"Good!"

Zhang Ruolei actually put his arms around my waist, I was startled, got up, looked at him in amazement, he opened his eyes, looked at me, and smiled.

In the darkness, his white fangs glowed eeriely, a bloodthirsty beast. He took my sleeping pills, how could it be?

Zhang Ruolei pinched the two corners of the quilt with both hands, and with force, I fell back into his arms again, he kissed me, and then licked the tears on my face with the tip of his tongue.

"Salty."

He grinned.

I struggled hard, it was so weird, I often took that medicine when I couldn't sleep, didn't it......

"You ......"

I struggled to breathe, and he wrapped his arms around me, like iron pincers, and didn't let go.

"Don't move, can I stand it if you breathe like this again?"

"Phew!"

I blushed and turned my head away from him.

Zhang Ruolei turned over and pressed me underneath. I moved, and he moved, but he was really not as strong as him, and the two of them faced each other like beasts in the dark. After a long time, he smiled, and the whole person swooped down on me, like a huge eagle. I was still struggling desperately, and I didn't know for what purpose, his warm lips were hot on my cold skin, and those lips burned mine wherever I went, and the skin there suddenly burst into a fire, and the heat rose with the desire to steam.

I put my arms around him, he always likes to sleep naked in my place, I like his waist, back, buttocks, and hands touch it, and my heart is full of desire, and every cell in my body seems to be woken up by him. Like a fish longing for water, like a flower yearning for sunshine, like a man yearning for a woman, like a woman yearning for a man.

I can't imagine a life without him.

I'm so cheap, for so many years, I always thought I could live without a man. But in fact I need, I need him, he is the person, the physical happiness he brings to me, the union of spirit and desire.

I can't live without Him, He is now my air, my food, my water, my life. Just ask, can a person not eat, drink or gasp?

Zhang Ruolei ripped off my clothes, put his hands in my hair, and I dug my nails deep into his back, and we gasped like cows, letting out a mournful cry like death.

"Why didn't you marry me?"

The voice rang out in the silence of the night, and at the same time, I reached out and slapped him in the face.

I tried my best to slap that slap, he didn't dodge, he raised his neck, the blood vessels on both sides of his neck burst roughly, he closed his eyes, a thunderous roar flowed from his throat, and then the whole person was soft on me.

After calming down for a while, the sweat on me and him began to cool, and the cool air penetrated through the skin and drilled into the human bones, and he turned on one side, lay down next to me, and helped me tuck the quilt again.

"Don't catch a cold."

I didn't make a sound, thinking about the slap I had just slapped, my hand was a little heavier, this is not the point, the focus is the sentence that I shouted when I climaxed just now, as soon as I thought about that sentence, I panicked and panicked for myself, and my heart jumped straight up. I wish his ears were out of order, and he didn't hear clearly.

But he heard it clearly, and he didn't answer. He was cold to me, and he wouldn't even say a word to me about deceiving me.

Zhang Ruolei stretched out a hand to stretch out the quilt, groping back and forth on the bedside table, I know he is looking for cigarettes, recently his cigarettes have become more and more fierce, sometimes in the company is in a meeting, he coughs violently, as if to cough out the lobes of the lungs.

I advised him to smoke less, but he didn't listen, he said, in life, eating, drinking, prostituting, gambling, smoking, and doing nothing, what fun is there?

At that time, I pretended not to care whether he got married or not, so I teased him, saying, you have to take it easy, your son is still waiting to come out of his mother's belly and call you daddy. If you smoke to death, he will have to call others Daddy when he comes out.

Zhang Ruolei raised his eyes to look at me and said, who is the father is not certain!

I sneered: "That's right, now the father is the son, the son is not the father, they are all ancestors." ”

Zhang Ruolei didn't speak, continued to smoke, and when he smoked tightly, he had a cough like tuberculosis.

I also noticed that he had white hair, on the top of his head, not very conspicuous, but those who followed him could find that the snow was bright and white, and there were few of them.

It was also at the office that day, and I sat across from his desk. I said you have gray hair.

He didn't care, and said yes.

I said, you take it easy, don't do nothing, you will die.

He laughed with a "whoosh". Say you think so, you think it's because of this white.

"What else is that?"

He looked at me, was silent, reached for the cigarette case from the table, pulled a cigarette out of it, and began to spew smoke again.

I didn't want to love the stack, so I stood up and said goodbye, saying that I don't smoke secondhand smoke from you.

Zhang Ruolei let out a long puff of smoke and said, "Don't, stay with me for a while." ”

"You don't lack people."

I reached out and pulled the door open, and I despised those who could only fill in the blanks for others, especially women.

At this time, Zhang Ruolei was coming back from the hall naked, and he came back with him, as well as his mobile phone and his cigarettes, he didn't ask me why I turned off the phone for him, but he turned on the phone himself. The sound of his mobile phone turning on is actually not unpleasant, but somehow, today I think the sound is harsh, a bit like a cat in the middle of the night, noisy.

But I didn't protest to him, I just turned around and turned my back to him. I heard the lighter "snap" behind me, and I could imagine the momentary spark that should have brightened his face, and then the fire went out, replaced by a peanut-sized red dot in the dark air, flickering between the two fingers.

Each has a confidant, all in his own words.

Needless to say, everyone knows in their hearts that there is nothing to say, and nothing can be changed if they say it. Instead of this, it is better to keep silent with each other like this, only silence can make people dignified, and they seem to be unfathomable, and neither of them can probe each other's details and thoughts.

It is said that this is the highest level of ambiguity between men and women, but Zhang Ruolei and I are still in the ambiguous period?

"The water you gave me, the sleeping pills are still a little left, and they haven't completely melted, besides, they smell good."

He broke the silence first.

"So you didn't drink? No, I watched you drink it. ”

I rolled over and sat up, staring at him. He leaned his upper body against the head of the bed, and the quilt was pulled above his navel.

"I drank."

My eyebrows wrung deeper: "Then you ......"

Zhang Ruolei pulled the corners of his mouth, as if he was smiling. Raising my hand to put the cigarette to my lips, I stretched out my arm to grab his cigarette, and he moved like a rabbit, dodged, and took a big puff as if he had some kind of satisfaction.

"I used to have a very bad depression."

"Depression? I haven't heard you say that. ”

He doesn't look at me, his gaze seems to pierce the dark night.

"I often can't sleep all night, I also take sleeping pills, I am too familiar with the smell, at first I only ate one tablet at a time, then two tablets, three tablets, and finally ten tablets, eight tablets and then eat, once, abroad, I ate too much, and the landlord sent me directly to the hospital for gastric lavage."

"You ......"

Zhang Ruolei still didn't look at me: "It's the same now, sometimes I can sleep well, sometimes I can't sleep well, before I am with you, I will go out all night to play, eat, drink, smoke, and find women." Otherwise I won't be able to sleep, and I won't be able to sleep......"

He tilted his head and looked at me.

"You should know what that feels like. I wanted to tear myself with my bare hands, it was too painful. ”

I was stunned, yes, it was so painful, I knew that feeling too well. I always thought he liked nightlife.

Zhang Ruolei took another puff of cigarette, and the gas with the smell of nicotine was slowly exhaled, and it quickly dispersed into the air. His voice was a little hoarse: "Actually, when I am with you, sometimes it is like finding my own kind. ”

But the same kind is used to kill each other.

I didn't speak, but my throat tightened unconsciously.

What about the same kind? Still can't keep you. I know that my age and experience are a little unworthy of him.

In fact, I have always known that I am not a woman without self-knowledge.

Zhang Ruolei's phone rang, and I heard Mrs. Zhang's voice and asked him where he was and when he should go back.

He replied immediately. He was almost out of smoke, but he took the last puff of the cigarette, then took it off, got up, dressed, and walked out. The whole process was done without a word.

Then I heard him put on his shoes, open the door, and close the door.

Since then, Xiao Lang has been a passerby.

Su Bai called me and said that the bridesmaids had released her pigeons.

"This little."

She scolded, scolding loudly. I don't want to agree, I don't want to go at all, I don't want to pretend to be generous, I'm not generous. Xiao Han invited me to go when he married Huaihai, but I didn't go. It was that time that Zhang Ruolei had the opportunity to have my first intimate contact. I thought it might change my fate.

Su Bai chattered on the phone, saying that I was almost in your community, and I would pick you up in person.

My community?

I was so frightened that I almost rolled and climbed, so wouldn't she see Zhang Ruo who was going out in a traffic jam? Should I hurry up and send him a message, stop him, or hurry out and help him get a sloppy look?

Lifting the curtains, I saw that Zhang Ruolei was going out of the unit door, his head was slightly lowered, and the lonely figure was walking alone at night, I didn't have time to explain, so I hung up the phone in a hurry, opened the window and wanted to call him.

As soon as the words began, the rest were all choked in their throats and couldn't get out of their mouths, and they couldn't shout.

I hate myself. really has the potential to be a junior, so soon he knows that he is thinking about this adulterer.

Actually, it's my business!

Closing the window, Su Bai's phone came in tirelessly, what did she want to do? I got a little angry and simply turned off my phone.

Lack of people? I don't believe it! If there is nothing else to say in this city, as soon as the surname Su speaks, I am afraid that a large number of women will rush to be her bridesmaids.

The lack of people is fake, but the demonstration is real!

The old lady didn't give her this opportunity.