I bought a house, it's a good location in the city, and the price is reasonable. The agent asked me, "Sister, are you a mortgage or a provident fund?"

I paid in full.

The young man in the suit and tie looked at me with a look of surprise.

Xiao Ye accompanied me, Xiao Ye took his chest and slammed it straight at the young man, which scared the young man to speak sharply, and his legs and stomach were not good. I said Xiao Ye, don't scare other people's children, they are all big nephews!

Xiao Ye straightened his chest: "What's wrong with the eldest nephew?" As long as it's not a nephew. ”

The guy scared the cat straight behind me.

I am sometimes willing to be with Xiao Ye now, she has no heart and lungs, and there is no big thing that can't be solved by sleeping with a man, if it doesn't solve it in one sleep, then two sleeps.

She said that she liked the feeling of being needed, and her whole body and heart were empty and floating, like aquatic plants that had not been wrung dry, sweating on men. Only then can she think about nothing. Life is already so bitter and tired, why make yourself more bitter and tired? How to be happy, how to come.

She asked me, "Sister, do you think I'm right?" ”

I nodded like garlic and said, "Yes, yes, yes." ”

But in fact, she didn't have doubts, and she wouldn't ask me. Life can't help but talk to anyone, we are actually people who don't understand it.

After buying a house and moving, the money is spent, and the wealth is happy. Spending money can really give people pleasure. On the day of the move, I drank with my son, and I said, "Child, don't add up anything, no, my mother will support you for a lifetime."

I used to be afraid that he would smoke and drink and learn badly, but now I take the initiative to fill him with wine. Is it useful to be afraid? He didn't smoke or drink, but he did drugs.

As soon as I craned my neck, the wine entered my throat, spicy, and could choke people. I pursed my mouth tightly into a straight line, leaving all the spiciness. My son looked at me, and he pinched the cup with his pale, slender fingers.

I said, "it!" You're a man, so it doesn't hurt to learn early.

As soon as the son raised his neck, he also did it. He coughed violently, and I laughed at him, laughing so hard that tears almost crawled down the corners of my eyes.

I put down the cup, walked around the table, walked over and hugged him for a long time, unwilling to let go of my hand for a long, long time.

I remembered what Xiao Ye asked me during the day, she said, sister, this money ......

I know what she wants to ask, she wants to say, sister, how dare you spend this money?

What am I afraid of? Huaiping is like this, my task for the rest of my life will be heavier, nothing else, let him be better, let him have no worries about food and clothing, let him not always fight with himself in his heart, let him eat, drink and have fun openly and brightly, even if it is drunk and dreaming of death, isn't life just like this? I didn't give him anything, I owe him everything.

I glanced at Xiao Ye and smiled: "Who is afraid of money biting hands?" What am I afraid of? ”

Xiao Ye lowered his head, smiled too, and said, "Mother's love is so great, I don't want children in the future." ”

Desire has opened a gap in my humanity, and it has taken the opportunity to sly drill in, and I will not refuse, but I will accept it, and it may soon become one with me.

I think people are really strange animals, they used to rely on that so-called backbone support, life was constrained everywhere, and they had to hit a wall wherever they went, and when they let go, everything became seemingly natural again.

You can also be a great name --- a great mother for this.

But where am I great? I'm lost, a truly great mother doesn't sacrifice herself to raise her child to adulthood; A truly great mother does not raise her son like a parasite; A truly great mother would not have known nothing about her son's poison for so long; A truly great mother does not get hysterical at the time of the incident and go crazy and crazy herself.

Where am I great?

I can't even deceive and move myself in the first place.

I just can't do anything about it.

Zhang Ruolei scolded me, saying that you fucking think life is hopeless? Hopeless? You're so self-defeating, you're so bad at yourself.

I smiled softly at him, "What's wrong with me!" Didn't you say give me all the money? How? Distressed or regretted? If I give it to me, can't I spend it casually? ”

He looked at me for a long time, like a match in the sun, and he was desperately focusing on the convex lens of the sun's energy. But I won't be crushed to pieces and turned into black ashes under his gaze.

Zhang Ruolei snorted and said: "You are just a coward, I thought you were a master!" ”

I looked at him and said, "I'm just a." "It's out.

That night, I went back to the office alone to pick up a document, entered my own office, and found Zhang Ruolei sitting on the boss's chair in my office like a Buddha, lying on his back, wearing a pair of boxy flat-headed pants, shirtless, and his white shirt covered with his upper body.

I was blown away by this look. Is it so perverted? He?

I had a long confrontation with him under the intense incandescent light.

Or he opened his mouth first: "I wanted to come in and sit for a while." ”

He sat up straight and ruffled his hair.

"Later, I felt very tired, so I wanted to squint for a while."

He started wearing pants.

"When I felt the heat in my sleep, I took off my clothes."

Without comment, I stepped forward and stumbled through the papers on the table.

"The company is all yours, you can sleep wherever you like."

Reach out and pull the file out of the rack.

"Your house is so big, don't you go home to sleep, do you have a lot of energy here?"

The second generation has been dressed properly, and only the buttons of the white shirt are scattered.

"The hotel in this city is more comfortable than my broken chair!"

I tucked the papers in my bag and looked at him.

"Have you watched "The Legend of Zhen Huan"?"

"Huh?"

""The Legend of Zhen Huan", played by Sun Li."

"Ahh

He seemed to be in a state of confusion.

"There's a line in it," a smile welled up on my lips, "Sluts are hypocritical." ”

I smiled and walked out.

"Plums."

He stopped me.

"Eat something with me, I'm hungry."

"Do you still use me to accompany you? As soon as you whistle, the beauty has to line up from the city government to the door of our company, and there is a turn. ”

He walked out side by side with me, I turned off the office lights, and he buttoned his shirt as he walked, and the company security guard across the street came up and met with us.

The security guard saw that he was side by side with me, and was buttoning his shirt, so he was embarrassed to get up, and his whole face smiled proudly, and he didn't dare to make a big noise, so he had to endure it desperately, and the face of pretending to be serious seemed to be expressing his determination to me or Zhang Ruolei: I know what the situation is, they are all adults. I understand. It turns out that you really are...... But don't worry, I won't......

I said "hey" and I wanted to stop him.

Zhang Ruolei stopped my hand and put his hand on my shoulder.

"Lao Wang, you're quite responsible."

"Oh, oh, yes, Mr. Zhang."

"Good!"

When passing by him, Zhang Ruolei threw another sentence at him: "Do a good job, have a future." ”

What a future! I shook his hand away. I said you know what he means by the thief on his face, and you look at him smiling so obscenely.

Zhang Ruolei pulled the corners of his mouth, revealing a mouthful of small white teeth, and his row of white shirt buttons were finally buttoned.

I gave him a strange look: "Just fasten a button, look at your grinding." ”

He smiled: "He watched when you came up, he was a security guard, you have only been up for a few minutes, you have nothing to worry about all day, there is no silver here and there every day." Am I that fast? ”

"That'...... That ......"

I'm angry.

"What if he has hollowed out your body all these years!"

Zhang Ruolei laughed "whoa".

"You know a lot!"

I don't look at him.

The car slid into the endless night like a fish, and the street lamps on both sides of the road shed an ominous light. It wasn't late at night, there were a lot of people, there were a lot of cars, and he focused on driving. He didn't ask me what I wanted to eat, he always did, he never asked for other people's opinions, even if it was hypocritical politeness.

But I didn't expect him to drive the car to the barbecue restaurant where I met Lao Yang for the first time, and he parked the car and I refused to get down.

Zhang Ruolei said, "What? ”

I said, "If you don't come here, the boss and the waiter all know us." If you don't have a face, what else do I want! ”

He replied: "Lao Yang is the food living map in this city, his house is really delicious, I didn't mean to mess with your situation that day." ”

Intentionally or not, what's the point of saying this now?

I hesitated, and if I insisted, I was afraid that it would be a bit of a cover to steal the bell, and the words of others have been so frank, and I have to follow the sword mountain and the sea of fire in front of me.

Unexpectedly, the waiter has changed, and the boss is missing, everyone is eating their own food, and they are feasting. I blushed a little, for my own affection for the city, for myself, for this world.

The dishes were all served, Zhang Ruolei poured me a glass of beer, and the two of them raised their glasses, without a word of nonsense, they all drank it all. Drink the wine, eat the meat, the taste of this is indeed authentic, I heard that the boss is a decent and tasteful person, some of the meat used in the barbecue is actually airlifted, designed for quality.

Life in the world, eat and drink. If you can't eat or drink, you may lose half of the pleasure of living. I finally understand a little bit of the mentality of foodies, they are a type of people who can see through and look down on the world more than people like me, they are not afraid of fat, they are not greedy, they just refuse to compromise with life.

Whatever you do to knock me to the ground again and again, there's no meal that can't be solved. is like a small leaf, how much it hurts, how much bitterness, no hearty love can't be solved.

If you really can't, then two!

Zhang Ruolei poured the wine again, and we raised our glasses speechlessly, tilted our heads, and dried. The time is also confused. From meeting Jun Chu to being scattered like a confidant for half a life, people are always not in front of them, but they always seem to be on the edge of the sky, the farthest and the closest.

I raised my glass, and we stared at each other for a long time in the yellowish clear liquid, and he picked up the wine in the glass and gently knocked the bottom of my glass.

None of us spoke, and as soon as we craned our necks, the cup bottomed out again.