It snowed heavily for a day, and it wasn't until late in the evening that the snowflakes became light and gentle.

A candle on the table, the candlelight dances slightly, blurring a bright circle of light.

Shen Zhizhang sat at the table a little blankly, although there were many books spread out on the table at this time, his eyes never fell on the books.

Since the sixth princess left silently in the afternoon, she did not come back, Shen Zhizhang has been sitting at the desk in a daze with this action, he has not said a word and is not angry, which makes the atmosphere of the whole room become gloomy.

Boiled Beans stood aside, occasionally rolling his eyelids and sneaking a glance at the person at the desk, not daring to speak. Just when he thought that Shen Zhizhang was going to turn into a stone statue, he suddenly heard him speak.

"Boiled beans, what do you think I'm doing?" He chuckled suddenly, his tone flat and unfamiliar: "Why am I suddenly like this?" ”

In the past, he was unruly and aimless, he knew that his body was poor, and he was thinking that life was too short to eat and wait for death, how happy life would be. But now, he doesn't know where he got the courage, and suddenly he wants to study and enter the profession and strive for fame. Every day is hard, but he feels that there is hope for the day.

What kind of life does he love? Perhaps, which one is Shen Zhizhang's life?

Is it as easy and reckless as it used to be, or is it as hard and hopeless as it is now, and it is ridiculed?

How did he meet a Gao Jinshu and his life suddenly changed? She has never scolded and scolded, so he has to test his fame?

In the quiet evening, Shen Zhizhang suddenly figured out something.

It's like she's setting up a pot to heat water, and he's the frog in the pot. Boiled frogs in warm water, frogs don't know it. She induces him to move upward, exhorts him to learn, and this invisible change has begun from the very beginning of talking to him.

I accidentally heard a lesson in the mansion of the eldest princess of Fuqing, bought him new clothes and new pen and ink like a child, studied with him at night, encouraged him and praised him...... She made it all watertight. made him feel that he was really a late bloomer, and that he could start his life at any time. And he was very arrogant, not afraid of the ground and the earth to do it again.

If it weren't for the examiner of Dou Laoxian's life a few days ago, and he heard the words of his classmates and friends after he made a mess in the exam, he would have been working so naively. Because he still remembers the smart "genius Shen Er" in his childhood, the Shen Er who was praised by everyone, smart, eloquent, and his father and brother have a bright future. He always thought that what he had lost was coming back little by little, and he could get it back little by little.

But the reality is that he has wasted too much time, his body is no longer healthy, and now the dignity of the Shen family depends on a princess. In the eyes of others, he is just a waste sick man who relies on women to ascend to the top.

So what's the point of his efforts? It's just to let those criticizing voices go from the face to the back.

Boiled Beans hesitated a few times and didn't dare to speak.

Shen Zhizhang said to himself again: "Otherwise, forget it, it's good to get by like this." ”

The boiled beans are a little unclear, so I don't know what Shen Zhizhang is talking about at all. At this time, the atmosphere in the room and Shen Zhizhang's state made him a little uneasy. Just as he was at a loss, he heard the door creak open.

The sixth princess stepped on the door briskly with a small stove, and as soon as she entered the door, she asked suspiciously, "Huh?" Why don't you light it up more? It was pitch black. ”

Boiled beans were pardoned, and hurriedly said: "The princess is finally back, and the slave will go to light the lamp!" ”

Jinshu nodded, she put down the small stove in her hand, untied her cloak, rubbed her hands before walking slowly to the desk, glanced at Shen Zhizhang casually and asked, "Can you read in the dark?" ”

To say that I am not surprised is false.

She was still chatting with him as usual, as if nothing was going on? Doesn't she mind what happened in the afternoon?

"I didn't see it." Shen Zhizhang held back the doubts in his heart and replied with lowered eyes.

"Oh." Jin Shu didn't care too much: "If you don't want to read it, don't read it, have you had dinner?" ”

"Nope."

"Then pass the food." Jin Shu instructed Chun Juan: "Eat early and clean up early, it's snowing outside today, turn around and ask the people below to rest early." ”

"Hey!"

The two of them ate quietly.

The whole process of Jinshu strictly followed the words of a certain master later: the highest contempt is not to even turn your eyes. She has always been calm, so she still eats deliciously. It's just that Shen Zhizhang felt a little guilty in his heart, and he didn't even touch his favorite boiled fish on weekdays.

The first person to speak after a quarrel must be a man.

Sure enough, Shen Zhizhang couldn't hold his breath and suddenly put down his chopsticks, hesitated and asked, "Why are you helping me?" ”

"Huh?" Jin Shu is a little confused, shouldn't he admit his mistake first? What is the reason for this sentence that can't be beaten with eight poles?

"What can I help you?" Jin Shu was puzzled.

Shen Zhizhang turned his head abruptly, sniffed and said, "Persuade me to study and gain fame." ”

"Huh? Didn't you say you wanted to join the company? Jin Shu asked rhetorically.

But he smiled bitterly, recalled it, and said sourly: "Oh...... Oh, yes...... It seems like I said that. ”

He turned his head slowly, met her eyes, and smiled self-deprecatingly, "But, princess. At that time, I forgot that I had an old illness and might not live long. I also forgot the ridiculous things I did when I was a teenager. You encourage me like that, and it always makes me feel like I can do anything. ”

Jin Shu blinked his eyes, knowing that the child had come back to his senses now. At that time, she did feed him a lot of chicken soup openly and secretly, which made him addicted to studying all day long.

"And now?" Jin Shu asked quietly.

"Now I understand that a lot of things are in vain. I may not be as powerful as I think, and I may not be able to do a lot of things......" Listening to his tirade and began to make sense, Jinshu quickly grasped the central idea and asked directly: "Recently, I failed the mock exam?" Beginning to doubt yourself? ”

Shen Zhizhang choked, and couldn't say a word for the rest of the words. But it really seems like she said that......

"Also...... Not exactly. ”

Looking at his expression, Jin Shu knew that he had guessed eight or nine. But she first looked sideways at him and said seriously: "Say sorry first." ”

Shen Zhizhang was stunned for a moment, and immediately reacted: "I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I was really wrong this afternoon, I shouldn't have spoken to you like that. I was irritable and I couldn't control my emotions, I ......"

"Alright." Jin Shu stopped it and got the words she wanted, so she turned around and said very seriously: "You just asked me why I helped you, right?" ”

Looking at each other, Shen Zhizhang found that her eyes were too calm, clean and transparent, rational and mature, tolerant and restrained. In the past, he always felt that he had a broad vision and was far above Gao Jinshu, but after figuring out a lot of things today, and then pondering her behavior, he realized that Gao Jinshu's IQ and EQ were far above him.

The reason why he got along with her happily was never because she was cowardly and soft-natured, but because she lowered her rank to let him and talk to him.

"I eat three meals a day, everything I eat is fragrant, I am not picky, and my daily meals are only two taels of silver."

"I make three clothes in a month, and I don't love hairpin rings very much, so I rarely go out. I dare not say that I am frugal, but never materialistic. Everyday expenses are minimal. ”

"I don't have a good face, and I have never compared your status. Because I know very well that these are just passing eyes, and whether the official is high or not is nothing more than a cheap tomb robber after death. ”

Shen Zhizhang was a little dazed. What did she do when she suddenly said this?

"But my life is good. Although she is not very favored, she is a princess. Now that I have a house, a car and money, as long as I am safe, I can probably live peacefully until I am old, and you know that I have no pursuits. Jin Shu spread his hands and said: "So, in fact, if you don't take the test, what kind of person you are has nothing to do with me." Even if you have been a Shen Er who has nothing to do, then I will work hard at most to clean up the mess when my mother is angry with you. ”

"You ......" Shen Zhizhang didn't expect her to say such a thing at all, cool and objective, true and cruel. He also thought that she would say some moral things about family husband and wife, at least so that she would not be so embarrassed on face.

"Cruel, isn't it?" Jin Shu asked with a smile: "But there is no way." That's the reality, I would think so, and so would others. If you don't value a day, others will think about it. ”

"But......" Shen Zhizhang only felt that all the strength in his body had been drained, he was trembling all over, and he calmed down several times before asking: "But...... Haven't you accepted it...... This is of no value to me...... Is it true that all the love of these days is fake? ”

"Of course it's true." Jin Shu sighed: "If it was fake, I would have told you these words a long time ago, why wait until now?" ”

"......"

"Zhizhang." Jinshu raised his hand and patted him on the shoulder, and said in a soft voice: "I don't know what other people's families are like, the husband and wife I understand are protective and tolerant of each other." As long as you are pure-hearted, there is no betrayal, and there is no estrangement, then whether you like to joke and mess around, whether you have no fame or no value, I can accept it. I can lend my title as a princess to the Shen family, lend it to you, and I can protect the Shen family in whatever I can. However, many things are not the same. ”

Shen Zhizhang moved his lips, not knowing how to speak.

"For example, the second prince." Jin Shu smiled: "For example, the second princess." I may be the sixth princess for the rest of my life, and I may be a prisoner one day. The second prince was defeated, and the second princess still had a general to support him. If you don't want to do the scientific research, you can hide back and be a second son of Shen, but if the Shen family falls, I also fall, do you have a place for us to hide? ”

"I ......" Shen Zhizhang averted her gaze and lowered his head, hiding all his inferiority complex and guilt, and said in a dumb voice: "No." ”

"That's why you're going to study." Jin Shu changed the topic back: "Unless you are reincarnated and powerful, then it will not be easy for everything you want to get left." There's no easy way to go, and if you deny yourself because of a little setback, it's not worth it. After all, the road is out, how do you know you can't do it without giving it a try? ”

Shen Zhizhang's face began to become more and more pale, and his expression became more and more serious. He clenched his fists tightly, but the frowning brow suddenly let go. A lot of subtle inferiority complex, guilt, and shocking emotions were covered by him, but a lot of inexplicable strength and courage suddenly grew in his heart, which quickly spread from the bottom of his heart.

"Zhizhang, I know that no one in the world is perfect. I don't ask you how perfect you are, no edges, no temper, no flaws. I also know that you have suffered many grievances before, and your body has also been severely damaged. But I still hope that your heart is fresh and confident, since you live a wonderful life. Maybe one day you will enlighten me and be a beacon, and I won't be able to get lost. ”

That night, Jin Shu didn't talk any more nonsense. But in the dead of night, Shen Zhizhang suddenly felt that Shen Er, who died on the battlefield when he was eight years old, really came back to life.

In fact, he could have said a lot of things, but in the end he didn't say anything.

This young Shen Zhizhang didn't know that many years after this, many things had happened. At that time everyone urged him to marry another lady, but he insisted on waiting for her.

Others praise him and praise Jinshu for his good life, but only he knows that he is the one who really has a good life.