I told Zhang Ruolei that I was leaving, and asked him to hand over my phone. I thought he would talk nonsense to me, but who knew he didn't. Not only did he return to Zhao after the phone call, but it was said that he had already called Wan Qian to ask Wan Qian to send me clothes.

Of course, Wan Qian would not be stupid enough to ask what happened to my clothes, but when I saw Wan Qian, I saw her smiling eyes, four words are enough to describe ---- indescribable.

I gave her a hard look, in fact, before she came, I had thought of many reasons and excuses, such as not as complicated as you thought, okay? It's just that I accidentally got hooked by something and broke it.

But thinking of Wan Qian's meaningful eyes, I advised myself to keep my mouth shut.

Wan Qian asked me if I wanted to go with her, I was about to agree, Zhang Ruolei bounced up from the sofa like a spring, he walked behind me, put a hand on my shoulder at will, and said to Wan Qian: "You go first!" We'll go back tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow. ”

I thought of the scenery last night, and when I remembered the scenery with him every night, my face couldn't help but blush, and I should have rejected categorically, but who knew that it was difficult to open my mouth and hesitate.

Wan Qian gave me a white look, and that glance made me feel like I had been pricked by a needle, and my face turned even redder.

Wan Qian is not a simple girl who doesn't know anyone, I know that she is thinking about it deeply, her pretty face is also red, she looked at Zhang Ruolei, pun intended, and said: "If you leave her, you can leave her well." ”

Zhang Ruolei's hand around my shoulder tightened, and replied solemnly: "This is natural." ”

Zhang Ruolei didn't let me get out of bed again that whole day, my clothes were put on and taken off by him, and when I took them off, I put them on by myself, and time became as gorgeous as a rainbow, fast and slow. Everything outside became unimportant, and the whole body and mind were emptied, carrying a lot of it, as if it were discarding more.

I don't know, I don't even care. Blank and ignorant, I like but hate this seemingly luxurious and depraved life.

I kept dying and being lit by him. The two of them were together, like two strings of artillery that met an open flame.

I'm no longer reserved, and I don't have to do anything about it, anyway, it's already like this, and I don't have to be afraid of it. The two of them sweated layer after layer, and the sound of wet wheezing filled the room, and no one bothered them, not even when it was meal time.

And Zhang Ruolei did not lock the door.

I insisted on letting him lock the door, but he didn't, he said it was so exciting.

In fact, it is really exciting, we are worried and eager on the one hand, and the panic picture of being suddenly broken into by the living person appears in our minds, and we enjoy the endless pleasure brought to us by the senses.

When we are together, we go to heaven several times, and when we are deadlocked with each other, how much we endure the suffering.

I was at a loss as a boat, lost or finally returned, and he dragged me from one place to another, from one high to the other. The more and more unspeakable wonderful, regardless of the joy of the day, every pore interprets the need, every action increases a point to fat, and a point decreases to thin.

It was a joy that I had never had before, and only he could give it to me.

I'm one with Huaihai

Never before.

I am finally willing to admit that in countless nights, countless nights with a hundred claws scratching my heart, countless nights of tossing and turning, in fact, I miss him, I need him, I want him. He alone can infuse me with physical strength and courage, joy and fulfillment.

and dusk, indoor twilight quadrangle. He went out in his clothes and brought dinner with someone.

A few of my favorite side dishes, I knew at a glance that he had ordered them. The lights in the room were unbright, and by the light of the night, I turned my face away, and I couldn't make out the intricate expressions on the faces of the people who came in.

Zhang Ruolei must have ordered, and the person came and went almost silently.

When the people left, he turned on the light, brought the food to the bedside, and I said I would go down and eat. He said that you are not wearing anything, and when you come, Xiaosheng will see you like this, teach me how to endure it?

My face turned red, and I was speechless.

He wasn't in a hurry to eat, I thought he should be hungrier than I was. But he picked up the cutlery and handed it to my lips one by one. I was a little embarrassed, he turned my face, and there seemed to be a fire in his eyes. I dodged, and his mouth snapped up.

"Don't eat it, and me!"

At that moment, I knew what it meant to be truly blended.

Both of them are like gluttonous children, and food is left out in the cold, just like in the previous marriage, I was left out by Huaihai.

At that time, I felt that it was the problem of the food itself, it was my problem, I could not successfully attract him, and I even despised myself in my heart.

But in front of Zhang Ruolei, I feel that love and hate are equal, and grievances and grievances are no longer important.

We have all become the most primitive and simple individuals, I love you, I want you, we can bring the highest happiness to each other.

It's as simple as that.

Sometimes we don't know very well whether the relationship between people should be simple and simple to the extreme, or whether it should be complex and never simple.

Zhang Ruolei and I are.

I thought we could grow old forever, but I didn't want to turn against each other later.

I thought we wouldn't get along with each other, but I didn't want to be happy at this moment.

Human affairs and life events are often inexplicably said, and life has no reason to talk about. In fact, we are not reasonable people, and most of us only speak about what we think is right and stand on our own standpoint.

What is Reason?

I have lived and discovered that in fact, there is no reason for people to live this life.

It was a nerd-wrenching thought about how I would end up with him.

Coincidentally, the sudden visit that day was Thursday, I didn't go to work on Friday, I spent a day with him in the old house, and then Saturday and Sunday, and he still pestered me not to leave.

I laughed, people don't want to be grudges and hatreds at that time, but want to be at that time. What's more, two men and women who sleep together again, why should they pretend to be bitter and hateful.

I said, if we don't leave, why will we live?!

He laughed, couldn't help but sigh, and said: When you sing about wine, life is geometric. In fact, the most important thing for people is to live in the moment.

He hugged me, "How much grudge do you think there is between us?" Isn't every second just right now? ”

He took my hand,

"Come home with me, and we'll start anew."

I couldn't help but hesitate, thinking that women are really creatures who have healed their scars and forgotten their pain, and they can be tempted by his proposal.

At dusk, twilight, he and I stood on the open balcony on the third floor, overlooking the city's suburban streetscape, full of greenery and leisure, a large open space, and the sky and trees were connected to each other. The hearts of the people are also much more open.

People will lose themselves in such an environment, and people will be captives of leisure and comfort.

Seeing that I was silent, he knew that there was a door. People came over and held my hand, if someone freezes this situation, how we make the world only envy the mandarin duck and not the immortal pair.

If you don't know what's going on, there is no resentment in the world.

I let him hold my hand, and the two of them discussed where to go tomorrow as if they had never had any suspicion, and I wanted to see the old lady and the old lady when they were leaving, but they were either asleep or asleep, and spent most of the time in confusion.

Standing in front of the bed, I asked Zhang Ruolei, "Will we be like this when we get old?" ”

He shook his head firmly. Said "No, my dad forgot my mom, my mom doesn't remember my dad now." But I won't forget you. ”

This love story is so touching, sparing me is iron-hearted and inevitably turns into a pool of spring water. I took him by the hand and said goodbye......

I'll talk about it later, and he will seal it with a kiss. The two of them are like this, in front of the elders and the male nurse, you and me.

I don't care, the fake seriousness without silver here is better than the frank and honest and really greasy.

On Sunday, I'm leaving. He mobilized me to go back to our new house, and I asked him to give me some time.

Zhang Ruolei readily agreed, saying that he had confidence in himself, but I could clearly see the anxiety in his eyes.

So he squinted his eyes and looked at him, and said, "Do you have something to hide from me?"

He reached out and asked for a cigarette in his coat pocket, and when he touched it, he didn't.

Said quit.

Clap your hands.

When the servant sent us away, he was reluctant to give up, saying how good, you are not with us, in fact, you have nothing to do, you just stare at us all day long, and no one can see if you want to behave. You're here, how much life you've added to this house.

Aunt Guo is even more talkative, and said that in the future, we will add a few more children, and this room will be more lively.

Zhang Ruolei was very useful in saying these words, laughed and hugged me out of the house. The car was speeding on the way back to the city, and I couldn't say that I was like an arrow, but I was nostalgic for the past few days. If time stops, happiness is simple. Life is also much less troublesome.

We didn't talk much, and he held the steering wheel with one hand as before, and he wouldn't let go of the other hand that held mine.

I told him to pay attention to safety, and he only explained to me in a more forceful posture, and did not respond much.

After getting on the Ring Expressway, I entered the city after a while, and the speed of the car began to slow down. He didn't just send me back to my own house, but pulled me straight to our new house.

I refused, and he said, "Well, you can go back and have a look first, and at least get a few clothes." ”

I was so easily persuaded by him to get a new house. Oh no, we're not newlywed, this

It can no longer be called a new house. When you get home, let's say it's home. Everything was as usual, every grass and tree, every table and chair, all my clothes, the new slippers I wore when I got married, and even the quilt I covered at that time.

Revisiting the old place, it is difficult not to sigh. He sat me down, got down on one knee, folded his hands on my lap, and looked up at me.

"I've always wanted to bring you back, here, everything, I want you to see, no other woman has ever come."

I looked into his eyes and was pretty sure I had loved the man in front of me deeply, and maybe I still loved him. But I just can't make up my mind to be with him. I've been secretly looking for answers these days.

If I love him, why can't I erase the past and start over with him?

(End of chapter)