When I washed my face, I looked at myself in the mirror, I don't know what I'm doing, am I such a casual woman? Is my relationship situation too complicated? I obviously despise Xiao Han's kind of woman the most, I used to think that she was watery Yanghua, so what about me! I'm going to see my ex-husband, I'm going to rescue him, and then I'm going to escape with him and go to a paradise. But on this side, I slept with the current one, and ...... Last night's scene broke in unexpectedly, those steaming scenes, two bodies glued together, I didn't know him, but I knew myself so well at that moment, I was at that time with a double desire for him body and mind, as if I had never met an opponent like this.

He understands me, watches me grow little by little, he silently protects me, but he leaves me alone at the right time. He always lifts the shelves on the surface of things, makes me see the bloody, dirty, filthy or ugly facts inside, and then tells me to face these things head-on, afraid of a bird?! His life wasn't all triumphant, but when he was frustrated, I never saw decadence on his face.

------- am I in love with two men?

No, no, no.

I twisted the faucet towards the cold water and picked up a handful of cold water in the hope that it would sober me up a bit.

Gao Tiancheng appeared in front of me like a ghost, and my brain began to wander again, he leaned on the bathroom door frame, only showing his side face, and his eyes took out a frame of looking at all beings, but I could clearly see the affectionate style from the so-called sentient beings.

I lowered my head and washed my face again, oh my! Why didn't you find out that he had so many advantages before? Is it really a long-term relationship?

"What to eat in the morning? Is a handsome guy from Hong Kong good? ”

He flirted, and I hated his cynicism, which seemed to be deliberate and unintentional. I removed the towel from the towel rack and gagged my face. He rubbed it twice, and then only two dark eyes appeared.

"Adong is calling." I said, "There is a bureau tonight, Xiao Han and Zhang Ruolei will attend, and you and I will go too." ”

"I hear you." He came in, I moved around, I passed him, he went into the shower, I pulled the shower screen on. He beckoned to me naked.

I clutched my towel and turned my back, but I didn't know if he was hopeless or if I was hopeless.

The day passed very worriedly, and I don't go to the company much now, but this day Gao Tiancheng insisted on taking me along. I protested: "Why? ”

"If the situation changes, you have a way out."

He said.

"A way out?" I repeat.

I admit that I think too much, and women who have been dumped a few times generally fall into some neurotic problems, either they are always suspicious, or they always want to make puns on what others say, or they love to chatter with people, complaining that fate always makes them unladylike, or they hate men.

But in fact, every woman who hates a man to death may have loved a man to death

people, at the same time, they desperately want a man who can love them to the death to come out and redeem them.

Therefore, women who have been emotionally wounded look pitiful on the surface, but in fact, their feelings are sometimes bottomless black holes. Because of the shadow of the previous time, this will make them shrouded in doubt and inferiority all their lives, in order to confirm their place in the other person's mind, they will constantly test each other, and ask the other party to endure all their absurd demands and actions without limit. They think that only a lot of love can get them out of the scars of those so-called old loves, but in fact, all of them are just excuses for them to control each other to satisfy their possessiveness and sense of security.

Only those who do not deserve it will suffer from the gains and losses of what they have in their hands.

In fact, life is a process of constantly repeating what we gain and what we lose, and we will keep getting, and of course, we will keep losing in balance with it. When you get it, you don't want to be public, you know how to cherish it, and when you lose it, there is no need to be helpless or at a loss.

Gao Tiancheng patted me on the shoulder, "It's not that you are pinned on your career, what's more, we are not divorced." ”

Oh, yes! We are not divorced yet.

"Uh," Gao Tiancheng glared at the taillights of the car in front of him, "I'm wondering, after tonight, should you make a decision, whether the two of us want to separate or not?" ”

I didn't speak, and I don't have an answer to this question myself. If A can't do it, B will treat feelings like this, is it a bit too child's play?

I voiced the doubts in my mind.

Gao Tiancheng concentrated on driving, but he didn't forget to pop a few golden sentences out of his mouth.

"Well, maybe, I mean maybe," he stressed, "maybe, aforbefore, bfornowandthefuture. ”

He flashed his car and pulled to a staggered stop on the side of the road. I was startled, "What are you doing?" I asked him.

He looked at me, and suddenly he didn't speak, just looked at me in a stunned state like that.

Does he want my answer right now?

I do not know. My eyes became flustered in his gaze, I looked out the window, there were hurried people outside, they all lived a seemingly simple and happy life, no, no, no, they shouldn't be the object of my envy, Gao Tiancheng was right, everyone has everyone's insincerity, under the bright clothes, who wears a pair of torn socks, whose underwear is already antique, who knows?

"Forget it." He restarted the car. After arriving at the company, Wan Qian always looked at me as if I had been caught and raped by her again, and I expressed my strong protest to her.

"Wan Qian, can you see if my eyes can change, don't always look like watching your underage daughter go out drinking with a strange man, and you caught the scene in the middle of the night without coming back?"

Wan Qian raised her eyebrows, "The scene is not allowed to observe, and it is not suitable for children." ”

She dragged a nice long sound, and I reached out to hit her, but she ran away with a smoke earlier.

The secretary came in to tell me today's arrangement, the day's work began to be in full swing again, I heard that I am not here these days, Gao Tiancheng has a lot of new actions, he has frequent contact with industry insiders, won a lot of big orders, and people pay attention to the city even if the ground is going to be naked. Real estate is almost always a profitable business.

The messy list in the past is significantly decreasing, which also makes the numbers on our accounts not look good. I went to his office, but only wandered around in front of his office door and returned empty-handed.

I don't know what to ask him, we started like that, and now I don't know how to end it. If he really has any improper background, I can't actually see our future, and I can't ask what he is like this? Want to wash your hands and live a good life with me from now on?

He's in love with me? But what about me?

Besides, behind the cold numbers, who can see through the hearts of those who manipulate these numbers? You can't read the article on the surface, so let's wait and see.

I knew how good it would be if people had to live in the moment and not always have the mentality of 'wait and see, wait and see.'"

In the evening, Gao Tiancheng and I were two people, we were delayed for a while that day, and Xiao Han and Zhang Ruolei were already present, and I was far away in the crowd to deliberately search.

Gao Tiancheng's feet were fixed in the crowd, he looked at me, I felt out of shape, I saw a flash of loss in his eyes, but it was really just a flash, and in an instant it seemed to be able to use a light speed meter, like a meteor.

Facing the oncoming passer-by, he had a lively conversation with Gao Tiancheng, and he immediately threw himself into the enthusiasm of that person, as if the flash just now had never existed.

I turned my head to look at him, and he was ......

Well, I finally admit it, there's adoration in his eyes. This is not a good beginning, and it is said that when a woman is truly in love with a man, she must look up. is like the Zixia Fairy in "Journey to the West": My man must be a hero of the world......

Gao Tiancheng held me to greet people one by one, shook hands and made a cold noise, until he naturally moved in front of Xiao Han and Zhang Ruolei.

"Mr. Zhang, Miss Xiao."

Xiao Han hugged me gently, "Meizi, Mr. Gao!" ”

She has always been respectful to Gao Tiancheng, and even, sometimes her eyes always flash with inexplicable fear and resentment in her eyes. I guess it's a feud. Every time I see Xiao Han now, I shudder at the thought of her cutting off one of her little toes, she is really a ruthless character, she can really do it!

I raised my eyes to look at Gao Tiancheng again, he is really a ruthless character, and he can really do it.

Walking in this crowd, can I really get everything I want?

Now I have begun to doubt life and love sometimes. That day, Gao Tiancheng said that I was much more mature than before, and he might have read it wrong, maybe I just experienced too many scams and lies and was numb.

"Congratulations, you're about to be ruined." Gao Tiancheng said.

Oh, yes!

I raised my head from Xiao Han's arms, Zhang

Ruo Lei happened to look at me with a smile. He smiled at us decently, and I saw in his eyes that there was no me in it. There is only Xiao Han, and there is only Xiao Han at this time.

"Wakalei." I blurted out that I didn't care what the people in the room thought of me.

Does he really not recognize me? Did he recover in the end? I was a little excited, and before I came, I told myself countless times that I couldn't lose my temper, and I couldn't lose my temper no matter how much I thought about him or thought of him.

Impossible, how could it be that everything came back in a second.

I couldn't have seen him cry.

But it turned out that I choked up, and I must have disappointed Gao Tiancheng, because I clearly felt that his body was suddenly enchanted by something, motionless, and his lines were cold and stiff.

"I'm sorry." I knew I was out of shape, but I couldn't contain my excitement. I hurriedly said goodbye to the person in front of me, but at that time, everyone in front of me was not real, and tears blurred my eyes, and my eyes blurred in an instant.

I turned and walked towards the door, found the bathroom, pulled out the tissues from it, and I finally saw him, it was really him. I couldn't help but want to cry, even though I knew it wasn't right for a time, place, or occasion. The moment I saw his face, the familiar eyebrows, I collapsed.

"Zhang Ruolei." I said to him in my heart, "Long time no see." ”

I kept repeating it in my heart. "Long time no see! Long time no see! Long time no see! ”

I wet paper after paper with tears in my eyes, and I don't know how I can still appear in front of those people outside. My wife has failed, I will always be a loser, I am not as good as Xiao Han, you see Xiao Han, no matter what time, place, and how bad the situation, she is at ease.

(End of chapter)