Xia Jing said as he thought, "That's not the case. ”

That's not true.

That's not what I'm trying to say.

I didn't want her to listen to me repent.

What I crave from Ya – no.

Facing Ye Ya and Fang Yuan, what uneasiness I felt was......

"I ...... It's nonsense. I don't really know. Am I, a murderer, qualified to stand by your side? Can I really go down with you? ”

Xia Jing let out a long breath.

That's right.

The guilt that was wrapped up in my heart was, to put it bluntly, just like that.

The existence of Autumn Yin.

Now it has become synonymous with that filthy and muddy selfishness, which imprisons my heart and torments me in every way that I once succumbed to in the name of Autumn Yin.

Can a person like me really be Ye Ya's and Fang Yuan's man?

Am I worthy of being with these two strong, beautiful, and clean girls?

Yubi Xia Jing lowered his head.

The heart is cringing.

Fear that you will be rejected and do not want to be scorned.

Most of all, I can't stand these dirty hands

Silence lasted for a short time.

Ten seconds? Thirty seconds? A minute? Or is it longer?

For a moment, Ye Ya, who was originally sitting on the quilt, seemed to slowly stand up.

Xia Jing raised his head. Will she rebuke her sharply or comfort her? Regardless of the outcome, Xia Jing was scared. On the other hand, he hopes that Ye Ya can say something to himself, no matter what.

However, Ye Ya did not say anything.

She silently walked to the corner of the room and turned off the lights for no apparent reason.

It was pitch black. However, there is also a street lamp outside the window that can be used as a light source, so it is not so dark that she can't see her fingers, but Xia Jing doesn't understand the meaning of her action.

After turning off the light, Ye Ya walked back into the room again.

「…… Huh?"

Shhhh

Ye Ya didn't speak, but made a noise instead.

"Huh......?"

Ye Ya didn't say a word, and swept towards Xia Jing with a sharp gaze.

"Shut up" – her eyes seemed to say.

Ignoring the speechless Xia Jing, Ye Yawu continued to wrap his clothes.

「…… Look at me, Xia Jing."

Even so, Xia Jing wasn't sure if he really should watch it.

I feel rigid. The heart is pounding.

"How?"

Ya stood up and said, "It's beautiful, isn't it?"

It's not show-off.

Xia Jing nodded almost in a state of dazed loss.

"I think...... It's beautiful."

Xia Jing's answer was exchanged for a smile that seemed to say "Of course".

Ye Ya stepped forward.

"Frankly tell you, Xia Jing."

Ye Ya stretched out her arm and touched Xia Jing's cheek.

「…… I don't think I'm worthy of this beautiful body."

"But, Xia Jing, I didn't want to part with that. So, I hope that at least one day I can be worthy of Shang Yuan...... Worthy of this guy's beauty. I have never changed my mind."

Xia Jing felt that he could understand what she meant.

I can understand what she wants to express to herself.

"I think ......"

Ye Ya whispered in Xia Jing's ear.

"It's not about beauty that's important...... It's about trying to make yourself beautiful."

Ye Ya hugged Xia Jing.

"You have sinned. It was an indelible, very ugly sin. No matter how much you wash it, you can't wash it off. But...... If you cower and hesitate because you have sinned, it is even uglier. I won't forgive you for killing Qiu Yin."

Then resolutely took a stand.

"I will not condone such an act, and I will not forget. You must also remember that you must never forgive yourself lightly...... But you can't torture yourself because of that. You can't hurt yourself, and you can't just stand still."

-- You made such a difficult request to me.

"You swear to me."

Ye Ya let go of Xia Jing and looked directly into his eyes.

"Someday, I'll be yours. Including my heart, as well as Fang Yuan's heart...... From your toes to every strand of hair, it's all yours. So...... You swear. I swear that you will be a man worthy of me and Fang Yuan. I swear that you will be the man who is guilty and will not be convinced."

Even now, I am not allowed to say "no".

If I show weakness at this moment, I will be more unforgiving than anyone else Xia Jing.

Ah, damn it.

The means are too clever.

This man in the world who has not been slapped in the face by a woman who is liked in such a way, and will continue to be obsessed.

「…… Huh."

Xia Jing naturally let out a laugh. It's been a long time since I've laughed from the bottom of my heart like this.

His usual wicked and funny attitude also flinched, and he asked, "Then what do you think I should use to swear?"

Ya also replied playfully, "Just swear by holding me. But now you are not allowed to do anything else, right?"

Xia Jing did so.

Midnight.

Now that the clouds cover the moon, even the deer clan can hardly distinguish the surrounding scenery clearly.

Nangong stood in the courtyard blowing the night breeze as the night two days ago.

Unlike two days ago, there are fewer people to disturb the interest today. That alone makes a big difference.

Ye Chun killed Ah Le last night.

The masterminds of the rebellion were sucked alive by the sword and were vulnerable to being wiped out from this world. With such a ridiculous result, people wonder what she did to use humans to survive for more than 18 years. Of course, the reason why she lived secretly in the first place would definitely not be for this purpose. What supports Ah Le to live should be the idea of revenge on the people who rebelled against her.

However, in the end, the woman did not have the slightest desire to live or fear death, and accepted death happily.

Frankly speaking, just recalling that scene made Nangong feel unhappy.

knelt in front of Ye Chun, as if to say, "Come, please cut me!" Ah Le, who showed his defenseless body and had a smile on his face, said, "You must help your mother's wish come true."

Those were her last words.

Indeed, from her standpoint, such a death may be the most satisfying. Because the daughter will inherit her legacy and put an end to the fate of the deer clan. Although the two have different motives, the daughter can fulfill her wish on behalf of her, which is the happiest thing as a mother.

However, at that time, Ye Chun said something like this:

- I never thought that this woman was my mother.

With an expression of insult, hatred, and disdain on his face.

And rightfully so.

As the daughter of a traitor, the truth is obscured, and she is regarded as the second patriarch - how could Ye Chun regard the culprit who caused her pain as her mother's admiration?

The mother is not aware of the sins she has committed, but loves her daughter; Although the daughter has a grudge against her mother, she does not hold her accountable for her sins, but only takes advantage of her love. The mother and daughter are so completely twisted that people can't help but laugh.

In terms of personal affection, Nangong also wants to kill Ah Le with his own hands. Slowly, a thousand knives were cut, tormenting her to the fullest extent before she could go crazy with pain, and then letting her die in a state of intense fear while she still had her senses. Nangong has such an impulse, not only because Ah Le caused Ye Chun to suffer a lot, but also because of personal factors.

That's her two younger sisters, Sasha and Xiangxiang.

── I owe it to me that they were born?

Thinking of what Ah Le said two days ago, Nangong was nauseated.

She was right.

It stands to reason that twin sisters should not have been born. According to the rules of the deer clan, when you know that you are carrying twins in your belly, you must beat them. Before we talk about twins, however, there is a bigger issue at hand. Basically, a split family is not allowed to have a second daughter. Even the Nangong family is no exception.

The taboo will be broken, and the initiator will be Ah Le – to be exact, Ah Le and her sister, the former patriarch.

In the eighteen-year turmoil, the sword failed to cause a fatal reason for Ah Le.

Because Ah Le has the same blood as the person who wielded the knife at that time.

Because Ah Le and her are not simple sisters.

This is a special treatment that is exclusive to the family. Almost all of the divisions were kept in the dark, a fact that only a very small number of elders were aware of. In order to whitewash the peace, it must have taken a lot of painstaking work.

However, that also creates flaws.

Although the details of the situation at that time are not clear, the reason why Ah Le went crazy may be one of the reasons. Because strictly speaking, as a role model for a family, the most important thing is to have a downright heart, and the daughter born in this environment of this family was originally a product born from breaking taboos.

The Nangong family can be said to have been implicated for no reason.

The former patriarch and elders felt guilty for breaking the taboo, so they were especially open to Nangong's mother. She was allowed to give birth to Xiang Xiang and Sasha, but only on the condition that they must be completely cultivated into props, and the result-

"Sister Nangong, what are you doing here?"

"What are you doing here, Sister Nangong?"

A voice suddenly came from behind Nangong.

There was no need to look back to confirm, Nangong could also hear that it was his sister.

"Didn't do anything."

So she answered as usual, as if she were dealing with props.

"What are you doing here?"

"I'll tell you, Sister Nangong."

When Nangong asked, the twins replied in unison, "There are no cats here. I searched for a long time, but I couldn't find it."

"I was looking forward to the difference between the cats on the mountain, so boring."

Nangong sneered and replied to the twins who were full of words.

「…… How could there be a cat in the Lost House."

Let's be honest......

Whenever Nangong gets along with her two younger sisters, she feels full of impatience and hatred.

She didn't know whether that emotion was directed at the twins or at herself. Or is it against the mother who gave birth to them? Or promised their mother to give birth to their former patriarchs? Or is it a more abstract concept, the darkness that the deer people carry with them?

If it's a prop, then why do the sisters have such a boyish side? Obviously, their personalities are so childish, but once Nangong gives the order, they will act like props, which makes Nangong very anxious.

- What a joke, it's ridiculous, and I feel impulsive when I see it. From the moment it fell to the ground. Their existence is concealed, and the only people they can contact are their parents and none, compared to the deer clan who have been closed from the world. The world they live in is even smaller.

Xiangxiang and Sasha will come up with their own names for various things, which is also due to this. Only they can understand the meaning of the term—even if they correct and persuade them repeatedly, they just can't change this bad problem.

Furthermore, they have developed strange habits even in the way they eat and the rules of going to bed, no matter how big or small. It's like feeding each other with chopsticks, and sleeping with their heads facing up in a row of quilts. These phenomena feel very strange in the eyes of others, but in a world where there are only the two of them, they can't be more reasonable.

As long as I look at them, my mood will be inexplicably impetuous.

That's not love or brotherhood. I can't have a similar feeling to them when I was with my mother or Ye Chun, and I don't have the same sense of comfort when I get along with Adai.

Although the impatience and hatred can be clearly felt, it is obviously different from the negative emotions that Ye Ya has in his arms. The emotion she didn't know how to classify was hard for her to let go.

I don't understand. What is such a feeling?

No—I don't want to figure it out.

"It's an order, Sasha, Xiangxiang. Stop thinking about meaningless questions and go to bed."

So Nangong decided to treat the twins with the same attitude as a machine.

The word command comes into play with the start switch.

The expression faded from the twins' faces.

At the same time, they knelt on the ground and replied reflexively, "Yes, Sister Nangong." 」

Looking at their appearance, Nangong couldn't help but feel irritated again, but he didn't show it on his face.

"Tomorrow is a decisive battle. Before going to bed, remember the plan clearly and configure it according to Lord Ye Chun's instructions. And then...... Do your best to meet the enemy, don't fight with a game mentality, the goal is to annihilate the opponent."

Nangong was expressionless, as if he was announcing an announcement, but faintly told his sisters: "In addition, there is another important matter. This is my command in my capacity as head of the family......

At midnight.

The final battle is about to begin in fourteen hours.

The night that seemed to be quiet and vaguely filled with a sense of tension passed, and the morning was the same, maintaining the atmosphere that seemed calm at first glance.

Although the battle meeting was held in the morning and evening, it was difficult to discuss any good ideas when it was impossible to predict what the other side would do, and at best it was to confirm who was going to use what weapons or who was responsible for what work, and the final conclusion was that "everyone should cheer up and work hard."

Even so, the time to come came.

Four o'clock in the afternoon.

The group took the vehicle prepared by the "Sheng" to the mountain road.

Xia Jing and the others stood at the entrance to the house of the lost in the mountains.

Xia Jing, Ye Ya, Lin Yu, Anye, Lanyang.

Everyone traveled lightly, but Xia Jing was carrying a backpack. The backpack contained a lot of items. Because Ye Ya and the others are likely to confront the enemy head-on, they can only be responsible for their own backs. But it's really heavy. But after all, it's something you have to bring, so you can only grit your teeth and endure it.

As for the sand, it is left on the mountain road for just in case.

However, the "in case" here actually refers to the situation where escape is unavoidable, so her job is only to assist in escape and provide transportation.

The amazing thing is that everyone, including Xia Jing, has a very calm expression.

Of course, this battle may well be the final one. Everyone was nervous. However, there is a sense of enlightenment in everyone's heart, as if they have broken through their confusion.

In the end, I can only do my best to give it a go.