She was stunned, and there seemed to be only shock and disbelief in the eyes that I used to think were like a sea of stars.

And the confusion that I can't understand.

"yes, how did it get to this point? I used to ...... That's what you want, isn't it? ”

She muttered, so low that I could barely hear it. It seemed like asking me, but it seemed like asking herself.

She walked slowly towards me, with a sadness in her eyes that I had never seen before: "Ador, you don't love me anymore, do you?" ”

I only thought it was ridiculous: "Master, I don't understand, what do you mean by asking?" You're not...... Should this be the case? ”

"yes."

She nodded again, and this time only a wry smile remained at the corner of her mouth: "Ador, I also thought that I had hoped for this to be the case. But why, why don't you love me anymore? You're in love with the first moon, aren't you? I can see that the way you look at her is different from looking at me! ”

Can the eyes of loving someone be seen so easily?

I don't know how to deceive Yin Yuwan, and I don't think I will deceive her.

So I just nodded my head, and although I don't know why she asked me that, I wouldn't lie to her, never: "Yes, I'm in love with the first moon." That's what you're hoping for, isn't it? I won't pester you anymore, and I'll bother you anymore. I just don't understand, why would you hurt Hatsuki!? ”

"Because I hate her!"

Yin Yuwan seemed to finally can't stand it anymore, and yelled at me: "Because I hate her!" ”

She walked up to me, one hand grabbing my arm with a red glint in her eyes: "Why do you love her?!" Why love her?! You should love me! Why do you want to love her?! You betrayed me, Ziduo, you betrayed me because of her! ”

This is the Yin Yuwan I have never seen before, her eyes are red, as if she has become a devil: "Ah Duo, I have given you a chance!" It's not that I didn't give it to you! We are masters and apprentices, but I also want to be like you, and stay in the mountains and forests in the future! Drove you away from me that day, and I knew I was wrong. I always hope that one day you will understand me, you can understand my heart. But Ah Duo, you don't understand anything, you love others in Jiuqu! ”

Tears poured down her eyes, and I couldn't tell if it was remorse or any other emotion.

All I know is that I suddenly started to be scared of her.

It was the first time I saw such a rainy grace, and it was the first time I was afraid of such a rainy grace.

It was clear that she turned me away first, so why should I say that I betrayed her at this moment?

What's more, if you take 10,000 steps back and say, even if I betray it, what does it have to do with the first moon? Chu Yue liked and admired her so much since the day she met her, how could she treat Chu Yue like this?

In fact, what I said to Yin Yuwan on that day, I don't seem to remember much for a long time afterward.

All I know is that on that day, it was as if my world had fallen apart.

That was the first time I lost my temper with the rain. I thought I was in love with her, and I didn't even think that I would lose my temper with her like that.

It was also the first time that Yin Yuwan cried to me, as if she had fallen heavily from the Nine Heavens Immortal Dust into the mud underground. She's not the same high Yin Yuwan anymore, at least not in my heart.

In the end, she even dropped everything and wanted me to forgive her.

But even if it is forgiveness, it should not be my words. I'm not qualified to forgive her for Hatsuki.

I know very well that our mentor-apprentice friendship over the years is about to end there.

On that day, I knelt down at her, kowtowed three times, put down all the valuable things on my body, even the medicine box that had been with me for more than ten years, and thanked her for raising me all these years.

Then, under her shocked eyes, I said something that I never thought I would say one day: "From today on, I, Qi Duo, and you will have nothing to do with each other." I know that I can't repay you for your kindness to me over the years. So one day, if someone wants to kill you, or if you want my life, come to me, and I will grant all your desires without blinking an eye. ”

Standing up, I knew that my mind was resolute: "But I no longer recognize you as a teacher." Your hands are used to heal and save people, not to kill, especially the person you kill is the person who is truly good to you. Yin Yuwan, you showed me how people's hearts can change. Today, I bow down to you, and when we meet again tomorrow, it will be strangers. ”

After that, I didn't want to look at her again.

"Ador—"

But she called out my name, and the voice was a little heartbreaking: "Ador, are you going to leave me?!" Ador, I know I'm wrong. I don't complain if you want to punish me, but you can't just leave me like that! ”

Why not?

I didn't say anything more, just turned and left.

It seems that I heard her crying after leaving, but I also feel that there is no more superfluous feeling in my heart.

I loved her dearly, so what?

Later, I did not see Yin Yuwan again. I hid in Penglai: Penglai was my home, and I think that after I lost everything, there was probably no Penglai that could continue to contain me.

And the rain is ......

She didn't seem to give up, she killed someone for me again, but so what? It's just a few sins that shouldn't be sweet for many days, all I can do is pray sincerely for her, and then repent for the dead Chuyue and Xie Siyun.

For a while, I felt tired. I was so tired that I didn't want to do anything else, so I hid in Penglai forever.

My mother seemed to understand my thoughts and turned away all visitors, including Yin Yuwan.

I think my life is going to go on like this, and the cycle goes on and on, until I die.

But I didn't expect that I would see Chu Yue and Xie Siyun again one day!

Yes, they didn't die!

This is like a beam of light, which finally let me in the abyss see the hope I have not seen for a long time.

They came to Penglai to look for me, but I could see that they were in love.

That Chu Yue, who didn't understand anything, fell in love with my best friend Xie Siyun in the true love of tribulation, and didn't leave me a chance.

I was envious, even jealous.

But also, heartfelt blessings to them.

I think that's about it for the rest of my life.

I helped them settle down in Kyoto, and I also watched the first moon give birth to a cute little dango.

I thought, that's enough.

I said goodbye to them and went to wander the world.

I put my medicine box back on my back and went to heal and save people.

I no longer have any expectations in my life, but to save people and clear up the sins of all these years.

I would occasionally see Yin Yuwan, perhaps because the first moon was still alive, so I was able to talk to her calmly.

Ten years have passed.

When I was thirty-five years old and Yin Yuwan was forty-eight years old, she became seriously ill.

It was the person we had treated in the past who brought her to my medicine furnace when she was unconscious.

At that time, we hadn't seen each other for two years. I heard that in the past two years, she began to ask for immortals, but she became less and less like the indifferent and carefree appearance she used to be.

She was born more and more beautiful, and some people even said that she seemed to stop her face, who could tell that she was actually a forty-eight-year-old woman?

When she was brought to me, she was in a coma, her lips purple, and her face pale.

I took the pulse and found out that she had been taking the so-called "elixir" for the past two years, wanting to stop her face and even her life.

But her body is not good, she was seriously injured before, and now she has used these cinnabar pills, she is a real person, and she can only save her life for five years at most.

I think, at some point, I might have forgiven Yin Yuwan.

I knew that no matter what, in the last five years of Yin Yuwan's life, I must have been with her.

We had a wedding, a very simple, just family and friends.

Chu Yue and Xie Siyun also came to participate, and with their small group, they made the wedding very lively.

I thought I would be able to stay with Yin Yuwan for another five years, but her situation was worse than I thought.

By the third year, she had almost run out of oil.

That day, I came back from buying her favorite sugar cake, and when I saw her lying in the yard basking in the sun, I suddenly realized that she was probably not going to die.

She seemed to be fine that day, holding me and talking a lot.

Talking about our past, but also thinking about our future.

But the last words were: "Atdor, I know that all the faults in this life are because of myself. You loved me like that, but I didn't cherish it. I can't blame anyone else, especially you. Now I'm tired, and so are you. I think...... Set you free. ”

"Master—"

I still call her that, as if to remind us of who we are.

But before I could say anything, her hand was already hanging down.

I am sad, but I am also relieved.

She is too bitter in this life, so she has to live this life and be happier in the next life.

We have been dependent on each other for so many years, and without her, half of my world will collapse. The former love and hate were heavy on the assassins, and it seemed that they didn't count anymore.

The rest of my life will be gray, right?

I buried her with my own hands in the same place where we had lived for many years, and I burned her there.

I don't need to leave any thoughts, I've had enough thoughts in my life.

When I went down the mountain, I saved a little girl.

She was caught in the trap of the beast, and followed me pitifully, saying that she had lost her parents and was helpless, and knew that I was a miracle doctor, and wanted to learn medical skills from me to heal the sick and save people.

She is different from Yin Yuwan, she is more cute than Yin Yuwan.

But it is also different from the first moon, more daring and stable than the first moon.

For a moment, it was as if I saw my future again.

- Qi Duo is finished

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