I think fairies are only suitable for living in the sky, if they fall into the mortal world it will only be a tragedy, the harem is a big dye vat, no matter how pure a woman will fade into the nobility and innocence, but I am still such a moth to the fire, righteous without hesitation, because I love him,

My name is Guan Yanxin, and I am the favored concubine Jian in the harem.

In the memory of my life these years, the clearest is the daily labor, when I was ten years old, I entered the palace into the Xinzhi library as a slave, I heard my mother say that I was her family spent money to buy from the traffickers of the daughter, the Guan family has no heirs, my father in the hands of the traffickers made an idea, that day in the yard of the captive children I shrank in the crowd and did not dare to look up, my mother was on the side of the boys, who knew that I saw the unkempt I at a glance,

The mother sighed and said: "Such a good-looking girl, it's a pity to be here, it's just that, the girl is the same," and later the mother said that the reason why I noticed me was because I had a stubbornness in my eyes that was different from other children.

I am unlucky, all the memories of my childhood have been forgotten, the only thing I remember is the years in the hands of human traffickers, I was fortunate that the Guan family adopted me, and since then I have become the eldest lady of the Guan family,

When I was ten years old, the Guan family changed, my mother and I entered the Xin Zheku as a slave, and at the age of twelve, my mother died of illness, and my father also committed suicide in a long and indefinite prison, and I suddenly became a lonely man with nothing.

The years in the palace are so difficult, I am lonely and helpless and bullied by the old palace maid all day long, I stubbornly believe that I must be bitter.

On that day, I was punished to kneel on the edge of the cold Taiye Lake without completing my own errand, from noon to the evening when the shadows were slanting to the west, I secretly got up and remembered the wide-sleeved liuxian dance that my mother taught me, and thought that no one would come over now, so I danced by myself,

I am light, often praised for my beauty, unconsciously indulged in my own dancing, suddenly heard behind me there is a closer and closer applause, follow the voice, is a man in bright yellow clothes, sword eyebrows and starry eyes, deep eyes are unpredictable, he said in a playful tone: "What a graceful dance, has anyone ever told you what is the palm of the swallow,"

I looked at this sudden man blankly, I didn't know how to speak, I only whispered: "Not all women dance to compare with Zhao Feiyan, and not all women dare to be Zhao Feiyan,"

I glanced at him shyly, my face suddenly heated, and I said in a low voice: "Peeking is not a gentleman's doing,"

He suddenly laughed, and said in a hearty voice: "I am the master of this Forbidden City, do I still need to peek?"

When I heard this, I immediately leaned down and saluted, and he said heartily, "Excuse me, I have allowed you to dance for me alone, are you willing?"

I hesitated for a long time before nodding, although I work in Xinzheku, but I have heard of the open and secret fighting in the palace, and I have long heard of it, but I can't refuse his words, I know that I have let go of all my stubbornness and choose to bow my head,

But at that time it was already confused,

Since then, I have become his woman, of course, not the only one, there are many now, and there will be many in the future, I have to admit that I have a little selfishness because I chose to be the emperor's woman in order to change the status quo.

The emperor's protection and favor for me made my cold heart begin to melt, and he promised me to favor me every day in the future, and for a while the limelight was flourishing, and I could only deal with it carefully.

Before I knew that he was staying elsewhere, I knew that I had fallen in love with him, and began to count the bricks on the ground day and night like other women to fall asleep peacefully.

I originally thought that I wouldn't mind, but after all, I couldn't escape my heart, I began to mind the emperor's favored woman, and the seeds of jealousy in my heart began to sprout,

The most delightful thing for me is that I have his child for the first time, I am extremely happy to be a first-time mother, but I am even more worried in my heart, the emperor's favor has pushed me to the cusp of the storm, and now I have a child** Everyone is staring at me,

Concubine Rong came to my palace to chat with me, I was very happy, it seems that only Concubine Rong dares to get close to me in this palace, Concubine Rong is also very favored by the emperor, even if she is close to me, but I still have a heart for her,

Maybe it's providence, when I got up, I slipped and stumbled on the corner of the rosewood table, Concubine Rong looked at me in a panic, in the pain my thoughts were flying in my mind, I covered my stomach and pointed at Concubine Rong and said, "You are a vicious woman,"

The emperor didn't listen to Concubine Rong's explanation, he trusted me, Concubine Rong was sent to the cold palace, the first time I got blood in my hands, I became addicted to power and favor, I knew in my heart that only by making myself strong can I make the emperor love,

Yun Guiren, who is also in Changchun Palace, and Miao Chang are interested in getting closer to me, I know their minds very well, but I enjoy this feeling very much, such as the concubine city mansion is so unfathomable, but I am not afraid of her, because I have all the emperor's favor,

In a general election in three years, the emperor selected more than a dozen show girls to enter the palace, that night, I had insomnia, touched my heart, and felt a little like an illusion.

Seeing the alluring face in the crowd, Xi Xia behind him whispered: "Master, the slave maid feels that this Jin Chang is a little similar to the master's eyebrows,"

I snorted coldly and said, "What's the use of looking good, it's not necessarily a good thing to be in the limelight as soon as you enter the palace," I secretly made up my mind in my heart, and bought off Lord Shi of Qin Tianjian to report that Emperor Jin is often not suitable for favor,

Concubine Ying is with me in Changchun Palace, living opposite me, every time the emperor comes to me, Concubine Ying will always pry the sixth elder brother to call the emperor away, after a long time, my heart gradually hates Concubine Ying,

Sixth Elder Brother I didn't want to kill him, I just wanted to teach the arrogant Ying Concubine a lesson, I deliberately asked Xi Qiu to call away Ruyi, and pushed Sixth Elder Brother into the water, my heart was cold I didn't even frown until the young Sixth Elder Brother died,

Jin Chang is more tenacious than I imagined, she successfully won the emperor's favor, I have a hunch in my heart to tell me, this woman is not in addition to the future is my biggest threat, after thinking for a long time I put my mind on Miao Changzai's body, let her fake pregnancy take the opportunity to get rid of Jin Guiren, but I didn't expect it to be exposed, Miao Chang is because of the crime of bullying the king fell all over the house,

I have done a lot of wrong things in my life, but the most wrong thing is that I fell in love with someone I shouldn't love, the emperor's love is too heavy, mortal women can't afford it at all, since ancient times, it has been a decline and love relaxation, there is a bleak and bleak thing is that the red face is not old and the grace is broken,

I desperately gave birth to my little Gege, but I didn't expect that in the end the emperor refused to look at me, but I hated the woman day and night to accompany me on the last journey.

However, if I can, I would rather be a lonely shadow in the Guanghan Palace,

It turns out that in the end, I am just a white bone in the vast Forbidden City.