Lu Yi and Feng Lili saw that Lin Mengxue had no reaction and glanced at each other.

Lu Yi pulled Lin Mengxue, put the magazine in front of her, and said, "Lin Mengxue, look at it, how sexy this is!" ”

Lin Mengxue widened, the picture was unbearable, and she couldn't help but feel nauseous, and hated those indecent people the most, and said, "At first glance, you are a slut!" ”

"How do you talk, who do you say is a slut?" This "slut" seemed to be talking about him, Lu Yi said angrily.

Feng Lili saw that the two of them looked like they were going to fight, and said to Luyi: "Mengxue is talking about books, did you say you, what are you anxious about?" ”

said to Lin Mengxue again: "I think you are jealous of other people's figures!" ”

Saying that, the two looked Lin Mengxue up and down!

Feng Lili has been in love for a long time, and she has long known the affairs of men and women, and of course the second characteristics of women can also be developed.

On the other hand, Lin Mengxue is the princess of Taiping, she is not ashamed and proud. However, being looked at by these two people like this, I was very angry and aggrieved in my heart, and when everything went wrong, I was even more angry.

She glared at the two of them and said righteously: "Such a woman is not a serious person at first glance. If it is for sale, the price should be indicated, which is responsible to the consumer; If you are married, you should get dressed, and you are responsible for your husband; If not, then you should dress well and be responsible for yourself! ”

Feng Lili laughed at Lin Mengxue's stupidity in her heart, what age is this still so conservative, and said with a smile: "Mengxue, where did you go, what do you say is not for sale, this is called art, people are models, serious industry, you misunderstood!" ”

Lin Mengxue snorted in her heart, it's not that she looks down on some industries, it's just that some industries make people look down on themselves. Not to mention the truth or falsehood of the so-called gossip, but there is nothing groundless in the world.

The corners of Lu Yi's mouth twitched, she opened another page of the magazine and deliberately put it in front of Lin Mengxue, she swept it inadvertently in a blink of an eye, and immediately covered her eyes with her hands, not daring to look at it again.

This glancing action had already fallen into Lu Yi's eyes, and the corners of his mouth were deflated, and he said, "What are you pretending, you obviously see it!" ”

This Lin Mengxue is always a little pretentious in the eyes of Lu Yi, and she has not been waiting to see this person since she met, and said: "What do you pretend to be innocent, maybe you are a bitch!" ”

Feng Lili was also shocked in her heart, and scolded: "Shut up! ”

Lin Mengxue's eyes widened angrily, and she turned around and was about to slap him, but he held his hand, Luyi threw it forward, Lin Mengxue took a step back, and almost didn't stop.

Lu Yi said contemptuously: "You just pretend to be innocent!" ”

Lin Mengxue sat down aggrievedly, no longer arguing with this person, and cried silently on the table.

She was very aggrieved and wanted to quarrel with him, but what if she quarreled? It's nothing more than being called to the office by the teacher again, and then being called the parent. The current situation of my own family...... When I think about it, I feel even more uncomfortable, and I can't help crying even more sadly!

Feng Lili saw that something was wrong, and said angrily to Luyi: "You must apologize to Lin Mengxue!" How do you speak

Huh? Apologize! ”

I only heard Luyi squeak and say, "I...... I'm just a quick mouth! I'm sorry, Lin Mengxue, I'm not...... No...... That means! ”

Feng Lili pulled the corner of Lin Mengxue's clothes and said, "Okay, Mengxue, don't cry!" I know it's wrong, don't be sad. ”

At this time, the class bell rang, Lin Mengxue wiped her tears, raised her head, and continued to listen to the class.

Lin Mengxue knew that Feng Lili was an open and avant-garde girl, which was very different from her.

Finally got up until the end of school, Lin Mengxue put away her schoolbag and left, and when she passed by Zeng Ziqiong's side, she said, "I still have some things, I'll leave first, and I won't go back with you." ”

After saying that, he ran home as fast as he could.

Running upstairs, my mother was still lying still, motionless, but her emotions had long since calmed down.

At this time, Lin Mengxue's heart went up and down, accompanied by shortness of breath, stood for a while, and her breathing slowly calmed down.

Said softly, "Mom, are you hungry?" Shall I help you down and get something to eat?! ”

The mother let out a long sigh and still did not open her eyes.

Lin Mengxue knew that she was already hungry, and continued: "Otherwise, I'll bring the food and I'll feed you something, okay?" ”

Lin Mengxue turned around and was about to leave, but her mother grabbed her and said in a low voice: "Mengxue, talk to your mother." ”

"Let's eat it!"

As if struggling with all her might, the mother slowly sat up and said, "I want to drink!" ”

Lin Mengxue knew that she might continue to cry after drinking, and said, "Don't drink the wine, it will hurt your body if you drink too much." ”

The mother pleaded, "Just a cup, you bring it to me, I must drink." ”

It's nothing more than crying and making trouble, if you like to make trouble, Lin Mengxue replied: "Okay then! ”

Lin Mengxue went to get the wine, and brought the porridge up, saying, "Drink some porridge before drinking, otherwise your stomach will hurt." If you don't eat it, I won't give it to you. ”

Seeing that her mother's hair was like a chicken nest and her face was pale, as if people all over the world owed her kindness, she nodded helplessly.

Lin Mengxue fed her mouthful like this, and her mother was as obedient as a baby.

At this moment, Lin Mengxue's stomach is also empty, but she still has to endure hunger, thirst and grievances to take care of this mother who "can't take care of herself"!

- How many times has it been like this, and when will it stop? In the past, you were just stiff and crying, but this time you have intensified your use of knives and slashed things, and you simply didn't hurt the innocent. Otherwise, the consequences are unimaginable!!

- Will my mother go crazy like my uncle if she develops like this!!

- I recently heard that he has basically recovered and will be discharged from the hospital soon. I was going to live in my hometown for a while after I was discharged from the hospital, and my mother and uncle lived together, which inevitably made people more worried.

There is a kind of pain like a knife, there is a pain that life is worse than death, there is a pain that can only be relieved by stopping breathing!!

After her mother finished eating, Lin Mengxue gave it

She wiped her mouth.

The mother said sadly: "Mengxue, give me wine!" ”

Lin Mengxue carefully poured a cup for her mother, and she drank it!! Frowning, I asked for another drink!

Lin Mengxue looked at her mother's pain, and she was also in pain, and choked up: "Mom, don't drink it!" ”

The mother cried, "Mom, my heart is bitter! Bitter! Bitter! Nowhere to tell! ”

Lin Mengxue held her mother's hand and said, "Tell me, I'm listening!" ”

The mother showed a little embarrassment on her face and said, "You don't understand! ”

Lin Mengxue choked up and said, "I'm 16 years old, I know everything!" ”

The mother hesitated for a moment and said, "There must be someone outside your father!" ”

Lin Mengxue let out a long sigh, and her mother finally said this, and comforted helplessly: "Nonsense, dad definitely didn't." I'm with him every day, don't I know yet? Don't think about it! ”

The mother cried aggrievedly again: "He doesn't want me anymore!" ”

……

Lin Mengxue was silent for a while, and said, "You are all so old, he doesn't want anyone you want!" No one but you can look down on him! As he spoke, he hugged his mother, patted her on the back, and said, "I misunderstood!" Misunderstanding! ”

The mother continued to cry: "He said that he didn't give birth to a son for him, he didn't want me a long time ago!" ”

This is indeed like what Dad said, he is a patriarchal person in his bones.

Lin Mengxue was very unhappy when she heard this, but she couldn't show it, and continued to comfort: "You believe what he said to play!" He's just talking nonsense in a moment of anger! ”

Lin Mengxue didn't believe it herself, let alone her mother.

The mother continued to cry again: "My life is so miserable, I lost my mother a long time ago, and now I don't have a father, and my brother is crazy again...... Wow wow wow...... Woowoowoo......"

Hearing this, Lin Mengxue had a headache, and there seemed to be a ball of anger burning in her heart, not feeling sorry for her, not pitying her, but hating her!! Why torture herself like this, can't the pain be let go away with the wind?

Lin Mengxue told herself that she must not be a person like her mother, and when she grows up, she must be financially independent and ideologically independent, never dependent on anyone, and will never be unreserved if she loves anyone!!

Such anger and hatred made Lin Mengxue just want to stay away from this person and escape as far away as possible! But she can't, this person is her mother, it's her mother!! What can she do!!

For a moment, an evil thought passed through my mind: "You go and die!" Death is liberation! ”

She was so scared that she trembled herself!!

- How can I have such a terrible idea!

In the end, Lin Mengxue listened to all her mother's nagging like a walking corpse, I don't know how long it took for her mother to finally calm down!!

At this moment, Lin Mengxue's chest was in pain, as if she had been caught by the devil, pinched it in her hand and played with it, and the stinging pain seemed to take her life.

Grievance!

Who is not aggrieved

？

Nine times out of ten, there are unsatisfactory things in life, and what hurdles can't be overcome?!

After the meal, Lin Mengxue came to Huaqing Palace alone and knelt in front of the Buddha.

Here, quietly, except for Lin Mengxue, there is no one else.

Lin Mengxue knelt reverently, and could confide in the Buddha without any concealment: "Do you know? I really feel so tired of living, I want to die countless times! It's a mental torture, I hate that I was born into such a family, I hate myself for not being able to escape my fate. But who can escape their fate? ”

"Can you? Can you? ”

"Tell me, how can I not die without suffering?"

"Isn't it possible to get rid of it by dying!!"

"Haha...... Hehe...... Hee-hee...... How can you answer me La, you don't speak at all, you don't exist at all! ”

She couldn't help but feel sad from her heart, and tears poured down her face.

She choked up and continued in a hoarse voice, "But, even if you really don't exist, I have to come here, because my painful heart has nowhere to rest!" Only by coming here can I feel a moment of peace and comfort! ”

If you want peace of mind, you can only be in front of the Buddha and between the mountains and rivers.

She wiped her tears: "You tell me, so many people are reincarnated, why did fate arrange such a role for me!" The family is pathetic, the body is even more pathetic, and it is a luxury to want to breathe with two nostrils every day...... Tell me! Why did you give me such a character, tell me! ”

She roared in a sishtic voice: "Tell me! Tell me...... "until I don't have the strength."

(End of chapter)