"Money is important, and so is means. But never make too many enemies for yourself, for I am afraid of ......"

He put his hand back around me tightly.

The bones of my chin were slightly pressed against the top of my head.

"Know you're good for me. There are not many people in this world who are really good to me. I love you. ”

He muttered.

The night is endless. Soon, the two of them let out an even breathing sound.

The next day and the weekend, we agreed to go back to his house first, and then we went to see my mother.

"I haven't seen her in over three months."

I say. While tidying up his things, halfway through tidying up, he walked over and hugged his waist, pursed his mouth, and complained softly to him.

"Sometimes I really feel that I am unfilial, but sometimes I am afraid to see her."

"Scared?"

Zhang Ruolei pushed me away a little and looked at me.

I walked back and continued to organize my things.

"yes, don't you think I'm actually selfish. I miss my mother, and I also miss Huaiping. But sometimes, I'm actually scared of them. That's why it's ......"

My tone was not without sadness.

"Sometimes you're afraid to see them?"

I turned my head and looked at him with bright eyes. I rarely say this to him, but for some reason, I want to talk to him more and more.

In the past, when I was with Huaihai, I always loved to collect my joys, sorrows, and thoughts, for fear of causing chaos to him.

Look, I'm comparing him to Huaihai again. I couldn't help but feel a little sorry in my heart.

"Am I very selfish and shameless?"

I watched him quietly. He walked towards me, and the sun reflected on his whole body looking warm and caring. He gently embraced me.

"Don't think so. You are not selfish. You just sometimes feel like you can't face them. He bowed his head slightly and pushed my face out of his arms.

"You are a kind person, to your mother, you feel that you are not living a good life, so let her worry about it. You don't want her to see your embarrassment and vulnerability, so sometimes you're afraid to see her. You're afraid of her worried and powerless eyes. ”

He then pressed my face to his chest again, and I could hear the hot, boiling heart in his chest, was there me in it?

"And as for Huaiping......"

Once again, he put himself in front of my face.

"You're afraid to remember the past, you're afraid of the hurt you did to each other at the beginning, you know that there will be traces of the hurt, and you don't want to see those traces. But when I see Huaiping, the past will be vivid. You want everything to be as it was before, like nothing has happened. Fool. ”

He wrenched me in the face.

"How is that possible? Don't be afraid of the past, Huaiping is not as noisy as you think. You're his mother. He understands. He knew you hated iron but not steel. Where can you find a mother like you? I believe that if there is a next life, Huaiping is still willing to let you be his mother. You trust me. ”

Tears fell silently. I reached into his shirt, the warmth of each other's skin silently warming each other, my head rubbing against his chest.

"You know me like that."

I muttered to myself, relieved. But when I think of Huaiping, I still can't help it

Sting. I buried my head in his arms.

"Wakaray," I said in a deep, nasal voice. "You know what? Probably because I thought so, sometimes I didn't want to see him, so God heard it, and he took him away from me. It's all my fault. ”

"Fool!"

He hugged me tighter in distress, and I could barely breathe. But the feeling of almost suffocation is reassuring. I love the feeling.

There was no more talk between the two of them until his phone rang. Looking at the time, it was almost noon, so we went downstairs and drove to his house first.

As soon as I entered the house, the meals were served one after another. Zhang Ruolei's parents are still the same, and now sometimes Mr. Zhang can still joke with the old lady.

For example, during the meal, the old lady grabbed Zhang Ruolei's arm and called him Fusheng. In the past, the old man basically turned a blind eye to these and let them go. I can see that the relationship between the two of them should not be very good when they are young, because sometimes one person's blindness and resignation to the other means neglect and neglect.

It's not nice to be ignored or ignored. I get it. However, they have been cold to each other for half their lives, and now at this age, those of us who are juniors, especially my daughter-in-law who is embarrassed and has not passed through the door, is really not good at mediation. What's more, each couple has their own story and way of getting along, and I don't want to interfere with it, for fear that it might make the situation worse.

But this day seems to be different, Zhang Fusheng looked unhappy when the old lady shouted Zhang Ruolei 'Fusheng', and pretended to blow his beard and glared at the old lady: "Your husband is here!" This is a neat thing, a husband and wife for a lifetime, and when they are old, their wives will admit their mistakes. Will you run away with others when you are young? ”

I listened and smiled. But who knew that there was no one else at this dinner table except me who took the initiative to pay for the old man's overture, Zhang Ruolei and his mother ate as usual, and their faces were silent and stern.

I pinched the chopsticks in my hand and quickly diverted the topic, and reported a little bit to the old lady about the company, but in fact, I thought in my heart that my son was close to his mother, and it seemed that Zhang Ruolei was on his mother's side. may have been neglected at home when Zhang Fusheng was young, so he had an average relationship with his wife and son.

It turns out that everything in the world is clearly priced, and it is borrowed and repaid. The same is true for relatives, but the price between relatives may not be measured by money or other materialized things, but it can also be weighted by time, companionship, and intentions.

There is nothing in this world that is unearned, and the same law applies to feelings.

After eating, everyone sat down together and gossiped about homely things, and the old lady was good for a while, bad for a while. Understand for a while, and be confused for a while. She listened quietly when we spoke, sometimes as if she was listening and understanding, and sometimes she didn't have the head to interject a sentence, and everyone was used to it.

Especially me, now sitting next to her, listening to the six directions, and seeing all directions. I was trained to be extremely alert, for fear that her old man would be unhappy and slap me again, all sharp weapons in this family are also controlled supplies, no matter what, there is such a patient at home, in fact, everyone lives inevitably trembling.

There were several times when I especially wanted to ask Zhang Ruolei and ask him what he wanted

I never thought that one day my mother would suddenly get sick in the middle of the night, sneak into his father's room and stab his father or something, anyway, the old lady is a documented person, and there is no need to worry that the police will come to the door and arrest her and go to jail.

In fact, I also want to ask the old lady of the Zhang family why she transferred all the shares in her hands to me, but she didn't have the opportunity to get along alone. This has also become a secret question in my heart that will not be answered in a short period of time.

Because if I asked Zhang Ruolei in front of me, I was afraid that he would feel uncomfortable, and it would cause dislike between his father and son.

When people reach middle age, they understand more and more what is the most valuable. The people who are close and the people who love each person do not have many quotas. They should all be cherished. When you reach middle age, people around you will continue to become your subtraction. Years, accidents, illness, anything can become a murderer, they can't help but say that they will take your relatives and lovers away, but you have no bargaining ability and qualifications.

It's really sad.

Isn't it?

So, I love them and cherish them. I know that there is no eternity, but I keep praying that God can hear my heart. Let them be nearer to me, a little closer. Let the time together be longer, a little longer.

I'm greedy and want to last forever. Even if you know you don't. It's true.

I only shook the hand of the old lady of the Zhang family when I said goodbye to the old people after dinner, and said thank you to him with a pun. I saw that his head was trembling slightly, his eyebrows were gray, and there were a few slender and silver-white at the end of his eyebrows, which were shaking slightly with the shaking of his head, but the moment I said "thank you" he raised his head and looked at me quietly and silently.

The vision is complex, with expectations, trust, and ......

I didn't quite understand, I looked into the cloudy old eyes, trying to see them more clearly, but who knew that the old lady lowered his head, and I saw a clump of gray hair trembling in front of my eyes. At that moment, I suddenly felt lonely in my heart, sighing that the years were ruthless, and we were all bound to be left behind by the ruthlessness of the years.

Time, years, they are always the biggest winners. He saw generation after generation running in the torrent of time, laughing, crying, and clinging, and finally everything returned to dust and dust, and disappeared as if it had never existed.

Thinking about this, I feel a little sad. But subconsciously raised his head to look at the old villa, the last time I saw a figure on the third floor, but it was clear that everyone was still in the hall on the first floor. This time, I'll see ......

Nothing unusual.

So I couldn't help but feel relieved, maybe I was really dazzled last time.

Before leaving, Zhang Fusheng also asked about his son's marriage room, Zhang Ruolei was silent, I felt that it was necessary to be a bridge between the old and the young, so he made his own claim that he wanted to spend his honeymoon abroad, so he temporarily set up the wedding room there, and said that Zhang Ruolei had already been arranged there.

The old man bowed his head and was speechless for a long time, Zhang Ruolei did not speak, and the old lady was silent for a long time.

The silence of the cold field made me feel terrible, so I stepped forward to play the round again. The honeymoon can't be too long, after all, the company can't do without me

He, that is, walking in form, making a show. It depends on the situation.

I also made my own assertions, saying that I would not live abroad for a long time, that I would be here, that you would be here, that my relatives would be here, and that it would be interesting for us to go out.

Zhang Fusheng looked up at me, and then at Zhang Ruolei. I gently poked Zhang Ruolei next to me, and I could see that the old man wanted us to live with them. They are old, especially Zhang Fusheng, and now the highest thought in life is probably that their children and grandchildren will be in the same house and enjoy the joy of family for a few years.

I don't think it will be very difficult for us to meet their needs, Zhang Ruolei looked up like a little daughter-in-law under my obscenity, and vaguely agreed.

I think the relationship between people in the world is really strange, why can't father and son have an open and honest dialogue?

What kind of estrangement did they have?

(End of chapter)