I am Lin Yilan, the unruly and invincible Lin Yilan.

When I was younger, I always felt that I was born well. My countenance can be regarded as handsome, and there are always some ladies of the noble princes around me, and I am easy-going, humorous, and quite talented, and even more likable. My family is illustrious, my father is a famous old general, the founding father of the Tang Dynasty, and I am the only son of the Lin family. Originally, it all came naturally.

But all these illusions were ruthlessly shattered when I grew up.

That was the first time I went to the battlefield, I was born in a family of generals, I was entrusted by the emperor with a heavy responsibility, became a marshal, but my father was not at ease, he insisted on receiving the name of a prison army, must go to the battlefield with me, I didn't care at that time, it was just a small border turmoil, the emperor asked me to be a marshal is not really trusting my ability, but wants to give me a chance to exercise alone, I understand.

However, I have never had any combat experience, and the military books I spent in the past were only on paper, and soon after I arrived at the front line, there was a problem, and the loss of a large amount of grain and grass caused the delay in the battle plan, so that the enemy army had an opportunity, and my small army was in danger, and my father was extremely angry, and he had told me many times not to be careless, but I still ignored it, which led to such a low-level mistake. My father personally stripped me of the post of marshal and made him a marshal himself, and I don't know what he mediated from it, but in the end we were able to save the day and return triumphantly.

But I didn't get the slightest bit excited, I knew that my career was over, I didn't understand why my father did this, did he want me to live under his halo for the rest of my life? I know I've made mistakes, but he can guide me and make me correct my mistakes, why should I deny everything. Since then, I have no skills and enthusiasm, but I can only do some idle jobs, and I am idle all day long.

Later, I gradually became disillusioned with this muddy officialdom, which was not suitable for me to live in, and there were so many things that I was not used to, including my father, that made me feel suffocated. I want to escape, the restless factor in my bones is about to move, maybe I am a chic person, not suitable to live in these rules. I began to resist being the only son of the Lin family, and I refused to take over the Lin family's family business. I began to wander around the flower streets and willow alleys, looking for fun, and I liked to wander around, alone, away from those friends who drank and meat.

Until one time, I was forced by my father to do an unchallenging task. The emperor wants to go to Mount Tai to seal Zen, and wants me to follow me to be in charge of security work, I disdain to smile, my father always asks me to do these miscellaneous little things, I feel bored from the bottom of my heart.

It was here that I met Wenhai.

Just when I was bored on my patrol, I caught a sneaky person in the corner, which added a touch of fun to my boring life, and I caught him effortlessly, but I didn't expect that this was a woman dressed as a man, I looked carefully, and recognized that she was the youngest daughter of Prime Minister Wen's family, and I laughed in my heart, now the youngest daughters of aristocratic families are so good at playing?

I thought about quickly catching her and sending her to the emperor, and then handing her over to his father, but she was coquettish in front of me, begging me not to tell his father, otherwise she would never have a chance to sneak out to play again. I laughed in my heart, Wen Hai's appearance is beautiful, but there are too many girls who take the initiative to pounce on me, and I don't eat her at all.

When she saw that the soft grinding was not good, she straightened up her face and pretended to be angry. She told me the purpose of coming to Mount Tai, she said that she wanted to follow the emperor's route to Mount Tai to the top of Mount Tai to see the sunrise, I was moved by her smart and energetic appearance, at that moment, I saw her restless soul, exactly the same as me, I thought, she may be my first intimate friend.

Later, Wen Hai really did not disappoint me, although there were many accidents in the process of climbing Mount Tai, but these also made us a lot closer, Wen Hai is not as delicate as the ordinary lady of the noble family, she is very brave, very persistent, many times I want to give up, but she is unwilling, will think about me everywhere, I found that she is really so many years, I want to be the first friend I want to make friends sincerely.

Later, we went to visit many places together, famous mountains and rivers, the Yellow River waterfalls, almost where it is steep, where it is sparsely populated, we go there, the most beautiful places I have walked through over the years, most of them are accompanied by Wenhai. It's just that Wen Hai is often caught and grounded by his father, and I have to wait for her, sometimes it is three or four months, Towen Hai's blessing, I have met his father a few times, and we have a wonderful relationship between us, he doesn't like me, and I don't like him.

But I've always been like this, it's hard to please others, but at that time I thought that it was enough to have Wen Hai such a life confidant by my side, I don't care about other people's opinions, the two of us get along like brothers, she knows almost everything about me, but then I found out that I know almost nothing about her.

At the same time as I found out about this problem, I realized that everything was my fault, I had always been so young and frivolous, self-righteous, I misunderstood so many people who loved me, so I deserved to be punished now.

It was probably not until the successive blows came that I really came to my senses, realized the ridiculousness of my past, and realized how stupid and naïve I was in the first place.

I always thought that my father had stripped me of my marshal because he was not optimistic about my abilities and wanted me to live comfortably under his aura for the rest of my life. It wasn't until my father was arrested that I realized how ridiculous my thoughts were.

My father is worthy of being a person who has been up and down in the officialdom for most of his life, just when the grain and grass were just lost, he saw the doorway early in the morning, although his father couldn't guess who it was at that time, but he saw early on that someone wanted to take this opportunity to harm me, and by the way, he could pull the Lin family into the water, and my father took down this heavy responsibility in order to protect me. Later, how my father mediated in it, he didn't tell me in detail, only that at that time he thought that the matter had been solved without danger, and those who wanted to frame them could also shut up, who knew that after so many years, there were still people turning over old accounts.

I didn't see my father for the last time, these are what the emperor told me later. He was broken with regret and grief, I know that he also has his own bitterness, for so many years, this matter has long been impossible to investigate, and the person who provoked this matter again is in a high position, his words are convincing, and everyone is powerless to refute it, my father, the old general of the founding father, finally gave everything he had for Datang, and he sacrificed for Datang.

My father left me a letter before leaving, and the emperor said that I was the most relieved person before my father left. He said that the reason why my father always arranged so many scattered idle jobs for me in the past was so that I could restore my original prestige and official position little by little, but unfortunately I gave up these opportunities. After reading my father's letter, I felt that my whole world had collapsed, and finally I understood all my father's painstaking efforts, but the tree wanted to be quiet but the wind did not stop, and the son wanted to raise but did not wait.

As the saying goes, there is no single line of disaster, and there is really nothing wrong at all, I have not yet come out of the blow of my father's death, and Wen Hai has given me another fatal blow.

It all started with Wen Hai's confession, and when I first heard her say that she liked me, I couldn't understand her desperate mood. I think I've always treated her like a friend, I'm used to her company, I can't think of anything worth liking and adoring her, I think it's all nonsense. At that time, I didn't know that Wen Hai's father promised her a family affair because of a political marriage, and Wen Hai must have been unwilling to marry such a gentleman, and later I learned that she was holding on to the last hope, waiting for me to take her away and fly away.

I knew that I had shattered her dreams, and in this way, I realized in hindsight that I loved her so much, and I was used to her company, but not just habitually, losing her, I was like losing air, and it was difficult to survive in the world. At that time, I knew that I was so eager to hold her hand, eager to hug her, eager to go to the ends of the earth with her, and my love was all melted into the company of those trickles.

By the time I understood all this, it was too late, Wen Hai had already been irreparably damaged, and the scars that remained on her body could be healed, but the shadow left on her heart could never be erased. She began to avoid me, even from all her friends, and I knew that with Wen Hai's temperament, she would definitely feel that she was not worthy of me. I tried to make myself act like nothing had happened, to make her understand that no matter what happened, I would be there for her, not sympathy, but true love.

But her means of escape were even more resolute, and she not only said those decisive words that made me irreversible, but also resolutely married herself. But I didn't know that the way she saved herself for me was to disfigure herself.

I couldn't accept such a cruel reality, and I went back to my old life, idle, indulging in the willow alleys of the flower street, until I learned the news of Wen Hai's disappearance, and I woke up like a dream.

Another letter, Wen Hai, like his father, also left a letter for me. Two letters, took away the two people I loved the most, and took away the tears of my life.

She said that she would return to the original place, I went to Mount Tai, I knew it must be there, I walked the road we had walked, I saw the scenery we had seen, but I could no longer find Wenhai. I don't think she's stupid enough to die, she must be hiding in a corner, waiting for us to meet again.

I disappeared with Wen Hai, I lived in seclusion in Mount Tai, became a porter on Mount Tai, watching the bustling crowd every day, I believe that one day, I will meet Wen Hai again.

I've done too many wrong things in my life, and this long wait should be regarded as a punishment for me, and since I said goodbye, I must see you again.