Wangfujing is still so lively, Donglaishun is still so popular, although Yuan Dutian called in the afternoon to book a place, but because there are too many people, he still has to wait for the table. When the copper charcoal pot came up, Qin Xiaotian couldn't help but exclaim, ignoring the steaming heat, he hurriedly started to make the mutton rolls, his eyes were full of anticipation for the food.

"Come on, come on, you can eat it with a dip, my saliva is going to flow out." Qin Xiaotian held the long chopsticks and put two slices of mutton in the hot clear soup, and when he saw the meat turning white, he couldn't wait to dip the meat in the sesame sauce.

"Come, yours." Qin Xiaotian happily divided a piece of mutton to Yuan Dutian, and blew the mutton dipped in sesame sauce into his mouth, and kept sighing. "It's hot!"

"Eat slowly!" Yuan Dutian couldn't help laughing, this girl was so anxious when she saw the delicious food.

"It's too slow to shake up like this, why don't we put more in it, cook it together, and then we can fish it up and eat it together, it's faster." Qin Xiaotian really couldn't wait for the pieces to be sandwiched in the pot, and without waiting for Yuan Dutian to agree, he lifted the big plate and wanted to pour the mutton into the pot.

"Wait!" Yuan Dutian drank in time, he stood up and put the mutton into the pot one by one, and the pointed part of the mutton mountain flattened.

"You're really not particular, if you pour it like this, it won't taste good if you cook too much." Yuan Dutian sometimes thinks that Qin Xiaotian's temperament is quite cute, and sometimes he is a little too informal.

"I didn't want to pour it all in." Qin Xiaotian licked the sesame sauce left on the chopsticks. "Anyway, why is the mutton shabu dipped in sesame sauce? The taste of this sesame sauce is quite special, but you see that this clear soup is watery, shouldn't you get some spicy sauce like eating our hot pot over there! "To be honest, at first, Qin Xiaotian felt that this pot of clear soup was too light, and the mutton was fat, but after eating it, he felt that it was not bad, but it was still not as good as the hot pot in his hometown. Although it is not spicy, it is still very refreshing to eat hot pot in summer.

"Would you like some cold beer?" Qin Xiaotian suddenly felt that eating such hot food in summer should be accompanied by cold beer, just like in his hometown, when he was in his hometown, he ate supper and drank beer with friends during the summer vacation to beat the heat.

Yuan Dutian heard Qin Xiaotian take the initiative to ask for beer, and then called the waiter to come up with two bottles of beer. Qin Xiaotian was eating hotly, and his happiness was bursting.

"Come on, come on, cheers!" Qin Xiaotian raised his glass and took the initiative to clink glasses with Yuan Dutian, and Gu Dong drained half of the beer in the glass.

"Twilight, a question flashed through my mind after I came to Peking University." Qin Xiaotian ate another lamb skewer.

"What?" Yuan Dutian put down his chopsticks.

"You could have stayed in Beijing, there are so many opportunities here, the people you see and the things you experience should be more promising than in Xiangcheng, don't you regret it?"

Yuan Dutian pondered for a few seconds, and his tone was very calm: "At first, I regretted it, I went to another city because I was alone, and I didn't think about it that much at that time. Later, I became alone in a foreign land, not that I didn't want to give up that unfamiliar city, but then I found that I really liked that city, liked the food, liked the streets, liked the hot and direct people there, and liked the rotation of the four seasons, so I was willing to stay. ”

Qin Xiaotian didn't expect Yuan Dutian to like Xiangcheng so much.

"Actually, I think I've always been lucky to be able to do what I love with peace of mind. Wouldn't it be nice to be able to do what you like, and to have people around you who like you, and what does it have to do with where? ”

"Also, as long as you have something you like, the person you like is actually the same everywhere." Qin Xiaotian has always felt a little regretful and condescending for Yuan Dutian in her heart, and now when she heard Yuan Dutian say this, she felt that she didn't know enough about Yuan Dutian before, and what others thought was not necessarily what he really thought. He accepts and likes his current life, and that's good.

"Let's go to Houhai in a while?" Yuan Dutian proposed.

"yes, yes, it's going to be lively." Qin Xiaotian became excited again.

There was a gentle breeze blowing in the summer evening, mixed with salty and humid stuffy heat, and the beautiful women who were full of flowers and brightly dressed all the way walked past Qin Xiaotian and them with a smile and a smile, and the shining neon was reflected on the passers-by of all shapes and colors, making it even more dreamy and blurry. They held hands and walked all the way through the west exit of the light market, got on the trolleybus, and then walked all the way from Shichahai, Qin Xiaotian felt that such a time was too rare, and there was a hustle and bustle around, but in their world, it was like water, and it was quiet.

Qin Xiaotian, a big attraction in Beijing, had been there before, so on weekends they just went to climb Xiangshan and went around the legendary 798 Art Center and the upcoming Olympic Sports Center for the opening ceremony.

On Monday, Yuan went to work normally, Qin Xiaotian wandered around Peking University alone, wearing a sun hat and sitting under the weeping willows on the shore of Weiming Lake to admire the Boya Tower, worshipping the library of the highest university, passing by the historical Yannan Garden, and she even walked to the Tsinghua Garden next door. Seeing that it was close to lunchtime, Qin Xiaotian walked towards the law school, and she boldly walked into the law school building, like a primary school student who wanted to plagiarize other people's works, because she had never been able to touch this school, she felt like an unwelcome intruder, worried about the eyes of the people around her. It's safer to hide in the toilet. No, no, the toilet is not safe either. Qin Xiaotian thought to himself that if she didn't want to come here, why did she let Jingya be inside, fortunately she didn't see herself, Qin Xiaotian glanced at the person in the crack of the door, lowered his head and hurriedly walked to the end of the toilet.

Qin Xiaotian wondered, why Ren Jingya didn't look like she was going to the toilet, and the door was not closed tightly, when she went over, she saw that she was pouring something into the toilet pit, looking like a pill. Yes, it should be, she was holding a white bottle in her hand, and the clanging sound was very clear in the toilet. Ren Jingya, what are she doing? Qin Xiaotian didn't think about it, and was faintly worried in his heart.

When he was eating in the cafeteria with Yuan Dutian at noon, Qin Xiaotian thought about it for a long time and decided to tell Yuan Dutian that after all, Ren Jingya was once a seriously ill patient. After listening to Qin Xiaotian finish what she had seen in the toilet, Yuan Dutian thought about what Ren Jingya had said to him on campus that night before, and he felt that Ren Jingya must have something to hide from him.

On Tuesday night, Yuan Dutian had an appointment, and he mentioned it to Qin Xiaotian at noon on Monday, and their senior brother launched an elite alliance of Peking University's legal circles, inviting him to get together with Ren Jingya and several big names in the capital's legal circles. Qin Xiaotian thought that there was nothing to do on Tuesday night, so he invited two middle school classmates who had not seen him for many years to have dinner at Huajiayi Garden near Peking University, so that everyone could exchange their post-graduation trends and interesting stories.

The world is big, but sometimes small, and Qin Xiaotian's junior high school classmate Xu Minjie and her high school classmate Zhang Jue were admitted to two nearby universities in Beijing and came together after meeting at a fellow villagers' networking event. Qin Xiaotian can now remember that when she heard Xu Minjie talk about the news, she asked Xu Minjie a question: "It won't be my high school classmate, right?" ”。 When she heard Xu Minjie's boyfriend call Zhang Jue, her first reaction was: It won't be such a coincidence, right? One is her junior high school classmate, the other is her high school classmate, two people who didn't know each other at all met in Beijing and came together, but there was really such a coincidence. It's really fulfilled: fate, wonderful sentence.

Emotional things are like this, when you don't want to meet, you meet it, and when you want to meet, you can't meet it right. Qin Xiaotian, Xu Minjie, and Zhang Jue recalled their middle school days, exposing each other's shortcomings, and the three of them recalled many of the past when they were young. Now they are all working in Beijing, and they are basically stable, and they are ready to return to their hometown for a wedding at the end of the year.

"You'll have to come back then." Xu Minjie's relationship with Qin Xiaotian was not close, but when she returned to her hometown during the summer vacation of her junior year, she mentioned her boyfriend and found that her boyfriend was a high school classmate with Qin Xiaotian.

"I try my best, but I don't even know where they will be now! The job is not yet settled. Qin Xiaotian suddenly thought that he had to have an interview in two days.

"There's no hurry, there are still two months to graduate, hurry up and look for a job. Several units only started posting recruitment in May, and there are still opportunities. Zhang Jue comforted Qin Xiaotian as a passer-by.

"You eat first, I'll go to the bathroom." Qin Xiaotian ate almost the same, got up and wanted to go to the bathroom to tidy up.

"Twilight? Ren Jingya? On the narrow corridor leading to the bathroom, she saw Yuan Dutian and Ren Jingya, standing around the corner, she shouted two names, and her heart slowly sank.

Probably because the music and human voices were too noisy, the two of them didn't hear Qin Xiaotian's exclamation. They even had dinner here? Qin Xiaotian sighed bad luck, she only knew that Yuan Dutian had a party tonight, but she didn't ask where they were. Alas, she didn't want to bump into them, so how could she bypass them and go to the bathroom now? Just as she mustered up the courage to step forward to say hello generously, she was pushed back by some force, and reflexively hid in a corner around the corner, and later, she knew why she suddenly hid, because she was deeply shocked by the scene that happened in front of her. Even in the corner, she clearly saw Ren Jingya pull Yuan Dutian and hug him, and then raised her head to leave a kiss on the face of the man she had been longing for and unforgettable.

Qin Xiaotian covered her mouth, trying not to let the shock, humiliation, and fear in her heart break out of her chest, probably covering it too tightly, Qin Xiaotian was so breathless that she let go of her hand and took a few breaths, she couldn't control the trembling of her body. She didn't have the courage to take another look down the aisle, so she barely straightened up and staggered out, completely ignoring whether she bumped into anyone or not, and one of the waiters serving the plate was almost knocked over by her.

"Hey, isn't this Yuan Dutian's little girlfriend?" Yin Huai touched the arm that was hurt by Qin, and looked at Qin Xiaotian, who looked lost and depressed but kept saying "I'm sorry". Yin Huai looked at it and felt that something was wrong, so he grabbed Qin Xiaotian, who continued to stumble forward, raised his hand a few times and put it down, he forgot what her name was, but he heard Yuan Dutian mention it, and he had seen her waiting for Yuan Dutian downstairs in the law school in the past few days.

"Uh-uh, that-" couldn't find a suitable title for a while, Yin Huai had to call "little junior sister", and seeing that she didn't react, he asked, "Are you okay?" ”

Qin Xiaotian turned her head and glanced at the person in front of her who looked like an uncle with a beard, she felt as if she had seen it somewhere, but she didn't know it, she just shook her head mechanically: "It's okay, I'm going to find my friend." ”

Yin Huai kindly asked, "Do you need me to take you there?" ”

"No, they're waiting for me outside." Qin Xiaotian's eyes were hollow, and he endured the struggle and tearing pain in his heart.

"Okay!" Yin Huai let go of her arm and saw that she was obviously in trouble, but as a person who could be said to be a stranger, she was really not nosy. Besides, he was really a little unsure if this person was Yuan Dutian's girlfriend. The professional qualities of the lawyer told him that without solid evidence, it was better not to act rashly. Originally, he just came out to answer a call, not wanting to be hit so much that the phone almost flew out. He looked at Qin Xiaotian's back suspiciously, and walked into the private room on the side.

"Qin Xiaotian, what's wrong with you? How did you go for so long? Xu Minjie was startled when she saw Qin Xiaotian, who was standing next to the table and not sitting down, and her soul was not relieved.

Qin Xiaotian heard someone call her name, as if she had been called back by a ghost, she was excited, as if she suddenly woke up, grabbed the bag on the chair, and apologized: "I'm sorry, you two, I'm in a bit of a hurry, I have to go first." With that, he turned around and rushed out.

"Hey-Qin Xiaotian, we're almost done eating, let's go together, we'll send you!" Xu Minjie shouted at the top of her voice, but Qin Xiaotian ran away without looking back as if she hadn't heard it. Leaving the two monks puzzled.

Qin Xiaotian walked all the way and thought about the plot just now, she couldn't figure it out or understand, the people coming and going next to her kept passing her, but she felt that she was the only one left in the world. "No, Qin Xiaotian, you have to calm down and think about it. Now the most important thing is to go back to the hotel first, and tonight no matter what, I have to ask Yuan Dutian clearly, and let him give an explanation. Thinking like this, Qin Xiaotian looked around and found that she didn't know where she was going, she was just like a passerby asking for help, and finally asked a local to tell her which direction to go, and she thanked her again and again. In fact, she has no concept of southeast, northwest and northwest, and she only knows a little about the directions of well-wishers, and with vague memories and asking people all the way, she found the bus stop.

As soon as she got on the bus, she took out her mobile phone, pondered for a while, and sent a text message to Yuan Dutian: Dusk, when are you coming back? I'll be waiting for you at the guesthouse.

How she wished she could see him now, to be embraced by him, to caress her, to tell her that she had seen something wrong, or that there was something secret. She kept looking at her phone, but she never got a reply, and her heart began to slowly fall, she didn't want to think about the worst, but she couldn't control her fear. The more afraid of losing, the more difficult it is to restrain his various bad thoughts, Qin Xiaotian clenched his fists, closed his eyes, and recited silently over and over again: believe in yourself and believe in him.

No matter how loud the TV was, it couldn't hide the panic and loneliness in his heart, Qin Xiaotian was restless in the room, and he didn't know what else to do except keep looking at his phone. A text message popping up on her phone became a weapon to save her from the cage, it was almost there, he was almost there, she comforted herself, looking forward to seeing Yuan Dutian soon.

Yuan Dutian looked a little tired, as if he was hiding something that he couldn't tell. Despite this, seeing him still gave Qin Xiaotian great relief.

"Are you tired?" Qin Xiaotian pushed Yuan Dutian to sit on the sofa chair and brought him a glass of water that had been prepared earlier.

"I heard Yin Huai say that he seems to have seen you in the restaurant." Yuan Dutian unbuttoned two shirts to allow himself to breathe.

"Yin Huai?" Qin Xiaotian searched in his mind from beginning to end, did he encounter this person today? She clapped her hands and shouted, "So the person I bumped into is him!" ”

"What is him?"

"I bumped into the Yin Huai you said in the restaurant today, but I didn't know it was someone you knew at the time." Qin Xiaotian suppressed his anxious emotions.

Yuan Dutian only learned that Qin Xiaotian had dinner with him after he heard Yin Huai mention that he bumped into someone who looked like his girlfriend, and he went out to look for her, but he didn't find it. It's not that he didn't see Qin Xiaotian's text message, but he didn't have time to reply, or he wasn't in the mood to reply.

"Xiaotian—" Yuan Dutian's head was buried in his hand between his legs.

Qin Xiaotian's heart tightened inexplicably, she was afraid of hearing what she didn't want to hear, and she trembled.

"I have something to tell you." Yuan Dutian's mind was very confused, he was sorting out how to say the following words, those words that were very difficult for him and Qin Xiaotian.

Qin Xiaotian felt that the air had condensed, he forgot to respond, he forgot to move, the world was so quiet that there was only dark day, and there was only silence before the explosion in the dark day.

"It's likely that Jingya's illness has returned." Yuan Dutian did not look up.

"Is it cancer?" Qin Xiaotian's voice was trembling.

Yuan Dutian shook his head: "It's depression." He sat up straight and paused word by word: "In the afternoon, Luo Qingtian called me and said that she recently felt that Jingya's mood was not quite right when she called, and her American psychiatrist reminded her that she might have suffered from depression." Luo Qingtian asked me to supervise her to take medicine, and I remembered that you said before that you saw her pour medicine in the toilet, and she really didn't take medicine on time. ”

"And what are you going to do?" Qin Xiaotian's throat was dry, astringent and tight, and he couldn't be relieved by drinking water.

"I consulted with the next alumnus who studied psychology, and I couldn't ignore her current situation." Yuan Dutian tried his best to make his tone sound calm, but the movements of his body could not deceive people, and his clenched fists declared how determined he was to say these words to Qin Xiaotian.

"So, are you going to give up our relationship and get back together with her?" Qin Xiaotian struggled to control his slightly trembling body, and there was a sweet taste in his dry throat.

Yuan Dutian didn't know how to answer, and his dark eyes flashed with a bottomless coldness, with a bit of anger and impermanence.

"I never wanted to give up on you, but I can't let Jingya go now, if she doesn't take medicine like this, her condition may progress rapidly, and I don't know what will happen then." Yuan Dutian never thought that he would have such a day and such a difficult time. This kind of choice is not called a choice, it is simply torture. No matter what, people who don't want to be hurt will be hurt, what to choose, and he was so depressed that he wanted to flee for a moment. But the reality has to be faced, and the inner torment and pain always remind him that he is neither willing to give up his current feelings nor want to see Ren Jingya have an accident, but he is difficult to balance. Therefore, he wanted to discuss with Qin Xiaotian to give him some time, understand him, and let him accompany Ren Jingya through this difficult period, and then he and Qin Xiaotian planned the future with peace of mind.

"You're worried about her accident, aren't you worried about whether something will happen to me?" Qin Xiaotian's tears slid down the corners of her eyes, her body was healthy now, so she had to be sacrificed and let her make way for someone who was weaker than her? Is it only Ren Jingya who needs to be taken care of, so she doesn't need it? Yes, maybe Ren Jingya needs Yuan Dutian's care more than her now, but can emotional matters be calculated like this?

"Worried, of course I'm worried. But do you know how uncomfortable I am today, my heart is so tugged at that I want to stop caring about anything. I can't take care of all of this situation, so I want to ask for your help and get your understanding, otherwise I may have a troubled conscience for the rest of my life. Yuan Dutian stood up and gently pulled Qin Xiaotian into his arms.

"Didn't we say we had something to face together? If you want to help Ren Jingya through a difficult time, why can't it be the two of us together? Qin Xiaotian obviously knew that the problem was not whether they wanted to help Ren Jingya, but who Ren Jingya wanted to be by her side and who she wanted to help her rebuild a normal life, but she didn't want to give up, she had to fight for herself.

"I want to ask you to give me a little time, fully understand me, and when I deal with this matter, I will definitely accompany you after that, you can stay with me for as long as you want." Yuan Dutian hated his current self and acted as an emotional executioner, he knew that this would hurt Qin Xiaotian, and he also knew that he might also hurt Ren Jingya and himself later, but he really couldn't think of a better way. If he could, he would rather have all the pain borne by him alone. But sometimes feelings are so cruel, it often does not leave only one person to enjoy happiness or pain, and the two sides of the sword will make the person in it scarred.

Qin Xiaotian knew that she couldn't compete with Ren Jingya now, she won, at least now, she got what she wanted-Yuan Dutian's company. In addition to being stupid and waiting, she either turned around and left directly, but this is too difficult to do, if she can withdraw in time, it may be a relief for the three of them, but she just can't do it. "How long? How long to wait? Qin Xiaotian was looking for an opportunity for himself to find a reason to continue to wait and continue to be together.

"I don't know, maybe half a year, maybe a year, I really don't know. She is ill, I still don't know exactly what it is. Yuan Dutian's voice was so light that it could only be heard in Qin Xiaotian's ears.

The air froze, even if she was in the arms of Yuan Mutian, who was thinking about her heart, she felt so cold, Qin Xiaotian's body couldn't stop trembling, she could feel Yuan Dutian hugging her tighter, the more he wanted to give her more warmth, the more cold her heart felt. The kind of coldness embedded in her body continuously penetrated Qin Xiaotian's body through the arms that clamped her, and she felt that she was pierced by countless cold needletips, and she was numb to the point of pain, so she couldn't feel her cold tears, nor could she feel her constantly trembling body.

Fortunately, her brain was still active, and she didn't know why she was deeply impressed by every word Yuan Dutian had just said, although her lips were trembling slightly, she still didn't forget to answer Yuan Dutian's question: "I want to think about it, I want to think about it, I don't know how long I can wait." ”

"It's okay, it's okay, now you don't think about anything, I'll help you go to bed." Yuan Dutian hugged his cold, trembling body, panicking beyond measure, blaming himself so much that he wanted to strangle himself. He just wanted her to be warm, warm, a little warmer now.

Yuan Dutian used a hot towel to wipe his face and hands and feet for Qin Xiaotian, who was lying on the bed, but they were still so cold.

The air conditioner was so cold that it wasn't enough to cover the quilt. "I'm cold!" Qin Xiaotian's teeth were fighting.

Yuan Dutian turned up the temperature of the air conditioner, and then entered the quilt and hugged Qin Xiaotian, wanting to transfer the heat on his body to her. I don't know how long it took, Qin Xiaotian fell asleep in a daze, and was woken up by the heat in a daze, and heard the sound of steady breathing behind her ears in the dark, the familiar and unique body fragrance drifted down the undulating body behind her into the nasal cavity, into her lungs and blood, how fascinating and reluctant, this can make people calm the breath, she is not sure how long it can belong to her. Closing his eyes, tears flooded his cheeks again, wetting large swaths of pillows. In the second half of the night, she didn't fall asleep again, thinking about what she should do. She knew that the scene she saw last night was not from Yuan Dutian's wishes, it might be Ren Jingya's wishful thinking, but Yuan Dutian didn't dodge, which showed that under the circumstances at that time, Yuan Dutian didn't want to stimulate and hurt Ren Jingya. At least, now, Yuan Dutian can't devote himself to being with her, he has decided to take care of Ren Jingya for a while, then she has to take good care of herself during this time, but she doesn't know how long she can hold on like this and endure it. Instead of being entangled in the three of them, it is better to let her avoid them for a while, so that it may be good for everyone, Yuan Dutian can have less worries and take care of Ren Jingya's illness boldly, and she can also use distance to numb herself and experience less pain caused by this relationship.

Qin Xiaotian pretended to be asleep, thinking about how to escape in her heart, she clearly heard Yuan Dutian quietly pull out the hand that hugged her, and got out of bed lightly, and then the sound of water came from the bathroom, until he gently closed the door and left, Qin Xiaotian's heart was always in her throat, afraid of being found out that she was pretending to sleep, and even more afraid of being found that she wanted to leave, and wanted to say goodbye without saying goodbye.