be honest, when I heard that you liked Sister Xiaoxuan, I really couldn't accept it, and I felt very painful in my heart, probably like you now

So be it. ”

Helian Xu retracted his gaze embarrassedly and looked into the distance unnaturally. Because there is a person in her heart, it is difficult to let go of others, probably she is also in this mood.

"But when I saw that Sister Xiaoxuan was so good and could fight side by side with you, I knew that I would never be able to compare to her. Only such an excellent woman is worthy of standing by your side and accompanying you to fight the country. ”

"It was painful, but I accepted it. So I wish you and Sister Xiaoxuan sincerely, and I really hope you can be happy. "Because you're someone I care about, I don't want to see you unhappy.

Thinking about Sekina's words in his mind, he found that he was not as generous as a woman. She can afford to take it and put it down, but he can't.

If you've never encountered it, that's great. If he had been killed by the enemy like this, he wouldn't have suffered for so many years.

"Sekina, you say, should I let her go?"

Sekina opened her mouth wide and looked at the man in front of her in disbelief.

"Brother Xuyang, are you joking? Since she used the means at the beginning, it was not easy for her to agree to stay, why is it so easy to give up now. ”

"Because your words have infected me, I can't force my feelings." So even if the person who left her couldn't keep her heart. It's long overdue, isn't it? If there were no wishful thinking, there would be no pain for each other.

A trace of heartache flashed in Saikina's eyes, and she looked at him fixedly, "Brother Xuyang, no matter what you decide, Saikina will support you, as long as you don't regret it." ”

His hand suddenly took her hand and looked at her beggingly, "Sekina, can you do me a favor?" ”

Looking at the hand he held steadily, Sekina felt her heartbeat not help but speed up. His mind was blank, and he couldn't even think about what he said, just nodded instinctively. Anyway, as long as he lets him do it, she will do anything. What matters is what she can do for him.

When Xia Xiaoxuan woke up, she had already been exposed to the sun for three days, and her head was a little dizzy, and it seemed that she had drunk high again yesterday.

Just as he was about to get out of bed, the door curtain was opened, and a person came in in a panic, which startled Xia Xiaoxuan. When I looked closely, it was Cekina.

I was about to reproach her, but I saw that her eyes were red and tears were still hanging on her cheeks. His hair was messy, and his clothes were loose, and he looked like he had put them on in a hurry, and he didn't even button them properly.

"Sekina, what's wrong with you?" It looks like he's being bullied.

"Sister Xiaoxuan, what should I do?" Before she could speak, she lay on her bed and cried.

I finally pulled her up from the bed, and I had never seen Secina cry so sadly. In her impression, Secina is also a strong girl, is something wrong?

"Sekina, don't cry yet, what's going on? Tell me how to help you figure it out? "She's dying, and all this girl knows is crying.

Finally stopped crying, and Saikina choked, "Sister Xiaoxuan, I'm ...... I...... Can't say, you're going to hate me. ”

"How could I hate you? We're good sisters, tell me, I'm dying. ”

glanced at her carefully, and couldn't help but shed a string of tears.

"Sister Xiaoxuan...... Last night, Brother Xuyang got drunk and went to the wrong tent......"

Xia Xiaoxuan looked at her with a confused face, but she refused to say the rest of the words.

"And then?"

Saikina dodged her questioning gaze, and didn't say anything, but cried more fiercely, and there was a tendency for the Yellow River to overflow.

(End of chapter)