On New Year's Day, I came home from Shanghai. After leaving for a long time, my parents are still relieved. When I was in Japan, my salary and allowance were paid together before New Year's Day, and I bought a lot of things for my mother from Shanghai to make them happy. While saying that I spent money indiscriminately, I felt sorry for me that I had suffered outside and lost a lot of weight.

Su Mei also went back on New Year's Day, and the two of us inevitably got together again and went to the bar to drink together in the evening. The Left Bank is our meeting point, and we used to come here to sit and sit, maybe just a glass of juice, although in the bar.

"Look you're doing pretty well." Su Mei looked me up and down, maybe I was used to wearing casual clothes, and wearing the suit made Su Mei look awkward.

"So-so." I laughed, "What about you?" Fang Zhongyu said, you are with Lao Bai. ”

Su Mei smiled, picked up the wine glass and took a sip of wine, the smile on his face was a little floating, "Xiao Xia, I'm different from you, I don't want to be a strong woman, my biggest wish is to be a father and son at home." The old white man is good, after graduating with a doctorate in a few years, there will definitely be a future, and then I will be a homely young grandmother at home, and my life will be leisurely. ”

"Young grandmother's day, I want to do it too!" I touched the cup with Su Mei, "But I don't have that life, no one is willing to support me, so I have to support myself." ”

Su Mei smiled like something, we are used to the days when we are not serious, and we have suddenly risen to such a height, and we are not used to it. But suddenly, her laughter stopped suddenly, I turned around with a hunch, and at the door of the bar, two people came in, it was Zhao Feng and Liu Qing. The two of them are holding hands, but they do not lose a pair of golden boys and girls.

"Shall we change places?" Su Mei looked at me and said with some anxiety that she was afraid that I would be stimulated and do something excessive.

I shook my head, I knew that Su Mei was afraid that I would lose my temper and make something, so I gave Su Mei a smile that I didn't care: "Why should I dodge?" I didn't do anything shady. Although he said tough in his mouth, he still had a sour feeling in his heart, after all, he was the man he once loved, and now he is appreciating other people's smiles by his side, which is a sad thing.

But the biggest thing is the death of the heart. Whoever said, if your love for him is dead, then he is nothing.

Zhao Feng and the others didn't see me, they just picked up a quiet corner, and the two of them drank and chatted quietly, and there were many intimate actions, but all of this had nothing to do with me.

Thinking about it, the news of my breakup with Zhao Feng has already spread among my classmates. We used to be a model couple, and we categorically would not break up, everyone thought so, so everyone didn't believe it at first, but later Zhao Feng himself came out to confirm that we are indeed no longer together, the reason is that I am too unrealistic.

What a ridiculous reason. Even I want to laugh when I hear it, if I'm not realistic, it's not realistic, I want to see where he, a realistic person, will eventually be realistic.

"Xiao Xia," a very high voice shouted, and I followed the voice to see that it was Shi Xue, "I haven't seen you for a long time." ”

"yes, long time no see." I stood up from my position, the bar was not big, Zhao Feng's eyes also drifted over after hearing the voice, and the corner of my eye swept over him when I sat down, just colliding with him.

"Where are you going now? Why can't I see you for so long? "Shi Xue came with a group of people, possibly colleagues from the company.

I let her do it and introduced her to Su Mei, "I signed a company in Shanghai and was trained in Japan some time ago. ”

Shi Xue looked envious, "Ah~ Why can you find such a good job and I don't have such a chance?" By the way, Xiao Xia, do you still need people in your company? Help me with an introduction. ”

Su Mei almost laughed on the side, but in the end I held back, I could hardly answer his question, "This matter is under the management of human resources, I am not in that department." However, if you are interested, you can go to our company website and submit your resume. ”

Shi Xue really memorized the URL and everything as if she was taking it seriously, and when she came out of the bar, Su Mei shook her head, "That classmate of yours is so funny, and if you don't look at your two brushes, you can't get into a big company just by the two words she said." ”

"But she's beautiful, and sometimes, a woman's appearance gets more opportunities than her mind." We walked the streets at night, it was cold, but it was really winter.

"Flowers are not good for a hundred days, and people are not beautiful for ten years, and the opportunity that is obtained will eventually be snatched away by younger women." Su Mei tightened her coat.

After a long while, Su Mei spoke: "Xiao Xia, how does it feel to see Zhao Feng again?" ”

I smiled wryly, "Feeling? The most painful time in my heart has passed, just when I am not ladylike. It would be unforgivable to feel anything now. ”

"Xiao Xia, you are still young, and it's not too late to start over. You're only twenty-three years old, and you still have a lot of youth to waste, and women start to age after twenty-five. Su Mei smiled, "Let's break up here, and we'll get in touch when we're free." ”

I nodded, watched as Su Mei waved down a taxi and got in. Wave goodbye to her, and another person moves forward. There are not many people on the road, and occasionally passing by one, it is also in a hurry. There are also some couples, holding hands, laughing as they walk, not taking the winter chill in their eyes at all.

Back then, I was just like them!

Every winter, I like to hold Zhao Feng's hand, his hand is big and warm, he can wrap my hand in it, and there is an indescribable sense of security. He usually took my hand and put both of us in the pocket of our coat. It was like even if there were only two of us left in the world, as long as he was by my side, I would be satisfied.

It's useless to think about it.

With a long sigh, the exhaled breath blindfolded his eyes and formed beads of frost on his eyelashes.

It's cold in winter!

After staying at home for three days, before I could get close to my parents, I had to leave again. Su Mei and I left one day, and we didn't see each other again, Su Mei just called to say goodbye, and there were constant smiles in the conversation, how much of it was sincere, maybe she didn't know it herself.