230 First snow
"Brother, what's wrong with you? Today looks like a whim. On the tree-lined path, Beifan couldn't help but sigh, in fact, Beichen's state made Fan feel an indescribable distress.
Bei Chen's dark circles were very heavy, and there was an indescribable tiredness on that side face.
Even though He Beichen often has such a situation, in Fan's opinion, this time the tiredness is really unusual. The boy sighed silently again, and then grabbed his brother's arm.
Even though Fan's strength was not great, He Beichen still couldn't help sighing. Beifan seemed to understand something, and hurriedly let go of his hand.
"What's wrong? Does it hurt? He Beifan looked at Chen with some distress. Bei Chen didn't speak, he just pursed his lips, and there was a stoic attitude on that cheek that he had never had before. This made Beifan more and more angry.
"I said, what's going on? Ze Zhixun bastard, did he beat you? Fan tilted his head to the side impatiently, which seemed to be the worst thing the boy had heard in recent times.
"Hmm." He muttered rather faintly, as if such a small injury didn't matter to him. Fan naturally didn't know that his brother's arm was drawn by Ze Zhixun with a belt, but he didn't say anything in the end.
"Because of what? Wouldn't they be going too far? The more He Beifan spoke, the more angry he became, and his brows couldn't help frowning.
"Why? What are you doing wrong again? "Beifan often feels anxious about his brother, and even more so now.
"Nope." He Beichen looked careless, "I didn't do anything wrong, probably, it's just that he doesn't like me, that's all." The boy said very lightly, in fact, Beichen didn't think there was anything.
Because in the heart of the teenager, this family has long been gone. Its demise was not due to the remarriage of its mother, Xie Lan, it had died long before that.
"He doesn't like you?" He Beifan felt that such a reason was ridiculous, "Then can he do this to anyone who doesn't like it?" Really, it doesn't make sense. ”
The more Fan spoke, the more angry he became, Ruoze Zhixun appeared in front of him now, and Beifan felt that he had the heart to strangle him.
"It's okay, Fan, that's it, I really don't want to worry about it anymore." He Beichen sighed deeply when he said this, and it could be seen that he was really helpless.
But obviously, He Beifan doesn't think so. His edges and corners have not yet been smoothed out by the world, and he is therefore full of hostility to such an unfair thing.
"Are you alright?" Fan glanced at Beichen fiercely, "Why is it okay?" Brother, you are too weak. Bei Fan shrugged helplessly as he spoke.
He Beichen is excellent, but in the eyes of Fan, he is so cowardly, "Don't you have no hands and feet?" Won't fight back? As he spoke, his tone became more and more cold. He Beifan really couldn't understand why his brother was so hesitant because of such a trivial matter.
Bei Chen didn't say anything, he just stared blankly at the dead branches and leaves that he had stepped on under his feet, and the cold wind gusts of December hit him.
Chen closed his eyes, he was really tired. He should have taken a good rest instead of thinking about it so tiredly.
"Brother, can you look like a man, you see that you are a nest now." The more Bei Fan spoke, the more he gritted his teeth, frowned, and became more and more dissatisfied with Chen's performance.
"What's so great about him? Can't you beat him? He kicked him down twice. The more He Beifan said, the more disproportionate he became.
"Fan." Bei Chen's expression was extremely painful at this moment, "No matter how I say it, I can't do anything to him, he is my titular stepfather." No matter how much I can't accept it, it's a foregone conclusion. ”
Bei Chen saw it very openly, and he didn't struggle without it. He resisted, but it didn't help, and it made him feel even more miserable.
"Brother...... Beifan bit his lower lip tightly, "Can you not just think about Xie Lan." She doesn't care about your feelings at all, so why do you still live like this. ”
He Beifan couldn't help but turn his face sideways to look at him. Although Beichen was about the same age as him, he looked obviously much more melancholy than Fan. Perhaps, this is the temperament of Beichen itself.
"Fan, she's my mother, so what else do you think I can do?" He Beichen looked very sad, and he raised his thin cheeks.
A few sparkling snowflakes fell on the boy's nose. Beichen loves snow, and when he was a child, he always liked to open his palms to catch snow. Even now.
Bei Chen slowly stretched out his hand, feeling the temperature of the snowflakes falling on his palm. Presumably, this is the first snow of the year. The fluttering snowflakes look very light.
In the past, when the snow first fell, He Beifan would seem very excited, but today is really an exception. Seeing that my brother was so unhappy, Fan couldn't keep his spirits up.
"Brother." He Beifan's brows furrowed slightly, and he couldn't help but call him, "I think you should really find a chance to have a good talk with your aunt, it's really not a problem for you to go on like this, what do you think?" ”
Fan began to actively look for a solution, but at this time, Beichen was numb. Actually, he didn't plan to solve it, maybe it was an escape. However, Beichen really couldn't find the courage to solve it.
"No, there's no need for that." Bei Chen's tone sounded very light, but it was actually full of too much helplessness, "If she does this, it shows that she doesn't care about my feelings at all." In that case, why should I talk to her? ”
Unconsciously, He Beichen began to speak frustrating words again. At school during the day, he looked normal, but no one knew how uncomfortable the teenager felt at night.
"So what do you mean? If you don't tell her, she'll never know how sad you are. He Beifan pursed his lips inadvertently, he really didn't want to see his brother suffer such grievances, but Beichen didn't think so.
He seems to be accustomed to it, so all this is nothing in the eyes of the young man.
"What does she know? What if she doesn't know? Is there any essential difference? There was a chilling coldness in his eyes.
"I don't need her to know it, I think I'm alive and well." Bei Chen's eyes suddenly turned a little red, even if he didn't know why.
"Want to escape?" The snow was getting heavier and heavier, He Beifan frowned, and couldn't help but ask such a question, but Beichen didn't know how to answer him.
"If you want to escape, but can you escape if you want to?" Since Bei Chen laughed, his laughter was really too bitter, so that Fan couldn't bear to look at him again.
yes, I want to escape but I really can't seem to escape, it's ridiculous to think about. Why did any unlucky thing fall on him He Beichen.
The Buddha said that all living beings are suffering, and everyone has their own troubles. However, why, Beichen felt that his life was extremely bitter. It's not that he doesn't want to escape, but where can he escape?
Beifan suddenly stopped talking, he couldn't help but stop, and stood there blankly looking at the snow.
The first snow tonight was exceptionally beautiful, and the cold snowflakes and the cold wind smashed on the boy's face, but it also lost its original beauty, and it was scattered everywhere in confusion under the dusk.
After a long time, Bei Fan seemed to remember something, "Brother, do you want to go back to the new house today?" He looked at Chen quite sincerely, with an indescribable worry.
He Beichen seemed to be in a kind of contemplation, and when Fan asked him this, he was obviously stunned, and then he became careless, "Yes, otherwise where else can I go?" ”
There was an obvious hint of helplessness in his tone, Bei Fan had already sensed it, but he didn't know how to comfort him.
"Then ......" He Beifan pursed his lips and looked a little stammering, "Otherwise, you don't want to go back to the new house today, you can go home with me." ”
He looked at Bei Chen distressedly, thinking that this was a good idea, "How about it?" Do you want to go back with me? At that time, they had already walked to the courtyard of Beichen's new home.
In this small urban area, such a small villa is really magnificent, but unfortunately, Beichen doesn't like it at all, the space here is large.
But the space that belonged to him alone was too narrow, Bei Chen's eyes were very dull, he didn't look at his brother's face, but there was some indescribable melancholy and sadness.
"No need, I'll go back here." The boy's voice in the wind and snow couldn't help but tremble a little, "Even if I escape, I won't be able to escape for a few days, I'll still come back, won't I?" ”
He pretended not to care at all and smiled at Beifan, then took a step forward and waved his hand.
Bei Chen saw that he was about to go in, and Bei Fan couldn't help but call him, "Brother." His voice was so small that it couldn't even compare to the whirring of the cold wind.
But Beichen still heard it, and the young man stopped, "What's wrong?" He looked at his brother's face, and it turned a little pale.
Fan opened his mouth, and he wanted to say something, but he didn't open his mouth. Bei Chen seemed to see Fan's concern, he waved at him, and then smiled bitterly, "It's okay, I'm fine, you don't have to worry about me." Then he turned and walked into the courtyard of his new home.
But He Beifan didn't leave, he stood there in a daze in the cold wind, and unconsciously there were more crystal objects in the corners of his eyes.
What Fan didn't know was that Beichen didn't go home either, he just walked a few steps into the courtyard and stopped. The boy couldn't help but look at the new-style building.
The lights were still on, and it looked like the mother and the man had returned. Bei Chen sighed softly, and actually sat down on the wooden chair next to him, and the accumulation of thin snow immediately soaked his school uniform. The young man's eyes were full of melancholy, and he didn't know why it was so difficult to walk with just a few steps.
Xuehua couldn't see Beichen's sorrow at all, it seemed to be at ease in the north wind howling, time passed minute by minute, and the whole town became a world of pink makeup.