Lidu is close to Dyeing, and you can reach the city gate in half a day on horseback.

On June 12th, Boduange and I walked to Lidui, and my brother and I had agreed to meet at noon.

We arrived at Lidui in the morning, and after waiting for a while there was no sign of it, I was a little breathless, and Boduang said that he would not break his trust twice in a row, but that he knew my brother better than I did.

He saw that I was uneasy, and took me out of the inn to go shopping, in February and March the city of Lidui was full of golden or milky orange blossoms, we were in a hurry, in June the flowers were gone, and the orange trees were full of green oranges the size of a little finger, and I tried to catch one from the side of the street to play, but I could not reach the oranges on tiptoe.

The sun shone right through the little oranges and orange leaves, and I was dazzled by the shredded light, squinting at the small fruit of a tree.

He stretched out his hand and gently plucked a dark green one, I saw that the wrench was familiar, and I didn't think much about it, "Boduange, this orange is still green......"

"Ahh

"It's only been a long time, and my brother can't recognize it?" He asked with a smile.

I threw myself into his arms, wrapped my arms around his waist, and looked up at him, "What...... How did you...... Now...... "I'm so happy that I can't speak."

"Can't I come? Is it? He said.

"No, no, no."

He patted me on the head, "I've grown taller, I walked to knee height, and now it's almost up to my shoulder." "He's always mean to speak.

I let go of him, "Bad brother! ”

I've laughed, I've seen him, but I suddenly don't know what to say to him, I haven't seen him for too long, and when I meet again, the joy on his face is also tired, how much he has experienced in these times of separation.

I swallowed all the grievances that came to my mouth, and I couldn't say those show-off words that escaped death, he would worry about me, and this was not what I hoped for.

I suddenly understood what it was like to grow up.

It is from the beginning of thinking about the beloved, and it is even more reluctant to see worry on their faces.

I changed my accent, "There's a lot of fun going on in Lidu, and I was going to go with Boduange to buy oil-paper umbrellas." ”

This was true, and it was only when I said it that I realized that Boduange was nowhere to be found, "Hey, what about him? ”

"Brother bought it for you, go." He grabbed me, and we walked through the streets of Lidui as we had run wildly in the garden behind the Hop Yi Temple. He held my hand tightly.

"But I'm worried if he can't find me." I was out of breath as I ran.

Hearing me keep mentioning him, he said, "You look for him, then I'll go." "He scared me.

"No—"

"Funny to you, he's at the inn, and he also knows I'm coming, so I'll go back after we have a round of play."

I finally reassured, "That's good." ”

My brother shook my hand heavily, but it didn't hurt me.

I wanted to ask him if he was doing these times, but I didn't dare to ask more, if he said that he was having a hard time, I would be sad, if he said that he was doing well, and I saw that he looked tired, I must not believe it, so I simply never mentioned it again.

Walking past a small shop, where various colored oil-paper umbrellas were hung, my brother and I walked in.

He picked up an oil-paper umbrella with plain colored flower branches, "What are you buying this for?" ”

"Nature is not a shade from the rain and light." I stretched out an umbrella that was as green as a lotus leaf.

"What's your idea?" He knew my little ninety-nine at a glance.

I had to be honest, "I want to make a mechanism where I can just open the umbrella without using my hands." ”

I showed him the air, "It's just a button on the handle of the umbrella, and the umbrella surface will automatically open." ”

He smiled unadornedly, without the restraints of the palace, "You haven't given up your dream of learning mechanical arts?" ”

"Why can't I?" I cocked my nose and said.

"Okay, okay, I didn't say no, I'll keep your book for you."

"You didn't throw away my "Ritual Technique" and "Ink Sutra", did you?"

"No, it's all in place, right where you and I know it." He smiled, and there were fine lines in the corners of his young eyes.

I caressed his eyes and finally couldn't help asking, "Is my brother tired?" ”

He closed his eyes and let my fingertips run over the corners of his eyes, and when he opened his eyes again, his eyes were full of wounds that I couldn't read, and he could have said all of them to me, or just a little, but in the end, he didn't say a word, and his face didn't have the inexplicable emotion just now.

"Let's go." He took the umbrella in my hand, and sealed his umbrella in a flower paper bag, "Buy them all, and you can think about it slowly." ”

He held me in one hand and an umbrella bag in the other.

I think the man is very ladyish with a paper bag of colors, and he wants to take it and carry it himself, but he doesn't allow it.

"I can move it!" I stressed that he had always told me that I was not allowed to be squeamish.

"As long as I'm here, you don't even need to mention it." He grew impatient.

"Brother, do you have anything to say to me?"

"Nope."

"Lie!" I shook off his hand and walked away on my own.

I just wanted to share his sorrows and joys as I had done before, but he didn't want to.

"Mao Jiao!"

He stopped me.

I turned my back to him and didn't speak, I didn't want to be angry with him, I knew that he had a lot to hide from me, but I just felt sorry for him, and I couldn't bear to tell me about his difficulties when he saw me, and he was afraid that I would worry about him.

"I came here and got tired of three horses."

I cried at that sentence alone.

"Why didn't you just say that? And what's more! ”

"I killed a lot of people, and my hands were covered in blood."

He said to me calmly, but his shoulders were trembling slightly, my brother was kind by nature, all the scriptures and Buddhist books, never forget, my mother once said that he may not be a monk in his previous life, he has obtained the Buddha's way in his previous life, and he came to the world to hone in this life, and our family is fortunate to have the protection of God and Buddha.

"I'm going to kill a lot of people in the future, are you afraid?" His eyes were red.

I turned around and hugged him, he was a big fool, how could I be afraid of him, "I feel distressed." ”

I originally thought that as long as he didn't fight or grab, we would be safe and stable in this life, but the times have changed, the world is impermanent, and God has cruelly forced my brother to be so embarrassed.

"You also stay in Donghu and don't leave, okay?"

He wiped away my tears, "I can't. ”

I know what he's worried about, his mother is still in the palace of the Southern Wei Dynasty, the palace is unstable for a day, his mother's safety can't be saved, and his brother can't escape, he is a bird in the cage of the Southern Wei royal family, and he can come out occasionally, but no matter what, he still has to go back when it gets dark.

"Let's bring my mother out, by the way, Boduange can help, and when we all leave, we can go to the west to live in the carving."

"You think of him so powerfully?" He smiled.

He ...... It's amazing. My words swirled around the tip of my tongue.

"Okay?"

"Okay." He simply agreed.

"I want to find a way to take my mother away, and you don't leave in Donghu."

"Okay—" I said, "no...... Not good. He meant not to take me back.

"You want me to stay in Donghu?"

He nodded, "The Southern Wei Dynasty is full of crises, and the wolf son of King Fengzhuang is ambitious, if you go back, you will only let me tie my hands and feet, or wait for us to make peace in Donghu." ”

I heard this harshly, "Isn't it okay if I don't make trouble for you?" "I thought he was here to take me away.