Chapter Eighty-Seven: Doubting Life
Since the fall of the second prince, the entire capital has calmed down a lot. The crown prince should sit back and relax, and the emperor at least psychologically felt that no one was eyeing his little dragon chair for the time being.
The change of appearance in the imperial court has no effect on the otaku Jinshu, who is keen on eating, drinking, and having fun.
She has almost no intersection with the titular second brother, since the time travel, no matter what large-scale events she attends, she has implemented the almighty principle that silence is golden, she does not listen to the affairs of the world, she only cares about eating and drinking, she should eat and drink, and she does not put things on her mind. Later, when she married into the Shen family, the two had little intersection. Now that the second family has fallen, except for some sympathy for the second princess's experience, the others have no special feelings.
After all, the second princess is kind-hearted and a straightforward person.
Jin Shu looked at the snowflakes flying in the sky outside the window, still sighed and lowered his head to blow a sip of hot tea, watched the heat curl away, and said in his heart: "Isn't the rice delicious?" Why do you have to take that power? It also involves others. β
"Ahem...... Ahem......"
Shen Zhizhang's suppressed cough interrupted her fugue. Jin Shu looked sideways at Shen Zhizhang, who was reading with a quilt on the side, and couldn't help but get up and go over to persuade him: "I just got rid of my fever this morning, and I asked for leave to let you recuperate." Look no further and take a break! β
"I love to learn." Shen Zhizhang turned a page of the book and continued to read, without raising his head.
"I ......"
Jin Shu raised his hand and touched his forehead, seeing that his face was a little abnormally red, he snatched the book and said: "No matter how much you love to study, you are not in a hurry at this time, and it is not too late to read again when you are sick." β
"Oops?" Shen Zhizhang raised his head and glanced at her dissatisfiedly: "You delay my progress in becoming a master, and you want to be a stumbling block on my way to success?" β
In one sentence, the brocade book is crying and laughing: "I ...... Why is it still a stumbling block? She immediately returned the book to him: "Look at it! Come on, take a good look. β
Shen Zhizhang sniffed, hummed a few times in a thick nasal voice, took the book and looked down again.
The light from outside the house fell on him through the freshly pasted window paper, and he seemed to be more and more quiet and silent. Jin Shu stood and looked at him: the person in front of him was silent, looked much more mature and stable, and completely became a nerd, with a lot of worries all day long, and the flamboyant and bright young man in the past was like two people. Such a change in him was expected by Mrs. Shen and everyone, but for a while, Jinshu always felt that Shen Zhizhang had lost a lot.
Listening to the light cough in his throat, Jinshu knew that he was not in good health, and he was prone to illness in winter, and now he still reads day and night with illness. So her heart softened, and she changed her words and persuaded: "I asked people to cook red bean porridge, accompany me to drink a bowl and read a book?" β
Hearing this, Shen Zhizhang finally raised his head and looked at her helplessly: "It's really difficult for villains and women to raise." Drink porridge and need someone to accompany you? As he spoke, he put down the book, hugged the quilt again, and looked forward to the small bowl brought in by the spring silk.
The porridge is hot and sweet, and the whole stomach is much warmer and more comfortable after drinking. Shen Zhizhang lowered his head and drank the porridge without saying a word, his eyes were a little confused, he was in a daze, and he didn't know what he was thinking.
Recently, he has been in this state, except for reading books, he is in a daze alone, he talks less, and he doesn't toss at night, he always spends a moment alone and falls asleep.
Jinshu didn't intend to ask him, adolescent boys always have to be careful, and she has to respect his personal little emotions. But as time went by, she couldn't help but be a little worried. After thinking about it a few times, she decided to test the psychological dynamics of the child.
Jin Shu organized the language and asked softly, "What are you in a daze?" Isn't porridge delicious? β
"Huh?" Shen Zhizhang came back to his senses: "Oh, oh, no, it's delicious." β
"Another half bowl?"
Shen Zhizhang shook his head, put down the bowl and pushed it forward: "Don't drink it." As he said that, he was about to pick up the book to read, and Jinshu immediately raised his hand and pressed his book: "Talk to me and wait for me to finish drinking." β
"You can just drink it yourself, what's there to do with this?" Shen Zhizhang frowned, and there was a strong sense of impatience in his tone.
This is an attitude that Jinshu has never seen, usually even if he has no rules, but she has always been enthusiastic and considerate, and it is the first time that she has been like this today.
Could it be that they have passed the period of love and have begun to enter a period of disgust with each other?
Jin Shu took the spoon and put it down gently. The spoon slammed into the bowl with a soft clatter.
She wiped her mouth with a handkerchief, and said calmly and softly: "Chunjuan, remove the porridge." With that, he got up and walked neatly and briskly to the bedroom behind the screen.
Chunjuan knew in her heart that the sixth princess was angry. She secretly glanced at Shen Zhizhang, took the porridge on the table with quick movements, and quickly retreated.
There was still silence in the room, as if nothing had happened. Shen Zhizhang's brain was empty for a while before he realized what he had just done. He tugged at his collar with some chagrin, regretted it for a moment, and couldn't help coughing violently.
Of course, he did not receive any response.
The whole room was quiet, and just when Shen Zhizhang was getting more and more flustered and couldn't help but want to go over to look, he saw Jinshu wearing a cloak and hugging a small hand stove came out. He wanted to open his mouth to apologize for the behavior just now, but he didn't want her to walk out of the room without looking back, and he didn't even give him a look.
This time I was really angry.
Shen Zhizhang knows very well in her heart that Jinshu is good-tempered and easy-going on weekdays, but there are some things in her heart that are obviously right and wrong. She is often confused and soft-hearted, but she is also very rational and ruthless.
Thinking of this, Shen Zhizhang hurriedly threw off the quilt and jumped off the couch, dragged his shoes and chased him out. But as soon as he went out, a cold wind howled and rushed down, and the biting chill made him cough again, and his chest ached, and he couldn't take a step.
Shen Zhizhang stood at the door, holding on to the door frame and slowly sat down to relieve the pain in his body. Coughing and tearful eyes, many words that he didn't want to recall flooded into his mind.
"Hey, I said Shen Zhizhang is a waste, right? He's a little smart, he doesn't have any foundation, you look at this exam, isn't he at the bottom? β
"That's it, the rich boy who has been studying for a year still wants to be named on the gold list? I don't know if it's enough to borrow his two brains? β
"I'm afraid I have to borrow his secondary body, I didn't see that he coughed and coughed when it was cold, and he was sick like a sick Shih Tzu."
"Hahaha. That's it, but there are six princesses behind them, and if you say hello in the future, don't you want to take a few exams? Why bother here to give us the appearance of studying hard? β
"But speaking of which, the princesses of our Daliang are not well married to the sixth princess. Everything else is a big official and a high position, just him, there is really nothing! β
"I heard that the princess is also a stupid person, her eyes are not ordinary blind, what kind of pot with what lid! If I were the sixth princess, I was afraid that if the sisters were invited to a banquet in the future, I would not have the face to go again. β
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These words came from the mouths of his classmates, and the young people who had greeted him and discussed his studies with him for several weeks were mercilessly mocking him behind his back.
Is that how all the people around him see him? Gentleman, sick Shih Tzu, eats soft rice...... He is the only one who is stupidly optimistic to believe that he can change his life?
Shen Zhizhang leaned against the door frame, and he didn't feel cold even if the cold wind poured into the door.
Originally, he thought that he could go to the academy to study normally and ordinarily, be able to rely on his cleverness to get a good reputation, and be able to exchange for what he wanted as Jin Shu said.
But in the end, it still doesn't seem to work.
He is too naΓ―ve and conceited, why do you think that he can be named on the gold list by relying on his cleverness? If he falls off the list in the spring three months, what awaits him? What will be waiting for the brocade book? He has been abandoned for more than ten years, his weak body, and he can't escape the things he owes, what capital does he have to hope for a better future?
Jin Shu, Jin Shu, you are always very optimistic and calmly encourage me, making me have the illusion that I can do everything. But I'm obviously a clown who jumps off the beam, and I feel full of spirit when I pity myself, which is really ridiculous to think about.
Shen Zhizhang closed his eyes, tried hard to endure the wetness in his eyes, he leaned his head against the door frame, and laughed softly.
It's ridiculous.