I thought I was dazzled and dazed, but I took a closer look, and sure enough, there was a mass of figures. I was about to scream when someone came and pressed me down.

Through the quilt, I felt the chill of the night on his body.

"It's me."

Just that one, "It's me." ”

I brushed my tears down. There is no time to blame, and there is no time to ask. It's just two souls reunited after a long absence, or bodies that hate to see each other late. I don't know how the clothes fell off, and I don't know how the quilt re-wrapped the two people together.

There is no "I miss you", but every action is telling "I miss you." ”

There is no "Where have you been", but every response seems to ask "Where have you been?" ”

The sweat is twisted together, and it is not dripping after all.

He pressed his forehead against my forehead, his gaze seemed to penetrate my pupils, and my heart tightened for a while, did they always be caught off guard as before? I wrapped my arms around his body, pulled him closer, closer, I wanted to see him clearly, I wanted to use all my life's strength to cherish, cherish, and cherish this moment in front of me.

The next day, we went to see Huaiping as scheduled. At the airport, we saw the old lady of the Zhang family, he was still in good spirits, and he was still full of style, and the airport was bustling with so many people, and we saw him at a glance.

I saw that Zhang Ruolei's face changed instantly, as if he realized that everything would be cold.

I glanced at Zhang Ruolei, and he let go of my hand again, which was just the temperature of his palm, but now it was only surrounded by the noisy air of the airport.

I was about to react when his hand came back to mine, and I tried to break away, but he gripped it tighter.

Somebody, nothing will make you let go of my hand again?

The two of them confronted each other with their eyes in front of me, and I didn't know what to do.

Later, the old man left first.

The plane was 3,000 feet high, and he held my hand tightly all the way, so that I hesitated for a long time on the plane and didn't know how to talk to him.

I think Huaiping is a sensitive child, and there must be countless variables in the future between me and him, I don't want to let him know too soon, I don't want to irritate him, he is still recovering.

The few times I tried to speak, he pretended to be foolish and put a finger to his lips to "shh ”

I was made to laugh and cry by him.

After getting off the plane, getting closer and closer to Huaiping, this gentle and affectionate town in the south has a good scenery, but I can only let my eyes wander. I'm a little nervous, what has become of Huaiping? He had never been away from me for so long. Does he miss me?

I had tears in my eyes, and I couldn't contain my impulse and bitterness, but Zhang kept holding my hand tightly, and he hoped that this action would give me infinite strength and courage.

In fact, he was able to, many of the moments when I felt that I could no longer hold on, in fact, he was always by my side, of course, the role was different, sometimes he was the culprit, sometimes he was like a savior. It's weird, although the roles are different, but the role and function are the same as ever.

To ease my nerves, Zhang Ruolei told me about his trip to Sudan.

It turned out that he was really sent to Sudan to deal with things, and his father also arranged for two people to accompany him, almost close, Zhang Ruolei said: "I will almost fall in love with the two of them if they follow me like this." ”

He said he knew how he came over when he missed you? Take the key to your house, touch it over and over again, kiss it over and over again, and once when you kiss it with your eyes closed, one of them came in and saw it.

He said, do you know the way he looks at me? It's just doubtful about life.

He said that the girls in that place in Sudan are really dark, but they have big breasts and big butts. But all of a sudden, I realized that I didn't like the big ones anymore.

Zhang Ruolei said, do you know how I ran back? There are armed clashes in Sudan every now and then, and the people who had hosted me the day before came home that night and were blown to pieces. I went to his funeral, and at that moment, I was special, I just wanted to see you, I wanted to sleep with you, I wanted to kiss you, hug you, hold you, you.

The driver looked at us in horror from the rearview mirror, and my face had already turned into a cloud of fire.

Zhang Ruolei squeezed my hand.

"Meizi, there's nothing you can't get by. Believe me. ”

I look at him, a glance for ten thousand years?

No, no, no, I turned my head to the side, and suddenly I realized that I seemed to be fearless.

Before you know it, you've arrived at your destination.

When we got out of the car, Zhang Ruolei pulled the things he brought for Huaiping from the car, and he dragged them. There is no label-style sign hanging outside this building, I can't help but praise the person who found such a good place in my heart, this place is well chosen, I didn't want Huaiping to sit in the right seat. A small European-style high-rise building, hidden in the middle of a dark gray tall fence and unknown greenery, with old-style black lacquered wrought iron doors and hollow carvings.

Because of the advance appointment, so the door is not complicated, the door opens, a winding path through the quiet, there are staff in front of the way, the space inside is large, the environment is quiet, there are intermittent facilities on the way, a few huge contrasting umbrellas, the table is a table, a few are few, there are people sitting in it, if you don't know in advance, I don't know how many people will misunderstand that this is just a casual roadside café.

Because we had an appointment in advance, we were directed to a dedicated meeting room. Huai Ping was waiting in it, the door opened, he stood at the door, and I felt like a world away.

My feet froze in mid-air, and Huai Ping's gaze pierced through the air, hitting me in the face like a magnesium lamp.

"Huaiping."

I stepped forward, the rest of the words choked in my throat, and I thought about controlling it, but tears rolled down my face.

Huai Ping stepped forward.

"Mom."

He hugged me.

He's tall, and he hasn't seen him for months. He was still fat and strong, and the expression in his eyes was more vivid than before, as if he had changed to a different person.

Zhang Ruolei smiled reservedly and appropriately in the back, and Huai Ping looked over my shoulder and greeted him politely and politely. Zhang Ruolei walked over, they shook hands like two adult men, and chatted in a low voice, I always thought that all people in the world would look down on him from the bottom of their hearts as long as they knew that Huaiping was taking drugs.

I thought he was done from now on, and his life was gone.

But I have carefully observed Zhang Ruolei, at least he, I have never found even the slightest trace of contempt and contempt for Huaiping in his face and eyes.

I'm a little ashamed, when Huaiping needed me the most, I didn't give him anything but blame and complain, and I used to scold and curse him in the most vicious language in the world.

Will he hate me?

I do not know.

For dinner, I didn't go out to eat, Huaiping was the host, and I saw him shuttling through the crowd, greeting everyone, like a fish in water. He is also in charge of what we eat, when Huaiping Zhang Luo, Zhang Ruolei secretly grabbed my hand under the table, and I hurriedly shook him off.

In an instant, greed was born, if we are really a family in the future, even if we don't have so much money, just like that, the years are quiet, and it's really worth dying.

Will he marry me?

I can't even think about it.

That night, when I returned to the hotel, I looked at him and said, "Thank you!" ”

Without him, I don't know what Huaiping is like now, what I will be, what we will be.

Zhang Ruolei looked at me, but his eyes moved down from my eyes, looking embarrassed. I laughed in my heart that he had such a shy side, who knew that he changed his face like a sky, and immediately became unserious again.

"Make a promise."

I pursed my lips and smiled, and he hugged me, tilting his head to look at me. said that when I was a child, I watched "Dream of Red Mansions", watched Jia Baoyu watch Lin Daiyu, and thought how could a man look at a woman like that, how could he be like that for a woman? Stupid, crazy, drunk. When I grew up, I met countless women, no, no, no, I didn't mean that, that's in the past. I met no one who didn't have the feeling that Jia Baoyu had when she looked at Lin Daiyu.

I said you still watch "Dream of Red Mansions".

He said, well, also watch "Golden Vase Plum".

I "spitted" him.

On a humid southern night, the air freezes around you, overwhelming you, and we breathe like fish in the exhaustion, but only the fish in the exhaustion will do such a heinous thing as foaming at each other.

When I returned, I was so happy that I was no longer interested in the box full of unopened letters. Fate always leaves some suspense for everyone, and it is not necessary to dismantle them one by one. If you have some regrets, let it be there, as a wake-up call, as a commemoration, as anything. The main thing is that it doesn't really affect anything.

I didn't know at that time that people are not very likely to see the frustration around them when they are proud, and all unsatisfactory will be despised and ignored, and all can be subjectively erased. When people have been frustrated, a little thing will be haunted, can't think about it, make a shaft, stubborn, many people who take risks, people who can't think about it, often not those who have been proud, most of them have been unlucky, feel that life can never be bright, and then sesame little things can also become the last straw that overwhelms him,

Not to mention that life must be happy!

Zhang Ruolei would come every night, sometimes socialize, and would call me to report for a record. Most of the time I waited for him, sitting in the living room watching TV, the TV was still ringing, but I fell asleep, he came back and picked me up, I fell into his arms in a daze, turned over and could continue to sleep.

I used to sleep so lightly that I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep again.

But now it seems like I can't get enough sleep.

Xiao Ye has been to the company a few times, and when he saw me, he laughed at me, saying that there was a man to moisten it. I laughed and scolded her for not being in shape, and I admit that when Xiao Ye teased me, the first picture in my head was Zhang Ruolei, and it was not suitable for children.

Xiao Ye continued to laugh at me, saying look at how terrible a woman in estrus is, and she is radiant! Who is that man? Such a skill, you can make the iron tree bloom.

I said that she was a young and brittle big girl, why did she have such a poisonous mouth.

Xiao Ye was not to be outdone, replied to me, who to scold, who to scold! Who's the big girl!

She seemed to be full of spring breeze, but her face became more and more haggard, and she wanted to talk to me a few times, but she didn't say anything to me in the end.