At that time, it was as if there was paste in her brain, as long as she wanted to work hard, it was as if someone was grabbing the paste in it, and she couldn't meditate at all, and even wanted to read a book, and she couldn't even hold on for ten minutes.

What else could she say, all kinds of words to motivate herself, all kinds of realities were placed in front of her eyes, but she wanted to work hard and want to act, but her body was completely invigorated.

What is she afraid of, what is she afraid of, the future is not realized in fantasy, it requires practical action, people who are better looking than her and richer are working harder than her, she just puts her own efforts out, saying how hard she has, in fact, only she knows whether she is working hard or not, she is hiding her ears and stealing the bell, is it someone else who deceives! No, it's yourself who deceives.

Deceive herself, the days and time will pass non-stop, and the final consequences will be borne by herself, no one will bear it for her, they will let her know how stupid and messy things are finding her at this time.

Sometimes when people are unlucky, drink cold water and stuff their teeth, if she does not solve the crisis in front of her, more and more things will come to her in the future, many things are squeezed together, and eventually she will form a mountain that she can't bear, and her waist will be broken.

Why is it that when you are young and frivolous, you can't bow to reality when you get to the back, and all your life is fought for by yourself, this sentence is not bad at all, do you really work hard! I really went all out, not just to show the illusion that I worked hard like outsiders!

There are some force majeure reasons, who can say that they do not have a trace of slackness.

Life is like a nurturing game, and the choices you make in front of you will determine the outcome in the future.

Whether it's a dragon or a worm, think about what kind of life you don't want the most.

Don't be influenced by all external forces for the sake of the previous result.

When Su Hua arrived at the restaurant, she bought a spicy soup, three pairs of fried dough sticks, and a tea egg, and packed them back to eat.

On the way back, she looked at the crisp Sijiqing in the surrounding flower beds, as if she had returned to her own campus, at that time she was still an ignorant little girl who had just entered the university, she remembered that she liked a boy at work, she couldn't remember what his name was, but she remembered that she fell in love with him at first sight, she had a crush on each other, and watched him be with other girls for four years, to break up, and then to his pursuit of other girls, Su Hua didn't have the courage to say it, during the internship, he had already made up his mind to confess, But in the end, he looked at his figure and never said the love hidden in his heart, if he was given a chance, Su Hua would probably not be able to say the result, because she had too many problems at that time, her mouth was covered with the sky, her back was a little hunchbacked, and when she walked, her classmates said that she was like an old woman, obviously she consciously corrected it, but the bones seemed to be stereotyped, and it was not so easy to straighten up and carry it, this problem Su Hua wanted to correct very much, that is, she was afraid that she would be old, the back will bend into a small arch bridge.

At that time, she was worried about too many things, she couldn't calm her heart, now it's different, but she is afraid that these problems are still with her, she wants to correct it very much, not for anyone, just for herself.

She is not great, as long as she lives her little life well, can she really endure loneliness! She used to be a writer for a while, so she rented a hut by herself, she stayed in it all day, without contact with anyone, facing mobile phones, computers, and four little hamsters bought because of her loneliness, she had completely isolated herself, isolated the outside world, regardless of anyone's opposition, in order to be successful, but she later found out that she was harmed by her own procrastination, obviously she could succeed, but she let her procrastination ruin everything.

In the end, she couldn't eat, couldn't pay the rent, and was kicked out, so she really had no choice but to borrow money from her parents and find another job, so she barely survived.

Su Hua remembered that at that time, it was the most gloomy time for herself, at that time she even thought about dying, but life still has to go on, people only have one life, and it was not easy to come to the world, there is one more person like her, not everyone has this good luck, it is not easy for her to live until now, there is no hurdle that cannot be passed, she will definitely be able to get through the difficulties.

She plucked up the courage to continue living, she found a job as a customer service, including food and shelter, barely allowing herself to survive, no longer starving and no longer wandering outside, she was a girl, it was really unsafe outside, she was going somewhere at that time, because she was close to the school, she touched the school's classroom to spend the night temporarily, it was still safe there, and there would be no ill-intentioned people to harass her, but she had to leave before dawn, and then sat in the school garden, waiting for the sky to slowly brighten, Looking back on himself at that time, Su Hua felt that he was really very strong, and he never thought that he would be able to persevere.

She could have lived her life like this, without worrying about food and clothing, but her stupidity caused her miserable scene that day, if she hadn't worked harder, for the sake of her own future, it would not have caused today's consequences, in other people's words, others would say that she was useless This child is not saved, even when she called her parents to borrow money, their tone revealed endless disappointment, obviously it is the age when they should be sensible, they have to be human, and finally they don't even have a place to live, that day she remembered that she was hungry and had a stomachacheSmelling the fragrance wafting from the canteen not far away, she was tormented every minute and every second.

She cried that day and didn't cry out loud, the feeling of despair alone made her feel the extreme, and she was afraid to return to the helpless life at that time.

People sometimes love to do it, she was already an adult at that time, the path she chose, what kind of consequences she cared, it was her own, she couldn't complain about anyone, she cried and cried and laughed, laughed at her stupidity, laughed at herself for cutting off her back road, laughed at herself for not having any support behind her, she couldn't even go home, she went home at that time, it was a joke, she couldn't go back to home, Su Hua still didn't understand it before, what is the meaning of this sentence, is it so bitter outside, why can't you go home, When she went home, she not only had food but also shelter, but when she thought of her family's disappointed eyes, she refused to go back even if she was at a dead end.

She shook her head, not letting herself think about it anymore, her eyes had begun to slowly moisten, if she cried on the road, her classmates would still think that she had fallen out of love, or something.

She lowered her head, didn't want anyone to see the tears flashing in her eyes, didn't want anyone to see the weakness in her heart, returned to the dormitory, Su Hua put the spicy soup on her desk, opened the plastic bag, broke the fritters into pieces and threw them into the spicy soup, she ate and ate, the tears still slipped down involuntarily, dripping into the spicy soup in front of her, she ate the fritters, with a wry smile on the corner of her mouth, what the hell is wrong with her, how the older she gets, the easier it is for her to feel and shed tears.

Is she distressed about herself at that time, she seems to have returned to that night, she hid in the grass with her suitcase, looked at the night sky through the gaps in the leaves, there was not a star in the sky that night, even the moon was covered by dark clouds, the surroundings were dark, she was most afraid of the dark, and only she hid in the grass to seek a little comfort, she didn't care whether there were insects or spiders in the grass, she had no choice at all, there were countless multiple choice questions placed in front of her, But she didn't know how to cherish it, and in the end, she had to end up like this.

Su Hua, is she really pitiful? It is said that poor people must have something to hate, and I am afraid that it is people like her.

She still has countless choices in front of herself, although she is helping others to live her own life, but her life is not her life, she should not think about other people's lives, she should experience her own life experience.

What she can do is to live her own life, live all her life, everyone deserves to be treated well, the original owner is like Su Hua, they have no way to live their life well, they are afraid that Su Hua will procrastinate like herself, while obviously thinking about how hard to work, but in the end, she still has to get by, and she never really pursues the life she wants to live.

What kind of life does she want to live, at least not the status quo, the life she wants is to have a house of her own, raise a cat or dog, and finally take her parents to the house, as well as eat and dress without worry, and occasionally during the holidays, she can also take her parents to travel and climb the mountains, see the scenery of various places, just to be able to live every day, every day without regrets.

But now it's just thinking about it, but one day, she will definitely fulfill her wish and live the life she wants to live without being bound by anything.

Unconsciously, she finished eating all the things in her bowl, she packed up some things, put them in a bag, and when she went out later, she could throw the garbage out, Su Hua wiped her tears, she got up and went out to the faucet, washed her face, and made herself look refreshed.

Su Hua still had a smile on his face when he went back, "Can you call me when you leave?" I'll go to the classroom with you."

Although several roommates were a little reluctant, they still agreed to let Su Hua go with them.

Su Hua took her mobile phone, and the garbage followed them, at the door of the dormitory building was a row of trash cans, and she threw the garbage inside, because there were no books, they didn't have books to take now.

There were a lot of people around, most of them went to class together, Su Hua glanced at it, and felt as if he was a lot younger.

She really envies these children who are still on campus, they don't know how to cherish when they are in school, and when they leave, they don't know how beautiful the campus is, they don't have to think about having no money to ask their parents, if they want to spend their own money, they can also do part-time work, they can spend forty or fifty yuan a day, they can buy whatever they want, and they don't have to think about saving money at all. Countless problems were all confronted before she could solve a single problem.

There is very little Su Hua can do, she has no strength to deal with it, and the only way to encounter problems is to escape, but evasion can't solve any problems.

How cruel the reality is, she has despair, how helpless she is, fortunately, all the suffering will not always patronize her, as long as she wants to get better, as long as she is willing to work hard and be motivated, luck will naturally patronize her, this world is starving no one, only the kind of person who hides and pretends to be confused is self-defeating.

The harder you work, the luckier you are, the saying is true, no one wants to listen to another person, Rory, and at the same time complain that nothing can be solved, the problem can only be solved by itself, and no one can help.

Su Hua now deeply understands that as long as he is strong, there is no way to go.