Chapter 22: The Breakdown of Friendship (2)
The wounds left behind, even if they are healed, will still leave scars, lose their hearts, and the love they have given will fade away with the passage of timeγγγγγγ
The spring wind is very soft, it kisses everything on the earth freely, the trees in the campus are sprouting, the flowers are blooming, waiting for her flower season, the music teacher's building is surrounded by cherry blossoms, walking under the cherry blossom trees, I suddenly have a kind of, "Suddenly like a night of spring breeze, thousands of trees and pear blossoms bloom." "Look, no, when the wind blows, the leaves of the cherry blossom trees stretch out, tender and oily, and give spring a beautiful new dress.
Looking at everything in the world, it is so full of vitality, my mood is also better, yes, sometimes, I feel that I am tied up too tightly, out of breath, when I and the stars and they pass the music building again, I feel as if something is missing in my heart, I am thinking, since Xiaoping went, we all become less talkative, Xiaoping is the pistachio of all of us, is a laughing star, she is so calm in the face of death, so calm. Speaking of Xiaoping, I remembered Xiaoping's lover Awen, a simple and honest boy, both for two years, she is still like that, continue to do his work, or buy flowers, do all kinds of part-time jobs, after Xiaoping left, he was sad for a long time, I and Xing They have been to Xiaoping's house several times, and they have seen Awen, Awen has been taking care of Xiaoping's parents, fortunately, thanks to Awen, Xiaoping's parents are not so lonely, and they also treat Awen as their own son.
The family is living a good life, and they are quite happy.
A gust of wind blew, blowing the leaves rustling next to the lawn, and Xing and Xiaomei and I lay quietly on the lawn, enjoying the soft sunlight, the sun shining on our bodies, warm and comfortable.
Xing suddenly asked, "Sorrow, what is your dream?" "Dreams?" I said calmly, and Xing nodded and said, "Yes, Xiaomei, what about yours?" β
Xiaomei was silent for a while and said, "My dream is to build a small house by the sea, live happily with my family and lover." "Xiaomei fantasizes longingly, her ocean home.
Xing smiled and said, "Okay, it's good to have such a dream, Xiaomei, don't you want to be a housewife with a good wife and mother?" Xiaomei didn't feel embarrassed, she smiled and replied, "There's nothing wrong with it." β
Xiaomei glanced at me and said, "Worry, what about you, what is your dream." "Dream, I think it's a familiar and unfamiliar word, since I was a child, I don't know mine, what a dream is, as if in my life, I can't find what I really like to do, when I was a child, my dream was to beat away Yu Fang's vixen, when I grew up, I really didn't know what I should do, I smiled and said, "I don't have a dream." β
Hoshi and Mei looked at me with strange eyes, "Don't you have a dream?" No, each of us has something we want to do. Star said to me. I looked at the stars and said, "Don't be surprised, because I don't know where I'm going, and I don't have anything in particular I want to do." It's sad, people like me. Xiaomei said, "How can it be, I think it's very good, you have adoptive parents who love you, and you have such a handsome brother, and there are so many people around you who care about you, such as Senior Haoran." When Xiaomei said this, her heart was sour.
Xing ripped off Xiaomei's sleeve and signaled her tone of voice, I looked at it and pretended not to see it, I know that Xiaomei is a little prejudiced against me because of Brother Haoran, this is normal, human nature, I smiled reluctantly, and didn't speak again, I know that if I say something at this time, Xiaomei will misunderstand, love is a matter of two people, not something I can decide alone, I can't decide anyone's future, I don't even know what to do with my own future, how can I have spare time to care about others.
Xing saw that Xiaomei and I were silent, she hurriedly changed the topic and said, "I think I used to be very stupid, you must be very strange, why didn't I see Ouyang Ze in front of you recently." Xiaomei and I asked in unison, "Why?" Xing paused and said, "Because I figured it out, that saving was originally a dream, and it was a dream when it was time to wake up, not a dream?" "Yes, it's time to wake up from a dream." I repeat what Star said.
Xing then said, "Now that I've thought about it clearly, I feel that I have a kind of fascination with Ouyang Ze, a kind of appreciation for his appearance, and I know that when I met Ziqian, I understood the truth. "Speaking of Ziqian, it is necessary to introduce, Ziqian's full name is Lin Ziqian, the same as my previous surname, he is a friend of Sister Xing, since he went to Xing's house to meet Xing, he has been stalking Xing every day, and finally our star was conquered by him in this way, Ziqian Daxing is five years old, already working, is a doctor, looks like Brother Haoran, gentle and elegant.
When talking about Ziqian, Xing's face was filled with a happy smile, I looked at her and said, "Xiaomei, you see, Xing was completely conquered by that kid, you said that he robbed our Xing, we should settle this account with him, right?" Xiaomei also chimed in, "Yes, Xing, you asked him out that day, we only heard you say that he was good, and we haven't seen him." "Yes, Xing, you asked him out that day, and we all got together that day, and the ugly son-in-law always had to see his family, oh, Xiaomei, right." I turned Xiaomei's hand upside down and motioned for her to 'clean up' the stars together.
The sun on the horizon is home, we should go back, that day, we played on the grassland for a long time before going back, that time we talked about a lot of things, just the three of us, Xing, Xiaomei and me, who knows that after that time, the three of us really can't get together, the remaining three golden flowers have been completely separated, I don't know if there is a chance to get together again, although the mutilation is also a kind of beauty, but I think the lack of people in life can be trusted, what a sad thing.
Time flows through our fingertips, it has been almost a month since the beginning of school, the cherry blossoms on campus are the most brilliant, pink, white, competing for beauty, students have taken pictures under the cherry blossoms to keep a memory, the cherry blossoms have become a beautiful scenery, and it has also become a romantic place for those young couples to date.
Looking at the little couples under the cherry blossoms, they laughed so happily, and their whole bodies exuded the smell of youth, I was thinking, am I a little abnormal, I am very slow about love, and I don't want to pay attention to it, because I don't think there will be true love in the world, I am afraid of love, I am afraid of marriage, I think of my mother's tragic life, those emotional seeds that germinated in my heart, were murdered in my heart, just like my good impression of Brother Yu, after a long time, I forgot about it.
Unconsciously, I walked to the cherry blossoms of the music building, the cherry blossoms are full of branches, like a fairy who has feathered and ascended to the fairy, swaying in the wind, there is no one under the cherry blossom tree, quietly, I put down my schoolbag, sit on the ground casually, a gust of breeze blows, pink petals like fairy ribbons, flying in the air, how to look, like a dancing girl, the style is excellent, people can't leave the eyes.
The petals slowly fell and landed on my head, and I picked up the petals, sighed and said, "Flowers are beautiful, but they are short-lived." Looking at the pink petals, I thought of Lin Daiyu, and I thought of her "Funeral Flower Yin" and I recited it gently,
Flowers and flowers are flying all over the sky, who has mercy on the red incense?
The gossamer is soft and fluttering, and the flocculent is lightly stained with the embroidery curtain.
The daughter in the boudoir cherishes the spring twilight, and is full of sorrow and has nowhere to complain;
Hand hoe the flowers out of the embroidery curtain, endure the falling flowers back and forth.
The willow silk elm pod is from Fangfei, regardless of Tao Piao and Li Fei; Taoli can be sent again next year, who will know in the boudoir next year?
The incense nest in March has been built, and the swallows between the beams are too ruthless!
Although the flower hair can be pecked next year, it will not be poured into the empty nest of the beam.
Three hundred and sixty days a year, the wind, frost and sword are strictly pressing;
When can the bright and fresh beauty be, it is difficult to find it once adrift.
Flowers are easy to see and difficult to find, and the front of the steps is sad to kill and bury the flower people;
Alone sprinkled tears with a flower hoe, and sprinkled empty branches to see blood marks.
The cuckoo was speechless at dusk, and the hoe returned to cover the door;
The green light shines on the wall, and the cold rain knocks on the window and is not warm.
Blame the slave for hurting the gods? Half for the pity of the spring and half of the annoyed spring;
The pity of the spring suddenly disappeared with annoyance, and then there was no word to hear.
Last night, the sad song outside the court was released, do you know that it is the soul of a flower and the soul of a bird?
The soul of the flower and the soul of the bird are always difficult to keep, and the bird is speechless and the flower is ashamed;
May the slave have wings under his ribs, and fly with the flowers to the end of the sky.
At the end of the day, where is the incense hill?
If you don't collect the beautiful bones, you can cover the wind with a pinch of pure land;
The essence is clean and clean, which is better than dirt and ditches.
Now that Nong is dead and buried, I don't know when Nong will be mourned?
Nong is burying flowers and laughing idiots, who does he know when he buries Nong?
Try to see the remnants of spring flowers gradually falling, that is, when the red face dies of old age;
Once the spring is full of red faces, the flowers fall and people die without knowing!
A song "Funeral Flower Song" came out of my mouth, I closed my clear eyes, there was a trace of sadness in my heart, I only felt that the wind was blowing again, the birds were singing, the petals were falling, and I also felt that someone was coming towards meγγγγγγ