Lin Mengxue just looked at him silently, stupidly, hoping to take one more look, even if it was enough.

She didn't want to express this love, and it was impossible for her to express this love, she just wanted to silently put it at ease.

Even sometimes she feels a little guilty, obviously she is so afraid and hated of men, but she still inadvertently falls in love with a man.

It's still at an undeserved age.

Meng Yuan's dormitory was in a small room next to the cafeteria, and the room had a window facing the stream, from which his back could be seen in the light.

Lin Mengxue would study at night, run to the river, listen to the sound of the stream, the croaking of frogs, look at the stars, and watch him prepare for class under the light.

At this time, I can't help but think of the song "Whenever I Pass by the Teacher's Window" that he taught himself to sing, is the lyricist in the same mood as himself? Did he also have a crush on his teacher?

In the morning, Lin Mengxue would also come here to endorse the book, watching him get up, brush his teeth, and stretch his waist......

Lin Mengxue doesn't know that there is anyone in this world who is as stupid and pitiful as herself, maybe she has the other party psychologically, but she doesn't dare to express it.

At this moment, she knew that she was the farthest distance in the world from him.

As Rabindranath Tagore's poem says:

The farthest distance in the world is not the distance between life and death;

but I stand before you, and you do not know that I love you;

The farthest distance in the world, it's not that I'm standing in front of you and you don't know that I love you;

It's love to the point of obsession, but you can't say I love you;

The farthest distance in the world, it's not that I can't say I love you;

I want you to be heartbroken, but you can only bury it deep in your heart;

The farthest distance in the world, it's not that I can't say I miss you;

but love one another, but not together;

The farthest distance in the world is not to love each other but not to be together;

but knows that true love is invincible, but pretends not to care;

……

The farthest distance in the world

It is the distance between the fish and the bird

One in the day

One dives deep to the bottom of the sea

Lin Mengxue secretly said to herself: "Do you know that I love you? You know that, right? Do you love me as much as I love you? ”

Whether it was or not, she assumed that they were, at least in their daydreams that they were in love.

From autumn, unconsciously came winter.

The leaves fell one by one, until the last leaf fell to the ground, and the tree became bare and looked very lonely.

Lin Mengxue still came to the river very early, looking at the crystal clear dewdrops, which slowly formed into frost, and bursts of chill hit, making her shiver a little.

The sky was not yet bright, but Meng Yuan's window was bright.

Meng Yuan pushed open the window, a chill hit, he couldn't help but shiver a little, put on a piece of clothing, and blew his hands.

Looking out the window, the sky had just dawned, and he was already a little short-sighted, and he didn't see Lin Mengxue by the stream at all.

Lin Mengxue sat on a small rock, listening to the beautiful sound of the stream, looking at the back of the adoring person from a distance, and a warm current passed by in her heart.

She also blew into her hand and said to herself: "Lin Xuemeng, you are a fool, who knows like this?" ”

In those days, I often came here to see him, and I could also recite books, which was a double win.

But now the weather is getting colder, and the sky is bright at this time, so he said: "Stupid, don't come again, go back to the classroom, freeze into a popsicle, go back and study hard!" ”

One, two, three, carefully stepping on the stones, crossing the creek, back to school.

In the early morning, everything is quiet, the night is about to leave, and the dawn of dawn wakes up the earth.

On the weekend, I woke up early, walked to the edge of the playground, and started the day of crazy English with the faint lights on the side of the road.

Lin Mengxue passed by him quietly, looking at the firm back, and there was still a little touch of emotion for a while, thinking that she should work harder.

Quiet in his own world on the weekend, he didn't notice a figure passing by at all, and all he wanted was to get out of this mountain.

Lin Mengxue went upstairs, walked into the classroom and found that Tan Tao had started to recite in a whisper, Lin Mengxue sat down slowly, sorted out her thoughts, and joined in this morning reading.

If these children in the mountains want to get out of the mountains, I am afraid there is no other way than to work harder.

It was another Chinese class, Meng Yuan walked into the classroom with a smile, and greeted the first rays of sunshine in the morning, looking so energetic on his face.

He wrote on the blackboard: Lu Xun, then turned around and continued to hold the book, looked at his classmates, and then looked at Lin Mengxue.

continued: "His other name is Zhou Shuren, who used to be a doctor of medicine, but he found that although studying medicine can save a person's body, it can't save a person's soul, so he gave up medicine and followed the ...... of literature."

Speaking of this, he paused, a smile appeared on his face, and said, "Do you still know that no one has abandoned medicine and followed literature and saved the entire Chinese clan from dire straits?" “

A voice broke the silence of the early morning and said, "Qiaoqiao in the mountains!" ”

Everyone immediately cast admiring glances at him, Lin Mengxue is the same, Tan Tao will always be the first, no matter how hard Lin Mengxue tries, he can't surpass him.

He is always like an encyclopedia, no matter what questions Lin Mengxue encounters, he can always answer them, and he is very patient.

Not only for Lin Mengxue, but for all classmates, he is the legendary scholar!

Lin Mengxue was asked questions by the English teacher in class, and she always couldn't answer, she would always look at him, hoping that he would give her the answer, and he would sometimes say it quietly.

Lin Mengxue always looked at him all the time, and her classmates mistakenly thought that she liked him, only she knew, but in fact, she was just giving her the answer for him.

Teacher Meng continued to say passionately and proudly: "Yes, they are all engaged in literature and revolution, but Lu Xun's achievements in literature far surpass that of Mr. Yamanakaqiao. His works include "The Scream", "Hesitation", "The True Story of Ah Q", and "Blessing", all of which we will learn step by step, and everyone can appreciate the style of this literati when the time comes. ”

Lin Mengxue's father has always hoped that she can become a doctor in the future, he said that doctors can support themselves at any time, especially women, they must have a survival skill.

Her mother also said that women must not rely on men, women must be independent and self-reliant, and like her, they can do farm work and raise children without men to take care of them.

is very profound about Lu Xun's works, maybe because of Mr. Meng's ups and downs of language, maybe he brought Lin Mengxue to such an artistic conception while reading, so that she couldn't tell whether the characters were in the novel, or herself or someone else.

There is a woman, her name is Xianglin's sister-in-law, her life is very hard, bumpy, married to her husband who is ten years younger than her in her early years, has a mother-in-law and a little brother-in-law, and the family makes a living by collecting firewood.

Later, her husband unfortunately died, and Xianglin's sister-in-law came to Lu Town alone, and later worked as a female worker in the home of Lu Si. Although Xianglin's sister-in-law is a widow, she looks thoughtful, her hands and feet are strong, and she often follows her eyes, and she is a hard-working person.

......

When she met people, she talked about her son's death and her own tragic experience, and gradually became disgusted by the villagers.

Master Lu Si thought that Xianglin's style had corrupted the customs, so he no longer let her interfere during the sacrifice. This is like a hammer to Xianglin's sister-in-law, and her spirit is getting worse and worse.

Later, Xianglin's sister-in-law listened to Liu's mother's superstitious words, and went to the temple to donate the threshold, trying to wash away her sins. However, all efforts were in vain, and Xianglin's situation deteriorated, and she was finally expelled from the Lu family, until she was later reduced to the streets and became a beggar.

One winter, when every family was busy "blessing", Xianglin's sister-in-law was finally killed by poverty.

When Meng Yuan was reading all this, what appeared in front of Lin Mengxue's eyes was the image of her mother, what a great mother she was.

A woman, with the man not around, takes on all the burdens, plows in the spring and harvests in the fall, and is busy on the hillside alone. Farming the land of two families and raising 6 pigs, one person can be busy from morning to night.

The only belief that supports her is that she wants her children to get out of the mountains and have a good life, and she is willing to pay more for this.

Lin Mengxue is naturally very clear and moved, she is proud to have such a mother, but she is not another sister-in-law of Xianglin. She repeated to Lin Mengxue over and over again what happened to her, not liked by her parents, not liked by her mother-in-law, and not liked by the world......

There is such a man, his name is Ah Q, although he works seriously, he has nothing and even his name has been forgotten.

His miserable position humiliated him, while he depied himself and deceived himself, concealing his actual defeat and enslaved status with spiritual victories. Later, because of the "courtship" to Mrs. Zhao's maid, he was beaten out of the door by Zhao Xiucai.

In order to "make a living", he was forced to go into the city to steal. When the Xinhai Revolution spread to Weizhuang, he returned from the county seat, although he has always opposed the "rebellion", but seeing that the famous man of Baili was frightened by this, he could not help but be "fascinated" by the revolution, just as he claimed "rebellion" and indulged in naïve and confused fantasies, the fake foreign devil who turned into a "revolutionary party" raised a "mourning stick" and did not allow him to revolutionize, after the Zhao family was robbed, the innocent Ah Q was suddenly arrested by the "revolutionary party" and executed in the county jail.

Teacher Meng analyzed that Ah Q's main personality trait is the Spiritual Victory Method.

The so-called method of spiritual victory is to be in the position of a loser in real life, but do not face up to reality, and use blind self-esteem and arrogance, self-contempt, fear of the strong and bullying, forgetfulness, taboo shortcomings, and pride in ugliness and other methods to deceive others and self-indulge in hypocritical spiritual victory.

The Spiritual Victory Method is a kind of anesthetic, which makes Ah Q unable to face up to his real situation, unable to clearly recognize his tragic fate, and although he has been bullied, there is no real grievance.