If he loves me too, if the world is not perfect in the first place, then why can't I accept that there are always a few regrets in life and get back together with him?

I want to be with him, really, why can't I convince myself?

I stood up, the large floor-to-ceiling windows in the living room did not draw the curtains, and all the scenery outside was unobstructed.

I picked up a cigarette from his coffee table, lit it, and took a puff, I don't know how to smoke, but I didn't choke on it and cough. But Zhang Ruolei knows that I hate men and women who smoke, and I also know that I hate the smell of smoke.

He reached out and took my cigarette, "Don't smoke." He said, "People smoke in all kinds of ways, you smoke neither to see the style, nor to see the loneliness, you smoke for the sake of smoking." ”

He was right, and I obediently let him take the cigarette from between my fingers, and then he took a puff with two fingers.

"Wakare,"

I said, "If we really can't go on, the reason must be very simple." I wasn't originally a very complicated person. I'm ---- with you now."

I'm careful with the wording.

"I don't really know where we're going to be, but one thing I'm sure of and clear in my heart is ---- that I don't trust you completely. Every word you say, every expression, everything you do is not pure in my mind now, I am always guessing, always doubting, this kind of life -------"

I paused, trying to substitute silence for what I was going to say, but I was afraid that he wouldn't quite grasp what I was trying to tell him. So I decided to go ahead and make what I wanted to say clear.

"This kind of life of worrying all day long, not being able to talk about it, and being suspicious and worried about each other between husband and wife, is not the married life I want."

I turned to face him. "That's too tiring, Zhang Ruolei. Life is too short, and I admit that in a sense you can bring me unstoppable happiness, but you also bring me those lingering troubles. I'm a simple person. ”

Again, I emphasize. "You should be very clear about my personality and personality after being with me for so long, and I can't live your kind of cheating and cheating days."

Zhang Ruolei looked at me.

"Meizi, it's time for this, I'll tell you everything."

I shook my head slightly from his hands that had gathered around me.

"Why don't you understand, the biggest problem between me and you, between us now, is not whether you will tell it to you, but whether I will believe it all. If there has always been a barrier in my heart that I cannot cross, then even if what you say is true, that is, in the years of my marriage with you, even if you are true and trustworthy in a single punctuation mark, and you have not lied, I will still be suspicious, suspicious, etc., and these negative emotions will always torment me. ”

I turned my face away.

"Ruolei, I've been thinking about it all the time, a man

What is the purpose of a daughter getting acquainted, getting acquainted, falling in love, getting married, having children, and starting a family? For a while, I felt that getting married was just following the crowd and being a necessity in life. Anyway, everyone else is married, so we have to go through this formality, and we also have to find someone to marry or marry. Later, when I met you, I thought that a man and a woman can be together if they love each other; Now I don't think so, I now think that people should get married to fight against all kinds of hardships and unhappiness in each other's lives. Life is not easy, a person is lonely and lonely in the face of these, and does not necessarily have the courage, ability and responsibility, so it is appropriate for two people to face it together. If you are unhappy, unhappy, unhappy, I will help you be happy, happy, and happy again. I have things that don't go well, I don't want to, things that I can't accept and understand, and I have knots that I can't unravel, and you can help me unravel and resolve all of them. Help each other and never give up. Of course, there can be no concealment and deception, this is the main premise. Trust is important. I think trust is like a comrade-in-arms and brothers who are born and die together on the battlefield, if I am always worried about whether there will be someone behind my back who will shoot me coldly, how can I live this life? Ruo Lei, if I'm not very committed to you and trust you very much, that is, I'm not very happy, not even seven or eight points, then why should I be with you? ”

I took a deep breath, and I thought I could finally understand why I couldn't stay with him.

"Marriage should bring a sense of belonging, happiness and joy. If not, then I don't know what the meaning of marriage is. Continuing the incense? I don't think you agree with that. ”

The figure was hidden in the night, Zhang Ruolei did not chase it out, and the evening breeze was like an elegy, which made me a little upset.

In the end, it is not reluctant, and finally it is to be relinquished. All the lovers in this world, you don't have to force them to still try their best to be together, all the lovers in this world are using their backs to interpret the three words "no need to chase".

Wan Qian called me and asked me where I was, and I said I was heading towards my house.

She teased me, which home?

I said that the four seas are big, and the four seas are all home. And I said, The four seas are so great that they are not my home.

She paused for a moment and then asked, "What the hell is going on with you?" ”

I said, "We can't go back." ”

Wan Qian didn't ask any more questions, only asked me if I would come to the company tomorrow, saying that there was also a big incident on Su's side, and asked me if I knew. I was shocked, "I don't know, what's the matter?" ”

"You don't know that Xiao Han's illegitimate son turned out to be Su Yuntian, the chairman of the Su Group. The old lady of the Su family and Xiao Han have already caught fire head-on. This matter is now being discussed in the whole city. I originally wanted to post the video of Zhang Ruolei and his aunt on the Internet, ruining his reputation, yes, now Xiao Han's head is on fire first, I'm afraid no one can save this field, she herself is anxious, now it's just a rat on the street Everyone shouts and beats, and her reputation is even more stinky, how many people in the city forum scolded her and hacked her, and the first contract they signed with the Singapore group was afraid that the cooperation would be damaged. I also got first-hand information.

”

Wan Qian said.

"Speak quickly, speak quickly."

I urged Wan Qian.

Wan Qian smiled on the phone, "Raise salary!" ”

"It's done here, get a raise."

I thought about getting Wan Qian's face across the phone.

"That's the case, she definitely doesn't have enough funds in her hand, there was originally a bank to lend to her, but after this happened, Su's mother put pressure on her, and now there is no bank willing to lend her money. That is to say......"

"If she wants to break the contract, the Singapore City Group must look for a new partner!"

"Yes!"

Wan Qian cheered on the phone.

Without further ado, I took a taxi and went straight to Wan Qian's house. Wan Qian opened the door for me with a look of pride, and when she entered the door, two women in their forties jumped up and hugged each other, although Aunt Wang didn't know what was going on, she was willing to see us happy. Offered to make us a couple of specialty dishes and beer in the fridge.

Aunt Wang's hands and feet are nimble, a few side dishes are on the table for a while, I have already thought that this is half of my home, you are not polite or formal, I took off my clothes, changed my shoes, washed my hands, picked up chopsticks and ate.

Wan Qian proposed to celebrate, I readily agreed, Aunt Wang had already taken out the beer from the refrigerator, Wan Qian looked at it, and said What kind of beer is this?

Aunt Wang said that the last time the one came, it was said to be from Germany.

Wan Qian pushed out the beer, "Go to the supermarket downstairs and buy a few bottles of old snow, that's a lot of energy." ”

After a while, the "old snow" arrived, and when it opened, the clear yellow liquid was poured into the glass, and a layer of foam floated on it. Wan Qian said that this wine is poured, and it is not level, look at me.

She took my cup, the glass glass was crystal clear in the light, Wan Qian skillfully tilted the mouth of the cup, the same was true of the mouth of the wine bottle, the beer was poured into the cup like gurgling water, Wan Qian's hand tilted slightly, and the cup gradually stood upright.

Tea should be poured seven points, and wine should be poured full.

Wan Qian's pouring level of wine is really good, the cup is full, there is no trace of foam, full and not overflowing.

She showed the bold nature of a Northeast woman, laughed, and said that this is called "cup wall obscene." ”

I said, "What? Despicable and indecent? ”

Wan Qian said you don't understand.

The next day, we took the initiative to contact each other and hit it off. Thinking about life is really bright, I originally thought that this thing would not necessarily succeed after a lot of effort, we are at a loss, but I don't want to be a godsend, suddenly open up. Even the first contract signed by Zhang and Xiao was successfully cut off by me.

After that day, Zhang Ruolei and I did not meet separately again.

In the midst of the comings and goings, he looked at me from afar, and I pretended to treat them equally, otherwise my eyes swept over him carelessly.

It turned out to be all about it.

Because of such a big project, Zhang's has the potential to regroup and lead the way again. On the other hand, because of the scandal, the Su family was in a difficult situation both internally and externally, and he was quite tired because of one thing and the other.

The workload has increased, and we are all busy. I deliberately set up Zhang Ruolei in the new job, and didn't let him participate, he didn't say anything, just concentrated on his own business, I heard that he and Zhao Zhiheng were in the field and fell in love with a piece of land, the real estate momentum has been strong in recent years, and the payment is fast, and he has a good vision.

Since he started working alone, he has done a lot of work several times

Bright. I also secretly applauded him, thinking that he would not lose his marriage and love, and his career would also wither. Life is comforting.

He was often away from the company, sometimes he saw me from afar, and he avoided me from afar, but sometimes inadvertently, I could still feel his gaze peeping at me in the dark. But when I turned around, he wasn't there.

At that time, I remembered a certain year, when I was still his subordinate, preparing for his first engagement banquet with Su Bai. I said, I will definitely marry you off in style.

He said that one day, he would marry me off in style.

With that, he turned away, but I always felt that there was a gaze sneaking in the shadows. But when I turned around, I found that I didn't have an audience.

Ten years of personnel several new times.

(End of chapter)