She kept calling herself in her dreams, wake up, wake up!

She sat up on the bed with a face full of sweat.

The sky above her head was as blue as cloth, the air was cool and cool, and she wrapped her arms around herself, staring helplessly at the night. Lonely, desolate, but, safe.

When did things take a turn for the worse?

October 1, 2001. Her happiest day.

woke up in the arms of her senior brother in the morning, in order to avoid embarrassment, she endured the soreness of her body and urged her senior brother to get up early, and the two of them went for a morning run together. Then I bought soy milk fritters and returned home, and the family had breakfast together. She remembered the location of the dining table near the window, the green lattice tablecloth on the table, the sun shining on her back, the senior brother occasionally looking up at him, the lenses reflecting the sun's light. The gentle smile of her uncle and aunt has always been unforgettable.

Then she went home. Several times she wanted to confess her brother's affairs to her mother, but for some reason she never said it. Although the family is democratic and the family education is strict, she and her senior brother's progress, once she opens her mouth, she will not lie, she is afraid that her parents will not accept it. After all, she had just entered college.

The third and fourth classes that morning were big things, and he told his senior brother that there would be no classes in the afternoon, so he would go to him to do his homework. After saying that, he finished lunch with the fourth senior brother and waited for the boy downstairs.

She said goodbye to the fish at the door of the dormitory, carrying a shoulder bag and a few books in her hand, and followed the crowd in the direction of the second house. The door of the second house is unusually noisy today. I saw a girl in a white dress and a white dress standing at the gate of the dormitory from a distance. It's like looking for someone, or going in. Ordinary male and female dormitories do not allow students of the opposite sex to enter, and the guards are very strict.

Little girl, I told you, we don't allow female students to enter casually.

I'm his girlfriend.

Girlfriends can't either. This is the rule. You just call him out.

Most of the boys passing by look back or slow down to listen. Girls dress up very outstandingly, and beauties always don't worry about turning heads.

However, this girl didn't seem to listen to the uncle's words, neither called nor left, and tried to break in several times.

I said, little girl, what's the matter with you, we have rules.

It's a little more lively.

She stopped at the foot of the stairs at the gate, occasionally glancing at the spotlight.

Then she saw the senior brother and the fourth senior brother walking past her, because there were so many people, it seemed that no one had noticed her existence. She had just raised her arms to say hello. A loud voice cut her off.

Zhang Heng!

The girl at the gate of the dormitory, standing on the high steps, looked at her brother fixedly, and waved at him with a smile.

It was only then that she took a serious look at the girl's face.

Senior Sister Liu Yang.

Suddenly, I had a bad premonition.

The scene of that day in the hospital came to an eerie appearance. She lowered her hand and let herself quietly hide in the crowd.

Zhang Heng!

A male voice was also familiar to her.

It's the boss. Hurriedly ran from the direction of the school gate, turned his head to look at Liu Yang, who was standing tall, ran to the side of his senior brother in a few steps, and whispered something to him.

She saw her brother frowning.

The boss looked at him with a solemn expression and expectant eyes.

She saw that Senior Brother hesitated for a while, and finally walked in the direction of Senior Sister Liu Yang.

She saw her running to him in full view of everyone, holding his hand intimately. Then she saw that her brother suddenly remembered something, and turned her head to search the crowd.

Then the senior brother saw her.

She felt as if she was in the spotlight, all around her in the dark, here and there whispering.

Which one is exactly?

Tsk tsk

……

There was a feeling of fear in her heart. Mu stared blankly at everything that was happening in front of him. Obviously, she was standing inconspicuously, but she felt that everyone's eyes were on her. And at this moment, the person she was looking forward to was standing tall and standing arm-in-arm with another beautiful girl.

She looked up at him. No expression can be seen. Somehow, she felt sorry for him. She looked around, and the crowd slowed down. There are probably many people who know about her. There is nothing to hide. Her chest felt like something was clenching her, and she felt like she couldn't breathe.

Then she saw the boss running up the steps in a few steps and standing on the other side of Senior Sister Liu Yang. What did he say to his senior brother again? Her ears were buzzing, and she was about to float. She saw the boss drag the two of them down the steps. She saw his teeth clenched and the muscles on his face stiffened.

The three of them finally turned around and walked side by side towards the outside of the school. Senior Sister Liu Yang leaned gently beside him.

Those who know and those who do not know each other are talking to each other. The gaze at her became more and more dense.

This feeling of loneliness is so uneasy. She only felt cold.

It was a warm autumn afternoon, the sky was high and blue, and the sun was warm and wrapped around the face. But the cold was real, and her shivers came one after another. She was overwhelmed.

A pair of large hands patted her. It's the fourth senior brother. He hugged her and asked her, can you go back to the dormitory?

She nodded dumbly with a blank look.

She didn't know what else she could do but nod.