At this time, all that appeared in Lin Mengxue's mind was her own shadow, and she was that Ah Q. When my mother kept nagging, she would hide in her attic and plug in her headphones to listen to the tape songs.

It's as if you're in another world, happy life. In addition to not being able to survive this way, the endless pain can drown her and swallow her.

Lin Mengxue often feels that she is in a boiling cauldron, and the hot oil pan is boiling every inch of her skin; Sometimes I feel like I've fallen into a dark hole, and the silence around me is only the sound of my heartbeat and breathing, and no matter how hard I struggle, I can't see the sun.

Many times I feel like I'm about to get into the rhythm of schizophrenia and split personality. In order not to let herself go crazy, she chose to escape and chose to become a Ah Q.

It's ridiculous that Xianglin's sister-in-law and Ah Q originally lived in the same story.

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In winter, it's a little cold, it's a little cold.

Ding Hui went to Yunnan and never came back, and I don't know if she is doing well.

If you are admitted to a new school and have a new environment, you should write a letter to yourself. But she didn't......

Looking at the empty seat next to him, seeing that everyone else is two people together, but he is alone, it is inevitable that he will feel lonely......

The only thing I longed for was that person, but also, occasionally, sit on this side for a while, so that Lin Mengxue would be very satisfied.

The winter in Chongqing is a little cold, not to 0 degrees, but close to 0 degrees; There is no cold wind, only cold wind, a little biting; The water is also a little cold, but it will freeze the red hands, not the frozen hands.

Most days of winter in Chongqing are not able to see the sun, occasionally gloomy, sometimes drizzling, not hibernation days, but sad feelings.

It's raining, Lin Mengxue doesn't like to bring an umbrella, and walks slowly with a book in her arms, and the book won't get wet; It's raining, Lin Mengxue likes to be alone, looking out the window, slowly in a daze, and staying somewhere for a while.

But time never stops, whether you are happy or sad, she keeps walking.

In this way, the first semester of the third year of junior high school is over.

Opposite Lin Mengxue's house is the primary school, and there is a path behind the primary school, Meng Yuan occasionally passes by this path, and occasionally he will stop and look into the distance.

Is he also looking for the shadow of a certain person, could that person be Lin Mengxue?

Or maybe you can feel her eyes so far away, you just stopped?

"Cher, what are you in a daze!" Suddenly, a voice interrupted Lin Mengxue's thoughts.

Looking back, it turned out to be my brother, and I said happily: "Brother, you're back." ”

He put down his salute, raised his eyebrows, and smiled, "It's a holiday." ”

......

Dan Yalts was also very happy to see her son back.

During the Chinese New Year, my father also came home, and my mother was even more happy.

Lin Mengxue thought that it would be nice if there were only four people in the family, but there was one more brother and occasionally multiple uncles.

It doesn't matter if there is one more, as long as the four of them can be together every day, she thinks it is the happiest thing in the world.

At this time, she will forget about someone, she will forget all her pain, as if nothing has happened.

One day, my brother received a letter, and joy was written on his face all the time.

Lin Mengxue quietly walked up to him and said curiously: "Brother, show me, what did people say to you?" ”

He raised the letter a little higher and said with a smile: "Little brat, don't worry about the adults. ”

Lin Mengxue pouted and said, "Are you the little kid?" ”

He ignored himself, looking at the letter and smirking.

Seeing that Lin Zehao ignored himself and kept scratching his head, he didn't object, he laughed happily, and then Lin Mengxue took his arm, put her head on his shoulder, and said coquettishly: "Brother, just tell me, maybe it will be my sister-in-law in the future, I have to understand what her situation is in advance, just tell me!"

"I haven't skimmed the eight words, what to say! You're going to take the high school entrance exam next year, so study hard. By the way, I'm not allowed to tell my parents. ”

Letters, the yellowed paper, and the smell of ink.

The first letter Lin Mengxue received was written by his brother, and after he went to college, he would write two letters to himself every month to report his safety; Of course, Lin Mengxue's first letter should have been written to him, using the pen he gave him to write ugly words.

Every time I reply to a letter, I look at his beautiful font and always say that my sister should practice your words well, you see how ugly your words are.

When she received the letter, Lin Mengxue's heart was warm, and there was a positive energy flowing from her heart. At that time, Mr. Huang often acted as a postman, and would always deliver the letter to Lin Mengxue as soon as possible.

My brother went to the city, and in the letter he would mention some interesting things, which Lin Mengxue had never seen, and thought that he would also go to see the outside world; Sometimes he would mention how hard her father was and tell her to cherish her current life, study hard, and not let her parents down.

At that time, his brother's living expenses were 200 yuan per month, and he saved money every day, and the money he saved would buy some gifts for Lin Mengxue and buy himself a piece of clothing. Even if you are attracted to a certain girl, you don't dare to take any action, at most it is just a few love letters.

Looking up at the sky, the plane streaked across the sky, leaving a white ribbon, and then a rumbling sound was heard.

The younger brother would point to the sky in surprise and say, "Sister, look, the plane!" There is an airplane in the sky. ”

Lin Mengxue looked at his finger and asked, "Where?" Where? ”

The eyes are constantly looking for the traces of the plane.

It's also a pleasure!

When Lin Mengxue and Lin Zehao were children, every time they went to their aunt's house, they had to pass through a railway, and they would walk around the tracks every time, which was particularly fun.

The younger sister walks in front, the older brother walks behind, and he will jump around like a rabbit on the sleepers of the railroad tracks.

When I heard the sound of a train in the distance, I quickly ran to a high place, sat down, and carefully counted 1, 2, 3, 4, and 5....... remembering that there were generally more than 20 carriages, and I liked to listen to the sound of the train.

Memories may be all good, or they may all be deceiving!

People always selectively avoid painful memories!

During the Spring Festival, Lin Mengxue would go to the town with her father to do New Year's goods, at that time the town was still a busy place, especially during the New Year, it was simply impassable.

From the street to the end of the street, you can only see the black heads of people in a trance, and the voices of people are boiling.

Lin Jiufu kept holding Lin Mengxue's hand, and at that time he felt that his father's hand was so big, so warm and warm.

Lin Mengxue is a child in the third year of junior high school, and he still holds her hand as tightly as he did when he was a child.

At that time, his father was dark and thin, but he was very tall and majestic in Lin Mengxue's heart.

The daughter was born to kiss her father, and she loves this man with big palms very much.

Years ago, my sister and brother ran to the grave mountain to hang the green capital, remember this is still particular, if the son comes to the grave to hang the white, if the daughter comes to the grave to hang the color.

Another interesting thing is to paste the Spring Festival couplets and the door gods. I first went to the fourth grandfather to write, and after writing it, I pasted it with rice soup. The fourth grandfather's calligraphy is good, and he is worthy of being a talent of that era.

Lin Mengxue stood silly after pasting the Spring Festival couplets, and suddenly Lin Haoze took a piece of red paper and pasted it on her face, and ran away after pasting it.

The younger sister chased after her angrily, and the younger brother also coaxed on the side. In this way, you chased me and beat me, and in the end, Lin Mengxue beat her brother's nose and bleed, in fact, she didn't mean it, she threw this stone too accurately, and it happened to be on her nose.

Dan Ya saw Lin Mengxue and scolded for a while: "What if this hits the eyes?" It's not light, it's not heavy, you girl. What is going to happen to this big New Year, but what to do! After saying that, my sister said to my brother again, "How old are you?" When you come back, you still mess with your sister like a child, and people see what it looks like! To be an elder brother is to be like a brother, and this younger sister must be like a younger sister......."

The three children laughed so hard that they turned their backs.

This was Lin Zehao's only nosebleed, and he was beaten by his own sister.

He has been bullied by his sister since he was a child, so this temper is also very good.

During the Spring Festival, the family had a Chinese New Year's Eve dinner, watched the Spring Festival Gala around a black and white TV, knocked melon seeds, and complained about the Spring Festival Gala, happy!

At this moment, Lin Mengxue is happy, holding her brother's arm, lying on his shoulder when she is tired, and grabbing his head when she is happy......

Mother glanced at Lin Mengxue and said, "You girl, how many times have I told you, men don't touch their heads, women don't touch their waists." What do you do touching your brother's head all day? It's not big or small, and when others see it, they think that there is a mother who gives birth to a mother and does not teach it. ”

Most of the time, Lin Mengxue was silent and didn't speak, and she didn't know how to take the next sentence

They are happy and miserable at the moment!!

Time is ticking, and it never stops; Everything is being renewed, and we are growing. The years are so fair, they never give people a second more, and on the contrary, they don't give anyone a second less. Everyone experiences the most important transition in their lives by the passage of time.

At that time, Lin Mengxue didn't know that the outside world was very big, and she didn't know how beautiful the scenery outside was!!

As for why she wants to study, what Lin Mengxue thinks about the most is to escape from this devil's world!!

The people here are very simple? Simple!! Evil? Evil!

It should all be a primitive behavior, full of animal instincts!

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In a blink of an eye, the new semester has started again, looking out the window at the raindrops, it should be waking up spring.

Meng Yuan wrote on the blackboard, the flowing calligraphy, the youthful sunshine of the youth, the flow of his eyes, the voice was like a lark turning and listening, like the spring rain, it was as delicate and refreshing as the spring rain, tactfully at the tip of Lin Mengxue's heart, plopping and beating the chest wall, the peach color was on the face, and he had long been drunk himself!!