"You care about how I feel?"

When Mo Nian heard this, she was still indifferent, and she said, "It's okay. The truth is, I don't feel any accusations, I don't perceive any negative emotions, and I don't feel panicked even if you question me like I did at the amusement park. ”

"So, you just have to tell the truth, back then...... What I've done to you, you can tell me with pleasure. ”

After a pause, Mo Nian looked at Ji Shisheng, and his voice was flat: "For example, you are Shi Sheng." ”

"Ji Qingmo told you?" Ji Shisheng's tone was a little more surprised.

After learning that Mo Nian had amnesia, he naturally wouldn't think that Mo Nian remembered him before he said this.

"It was Yu Zhilian who said it."

Mo Nian said: "When he called your name, I always felt that the accent was a little strange, so I asked him, and he replied to me that he didn't call you Shi Sheng, but Shi Sheng." ”

"It turned out to be Yu Er...... Indeed, Shi Sheng is the name I used when I was a child, and my hair is called me so, just as I privately call Yu Zhilian Yu Er. ”

Ji Shisheng muttered, and couldn't help frowning.

In this way, Ji Qingmo didn't seem to want Mo Nian to know about Shi Sheng, otherwise he would definitely bring it up.

Don't you want Mo Nian to remember the past, afraid that he will retaliate, and be wary of him?

"That's it, since you even know this, there's no need to hide it from you, let alone ......"

Ji Shisheng looked at Mo Nian, his eyes were slightly complicated, with a trace of unbearable, but there was a deep resentment and hatred in his bones: "I have borne this matter alone for too long, if you forget all the mistakes you have made, my heart will be very unbalanced." ”

"Hmm." Mo Nian replied calmly.

"You think I'm calculating, don't you?" Ji Shisheng said suddenly.

Mo Nian shook his head: "I don't know what I did to you back then, so I let you remember it until now, so I won't comment at will, let alone ...... Forgive or not, only the victim is willing, everyone's ability to bear is different, how to relieve hatred is also different, no matter what others say, it's just some cool words that don't hurt themselves. ”

When Ji Shisheng heard this, after being silent for a while, he turned his face to look at the busy scene outside the window, and his faint tone was mixed with a hint of melancholy: "If you say it so open-mindedly, aren't you afraid that I will really take revenge on you?" ”

"You're a good guy."

Mo Nian said: "I won't do things that shouldn't be done. ”

"Okay, don't send me a good person card again, Mo Nian, I'm not as good as you think!"

When Ji Shisheng heard the familiar sentence "You are a good person", he suddenly felt that the dull atmosphere went crookedly, he stopped the topic, and finally got to the point: "If you go out with your brain, you should guess that you left me in that fire." ”

"Hmm." Mo Nian nodded, although she had guessed it a long time ago, when she heard Ji Shisheng's admission, she couldn't help but glance at Ji Shisheng more.

It turned out that the voice in the dream was really not her fantasy.

But......

"I left you in that fire?"

Mo Nian really couldn't figure out this: "In my memory, I had reached the limit at that time, and I didn't have the strength to escape, it was my brother who rescued me at the last moment. ”

At that time, she was covered in injuries, not only on her head, but also on her body, and there were many wooden frames in the factory, which could not withstand falling after burning, so she was hit.

To this day, there are still some scars on her body that have not completely erased.

"I don't know who saved you."

When Ji Shisheng said this, his throat tightened a little: "I only remember that after you were rescued, you never came to save me, leaving me alone in the fire, if it wasn't for the timely arrival of Steward Zhuang, I am afraid that I would have died there before the fire brigade came." ”

To this day, when he closes his eyes, he can't forget the despair of that day.

The sky is full of fire, the throat that cannot make a cry for help eroded by the poisonous smoke, the loneliness of a person, the pain of being betrayed by Mo Nian......

"At first, I was still making excuses for you."

Ji Shisheng was silent for a while, and then continued: "Maybe you didn't have the strength to speak at that time, so you didn't tell others about my existence, maybe the person who saved you didn't have the strength to save me, so he could only leave me there...... After listening to what you just said, I know that you have amnesia, and I understand why you didn't come to me later, but ......"

"Why can you forget such an important thing?"

In Ji Shisheng's tone, there was involuntarily a little more pain, and he was more sad in his heart than complaining-

At that time, he and Mo Nian were better than anyone else, he thought that Mo Nian would definitely remember to come back to save him, even if he didn't have the strength at the time, he would definitely come afterwards!

So, with his serious injuries still unhealed, he escaped from the hospital and waited in the factory that had been reduced to ruins.

Day 1.

The first week.

The first month.

He struggled with the bodyguards at home and the nurses in the hospital every day, tried his best to escape, waited in the factory, and finally grinded his family to the point where he couldn't move, feeling sorry for his legs and unable to move, and doing such a dangerous thing, he had to compromise with him, and would take him to the factory after the treatment every day.

Until now, Ji Shisheng remembered that he was afraid that Mo Nian and himself would miss it, so he specially left a message in the ruins.

Although he complained that Mo Nian didn't save himself at the beginning, it didn't matter, wasn't Mo Nian powerless at that time?

But why, he waited for so long, and Mo Nian didn't come?

At the beginning, he was angry and expectant, Mo Nian was angry at him, but he also looked forward to Mo Nian meeting him again, I'm sorry, I don't need to say, but I must give him an explanation.

Later, it was panic and numbness, he found that Mo Nian seemed to have disappeared, he really didn't come, and his daily visit to the factory was like a joke, and the expectation in his heart faded, leaving only numbness.

In the end, he despaired.

He didn't wait.

Mo Nian really betrayed him.

Dumped him at the scene of the fire.

He walked away without looking back.

"You just said that it doesn't matter if you accuse you, right? Forgiveness or not forgiveness is the victim's business, right? ”

Ji Shisheng's voice was a little faster, "Mo Nian, I can't forgive you. Even if I know that you have amnesia, even if the reason for your amnesia is understandable, who will understand me? Who's going to ...... Help me? ”

In the last few words, Ji Shisheng's voice was hoarse.

yes, who's going to save him?

For so many years, he has never let go of his hatred for Mo Nian, precisely because he is still alive in the past, and he can't extricate himself from that burning factory!

"I've been waiting for you for half a year, and every day for half a year, I'll find time to go to that factory ruin, I can not accept psychological counseling, but I must go to that place, but I have never waited for you."

Ji Shisheng's eyes were red, and he looked at Mo Nian, "For a long time, I felt that I was a worthless person, even the person who used to be the best with me could abandon me in the next second!" How can such a me, who can be thrown away at any time, be considered a 'valuable' existence? ”

For Ji Shisheng, who was not yet twelve years old at the time, he felt like a ......

Existence that is not needed.