In other words, Lan Yang's injuries were so serious that if he didn't rely on such a large amount of diet to replenish his nutrition, he probably wouldn't be able to recover.

She said that her body was almost healed.

If this sentence is reversed, her body has only healed to the extent that it does not affect walking and eating.

And before sitting on the couch, she was still dragging one leg.

It seems that it is difficult to make a significant difference by just supplementing sleep.

"I'm sorry, Senior Sister Lanyang."

Thinking of this, Xia Jing almost unconsciously apologized.

“…… Huh, what? ”

Lan Yang chewed something in his mouth and asked why.

"If I could have been a little more shrewd, you wouldn't have been so seriously injured, senior sister."

If you don't send Lan Yang to walk with you

If only she was allowed to carry a weapon to protect herself

"It's not just that I'm annoyed that my senior sister was hurt. I ...... at that time."

Failed to stand on the front line of the battle.

Just as he was about to say this, p.

Lan Yang's word stopped Xia Jing's apology.

「…… Huh."

"You can't go on, Xia Jing."

Lan Yang put down his chopsticks.

She faced Xia Jing and fixed her eyes on him.

"My injuries can heal with enough sleep and diet. However, if it was you who was traveling with you at that time, it would have caused irreparable results...... Besides, I can only blame myself for getting hurt, because I am too weak. That's not Xia Jing's responsibility."

"But ......"

Xia Jing wanted to refute.

Lan Yang looked directly at Xia Jing's gaze sharply with extremely sincere, but somewhat condemning eyes.

"Hey, Natsujing...... Don't take care of things that you don't have to do. Don't take it all alone. Let us take responsibility for ourselves.

Everything is self-finished, and you make conclusions with your own thoughts...... Isn't that just like Dr. Tian Zhi and me used to be?"

"Ah......h

Xia Jingru was drunk.

- Speechless.

Self-completion. Don't rely on others, take everything alone.

That's not enlightenment. It's just paranoia.

Even if the form is different, but in terms of the result, it is no different from Tian Zhi.

"And—"

Lan Yang continued.

The expression on his face changed to a faint smile.

"It's true that everyone has worries and problems that he has to carry. But...... If there is someone around you to protect you, you are not afraid of being confused and losing your direction. You can keep working hard and not be defeated."

A thought-provoking remark.

There is a trace of naughtiness that you may not find at all if you don't pay close attention.

"What does that mean......"

"I have Xia Jing by my side, so I can continue to work hard."

Lan Yang stood up.

"So, Xia Jing just needs to find someone to protect him...... I'm well fed, I'm going to sleep."

As if everything he wanted to say was finished, Lan Yang quickly turned around and left.

She still limped when she walked, and she should be able to recover after a good night's sleep.

"Well, it's safe." After seeing Lan Yang leave the living room, Xia Jing breathed a sigh of relief.

He was worried about me again, enlightened me again, and didn't forget to push me behind my back.

Alas—she really is......

If my sister were still alive, she would have said the same thing to me. Xia Jing was so convinced without any grounds.

"So ......"

Xia Jing got up.

In this way, it is impossible to talk about not taking active action. My sister persuaded her so hard, if she was still indifferent, it would be too useless. The most important thing is that Xia Jing himself doesn't want to become rigid in his thinking.

Xia Jing stepped without hesitation and left the living room.

At the same time, I thought to myself, "Where's that guy's room?" This kind of problem.

After knocking on the door, an answer came from the room, "Wait a minute", and then I waited for about ten minutes.

Xia Jing, who was led into the room, couldn't help but smile.

It's hard to put into words—a room with a lot of personality.

Originally, it was a bedroom for visitors, so all the furniture in the room was basic. There is a bed, a dressing table, and a wardrobe, and the size is about four tsubos.

But the interior layout has become very strange.

The quilt that was supposed to be on the bed was spread to the floor. According to Ye Ya herself, it seems that she feels more secure sleeping on the floor.

The space became cramped due to the quilt on the floor, so the dressing table was pushed into the corner.

As for the reason why the wardrobe door is open and not closed, it is because the kimono hanger protrudes.

「…… Ugh."

"Sit there, Natsujing."

Ye Ya pointed to the bed that didn't even have a mattress. I couldn't find a place to sit and relax.

- Forget it.

Maybe she's used to living in her room. Although the biggest reason is that the logic of the parties is a little flawed, Xia Jing decided not to discuss which factor.

"Running suddenly, what's the matter?"

Ye Ya seemed a little angry.

"Suddenly ......? Isn't it convenient for me to come and disturb me now?"

Xia Jing thought that she was busy with other things, but Ye Ya blushed.

"It's not that you're not welcome. Just ask you to be considerate...... Anyone who knocks on the door will be troubled. I need to prepare for that too."

At this time, Xia Jing found out

Ye Ya meticulously changed into Hanfu.

Before Xia Jing knocked on the door, she was supposed to be wearing loungewear—the kind of clothes that were completely plain and had a simple belt style. She didn't want Xia Jing to look sloppy, so she hurriedly changed into the current set of Hanfu.

"But I've seen you in loungewear a few times before."

"These two things don't mix, stupid!"

「…… Whoa!"

The pillow slammed into it. Because it was smashed quite hard, it hurt a little.

"You really don't know anything about a girl's heart......

Hearing this guy say the word 'girl's heart', Xia Jing couldn't help but feel a burst of amusement.

However, Xia Jing was also a little relieved. She had thought she might be depressed by the blow of the loss, but now it seemed that she could pull herself together.

But Xia Jing didn't realize that she would appear energetic because of his presence. And he didn't realize that it would take ten minutes to open the door, and it wasn't just because he had to change clothes.

Instead, in order to hide the red eyes of crying, a thin powder was applied to the face. Xia Jing was not clever enough to notice these small details.

It's just that Ye Ya has just lost her relatives and friends after all, so is it suitable to discuss her troubles with her. It makes Xia Jing feel hesitant.

Maybe he noticed the doubts in Xia Jing's heart

"What's wrong, Natsujing? Don't you have something to say to me?"

Ye Ya, who was sitting on the quilt, suddenly looked at Xia Jing with a straight color.

「…… Hmm."

It's really okay to take her.

Xia Jing made up his mind, it shouldn't be useful to be polite with this guy anyway.

「…… That's for today."

"Today? Which thing? Sorry, too much really happened today."

"It's something I can't fight today."

Xia Jing said, "I'm scared."

Yaya waited silently for him to continue.

There was no urging, no nodding, just silently—waiting.

Therefore, the words naturally kept coming out, and even Xia Jing himself was startled.

"I'm afraid I'm going to miss and kill someone again. Of course, I didn't mean to kill at all, it was because of that guy...... Qiu Yin concealed that she was human, and perhaps it could be said that I was too unlucky. It's just that I'm still scared. The thought of what happens to you makes it impossible for your body to move. I'm really a wretch."

Xia Jing said as he thought to himself, "That's not the case."

That's not true. That's not what I'm trying to say. I didn't want her to listen to me repent.

What I crave from Ya – no.

Facing Ye Ya and Fang Yuan, what uneasiness I felt was......

"I...... It's nonsense. I don't really know. Am I, a murderer, qualified to stand by your side? Can I really go down with you?"

Xia Jing let out a long breath.

That's right.

The guilt that was wrapped up in my heart was, to put it bluntly, just like that.

The existence of Autumn Yin, now synonymous with that filthy and muddy selfishness, imprisoned my heart and tormented me in every way that had succumbed to my name Autumn Yin.

Can a person like me really be Ye Ya's and Fang Yuan's man?

Am I worthy of being with these two strong, beautiful, and clean girls?

Yubi Xia Jing lowered his head.

The heart is cringing.

Fear that you will be rejected and do not want to be scorned.

Most of all, I can't stand these dirty hands

Silence lasted for a short time.

Ten seconds? Thirty seconds? A minute? Or is it longer?

For a moment, Ye Ya, who was originally sitting on the quilt, seemed to slowly stand up.

Xia Jing raised his head. Will she rebuke her sharply or comfort her? Regardless of the outcome, Xia Jing was scared. On the other hand, he hopes that Ye Ya can say something to himself, no matter what.

However, Ye Ya did not say anything.

She silently walked to the corner of the room and turned off the lights for no apparent reason.

It was pitch black. However, there is also a street lamp outside the window that can be used as a light source, so it is not so dark that she can't see her fingers, but Xia Jing doesn't understand the meaning of her action.

After turning off the light, Ye Ya walked back into the room again.

「…… Huh?"

Shhhh

Ye Ya didn't speak, but made a noise instead.

"Huh......?"

Ye Ya didn't say a word, and swept towards Xia Jing with a sharp gaze.

"Shut up" – her eyes seemed to say.

Ignoring the speechless Xia Jing, Ye Yawu continued to wrap his clothes.

「…… Look at me, Xia Jing."

Even so, Xia Jing wasn't sure if he really should watch it.

I feel rigid. The heart is pounding.

"How?"

Ya stood up and said, "It's beautiful, isn't it?"

It's not show-off.

Xia Jing nodded almost in a state of dazed loss.

"I think...... It's beautiful."

Xia Jing's answer was exchanged for a smile that seemed to say "Of course".

Ye Ya stepped forward.

"Frankly tell you, Xia Jing."

Ye Ya stretched out her arm and touched Xia Jing's cheek.

「…… I don't think I'm worthy of this beautiful body."

"But, Xia Jing, I didn't want to part with that. So, I hope that at least one day I can be worthy of Shang Yuan...... Worthy of this guy's beauty. I have never changed my mind."

Xia Jing felt that he could understand what she meant.

I can understand what she wants to express to herself.

"I think ......"

Ye Ya whispered in Xia Jing's ear.

"It's not about beauty that's important...... It's about trying to make yourself beautiful."

Ye Ya hugged Xia Jing.

"You have sinned. It was an indelible, very ugly sin. No matter how much you wash it, you can't wash it off. But...... If you cower and hesitate because you have sinned, it is even uglier. I won't forgive you for killing Qiu Yin."

Then resolutely took a stand.

"I will not condone such an act, and I will not forget. You must also remember that you must never forgive yourself lightly...... But you can't torture yourself because of that. You can't hurt yourself, and you can't just stand still."

-- You made such a difficult request to me.

"You swear to me."

Ye Ya let go of Xia Jing and looked directly into his eyes.

"Someday, I'll be yours. Including my heart, as well as Fang Yuan's heart...... From your toes to every strand of hair, it's all yours. So...... You swear. I swear that you will be a man worthy of me and Fang Yuan. I swear that you will be the man who is guilty and will not be convinced."

Even now, I am not allowed to say "no".

If I show weakness at this moment, I will be more unforgiving than anyone else Xia Jing.

Ah, damn it.

The means are too clever.

This man in the world who has not been slapped in the face by a woman who is liked in such a way, and will continue to be obsessed.

「…… Huh."

Xia Jing naturally let out a laugh. It's been a long time since I've laughed from the bottom of my heart like this.

His usual wicked and funny attitude also flinched, and he asked, "Then what do you think I should use to swear?"

Ya also replied playfully, "Just swear by holding me. But now you are not allowed to do anything else, right?"

Xia Jing did so.

Midnight.

Now that the clouds cover the moon, even the deer clan can hardly distinguish the surrounding scenery clearly.

Nangong stood in the courtyard blowing the night breeze as the night two days ago.

Unlike two days ago, there are fewer people to disturb the interest today. That alone makes a big difference.

Ye Chun killed Ah Le last night.

The masterminds of the rebellion were sucked alive by the sword and were vulnerable to being wiped out from this world. With such a ridiculous result, people wonder what she did to use humans to survive for more than 18 years. Of course, the reason why she lived secretly in the first place would definitely not be for this purpose. What supports Ah Le to live should be the idea of revenge on the people who rebelled against her.

However, in the end, the woman did not have the slightest desire to live or fear death, and accepted death happily.

Frankly speaking, just recalling that scene made Nangong feel unhappy.

knelt in front of Ye Chun, as if to say, "Come, please cut me!" Ah Le, who showed his defenseless body and had a smile on his face, said, "You must help your mother's wish come true."

Those were her last words.

Indeed, from her standpoint, such a death may be the most satisfying. Because the daughter will inherit her legacy and put an end to the fate of the deer clan. Although the two have different motives, the daughter can fulfill her wish on behalf of her, which is the happiest thing as a mother.

However, at that time, Ye Chun said something like this:

- I never thought that this woman was my mother.

With an expression of insult, hatred, and disdain on his face.

And rightfully so.

As the daughter of a traitor, the truth is obscured, and she is regarded as the second patriarch - how could Ye Chun regard the culprit who caused her pain as her mother's admiration?