Probably when the mood is low, people will be sentimental, a withered flower, a fallen leaf will touch the scene, and the thought of the past will be sad and sad.

My name is Ilgen Kyoro? Yuli, I always feel that I am lucky, in the most beautiful years I met the beloved Lu Congmian,

When I was a child, I didn't have the concept of love in my heart, I only knew that Lang rode a bamboo horse and went around the bed to make the friendship of Qingmei, until I was thirteen years old, I met him in the pear orchard and was separated by several years, my heart was touched by something, and then I didn't know that it was called love.

He was dressed in moonlight white clothes, clean and distressing, his face was like a crown of jade, his starry eyes were bright, only the broad shoulders made me have a familiar feeling, when I was a child, my favorite was to follow him and call in a childish voice: "Brother Lu, you go slowly, wait for me,"

Which girl is not pregnant with spring, I often lean alone in front of the window and miss him, every time I think of it, the corners of my mouth are unconsciously raised, and the careful Eniang has found my changes, and I have repeatedly asked me to express my thoughts,

Eniang said disapprerovingly: "Who should I be, it turns out that Cong Mian child, I remember that your Ama gave him your sister Yu Jue for marriage,"

When I heard this, my heart tightened, and the eyes that were originally looking forward to it immediately dimmed, bowed my head and said nothing, and E-Niang "giggled" twice: "Silly child, happiness is to be fought for by yourself, anyway, Yujue has been missing for so long, E-Niang will definitely find a way to let you marry your own wishful husband,"

I looked at Eniang happily, and said a little awkwardly: "But, but I don't know Brother Lu's mind yet, maybe people already have a sweetheart,"

E-Niang leaned down, looked at me lovingly, and said slowly: "My daughter is gentle and lovely, and she is a beautiful girl, which point of our appearance is not worthy of him, I want E-Niang to say that he must be a hundred willing, and besides, your Ama and Lord Lu are old friends, and this matter is not a nod to be decided,"

Hearing Eniang's words, my heavy heart finally put it in my stomach, thinking of Brother Lu's warm and jade-like face, a little sweetness in my heart, I can be his wife, what else can I ask for,

Until one person appeared, my life was desolate from then on, and four years of waiting together finally came to naught.

That day, I heard Jing'er around me say that there was a young lady in the house, it seemed that Yu Jue was found by Eniang, my heart was excited, you must know that I and Yu Jue are only one year apart in age, and they were intimate when they were young, and I cried for several days after she was lost.

My aunt has been crazy since my sister was lost, I thought that my sister came back and my aunt's illness would be cured without medicine, I was playing with the canary under the verandah in the courtyard, Yu Jue slowly walked into the yard, I looked at her happily, this farewell is more than ten years, it seems to be seen from the eyebrows and eyes that it is still the same as it was back then,

Yu Jue's thin pointed chin made me really distressed, I heard Eniang say that Yu Jue has suffered a lot over the years, and I have a familiar sense of intimacy with this sudden sister, pulling her to chat about it, and even talking about Brother Lu,

I stared blankly at the two people who were talking intimately under the begonia tree, Brother Lu looked at Yu Jue with joy and liking in his eyes, and my heart was deeply torn up, because he didn't look at me with such eyes.

After returning to the room, I desperately threw things, once to vent the envy and jealousy in my heart, I don't know how I became like this, it turns out that I can be so crazy when I love someone deeply,

Eniang was still relieved to persuade me, happiness is to be fought for by yourself, Yu Jue is going to enter the palace draft, Brother Lu has no chance, thinking that maybe Brother Lu's red line may be holding this end of me, so I made up my mind to stick to it no matter what, no matter what,

It turns out that when you love someone, you become very brave,

On the day Yu Jue entered the palace in the draft, Brother Lu really appeared nearby, but he came late, Yu Jue's carriage had already departed, the sadness and remorse on Brother Lu's face really made me sad, I suppressed my feelings in my heart and didn't mind,

Brother Lu wanted to go and stop the carriage, I didn't care about stopping him, I knew that he couldn't do this, if Yu Jue didn't enter the palace today, it would hurt our whole family, Brother Lu didn't treat me more and more coldly from beginning to end, he didn't love me at all,

The news of Yu Jue's selection in the Tiyuan Hall quickly spread throughout the mansion, and I have to admit that I was secretly happy at the moment I heard the news, and it was inevitable that she would be selected with her talent.

I still remember that night I tossed and turned, got up and opened the window, and saw that there was a Kong Ming lantern slowly rising in the room of Yujue in the house, and it was written that Brother Lu also had an unfamiliar name, I don't know what that strange name meant, but I was so jealous in my heart, how I hoped that he could love me so much, even if it was a little bit,

On the day Yu Jue entered the palace, it was pouring rain outside, even God would cry, I followed behind Brother Lu, the moment he fell from the horse, I could no longer suppress the tears in my eyes, his desperate screams pierced my heart, the blood from the wound on my hand washed to my feet with the rain, I thought in my heart, maybe the blood in my heart also flowed like this,

The scarlet hijab covered my head, I nervously held the apple in my hand, crossed the brazier, and worshiped heaven and earth I officially became Brother Lu's wife, but even if I could see his expressionless face clearly through the hijab, there was an indescribable loneliness at the corner of his mouth, and the bride in his heart was not me at all,

That night he was very drunk, and smashed the jade Ruyi sent by Yu Jue, and my heart was broken with the jade Ruyi, and he did not come to my room on the night of marriage, but slept in his own study, and since then, we slept in separate rooms, and we were like strangers, and there was no communication except for daily affairs.

E-Niang asked me how I was doing, and I pretended to be strong and said, "E-Niang, don't worry, Xianggong is very good to me,"

Eniang patted my hand with reassurance: "Okay, take advantage of your young age, hurry up and add a descendant to the Lu family, so that you can capture his heart,"

I nodded, knowing that he still refused to touch me.

I have been together for two years, I more or less know that he is good to Yu Jue in the palace, I have also advised him, the palace is naturally not as long as the outside, others are easy to notice, it is harmful to him, and it is harmful to her.

I still remember that day he came back from the palace in a hurry, and before he had time to brush off the dust on his body, I brought a bowl of lotus seed soup to him, and he said with a worried face: "Yuli, I have something to leave home for a while, you have to take good care of yourself,"

I laughed abruptly twice, this day has finally come, I smiled lightly: "Brother Lu, can you hug me,"

A hint of hesitation flashed in his eyes, and I said helplessly: "Don't you even want to give a hug when you leave?"

His face was full of guilt, and he hugged me in his arms, my tears dripped silently on his shoulders, this embrace was so warm, I whispered in his ear: "Brother Lu, I am already very satisfied with being a wife, I know that you don't love me, but I am still willing to marry you, I thought I could impress you with my sincerity, but I was wrong, I underestimated her position in your heart,"

"I'm sorry, Yuli, I hurt you," he said guiltily as he stroked my hair.

I gently wiped away my tears and choked up, "Take good care of yourself outside,"

He turned away, and this turn was the end of the world, and my tears fell to the ground mercilessly,

In this love, there is always a sacrifice, and I am the victim, like how many times in the flow of water, looking forward to his smile, I am jealous of Yu Jue from the bottom of my heart, jealous that she can get his love,

Sitting in front of the window, I weakly lifted the pen, and Juanxiu's small words jumped on the paper: Brother Lu, I was no longer there when you saw this letter, you don't need to be sad, you don't need to regret, because I don't regret it, death is not terrible at all, what I am most afraid of is losing you, because love is more difficult than death, I know in my heart that you have to take your sister away from here, how many women's grievances and hatreds are deeply buried in the palace wall, she is my sister I also hope that she will be good, treat her well, and work hard to add food.

Jade glass masterpiece

The three-foot white silk hung on the beam, and I stood on the high bench like a new student, and said lightly in my heart: If you can, take me back to the same time.