(Girls' Literature)

The illness in the body is always not getting better. It dragged on from spring to summer. I saw that the weather was getting hotter day by day. Appetite was originally bad. But it's worse than in the spring. If you eat a little food, you will vomit. The body is losing weight day by day. Even the snail bones on his wrists stood tall.

The whole person is sick. Not at all.

Neglect to dress up during illness. And I don't like to see people. But he became more and more emaciated. One day I saw the woman in the mirror. Even I was shocked. Busy covering the bronze mirror with something. This is what we call self-deception.

Yan Yi changed his way to send all kinds of food. But he still vomits as much as he eats. Only some sweet and sour fruits can be eaten. Sleepy all day. There is not a trace of spirit

The round table in the room was still full of all kinds of food. Ning'er and Qiaorui came in every now and then to take care of me. I looked feebly at the two women who were busy in the room. Suddenly. "Yingyan. I haven't seen her all day. ”

Ning Er said busily. "Look at my memory. The day of the sunflower water. It's not good on the body. I'm afraid that I won't serve my heart. Let me take a leave of absence for you on her behalf. But when I got busy, I forgot about it. It's really worth fighting. ”

"That being the case. Then let her rest. I nodded. No more questions. It's all women. Naturally, I know that such a thing is not allowed to be sloppy. I also understand it very well.

But suddenly I remembered it. I don't seem to have a monthly letter in a long time. Remember the last time I came......

Our eyes widened. Last time, it was after Kwai Shui and Yan Yi...... I was so shocked that I didn't feel sleepy at all.

It is said that after Kwai water, it is the most fertile people. Think about how your body reacts these days...... It won't be that coincidental. If you are really pregnant. Then I have been sick for a long time, and the doctors have come every day. How could it not be known.

For a while, I was frightened and afraid. Don't. It's Yan Yi.

I'm not an ignorant girl who doesn't know anything. After all, I was pregnant once. Naturally, I know something. I cursed myself for being careless. Vomiting and snooze these days thought it was a normal reaction to the change of seasons. I didn't pay much attention to it.

I resisted the shock in my heart. Turning his head to Ning Er, he said. "Is Zhao Langzhong here today?"

Ning'er said. "The princess's medicine is changed every three days. Zhao Langzhong only came yesterday. We will come back the day after tomorrow. Did the princess forget. ”

It has always been so. Fang was shocked and forgot about it. Ning'er said again. "The princess asked him in a good way. Is there something wrong? ”

I deliberately frowned. Make an uncomfortable appearance. Fortunately, I have been sick for a long time and my face is pale, so I don't have to work hard. I said. "I always feel uncomfortable today. Even so, don't bother Zhao Langzhong. Let's take a look at the doctor next to you. ”

Ning'er said nervously. "Where is the princess uncomfortable. Does it matter? ”

I pursed my lips and said nothing. Hold your abdomen tightly. The expression is painful.

Ning Er hesitated. "The princess's illness has always been taken care of by Zhao Langzhong. If you change others, I'm afraid that there will be a lot of inappropriateness. still invited Zhao Langzhong to come over. ”

I said. "Since Zhao Langzhong only came yesterday. It's not good to always trouble him. But if you say that, just pacing. ”

"Where's the princess?" Ning Er responded. I'm going out in a hurry.

"Wait." I called her urgently. admonished. "Don't tell him just yet."

Ning'er was stunned for a moment. I said again. "He's already that busy on the front lines. I don't want to mess with him here. ”

Ning'er smiled lightly. Nod vigorously.

There was silence in the room. I could clearly hear my heart beating stronger and stronger. It's still uncertain whether you're pregnant. I hope my conjecture isn't true. None of this is true.

Even if I keep getting sick like this. As long as I don't have a child of Yan Yi. As long as...... I won't see Jun Mochen again. I think I can still survive on my own.

There is only one Qiaorui left in the room. She was the youngest. So more often than not, Ning'er and Yingyan don't need her. She was standing on the side of the bed. Young in the end. I panicked and didn't know what to do. Blindly dry and anxious.

I said. "You go to the kitchen and boil a pot of water. Pour me a soup woman. ”

Qiao Rui was stunned and said with a look of surprise. "The princess wants the soup lady now."

And I don't blame her for being surprised. It's summer. It's hot. The soup woman is out of place. And I don't have to. It's just a reason to break her up.

I nodded. "Yes."

Qiao Rui did not dare to delay. Hurry to go. I was the only one in the room. I was a lot more relaxed.

Ning'er's speed is very fast. But the work of a cup of tea came back.

I was nervous. After a while, a thin layer of fine sweat appeared on his face. Coupled with a pale complexion and a deliberately pained expression. Zhao Langzhong's face became serious when he saw it. Hurriedly sat down to take the pulse.

Zhao Langzhong's brows gradually furrowed. There was a hint of doubt in his expression. After a while, he hesitated. "The princess is fine. Where are you unwell. ”

I frowned tightly. Said deliberately. "The pain in my stomach is unbearable."

"Abdominal pain." Ning'er, who followed behind her, was startled. I couldn't help but feel a little nervous.

Zhao Langzhong glanced at me. The fingers holding my wrist used a little more force. There are still doubts on his face. It took a long time before he slowly let go. "Miss Ning'er. You go with the old man to see the princess's medicinal food. ”

Ning'er looked at me worriedly. went out with Zhao Langzhong. As soon as the door closes. I hurriedly turned over and got home. The body is nervous. Trembling slightly. The legs are also soft and trembling. I almost couldn't stand and fell forward.

I pressed my palm over my lips. Don't let yourself make a little noise. They were in the cloister outside the door. I tried my best to calm myself down. Only then did I hear their voices faintly coming from me.

"How's the princess? But what's the big deal? I think it's quite serious. Again in the abdomen. You don't need to report to the general. It was Ning'er's voice.

"Hmm. It's a retribution. Otherwise, there is no way to cure the disease. ”

When Ning Er heard this, she immediately became anxious. What is this? What the hell is the princess sick. But the fetus in the womb was in trouble. You've just been diagnosed with something. Let's talk about it quickly. I can't do it in a hurry. ”

"Lovesickness."

……

Fetus in the womb.

It was as if something was exploding overhead. There was a buzz in my ears. It turned out to be true. Sure enough, I had his baby. He was hiding it from me.

The moment the conjecture was confirmed, it was like sprinkling a handful of salt on a bloody wound. The pain is unbearable.

I was so shocked that I retreated. Fell to the ground hard. At this time. The door opened. Qiaorui, who came in with the soup woman, was suddenly startled. Lost voice. "How the princess sat on the ground. But I never fell. ”

You can hear it. Ning Er and Zhao Langzhong hurriedly entered. I was also shocked when I saw me sitting on the ground.

If you are too careful, you will be exposed. I laughed in my heart. They make a fuss all the time. I didn't even realize it before. I wish this fall would have knocked the seed out of my stomach. It saved me a lot of effort.

But now that Yan Yi has the intention to hide it from me. His mind was already Sima Zhao's heart. Passers-by know it. It's clear that I want this child.

It's just that his approach is despicable. It made me even more angry. I was ruthless right away, even if I cost my own life, I didn't want this child.

A woman can be seen. When you love someone, you can be willing to live and die together. When he decided, he would rather lose his life than be wronged. But men. Never know what a woman wants.

At the moment, he looked up at the three people in front of him quietly. Laughing self-deprecatingly. "I'm so unwell. Zhao Langzhong said it so ambiguously. How could I not ask. It's just that I have this body bone. But it's not angry. ”

Zhao Langzhong hurriedly stepped forward and said. "It's cold on the ground, don't catch a cold. The princess got up and talked about it. ”

Ning'er and Qiaorui should be in harmony. Get busy and pick me up.

I chuckled. Said deliberately. "I'm not pregnant. Where is so delicate. ”

The three people in front of them all looked nervous. This further confirms my suspicions.

They soon came to their senses. Zhao Langzhong said at this time. "The princess is fine. I think it should be that these days are not well rested and worried. As a result, he was unwell. As long as you are good at cultivating yourself. It'll be fine. ”

I said with a calm look. "I see. I remember. ”

Zhao Langzhong said again. "The princess should also be careful with water, food, and everything in her mouth. Also be careful with the spices. These are the most hurtful things to be invisible. ”

I nodded my head one by one. That's all we can do for now. I must not let them find out that I already know about it.

But what to do next. How am I going to get rid of this seed of iniquity? But I don't have the slightest idea.

Send them all out. I sat alone on the bed with the hot soup woman in my arms. The palms of his hands are hot and hot, but he still refuses to let go. It's just that this kind of heat can't melt away half the ice in my heart.

The thought of a small life sprouting in my womb now. There was a burst of congestion at the mouth of the heart.

Gently stroke your fingers over your abdomen. But the eyes looked into the unknown distance. The outside flowers are red and willow green. The sun is shining. It's a great view. But kids. Your mother can't bring you into this world.

Your presence only reminds me over and over again that I regret it. A humiliating night came.

The appearance of this child is not blessed. It's not right. I hate it.

After this time. It's already twice. I missed the opportunity to be a mother in my life. How can I not be heartbroken.

I squeezed the hem of my shirt suddenly. I remembered the last time I was pregnant. I almost got hurt by fennel. I remember that the imperial physician at that time said. Fennel is a spice. Toileting clothes with fennel can make clothes smelly. It has a refreshing effect. However, pregnant women are not allowed to do so. Smelling too much will make the fetus in the body restless. Eventually, it will lead to slippery tires.

I had an idea in my mind. The fingers tightened little by little. Maybe this law. It's a good idea to give it a try.

Fate really plays tricks on people. At that time, I hated people who used fennel to harm the children in my womb. But now I'm going to use this fennel. Come and kill the child in the womb with your own hands.

How ridiculous.