"Come with me, Sister Qi, let me take care of you!"

I wanted to promise him, but I was shouldering Daxiang and my family, how could I be so selfish, I rejected him, and I drove him back.

Probably because I was too confident in the relationship between myself and Zhao Ling, a few years later, when I came back to see him, there were other women around him, and he also fell in love with someone else. I regret it, I really regret it, if I could have left everything with him at that time, would everything have been different?

Life in the harem of Yan Kingdom is far more difficult than I imagined, I don't have anyone to rely on, I don't have anyone to trust, although you are the queen of Yan Kingdom, but I have to be careful every day of my life. I didn't want to conceive a child, so I had to drink sterilization pills.

And the concubines in Queen Yan's palace are especially simple characters, in order to survive, I am no longer me, my hands are stained with blood, I can kill the people who stand in my way without mercy.

In the palace of the Yan Kingdom, I met Chu Moyan and made an agreement with him, I used my influence on the Yan Emperor to help him become the crown prince, and after he ascended the throne, he would return my freedom.

At that time, Emperor Yan was seriously ill, and I wanted to be free too much, I wanted to return to Zhao Ling's side, everything was in a hurry, I think Emperor Yan suggested that Chu Moyan be the crown prince, but he didn't expect to bring disaster to Chu Moyan, and he was finally sent to Daxiang as a hostage.

offended the prince, my life became more and more difficult, fortunately, Emperor Yan survived that time, with him, the prince still didn't dare to touch me.

Time flies and yet it goes so long.

When I was in Yan Kingdom, I could often hear Zhao Ling's name, and his name as the god of war became louder and louder, I relied on waiting for Zhao Ling's latest news and war situation as a spiritual pillar, and fantasized that if I was with Zhao Ling after I got free, would he dislike me? I also feel a little hesitant and uneasy.

It's been six years since I returned to the Zijin Palace because of the Queen Mother's birthday again, and the thought of seeing him again makes me excited and nervous.

I didn't expect that the result of the six years I was looking forward to would be that he looked at another woman with a tender gaze that even I had never received, my heart ached, I was not reconciled, how could he not love me?

I met him secretly, I didn't believe he would stop loving me, I kissed him, but the response was so cold.

He said that he was not in love with me, he treated me like a sister, and he loved another woman, and that woman was his wife.

This is simply Ling Chi to me, how can he be so cruel to me?

He destroyed all my hopes and illusions with his own hands. What do I depend on to survive in my future?

I can't believe this ending, I believe that Zhao Ling still loves me, even if he is self-deceiving. Because if I don't even have the slightest illusion, what's the point of my life?

I saw his wife, a beautiful woman, but what was there about me that was not as good as her? I will intentionally or unintentionally mention my past with Zhao Ling, I saw the doubts and injuries in her eyes, at that time, my heart was quite happy, that is the so-called revenge.

Although it was difficult for me to make myself like Murong Xun, I didn't expect that our relationship would reach the point of life and death later.

The prince will not let go, Zhao Ling saved me, I deliberately blocked a sword for Zhao Ling, I hope that no matter when, he can remember me.

I returned to Yan Kingdom, but this time there was a lot more despair and helplessness in my heart. For Zhao Ling, if he is just affectionate to me, but I have real love for him, how can he disdain it after getting my heart?

At the end of the day, I didn't do anything wrong, and I was just a victim of fate.

Soon after I returned to Yan, Wei went to war with Da Xiang, and I was very worried when I heard the news, because he would go to war at all, although the battlefield made him famous, but the sword had no eyes, and I was very worried that he would be harmed.

And soon after, Chu Moyan also returned to Yan Kingdom, and Emperor Yan's condition became more and more serious, if Chu Moyan could ascend the throne as soon as possible, and Emperor Yan also died, would I be free, I would no longer be the queen of a country, no longer someone else's wife, I could not rest assured to love Zhao Ling, at that time there would be no more obstacles between us.

But things often go unexpectedly. Chu Moyan defeated the crown prince, but I didn't get the freedom I wanted as promised, and Emperor Yan didn't die so quickly, so I had to stay and take care of this man in my name.

And at the end of the matter, Zhao Ling actually came to Yan Kingdom, who did he come for? Is it for me or for Murong Xun?

I thought that after the prince's matter was resolved, the world would be peaceful, but I didn't expect that Zhao Ling was still in danger, and I was worried that I would hardly be able to sleep peacefully, so I went to visit him desperately, but the result was his cold-spoken attention.

Am I wrong? Am I really wrong? Why did he treat me like this? I'm just a little woman pursuing my love, why is everything like this? I looked at Murong Xun coldly, all this, all this was caused by her, if it weren't for her, Zhao Ling wouldn't have treated me like this, Zhao Ling loved me, all of this was harmed by her, if it wasn't for her, Zhao Ling would definitely continue to love me.

After returning to the palace, Chu Moyan actually put me under house arrest, and she also wanted to tell me the identity to pay attention to, hehe, I just thought it was funny, didn't he know my relationship with Zhao Ling? Didn't you say it a long time ago? Why did he say that about me? This villain who has gone back on his word, he deserves to die, really deserve to die!

Soon after, Zhao Ling and Murong Xun left, I don't know if this is the last time I see Zhao Ling, every day with a man I don't love, my life is completely plunged into despair and darkness.

I have never felt that the days are so difficult, and after that, I not only want to hear news from Zhao Ling, but I am also afraid to hear anything about him, because any news about him will only make me more desperate.

However, what really made me lose hope in life was the news of Zhao Ling's death.

He's dead! He's dead!

The heart is like a knife cut by a person, and even every breath is painful.

But he died, but Murong Xun was still alive. Why is he dead, but Murong Xun is still alive?

Not only did she live, but she also got Chu Moyan's heart, did she want to save Zhao Ling from following Chu Moyan who betrayed Zhao Ling so much?

Why, why can she get a man's heart so easily, why does she easily abandon Zhao Ling's heart?

I don't allow it, I don't have a reason to want to live, but I can't watch that after Zhao Ling died, Murong Xun was able to live so peacefully.

I know that Yu Fen also hates Murong Xun, and I just want to join forces with Yu Fen to go out to Murong Xun.

I can use Yu Fen, and I can't forgive Chu Moyan, I'm so crazy that I want to destroy everything.

Murong Xun stepped into the coffin with one foot again and again, but Chu Moyan pulled her back again and again.

I gave Yu Fen a packet of poison, this poison can make Chu Moyan leave the capital, so this time, I will not let Murong Xun have another chance to live.

Could it be that Murong Xun really shouldn't be killed? I couldn't kill her again and again, and she's still alive.

In the end, my cooperation with Zuo Ci also ended in failure, in fact, failure and success are no different for me, I am just unwilling.

Chu Moyan wants to kill me, let him be, maybe my life should have ended a long time ago. My body is dirty, but my heart is clean, maybe in another world, I will find Zhao Ling, I am still the simple me six years ago, we will love each other in that world.

At the last moment of my life, I seemed to see a kind of dawn, with a smile on the corner of my mouth, and left without any regrets.