Chapter 392: Weakness
Perhaps, the Emperor of Heaven is so bent on going his own way, which is the fatal blow that really destroys Gong Hou's trust in himself, perhaps....... What the Emperor of Heaven did made Kong Hou really disgusted with himself like this, and he wanted to quickly withdraw from this disgusting place......
Maybe...... The same is true for Yanhan, right......
With regret and love for the setting moon, look for Xiao Yu, who is alive again with the skin of the setting moon in this life.
Perhaps, the moment he saw Xiao Yu, Yan Han's heart was extremely excited, but when Xiao Yu looked at him and his gaze was no longer as before, or even completely different, Yan Han was the first person to wake up and realize that Xiyue would never come back.
He knew that he could have allowed Xiao Yu to restore Xiyue's memory, so that he could fall in love with Xiao Yu again, but he still chose to fulfill it, he had delayed Xiao Yu's previous life, and he was unwilling...... He felt guilty...... He couldn't bear it......
He couldn't bear it, and he felt that for Xiao Yu's previous life, Xiyue was irreparable and unforgivable....... He was afraid that he would hurt Xiao Yu again, he had never been able to forgive his former self, even if he really tried his best to protect Xiyue, but he still ended up like this, he would not let himself have a second chance to hurt Xiao Yu, so no matter how much he loved, he didn't dare to stand by her side as bravely as before, or even stand in front of her and tell her....... I've always loved you......
The setting moon made him dare not love anymore, and then tell a woman who made him happy that he loved her......
He could only look at Xiao Yu from a distance, standing beside Jingchen, obviously his face was so happy, but he felt that she was unhappy......
If it weren't for Jingchen doing this again and again, Yan Han might have been silently by Xiao Yu's side, and he didn't dare to say 'love' lightly......
At that time, he was not even willing to take a look at Xiao Yu's face, that face was exactly the same as Xiyue, Yan Han didn't dare to look at it, but he didn't want to look at it, he didn't want to look at Xiao Yu's face, he didn't want to look at it, because just one glance could make him think of the regrets that he and Xiyue didn't have time to make up...... Don't dare to look at it, I'm afraid that if I take a second look, the so-called fulfillment in my heart will come to naught, and I want to occupy Xiao Yu's heart again, and every time he takes a step forward, he has to take ten steps back, because he is afraid, he is afraid that if he doesn't hold back and rush up, will Xiao Yu resolutely push himself away, at that time...... He must really be hopeless......
In fact, why isn't Yan Han always timid?
In front of everyone, he is a condescending demon emperor, but only in front of Xiao Yu, he is the Mo Yanhan who looks forward and backward.......
He was afraid that if he said more, he would hurt Xiao Yu, the regret of the previous life made him feel that he was not qualified to accompany Xiao Yu, and he was not even worthy of appearing in front of her, perhaps, in the previous life, Yan Han's pain was not necessarily less than that of the setting moon, but he still ignored these and took all the fault on himself, in Yan Han's view, it was because he did not protect the setting moon well, if he kept the setting moon, the setting moon would not end up like that......
But how could Yan Han not know that with his strength at that time, he couldn't protect Xiyue safely and let him stay in the demon world no matter what, of course he knew that all this was not only his fault, but since he loved Xiyue so much, how could he bear to blame a girl for his fault?
He has thousands of reasons to let Xiao Yu stay by his side, he has so many ways to make Xiao Yu fall in love with him again, but he can't, this is his last bottom line, but in the end, he finally came to the end and broke through the barrier......
He finally followed what he had hoped for, the idea he had been looking for for the setting moon for thousands of years.......
He wasted so much effort to find Xiao Yu, and finally ....... But he still ended up like this......
Even if...... He just wanted to be by Xiao Yu's side in obscurity, but he still couldn't keep a trace of his soul.......
But this may also be the ending that Yan Han wants, in Yan Han's heart, as long as he fails to give Xiyue the best ending, it is Yan Han's fault, this is the judgment made by a person who loves her to the extreme, this is also Mo Yanhan, if you change it to someone else, no one can do this......
He loved Xiyue too much, he loved the girl who broke into his world without warning, he didn't want her to be hurt in the slightest, not at all.......
At the moment when he saw Xiao Yu, Yan Han knew that he could not meet the second Xi Yue, even if it was the same skin, the same timbre, even if he was the same person, he might be able to vaguely see the shadow of Xi Yue with a smile, but maybe it was because Yan Han loved Xi Yue too much, but despite this, he still clearly knew that Xiao Yu was not Xi Yue....... Not now...... It will not be ....... in the future It will never be .......
But, perhaps it is close again and again, Yan Han can't resist this girl with the face of the setting moon appearing in front of him day and night, smiling, and so similar to the setting moon between gestures, but with a bit of his own charm, with his own temperament, the way of behaving in the world, and the appearance of loving a person like that, all made Yan Han fall into it again, perhaps, Yan Han should have understood.......
I have been chasing the moon for so long, and I have long since changed from the regret of love to unwillingness and obsession, and it is reasonable to fall in love with such a little feather, what else is there to fight?
Yan Han also understood and accepted this fact.
He was reluctant to accept it at first, feeling that no matter how similar Xiyue and Xiao Yu were, they were not the same person, and by doing so, he was betraying Xiyue and hurting Xiao Yu, he just wanted to silently guard, accompany Xiao Yu, and help Xiao Yu find the person she really loved.......
However, Xiao Yu has suffered so many grievances and so many pains in Jingchen, and none of the scars on his body are not shocking, even if he is a bystander, even if Yan Han has already decided not to interfere, how can he sit firmly?
He still rushed forward after all, with regret for Xiyue and the love he couldn't give her, he would rather fill the void with Xiao Yu......
When he rushed towards Xiao Yu desperately, the ending had already been decided.......
Jingchen treats Xiao Yu wholeheartedly, understandable, but he hesitates so many times between Dayi and Xiao Yu, no matter what the result is, this hesitation is fatal, and Yan Han never, for Yan Han, Xiao Yu is his whole world, nothing is more important than Xiao Yu, and later, even if the moon comes back, Yan Han will be a little lost......
Yan Han finally left Xiao Yu by his side, but Yan Han also understood that even if he was injured like this, Xiao Yu still couldn't let go of Jing Chen, in that case, why did Yan Han force it?
At that moment, Yan Han must have suddenly remembered that he had originally wanted to find Yuzuki, so he compromised.......
After all, to be able to do this, Yan Han should have made a lot of determination......
Putting his most important things in exchange for a few points of others, Yan Han....... How much do you love Xiao Yu? Or is it ....... How much do you love the sunset moon of the year?
There are many people who know about Yan Han and Xiyue, but in this life, there are very few people who know that Yan Han loves Xiao Yu.
Many people should think that in the eyes of Yan Han, Xiao Yu is just a substitute for Xiyue......
But no one knows that in Yan Han's eyes, Xiao Yu has already completely replaced Xiyue, and in Yan Han's heart, for Xiao Yu, Yan Han will only love more, along with the share owed to Xiyue...... And where is the alternative?
But Yan Han never said, when did others find out about Yan Han's thoughts about Xiao Yu?
For Xiao Yu to fight against the elders of the demon world?
In order to be able to justifiably accompany Xiao Yu, it became two people?
For the sake of Xiao Yu, he did not hesitate to give up the symbol of his status?
From the beginning, even if he understood that Xiao Yu would return to Jingchen sooner or later, he would insist on giving everything to Xiao Yu?
Even if Xiao Yu doesn't know how to repay herself, she still has to help Xiao Yu fulfill her and Jingchen?
Or did he deliberately put Jingchen next to Xiao Yu for Xiao Yu?
Or is it ...... For the sake of Xiao Yu's heart, he did not hesitate to give up the only chance that he and Xiao Yu could be together forever?
This pile, one by one, all of them cannot reflect Yan Han's love for Xiao Yu.
The one who loves a lot is always humble......
Yan Han embodied this sentence vividly.
He has done all this to the extreme, except for Xiao Yu, everyone thinks that no one can give others such love like Yan Han, the love that is humble to the bones....... Supreme Love....... Desperate love....... Giving it a go......
But in the end, why wasn't Yan Han gambling?
He even put Xiao Yu back in the fairy world, and he even pushed Xiao Yu away completely, letting her pursue the love she longed for the most......
But he wasn't gambling, because what he wanted from the beginning was fulfillment, and he never thought that he would regret his life with Xiyue in his previous life, but in this life, he could still make up for it in Xiao Yu, the girl he really loved......
He didn't dare to think about it, but he wanted to gamble......
But he still underestimated his love, when he finally persuaded himself and pushed Xiao Yu away, everyone was persuading him, but he stood alone and adhered to this selfless love, but he still lost, he lost himself......
At that time, he still hopelessly chased to the fairy world, and came to Xiao Yu again, that is, that time, that decision, completely changed the relationship between Yan Han and Xiao Yu......
Jingchen hurt Xiao Yu again, whether intentionally or unintentionally, in the end, Xiao Yu was tightly protected by Yan Han in his arms, maybe ....... When Yan Han made that decision, Jing Chen ...... It is destined to never have a chance......
Xiao Yu is Yan Han's weakness, in front of Xiao Yu, Yan Han becomes fragile, but if someone wants to hurt Xiao Yu at this time, Yan Han will naturally not hesitate to block in front of Xiao Yu, even if he risks his life, he will hold Xiao Yu tightly in his arms, this is Yan Han, in front of Xiao Yu, always humble to the bone, gentle as water......
But in front of everyone, he can cover the sky with one hand, but he just throws everything down for Xiao Yu and lets go, this is Yan Han...... If you don't love, you can get cold and ...... The demon emperor who can warm up the stove...... Mo Yanhan .......