Actually, I don't know where I came from, I don't know where I'm going, and since I was conscious, I've been staying in this ethereal space, which is white, and there is no other color except white.

I've been hugging myself in a ball, holding myself in order to protect myself and find a sense of security......

But in this cold space, there didn't seem to be what I wanted, and I was full of confusion, but I didn't know what to do.

I have no memory of anyone or anything, like a newborn baby, who doesn't know anything, what ...... I don't know either.

I don't know how long I've been in this ethereal space, or if all the worlds are like this place, empty and white...... There is no color other than white.

As time went on, I became more and more eager to go out and see what the outside world was like...... Looking for a ...... Look for something that seems to be lost by yourself......

It seems that that thing is still very important to me, otherwise why would I have the slightest bit of a ...... about that thing Emotion.

But I don't know what that thing is...... Maybe I'll know when I see him.

First of all, I'm going to get out of here, but I don't know what I'm supposed to do to get out of here.

I just waited like this, looking forward to it, as if my life had a little fluctuation, no longer as desireless as before, no longer as ethereal as before, no longer as muddy as before......

But that's not enough......

And so long, long, long time, so long that I have forgotten why I wanted to leave here in the first place......

It should be said that my consciousness began to blur, as if I was about to fall into a deep sleep again. I began to get a little scared, afraid that I would fall into a deep sleep again.

Because I don't know how long it will take me to wake up if I fall back into a deep sleep, and even if I do, I don't know what I'll remember......

I began to desperately resist this sleeping consciousness, and at that time I had only one thought in my heart, that is, I could not fall into a deep sleep, and I must not ......

At that time, I subconsciously felt that if I fell into a deep sleep again, I would miss something very important to me or ...... It's a person.

So I desperately resisted and struggled with my sleeping consciousness...... And so many more years passed......

During these years, I also thought about giving up, but ...... Every time I want to give up, I tell myself that since I've been doing it for so long, I'm still a little bit away, and maybe I'll succeed tomorrow, so how can I just give up so easily?

It's not a waste of me

My energy, my time, my everything? So I absolutely couldn't give up, and I just kept going...... Hold on......

There is no end to the ......

I don't know if I'll succeed in the end, but I just want to remember it later without regretting it......

Even if it fails, what can it do? At least I've tried, and I'm worthy of myself.

Finally, the emperor lived up to his wishes, and I succeeded......

There seems to be a slight change in this white space—a lot of people have begun to appear, and there are many things that I have never seen before, which makes me very happy......

I'm lonely and scared...... I'm scared of being alone again...... So...... I'm going to blend in with those people......

Everything seemed to be going so well, I managed to integrate into their group, successfully became friends with them, and ...... It seems like they all like me......

At that time, I didn't know what this meant, I just thought it was really nice to have someone to accompany me.

But then, something happened that scared me......

That day, a person who was very nice to me suddenly ...... Suddenly pounced on me, I was terrified, so I retreated back into my white space......

Here, although there is no warmth as I imagined, no friends, no company, nothing......

But in the same way, he was not in any danger, and I did not have to worry about being afraid, afraid that someone would hurt me......

I don't know how many years have passed like this...... After a long time, it has changed again.

This time, like the last time, there were a lot of people, a lot of things, although these people were not the same people as the last time......

I looked at them and was a little nervous, because of the company of friends, it was really ...... It's so warm, and it makes me want to take a risk......

So I walked out of my little circle again, out of my protective layer, and came to the midst of them, because of the experience of one time, so this time it was much smoother than the last time.

I quickly became a good friend with them...... Not surprisingly, some of these people will also like this simple and kind person.

However, this time these people are kinder, and they will give it to me and teach me all kinds of knowledge, and they are sophisticated......

So, I also began to be ignorant and understood some things about men and women...... I also understand that my feelings for one of them seem to ......

That person was very kind to me, he never forced me, and if I didn't understand anything, he would tell me patiently......

And I love the feeling of being with him, how can I say that? It's warm, it's heartwarming, it's like bathing in the sun.

It's such a feeling that makes me deeply infatuated with him, and he likes me too.

We take it for granted

Together......

At that time, we were very happy, we were together almost every day, it was the kind of sticking together, but we didn't feel tired, but we felt very enjoyable.

But the happiness didn't last long, and I realized that something was wrong. I realized that I didn't age, I didn't change my appearance over time, but he was getting older day by day, and it made me feel panicked.

Maybe one day he will leave me, and I will be left alone in this world.

I don't want him to grow old, I want him to be with me forever. But time didn't give me what I wanted, and he was still getting older day by day...... Day by day, we are approaching death.

I was terrified, afraid that he would really leave me, and I started to think of a way to do it seriously...... I touched that one...... Books I hated before......

I don't know why, it's just ...... She didn't like it when she saw it, and she hated it when she saw it, so she never took it seriously, she just treated it as a ball of air, which she couldn't see or touch.

However, on that occasion she not only touched it, but also read it completely, and remembered it all, and sure enough, as she felt, the book was not a good thing.

There are a lot of evil ways recorded in this book, but I have to say that these evil ways are very attractive, and there are those she needs.

So...... I used that method......

But the effect is not what the book says...... Not only that, but it hurt him......

She still remembered that his last look was smiling, worried, and distressed: "What should you do without me in the future...... Live well...... I'll find your ......."

Later, I buried his body, because it was too bitter, so I chose comfort and returned to that white space......

This time I didn't fight against the sleeping consciousness, so I fell into a deep sleep very smoothly......

It should also be said that it is a matter of escaping from this reality, escaping from this world without him, she wants time to help her forget this man who treats her so well wholeheartedly.

But in the end, she failed, and she found that time could not help her erase his traces, and even the memories of him became clearer with time.

At that time, she knew that there was no way for her to forget that person, and she had no way to forget that she had been with him, the happy years, and it could also be said that she didn't want to forget.

In this case, then she will remember it well, and let this beautiful memory be sealed in her memory forever.

Until one day, her soul fluctuated, and she knew that person was reincarnated, and that day she was happier than ever.

So, she didn't even pack up, and went straight to the place that made her soul fluctuate.

She wanted to see him sooner, and she wanted to cherish every moment and every second with him, even if she knew

She and his ending may be the same as the last time - leaving her alone.

But she has no regrets, she will continue to wait for his reincarnation, and then work hard to protect him, help him grow, and finally live happily ever after.

But sometimes, imagination is beautiful, reality is skinny, and there is always a little bit of a gap between ideal and reality, and it is this little bit of a gap that is very likely to make people fall into the abyss.

Even for someone like me, who has been through countless years, it is almost impossible to avoid it.

I remember that when I arrived that day, I was shocked by the scene in front of me—the red color all over the sky, the smell of killing, and every breath stinged the beating heart.

There had just been a catastrophe here, and I felt as if the sky was about to fall, and I searched for the soul that haunted me in the countless corpses.

Luckily he was fine, but then he ......

When I first rescued him, he hid his tyrannical heart very well, so much so that I felt that he was a cute and cute little cutie who needed love.

(End of chapter)