Of course I'm not happy about him like that.

What a sad woman, to this day, all my joys, sorrows and sorrows are built on others, once it was Huaihai, then Huaiping, and now it is ......

I don't want to think about him anymore, it's the first time and the last time. But when I washed, Zhang Ruolei's face always suddenly broke into my mind, as well as those fragments from last night.

The bite of the body and the body, the echo of wheezing and wheezing.

I sadly find myself missing him. After leaving for a while, I actually started to think about him.

The door rang, and Zhang Ruolei came in, carrying soy milk and fritters in his hands.

yes, I didn't ask for the key.

I thought he was ...... I stood at the bathroom door and watched him not move, and he came up to me again, putting his hand on my waist like an insatiable child.

Don't talk about it, don't ask, don't think about it. Life is so short, and being happy is a day.

How many people in this world have ever really given you happiness?

That breakfast gave me a five-Michelin star, and I couldn't tell whether it was about love or lust. At the end of the meal, he actually took out a tissue to wipe my mouth, and his movements were delicate and gentle, making me wonder who he was exposed to. Is he still the rich second generation I know?

At this time, Xiao Ye's phone broke in, I looked at it, frowned, and pressed it, I thought of Xiao Ye, and I couldn't help but feel sour, he and her ......

Seeing that I was not stunned, he simply snatched the phone and turned it off for me.

"What are you doing!"

I say.

After eating, I felt pain when I thought of the invalid ticket, not to mention, I really missed Huaiping. I don't think he's gone and taken me half the world with him. Even now that I have Zhang Ruolei, this adds a touch of guilt to me, and I always feel like a bad woman who left her son for a man. So I hesitated and told Zhang Ruolei that I still wanted to take two days off, or I wanted to go over to see him.

Zhang Ruolei froze at his feet, turned to look at me, his eyebrows slightly furrowed, he was trying extremely hard to restrain his anger.

I really don't know what he's angry about.

I said that last night's ticket was scrapped, and he was still expressionless.

"I see it's getting colder, and I want to send a few thick clothes to Huaiping. Although it is southern, it is cold and unheated. ”

Then he stopped and took my hands.

"Who did you say you wanted to see?"

"Huaiping." I said, take out my phone and show him my ticket purchase record for last night.

He glanced down, tilted his lips, and smiled.

It's so moody, he's just a psychopath.

"Then I'll go with you, I miss him too. What do you think we'll buy him something? ”

He started the lead, and I saved that this is my home, how can he have a parking space? I asked him, and he was just smiling, one hand on the steering wheel, the other holding mine. I asked him if it would be unsafe, and he said it's okay, you have to trust my abilities.

When I heard the word power, I was dirty. As soon as he pursed his lips, his face turned red, and he said that I was a hooligan.

I'll tell you what's going on.

He said that I had been thinking about the scene last night and this morning for a long time. So at that time, I knew that you were buying a house, so I bought a parking space here.

This rich second generation, what is he thinking about all day long!

But my heart is like being fed honey, and there is no place that is bitter.

When we entered the unit, he also held my hand, I couldn't break free no matter how I earned it, I said you pay attention to the impact, and he began to smile toothlessly again: It's been so long, and everyone is used to it. Look, they're not interested in gossiping about you now. We don't have any explosions or slots for them anymore.

I said that you have been planning for a long time, when will you explain to me, when did you start?

He poked my leg with his hand: "It's okay at any time, can you pick and choose the place to explain?" ”

I knew what he was going to say, and my face flushed again.

Zhang Ruolei leaned next to my ear: "Don't blush, I can't stand it if you blush." ”

I blushed even more and flicked his hand away. At noon, he came to me for dinner.

"It's delicious." He directly clamped it up to me, and I, a middle-aged Northeast lady like me, have always regarded these behaviors as mentally retarded, idiots, and stupid people, and I would catch them with my mouth without any sense of disobedience, and then look at him with a smile on my face like a nymphomaniac.

Think about it, if this is put aside, there is such a pair of living ancestors next to me who are there to sprinkle dog food and show affection, so I don't want to vomit to death.

Love can change a person.

It's true.

The principle and mechanism are unknown.

If you really love each other, you will make each other softer.

We interacted a lot and spent almost the whole day chatting online. For example, he said what happened to the finance department just now, or what happened to the production department, who came to visit just now, or an interesting news picture.

The high-frequency word is that you miss me?

What's going on?

Rogue.

No, I'm a stinky rascal.

I'm a male hooligan, you're a female hooligan.

......

Seriously, I didn't have such a sensual dialogue when I was in love with Huaihai, and this time I returned it all to Zhang Ruolei at once. I even sometimes wonder if I was in a fake relationship. Or when we were young, we didn't really know much about love?!

In the afternoon, when a colleague came to my office, he gossiped and said that Mr. Zhang didn't know what was wrong now, and he smiled at the computer like a nymphomaniac, and once he even bit his fingers and laughed. I imagined his face, and his hand involuntarily reached into his mouth and gently bit the corner of his mouth, which made my colleague look at me with horror, as if he had seen Sadako.

She pointed at me and said, "Yes, yes, you learn too much, no wonder everyone says you two are enemies." ”

Learn from him?

I didn't.

But how to explain it? After my colleague left, I dared to reply to his message. Actually, when I open it, it's all nonsense, but I like this nonsense very much.

In the evening, go shopping for Huaiping. When it came to picking shoes, he and I had different opinions, and the salesman asked how old the child was, and we all said that he was sixteen years old, and the salesman said that it was still up to his father, and that his father knew what the boy liked.

My embarrassment cancer happened again, but he didn't care.

A large bag of loot, and I came home from dinner and was a little tired and prostration. I asked him to go, but he didn't follow and said to borrow a bathroom, and I took a shower. After borrowing the bathroom, he came out wet and pounced, saying that he would borrow a woman to use it.

I said no.

Well? Don't borrow?

Do not borrow.

But those who don't borrow or borrow borrow are borrowed in the end.

The body is familiar with the road, and I really want to condense it into a lifetime like that in that second. Instant is eternal, I didn't understand it before, instant is instant, instant is fleeting, is it sticky with eternity?

I didn't understand until that moment.

After meeting Zhang Ruolei, I felt like I had been reborn and met countless firsts in my life.

I stroked his angular brow bone, and my hand couldn't find a fulcrum on the back of his hand. He called my name vaguely on it, over and over again, as if he could call the earth to the heavens.

Life is a long way, but life is heavy on quality and not quantity, don't talk to me forever, don't talk to me in the future, I don't want to talk about it.

I put my hand in his hair, like a love affair at the end of my life.

I went to see Huaiping, which was scheduled for two weeks later.

We are almost inseparable from each other, going to work together every morning, leaving work together every night, and having lunch together in between. Sometimes I wonder when he's going to start to get bored with me; I don't know if he will put his knives and guns into storage for me and put the horses in Nanshan, and it will no longer be ridiculous; I don't know if the two of us will really have a future.

One day I met the old lady of the Zhang family in the elevator, we were holding hands, and when I met the old man, he and I did not consciously separate our hands, but I always felt that he was faster than me for 0.01 seconds, and that 0.01 seconds became a thorn in my heart, sharp and direct stinging of a sensitive and fragile nerve in me.

I always thought that he might be true to me, who hasn't played a guessing game in love? I guess I have some weight or status in his heart.

But a bug knocked him and me back to square one.

In the end, in front of such a critical and crucial person, he still let go of my hand before me.

Does this imply something to me?

I didn't leave work with him that night. He was looking for me all over the world, called me, sent it on WeChat, but I didn't answer. He's so smart, he must know what's going on. I just hate myself, I hate that I don't have self-knowledge, and I hate that I don't feel fishy when I eat a hundred beans.

I was walking alone on the street, the street lights were on, there was no music floating out of the street, and everyone was in a hurry. I scolded myself for being stupid as I walked, why didn't I pee on myself. What do you see in yourself? When you reach middle age, do you want to be young or not, beautiful or not beautiful, don't you have a little pressure in your heart? What exactly do you have? Your ex-husband dumped you like a big snot, and you have a son who is addicted to drugs, and the house was bought with kickbacks.

People, you can't look back, because not only the past is unbearable, but there is nothing to show now, in the future? I don't know what's later.

After all these years, why did I have nothing?

I walked aimlessly, not asking about the future, not wanting to go back, not feeling cold. I don't want to go home, when I used to live in a rented house with Huaiping, I thought, looking at the buildings in this city, the lights are lit at night, I think, which day which light is specially lit for me, lit for me?

Now that I have a home, I have bought a house, and I light the lights in every room by myself, but why do I still feel that it is not my home?

But is it considered that there is a home with a man?

Can't you live without a man?

Yes!

Didn't the old lady live well for so many years?!

Is it really good?

I do not know.

The wind, wrapped in the night, blew the hearts of the people cold.

Who doesn't want a home? Who said it had to be a man? Does the heart have to have a sustenance? But why not? Isn't life just a thought!

Without such a thought, what hope and strength do people have in life?

It's not that I can't live without men. I don't have to be a man. I was just...... I'm just looking for a partner, just looking for someone to keep each other warm, can't I? Is it excessive?

A man stood at the street lamp in the distance, and the light covered him from top to bottom, like Jesus.

I also freeze, I know who he is.

He has great powers in this city, and his hands and eyes reach the heavens.

What he wanted could have been laid out a long time ago, he ......

He walked towards me, closer, little by little, closer. His embrace was so warm, with the vitality of a person, the warmth of a vague kind.