The examination room schedule for the academic proficiency test came out, and it was a coincidence that I was in the same examination room as the president. Moreover, it is still in the same column, with only two people in between.

In this academic proficiency test, our school is a test center, not only students from our grade take the test here, but also many students from other schools. There are nearly 100 examination rooms in total, and I can be in the same examination room as the president, which cannot but be said to be a wonderful fate.

It's a pity that I couldn't be in the same examination room with Lin Haiyuan. But I'm really a fool's dream, how can there be such a perfect thing in the world?

I'm still a little happy. Although this is only a trivial matter, in which examination room is the exam not like this? But I just don't consciously care about these things, and I feel happy to be in the same exam room as the people I care about, because I don't have to miss them alone in an unfamiliar exam room, and I can be with the president even for exams.

Maybe I just attach too much importance to feelings, no matter what I do, I can't let go of it wherever I go, and I'm always trapped by love.

Yes, how many unwarranted troubles these feelings have added to me! Before I was with them, although no one walked with me every day, I also didn't have so many expectations, fantasies, disappointments, and the pain of not being cared for.

Forget it, as long as I have happiness with them, there will be gains and losses.

Tomorrow is the academic proficiency test, and our classroom will also be used as an examination room, and today we will empty the classroom. Where are you going to put so many books? The teacher told us to put it in the office.

In the afternoon, everyone hurried to the office one by one, for fear that there would be no place to put their books after they finished going.

I also picked up a stack of books and prepared to leave. Suddenly, Zhang Chufan said to me-

"Yi Yin Fei, I'll help you move the box."

I hurriedly said, "No, no, you can move your own here!" ”

But without saying a word, he picked up my suitcase and left.

I had no choice but to catch up with him and say, "Thank you! I'm really bothering you. ”

"You're welcome." He said.

As the day passed, the academic proficiency test was about to begin.

Yesterday, the teacher specially instructed us to find out where our own examination room was, so I arrived at the entrance of the examination room with ease.

The president had arrived, and I was waiting outside the exam room with him. It's nice to be in the same exam room with someone you know, and to have someone with you even for the exam.

Suddenly, the president took out a refill-

"Yi Yin Fei, give you this refill."

The president, he actually gave me something! I was surprised and was about to take it. However, before I could rejoice, the president said again-

"This is given to me by someone else, I don't want it, so I'll give it to you."

What the? Turns out something you don't want? You don't want to give it away? Especially this kind of thing that has little gift value at all. I suddenly felt slighted.

"Don't!" I looked disgusted and said, "I don't want it!" ”

"Why?" He really didn't seem to know.

"Why did you give me something you hated yourself?"

"I'm not disgusted. This core is a bullet, and I usually only use a full needle. He explained.

"Oh, that's right. All right. ”

I took it anyway. Because I don't think it's rude to dislike this thing anymore. But in fact, I still feel a little uncomfortable: I don't lack refills, after all, isn't it the things he himself wants to throw away to bring them to me, so there is no sincerity at all, what is the difference between treating me as a trash can?

I think when I gave Lin Haiyuan chocolate, I carefully thought about what I should give: it can't be too cheap or too expensive; It can't be too casual, and it can't be too deliberate; It can't be too meaningless, and it can't be too straightforward. Later, I gave it to the president, either because he needed it or because he liked it. I've not once given something away without care.

On the other hand, the president, what he gave me casually was neither what I needed nor what I liked, let alone any value or even deep meaning.

Actually, I also know that it's just because he doesn't care about me. Because he doesn't care about me, he doesn't think about it at all.

My feelings are never taken seriously.

So, is there still a need to maintain this relationship? I asked myself.

I do not know.

A relationship does not mean that you can give it up if you give it up. Even if you know that what you are doing is stupid, you can't just decide to let it go.

Sure enough, after a while, I began to look forward to it again and was reluctant to let go.

In between the two exams in the morning, the president and I stood side by side against the wall and chatted. Our shoulders are tightly together, tightly. He didn't avoid it, and neither did I.

I'm happy again. After all, I lack love, and I need someone to keep me company. It's rare to have a boy who is so familiar with me and willing to be close to me and chat with me, how can I just let go and let go of the feelings in my heart?

It's just that I didn't expect the variables to come so quickly.

At the end of the exam one morning, I walked out of the exam room with the president. The president wants to go back to Class 6, and I will accompany him.

On the way, we met Lin Haiyuan. He was still in a hurry, and it seemed that it made no difference to him whether we were around him or not.

He's going in the other direction. So, should I follow the president back to Class 6, or should I follow him?

I ended up choosing the president.

followed the president to the sixth class, and a girl said hello to him-

"Lan Yixiao, how did you do in the exam today?"

Then the president chatted with the girl as they walked. I noticed that the president, who had just been standing side by side with me, suddenly walked in front of me and stood side by side with the girl. They walked so fast that before I knew it, I was left behind by them.

I hurried to speed up my pace, ready to catch up. Suddenly—

"When—"

A loud and crisp metal crash.

It's my thermos cup.

A thermos like this one, once it falls on the ground, it will leave an unsightly dent on its surface, so I have been very careful to protect it. Unexpectedly, now, it shook out of the side pocket of my schoolbag because of my sudden acceleration and fell to the ground.

I froze in place.

At this moment, a voice came, breaking my frozen consciousness-

"Classmate, your thermos cup."

I looked down and handed my cup with one hand. It's a passing student.

I took it, didn't look up, and said, "Thank you." ”

My cup, the cup I carefully guarded, it was still broken after all.

At a time when I was busy chasing someone.

I'm walking forward like a walking corpse, and I don't want to chase the president anymore, so let him go.

My cup was dropped because I was busy chasing someone.

The crisp voice just now made me wake up in an instant-

Don't keep this meaningless relationship any longer! Thinking about him again, I'll only lose more. And I, no matter how I care, no matter how I give, I will not be cared about and cared for.

Today's thermos cup is a reminder.

Yes, my feelings have always been one-sided, no matter what kind of feelings, he didn't give it to me. I already knew, didn't I? I already knew it didn't make sense to keep this relationship, didn't I?

It's just that before, this breakthrough has not yet arrived.

Walking out of the school building, I came out into the sun.

Although it is already winter, today's Yangguan is still extraordinarily strong. In my mood right now, it's really not a good day. The strong sunlight seems to make the air impetuous, which is annoying.

President, I won't care so much about him again.

I thought to myself.