(Girls' Literature)

"Yaya......" Mimi patted my quilt, and I slowly opened my eyes. You've been lying down for three days, it's time for you to get up, right? Mimi looked at me with worry written in her eyes. I squinted my eyes, it was already close to dusk in the afternoon, how could time pass so quickly? "What is this?"

Mimi saw a small bottle next to my pillow, and I subconsciously wanted to hide the bottle like this, but Mimi was quick and grabbed it! My heart suddenly tightened, "Ai Xiaoya, what are you doing here?" Are you panicking? Mimi said vigorously and threw the small white plastic bottle in her hand towards the door, the plastic bottle and the door panel collided with each other, and just like that, all the tablets in the bottle were sprayed, and they were scattered everywhere with a "bang"! At this moment, almost all the pills in the bottle were sprayed into the air, oh my God, how could everything happen at this time?

Those white pills were all sprinkled on the ground, and from the air, it seemed to be snow particles, and when they came into contact with the floor, they were inevitably a little bouncing! Some even jumped into the corners, and just like that, they left a trail on the floor, and there were no traces that could be found.

"Are you really going to die?" Mimi said and sat on the edge of my bed, grabbed my collar like this, and lifted it up vigorously, "Ai Xiaoya, tell me, is it?" Her teeth were "creaking" as if she was biting her own, as if she was just looking at me, she really looked like she was almost about to eat someone, okay, I admit that this is the most terrifying appearance she has ever seen with Don Mimi, and the light in her eyes is really super fierce. "Yes, yes!" I met her gaze.

The tone is even more humble and not arrogant, at this time, there is no need for me to hide my own heart, I think so, but I am still on the verge of hesitation, I still didn't take that step in the end, "I want to die, I just want to die, not a day or two......." I suddenly felt that the force on my neck that was strangled by the collar suddenly doubled at this time, and I almost rolled my eyes a little by this force. Yes, in my impression, this may be the first time Mimi has done something with me, the first time she has turned against me.

"Smack!" A crisp slap fell on my face, and half of my face was suddenly beaten a little hot and painful! The slap knocked me down, and for a long time, I didn't lift my head. "Ai Xiaoya, you remember it for me, I let you remember it for me, this slap of yours is ...... me Tang Mimi" Mimi stretched out her index finger and pointed at her nose like this, "You are very selfish in doing this, you know?" Mimi's voice suddenly rose a staircase at this time, and the walls of the room shook a little!

"Selfish?" I raised my head and retorted in a somewhat flat tone, "How am I selfish, where am I selfish?" I spoke calmly, and I wasn't so excited because I was slapped by Don Mimi, "I love him, I miss him, I've tried hard these days, but I can't get out, I'm going to find him, I can't even dream of him now, you know?" I said, grabbing my hair, "Do you know how much I miss him?" I'd rather he was a vegetative person and just lay on a hospital bed with his eyes closed, I'd rather he only breathe, and I'd just serve him like this for the rest of my life, but now? He's gone, he's gone, and I'll never see him again, you know? You know how cruel this is to me? ”

I still spoke in a calm tone, as if I was talking about something that had nothing to do with me, and after this passage was finished, the flame in Mimi's eyes slowly went out! "I'm selfish, heh, I'd rather be selfish this time....... "Yes, I admit that it's quite irresponsible to do this, is there any other way for me?"

I lowered my head and looked at so many sleeping pills spilled on the floor, which were prescribed by my friend who dragged me in the hospital when Li Yunxiang's mother was not sleeping well, but Li's mother didn't completely use it up at that time, so I put it away. "Yaya......" Mimi just called me out loud, she hugged me like this, I didn't expect Mimi's hug, the force was so strong, I was about to lose my breath.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have hit you, I shouldn't have hit you......." Mimi's tears slowly fell, teardrops, just like that, "clicking" on my shoulders, "What's wrong?" I patted her on the back, "You're right, I'm just dying, I just don't want to live, because Li Yunxiang is gone......" I said this, tears gradually blurred my eyes, Mimi remembered the violent sobbing, I felt that I was really going to collapse at this time, and I was about to collapse.

"I can't forget him, I really can't forget him, Mimi, do you know? This room is almost full of his shadow, he is sleeping on the bed, he is sitting at the table reading the newspaper, he is brushing his teeth in the bathroom, but these are all fake, others are no longer in this world, Mimi, how do you let me accept it? Mimi still didn't answer, but she hugged me tighter. I can't stand it anymore! ”

Gently spit out this sentence from my mouth, I finally closed my eyes, and Mimi slowly let go of me, "Yaya, I know how important Li Yunxiang is to you, and I also know how hard this matter is to you, but you didn't think of going to other people?" Look at your son Li Xiaoshuai, why don't you look at him? Why don't you even think about him? Without his father, he is already very sad, but without you, how do you let the child get it, and all of his life you are absent as a mother, don't you think you regret it? ”

Mimi said this sentence earnestly, and I fell into deep contemplation, if there is one thing I have to worry about in this world, it is my son - Li Xiaoshuai! This piece of flesh and blood that fell from my body is something that I won't be able to completely put down all at once anyway, I think about it a lot, in the past few days, when I pick up and put down the plastic bottle, my mind is full of Li Xiaoshuai's image, and there are ......

"Besides, what about your mother? She's really not young, she needs your care soon, your father died, if you have another three long and two short, as your mother, how do you let her spend the rest of her days? Mimi's two sentences really hit the two softest places in my heart, one is the mother who gave birth to me and raised me, and the other is the child I really gave birth to, and I can give up everything else, but these two people, I don't just give up one or two sentences so casually. My eyes just stared at Tang Mimi in front of me blankly, and Tang Mimi's eyes were full of crystal tears. "Mimi ......"

At this time, sadness exploded, "What should I do?" I can't even dream of him now......." I lost my voice and became in pain at this time, Mimi hugged me hard, still patting my back gently, "It's okay, Yaya, it's really okay, if you want to cry, you can cry hard, I'm here with you, but you must not think about it, I still want to, I still want to be sisters with you for life!" "Okay, I believe Mimi, you really really confide in your words, Mimi I believe you.

That day, what I want to thank is Mimi's slap, the sober slap that completely slapped me from a daze, if it wasn't for that slap, I think that at a certain time, I would really unscrew the lid of the plastic bottle and pour all these pills into my mouth in one go, so that I can really follow in the footsteps of Li Yunxiang, but in this world, my responsibilities, and my unfulfilled obligations, it will become my permanent regret! If, in my opinion, if I had a long and two short, I would definitely feel sad, and if I just looked at the scene in front of me and unfolded like this, that feeling of powerlessness swept all over you. The feeling of almost sweeping over the whole body, the feeling of not feeling at all.

That night, Mimi fell asleep with me in my room like this, she even stretched out her hand and grabbed my wrist so tightly, I think she must be afraid that I would leave so suddenly, looking at Mimi's face, thinking about the young Li Xiaoshuai, and my mother with gray hair, I suddenly felt that I must not leave at this time, Yunxiang, for the time being, we can't reunite, I still have a lot of unfulfilled obligations, of course I have to do my duty here, just Yunxiang, I know you've got your back, don't you? Outside the window, there were stars in the sky, and a meteor crossed the corner of my eye, and it just ticked and fell on the pillow!

"Come, young man, give me the ball, hurry up and ......" Two days later, I was walking downstairs, and I heard such a voice, as well as Li Xiaoshuai's happy shout, "Okay, young man, hurry up and kick it over......" I didn't get up for a long time, I still slowly held on to the railing, so slowly walked down the stairs, struggling to move my steps, I saw at the gate of the yard, there were two people, one big and one small, and there was a round-headed ball-headed ground ball rolling between them, the small one was of course Li Xiaoshuai, and the big one was - Zou Jialiang.