"There are no ifs."

Mo Nian quietly listened to Ji Qingmo's words before she spoke, and she said calmly: "Moreover, don't think I am so innocent. ”

In Ji Qingmo's description, she is really a lotus flower that emerges from the mud and is not stained.

But in fact, what she has done so far cannot afford such an evaluation.

"I'm not as good as you think." Mo Nian's perception of herself is very clear, she has no feelings, and her standard of doing things is just what she thinks is "suitable".

As for whether it is really suitable, whether it is right or wrong, she doesn't know.

In the past, she could ask Xia Linxi, and she could ask Mo Chen.

But now, she can only ask herself.

So......

"I don't have any confidence in what I'm doing, but I don't have feelings, so I don't feel guilty even if I do something wrong."

Mo Nian sat up and looked towards the bed.

Ji Qingmo also took the opportunity to look at her.

"Do you know what I mean?" Mo Nian asked endlessly.

Ji Qingmo naturally didn't understand.

"In other words, I may come to a wrong judgment in the future because there is no correction from others, and I will end up ......"

Mo Nian said lightly: "Do something that hurts you." ”

She's not kidding, she's just not confident in herself.

"Are you scared?" Ji Qingmo asked.

"I wouldn't have that emotion."

Mo Nian said: "I just hope that you don't overlap the current me with the past me because of those memories, and do that, out of your own expectations, and then take care of your own disappointment, there is no other answer, you better recognize what kind of person I am, so that you will not be hurt by me." ”

"Even if you get hurt, it's okay."

Ji Qingmo picked up Mo Nian's words almost without any pause, "I don't think there's anything about that." ”

"So, I can't understand you."

Mo Nian was very puzzled by this, "Why can you accept that I have done too much to you?" ”

"It's okay, even if you don't understand it now."

Ji Qingmo showed a smile that Mo Nian couldn't understand, "It's okay if you don't understand it for the rest of your life." ”

Mo Nian was speechless.

The topic has reached this point, and it can't go on any longer.

I don't know what time it was, but the two went to sleep in silence.

Mo Nian only knew that she fell asleep very late.

She had been thinking about one thing, and although she hadn't thought about it before, she was suddenly curious now—

Back then, what did Ji Shisheng do to her, and what kind of memory did he leave for Ji Qingmo, so that Ji Qingmo was so guilty that he was willing to bear the harm she gave?

All this, of course, has no answer.

After all, even she and Ji Shisheng, who are the parties, don't remember.

As soon as he thought of this, Mo Nian felt very uncomfortable in his heart.

It's uncomfortable, it's very uncomfortable......

Mo Nian couldn't find the reason, so he could only endure the discomfort and fall asleep.

The next day, she woke up early in the morning.

The first second she opened her eyes, she lifted the quilt and hurried out of the bedroom and into the bathroom.

And then—

"Gross!"

Mo Nian was leaning on the side of the sink, his stomach churning, but he couldn't spit it out.

After a few minutes, Mo Nian raised his head, and saw a pair of eyes that were red from overexertion, and their eyes were moist, more like pain than sadness.

It had been a long time since she had seen herself look like this.

Why exactly......

How uncomfortable would she be?

Mo Nian couldn't think of a reason.

After relieving for a while, Mo Nian began to wash.

Twenty minutes later, Mo Nian returned to the bedroom and saw Ji Qingmo lying on the bed, with her eyes open, and after hearing the movement, she looked at her.

"Awake?" Mo Nian asked.

"Are you okay?"

Ji Qingmo opened his mouth with a worried expression, "Is it because of an upset stomach?" ”

"Did I disturb you?" Mo Nian remembered that she had deliberately closed the bathroom door.

"I woke up before you got up, and then I faintly heard a little sound."

Ji Qingmo said: "Did you sleep on the ground yesterday and have a cold stomach?" ”

"It's not." Mo Nian shook his head, "You don't have to worry, I'll just go home and drink some hot water later." ”

"Are you going back?" Ji Qingmo was stunned, "But isn't your home very far away?" ”

"Well, so take a taxi back before rush hour."

Mo Nian glanced at the time on her phone, and she said, "I'm leaving." ”

"If you're really uncomfortable, I'll give you a day off." Ji Qingmo said.

"It's not as serious as you think."

Mo Nian took out the key to untie Ji Qingmo's handcuffs, and she said, "I'll go back...... It's just for a change of clothes. ”

There is often a plot in TV dramas, where the hero and heroine did not change their clothes because they spent the night outside, and they wore the same set of clothes to work the next day, and their colleagues saw the problem and coaxed them.

Mo Nian learned this knowledge, and it came in handy at this time.

"Change of clothes?"

Ji Qingmo didn't understand what Mo Nian meant, "Are your clothes dirty?" ”

"It's not dirty, it's just because it's ......"

Mo Nian was in a hurry, so he hurriedly explained to Ji Qingmo, "That's it, I'll go first, you have to remember to go back and change your clothes, don't wear the same." ”

After saying that, Mo Nian left.

Ji Qingmo sat in the bedroom where he was the only one left, stunned for a long time.

After a long while, Ji Qingmo suddenly raised his hand to cover his face.

"Two people alone outside for the night...... Is it? ”

Under the palm of his hand, Ji Qingmo's slightly shy voice sounded.

Ah, Niannian, don't always say such ambiguous words, it's not good for the heart!

……

At nine o'clock in the morning, Mo Nian rushed to the company on the verge of being late.

"Morning ...... Good ......"

Mo Nian trotted into the secretary's room, gasped lightly, and walked back to his seat with his waist on his back.

"Secretary Mo, take it easy."

Seeing that she looked tired, Secretary Zhou couldn't cry or laugh, "Where did you go last night?" I actually stepped on it today. ”

"No, no, no ......"

Mo Nian couldn't catch her breath and stammered, she said, "I just overslept." ”

"But you don't look like you want to sleep well." Secretary Zhou joked, "It's a little dark under my eyes." ”

After a pause, Secretary Zhou's eyes widened, "Secretary Mo, you won't ......"

Mo Nian's heart tightened, did Secretary Zhou see something?

"You're not going to fall in love, are you?" Secretary Zhou had an expression of "I've seen you through", "Speaking of which, you have recently stepped on the company more times than before!" ”

"Ahem."

Secretary Wang reminded beside him: "This is already a harassing conversation, right?" ”

"Hmm."

Secretary Liang interface: "Use the identity of the seniors to harass the private lives of the juniors." ”

Secretary Zhou: "......" I'm just joking! Don't say that I seem to have sinned!

"Don't fool the past with a 'I'm just kidding' emoji."

Secretary Liang rolled his eyes, "Jokes also have to divide people, and Secretary Mo won't like anyone, how can he fall in love?" ”

Secretary Zhou teased Mo Nian in the way of chatting with ordinary people in society, but forgot the most fatal problem-

Mo Nian has no feelings!

Of course it's impossible to fall in love!

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