Some people say that my feelings are too weak, and that if I had replaced others, I would have been looking for death and life, otherwise it would not have made them two better, and they would have to break up in two or two together, or win the sympathy of others, so that the adulterer* would not be able to live or die, and they would not be able to gain a foothold in the local area.

But I don't, I don't have anything, so what? If this will bring this man back to me, maybe I will do it, but the consequences of this may be another betrayal and hurt. There is a little bit that Zhao Feng is very manly, he told me that he doesn't love me anymore, a man who doesn't love me, why bother to be by his side?

Su Mei didn't understand my choice, Shi Xue couldn't either, in her words, the two of you have no feelings at all, otherwise there is no difficulty and sadness in breaking up such a big thing?

Sad? I admit that I am sad, when a woman gives her body and mind to a man, it proves that she trusts this man, more trust than the sky, but when this man betrays this trust, what is the use of being sad?

My parents didn't mention it again, maybe my inexplicable illness made them worry about how I was now. My parents took the money and asked me to travel, but I really didn't have the mood to travel.

Work is not smooth, too idle but makes people feel very empty, the original casual and peaceful has become a day of eating and waiting for death, that is not what I want, nor is it something I can afford. And after I lost my marriage to Zhao Feng, the director of our department had already changed the leader, took a fancy to my job, and wanted to let his daughter-in-law come in. The leader pretended to talk to me, saying that the current efficiency of the enterprise is not good, and it is necessary to reduce staff and increase efficiency. I listened to him, went straight back to the office, and gave him a resignation to relieve his worries.

Before that, I had no idea of leaving, but since I met Zhao Feng last night, I have changed my mind. In such a city where you can't look up and don't look down, it's too hard to avoid a person.

Yesterday Zhao Feng called, we met in the new house, I thought he wanted to give me an explanation, but it turned out that I was too naïve, the first thing he said was: "I hope to cancel the joint name of the house." ”

Zhao Feng comes from a remote rural area, although he is the only son in the family, but the family does not have the financial strength to help him buy a house, when he bought this house, plus the decoration, almost all of it was my family's money, in order not to make him feel pressure, the real estate certificate is written in the names of the two of us. Although he now works in the city government, he can only earn a little more than 1,000 a month, and it is still very early to buy a house.

"Yours or mine?" I sat down in the corner, is the Zhao Feng in front of me still the Zhao Feng I know? I didn't feel familiar at all, I was a complete stranger, a stranger I didn't know.

"I applied for a loan, and the money will be available next week, and I hope you can go with me to complete the closing procedures." Zhao Feng didn't think that I would be so simple.

Love is gone, what else is there to care about for me, Zhao Feng is not going to force me into a corner, and gave me a fairly reasonable price. With the location of this house and the convenience of various living facilities, he did not take advantage of anything.

So, after I lost my love and job, I lost the place I once wanted to live in.

When I went through all the formalities, I breathed a sigh of relief, and now, I have really become a three-nothing person, no love, no job, and no "home".

What else do I have?

However, it has been said that God is fair to everyone, and that when He closes a door here, He will open a window there.

Just like at this time, I was sitting on a bus bound for Beijing. Yesterday, an alumnus who was a graduate student at the university brought me a letter about an interview with a company, and I didn't know that it was one of the many resumes I had just graduated, it was a Shanghai company, which seemed to be a joint venture with Japan, and I couldn't remember the name clearly. Originally, the resume was distributed online, but I didn't expect to give me a reply after a long time, saying that because of the company's operation problems some time ago, the work of new employees was delayed. Now the interview work in the northern region has begun, and the interviews in the six northern provinces are concentrated in Beijing, if you are interested, you can go to participate.

And the last date is tomorrow.

I went with Su Mei, she studied network technology in college, and after graduation, she didn't look for a job, only she was the most idle, so my parents entrusted her to take care of me, and they still couldn't rest assured of me.

"Xiao Xia, what are you thinking?" Su Mei, who was sitting next to me, saw me in a daze,

I shook my head, "Nothing, just a little tired." ”

Su Mei saw that I was lazy, so I didn't say anything, from the provincial capital to Beijing, it takes seven hours, which means that we spend a day on the road, the scenery along the way is beautiful, but we are flawless to watch. Just like this long road, no one knows what the scenery will be ahead.

By the time we arrived in Beijing, it was already past six o'clock in the evening. I came to pick us up from my high school nemesis, Bai Ziqiang, who is now studying for a master's degree and a doctorate at Tsinghua University, and has a bright future. As soon as he saw us, he dragged his obviously fat body and ran over, "Two eldest ladies, I've been waiting for you for almost two hours. ”

"No way, the car is late." Su Mei shrugged his shoulders, they still met through me, and they didn't know each other very well, but Su Mei still gave him a sweet smile, "How is it, Doctor, it's not bad in Tsinghua University!" ”

Lao Bai smiled, "It's not bad, rush to mess around, Tsinghua students are also people!" ”

Presumably, Lao Bai had already received the rumor, and he didn't mention the matter between me and Zhao Feng. It's just that when we eat, I can't mention the two of us back then. The two of us are born with bioelectricity, and we always have to find something to quarrel with together, sometimes the Mayan culture argues about which dish is delicious for lunch that day, and we are used to it casually, and when the two of us don't quarrel, it makes everyone uncomfortable.

On the day of the college entrance examination, Lao Bai didn't know that the medicine was wrong, and ran downstairs to our house to confess to me, and actually pounced on me to kiss me, and kicked the man's most vulnerable place when I automatically turned on the defense system, so that he lay on the bed for three days before getting up, and missed our last graduation trip.

Because of this incident, he has always held a grudge, and even made a poisonous oath that if he chooses me as his girlfriend in the future, the whole family will die. Presumably to this day, he still remembers what happened at the beginning! But this did not affect our friendship, after college, there were still letters, and we still didn't accept anyone when we met during the holidays, and this is how we survived our friendship all the way. Su Mei knows the story of the two of us very well, and she has long been accustomed to seeing us arguing.

But now that Lao Bai is mature and stable, we also seem to have a certain sense of distance, less noisy and noisy, and more serious talk, in fact, as a friend, he is really not a very good person.