Chapter 393: Backer
Yan Han has never retreated, if you really count it, I'm afraid, only in matters related to Xiao Yu, Yan Han has retreated......
If it weren't for Jingchen thinking about this righteousness that could never be touched, Xiao Yu probably wouldn't have left him......
The nine-tailed fox clan only loves one person in their lives, but it is Jingchen who has been disappointed again and again, tearing Xiao Yu's faith to pieces, what can Xiao Yu do?
The first time, Xiao Yu was tortured in front of the Emperor of Heaven and was worse than death, and finally Yan Han was desperately brought back to the demon world, goodbye Jingchen, but at a glance he could relieve all the resentment and pain, and the second time he ...... Under the perfection of Yan Han, Xiao Yu still returned to the fairy world, but was injured by Jingchen again.
Whatever is fine....... But Jingchen has lost in distrust every time.
As a fox demon but has the qualification of a stepgod, Xiao Yu can only rely on Jingchen alone in the fairy world, but this is her only backer, but Xiao Yu has been completely pushed into the abyss.
But again and again, I couldn't help but want to redeem it, until the last moment, Jingchen still left it by his side, what kind of love is this?
Jingchen has been lonely for a thousand years, and finally met Xiao Yu, how could this little fox who broke into his world without warning let go easily?
But Xiao Yu obviously loves Jingchen to the core, but he was hurt by Jingchen again and again.
For Xiao Yu, Jingchen is like a piece of light across the abyss, Xiao Yu can't get by, he can only take risks again and again, but after all, he has to fall on the cliff hanging on the other side of the bright cliff, Jingchen is just watching on the other side, and from time to time he stretches out his hand to pull Xiao Yu, but to no avail......
If Yan Han is standing on the other side, I'm afraid he will accompany Xiao Yu into the abyss together......
Jingchen can't blame anyone, even if at the last moment, everyone knows that Jingchen's love for Xiao Yu is not less than Yanhan's, what's the use?
Who would believe that in the heart of a person, the righteousness of the same heart should be the only difference in the status of the person who loves him?
Who would believe that a person who has given nothing but hurt Xiao Yu will give more love than a person who gives up everything and uses every strand of his soul to protect Xiao Yu?
In the same way, everyone knows how to answer these questions, and Xiao Yu will not be stupid enough to be so stupid that he still has to defend Jingchen.
Originally....... Xiao Yu also thinks that she can keep her love for Jingchen, but she is wrong, Jingchen's love for herself is too vulnerable, no matter how much she makes a lot of sacrifices, it is still far from what she has done for her.
Xiao Yu is also a human being, and she also longs for an equivalent love, even if she has the qualifications of a stepgod, so what?
What she wants to love most is not still the god who is simple to her?
Originally...... Xiao Yu has never had the luxury of being able to really be by Jingchen's side, when did he start to have this idea?
Is it when you come to the world and see Jingchen as if you have found a backer......
Is it when you come to the world and see the ups and downs of life in the mortal world, and you want to help desperately......
Is it when you came to the world and found that you could do anything for the dust......
No one knows when Xiao Yu fell in love with Jingchen, not even Xiao Yu himself......
Because, you know, the person you love first is dusty......
Xiao Yu, who was in such a hurry and rushed to the world to find Jingchen, was just the backer who grew up with him.......
Perhaps this is the difference between people who have the qualifications to succeed gods......
was originally unintentional worldly fireworks, but he came to the mortal world, but he also involuntarily learned the way of living in the world and the interweaving of feelings.......
understands worldly love, understands another relationship between men and women, perhaps, it is from the moment he comes to the world that Xiao Yu discovers his special feelings for Jingchen......
It was from that moment that Xiao Yu completely fell into this ignorant and incomprehensible love, but this was only one time, which was enough to hurt Xiao Yu and never want to touch it again.......
approached again and again, so that Jingchen also understood his mind, and he was originally ....... Xiao Yu has been with Jingchen for so long, and the righteousness Xiao Yu that Jingchen is looking for in her heart is very clear, she knows that Jingchen has been pursuing this righteousness in her heart for too long.
No matter who comes first or second, he can't have both himself and righteousness in Jingchen's heart.
Xiao Yu understood....... But when Xiao Yu wanted to retreat....... When you want to hide this love in the bottom of your heart....... But it was too late.......
For the first time, she understood that if you love someone, you want to possess them, and you want to be by his side forever......
But Xiao Yu understands that she can't interfere with anything with Jingchen because of this love.
In her opinion, the demon is no different from the demon who has the qualification to succeed the god, and she is not qualified to be by his side, so she simply hides this love in her heart, what about her miserable life?
So, in the world, even if she knew that "Xiao Luo" was not Jingchen, even if she didn't know that "Xiao Luo" was a person condensed by Jingchen in order to fulfill his own wish to wait for Xiao Yu's arrival, she still agreed......
She naturally refused at first, because in her heart, from the time she found out that she had a different love for Jingchen, she should no longer fall in love with anyone other than Jingchen, just like when Yan Han first saw Xiao Yu in search of Xiyue.......
But Xiao Yu and Yan Han are the same, both of them were defeated by the wanton greed in their hearts, the possession of love, and she compromised with him......
In Xiao Yu's countless times, he persuaded himself that "Xiao Luo" was Jingchen, or if he missed this opportunity, he and Jingchen would never have a chance again......
But when Jingchen returned to Xiao Yu's side, Jingchen, who had no love in Xiao Yu's heart, replaced the "Xiao Luo" who was full of himself and returned to his side, Xiao Yu was a little lost......
Even Jingchen understood his intentions, even if he knew that his love for Xiao Yu was enough to temporarily put aside the righteousness he had pursued for thousands of years, but he finally failed Xiao Yu and himself.......
After all, he became the one who hurt Xiao Yu the most.......
But every time he hurt Xiao Yu and devastated him, he always told himself that next time...... Next time, I will definitely be able to fight for it, but every time, I hit Xiao Yu's sore spot......
Jingchen owes Xiao Yu too much, it has nothing to do with the status and interests of the fairy world, just Xiao Yu, just pure love for a girl, everything Jingchen does tore them to shreds......
Shouldn't Jingchen be the person who is willing to fulfill Xiao Yu, give everything for it, and use every strand of his soul to make up for the pain he brought to Xiao Yu in the past?
Xiao Yu loves Jingchen so much, and even more deeply and passionately every time, but Jingchen pushes Xiao Yu into the abyss again and again, Xiao Yu ...... Shouldn't you choose the one who truly loves you deeply?
That person is naturally Yan Han......
Even if initially, Yan Han just used Xiao Yu as a substitute for Xiyue, but later, what Yan Han did for Xiao Yu, even if it was a substitute, who would dare to say more?
As a demon emperor, he did not hesitate to throw away the symbol of status and lose the face of his emperor, but he just hoped that Xiao Yu could be happy........ What's not enough?
Counting the previous life, Yan Han has been with Xiao Yu for so long, and has saved Xiao Yu again and again in obscurity, and even because he is afraid that Xiao Yu will blame himself, he does not hesitate to disguise himself as an outsider to continue his love, and try his best to smooth out all the pain of Xiao Yu, he personally put in the person who can bring Xiao Yu happiness, but when he gave Xiao Yu pain, he pushed it away desperately, obviously did so much for Xiao Yu but didn't say a word, kept silent, and let Xiao Yu hurt himself again and again.......
Obviously, he is the one who can give Xiao Yu happiness, but he doesn't want Xiao Yu to suffer a little grievance and a little disappointed, Xiao Yu is the whole world of Yan Han.......
Even if he gave everything for Xiao Yu, why didn't Xiao Yu speak ill of him without knowing it?
The mask hides all the kindness and love that Yan Han has for Xiao Yu, but in Yan Han's opinion, isn't it good that he is the only one who knows?
How can you bear to let Xiao Yu blame herself?
is such a person, who chose to die in place of Xiao Yu at the last moment, but still felt sorry for failing to protect Xiao Yu until the last moment, doesn't he deserve Xiao Yu's love?
is such a person, even if he disappears into the world, in the memory of everyone, but he still has to help Xiao Yu get through the difficulties in the dream, protect Xiao Yu thoroughly, and when he is about to die, he will use every wisp of his soul to pray that he can replace himself to protect Xiao Yu, is it ...... Don't you deserve Xiao Yu's converted faith?
The one who should make up for it the most, and the one who should use himself as a medium to pray for Xiao Yu's peace and joy for a lifetime, should be Jingchen......
Shattering the love that everyone fascinates like Xiao Yu, the one who should sacrifice himself the most in exchange for Xiao Yu's success is Jingchen......
But as the god of the fairy world, it is understandable if Jingchen really has the world in mind......
If you really feel sorry for Xiao Yu, I'm afraid ...... It's just Yanhan, right......
It's only Yanhan, who can do this.......
There is only Yan Han, everything is supreme with Xiao Yu......
Fortunately, Xiao Yu really fell in love with Yan Han, but unfortunately, Yan Han was humble to the bones, and in the end, I couldn't believe that Xiao Yu was really in love with herself......
If Xiao Yu said that he fell in love with Yan Han out of sympathy, Yan Han should not agree......
Even at the last moment, Yan Han still chose to fulfill what he thought was the only person who could give Xiao Yu happiness......
Everything Yan Han did was based on Xiao Yu's happiness, from beginning to end...... It's all the same.......
But there is no doubt that Yan Han and Jingchen are the two people who love Xiao Yu the most, and they are the two people who do their best to love Xiao Yu, but they are different in the way of love, and the things that can be sacrificed and given up are also different......
Both of them love their beloved in their own way, and perhaps in their opinion, they have given a lot.......
However, what the fox demon Xiao Yu with the qualification of stepgod wants is just a backer, a person who is loved by him and can give him protection and reliance at the same time, and at this point, Yan Han seems to be slightly better......