Hello, the first person to see this letter, I don't know who you are, maybe it's a stranger, maybe it's someone I'm familiar with, but, when you read this letter, I'm no longer there, I choose to end my life in this peaceful way.

The morning sun on the beach is very beautiful, golden, sparkling sea, so gorgeous, sitting on the beach all day, I don't even want to go home.

How long have I not sat quietly, watching a sunrise, watching a sunset, I can't help but sigh for the time I have missed, time is fleeting, I hope each of us will cherish it, don't lose time.

Sitting on the beach all day, I thought about a lot of things, and all the things that I deliberately hidden, were all hooked out by me.

I still remember when I was a child, I was very playful, and occasionally I got into trouble, and every time my mother would teach me with a straight face, I would be coquettish to my mother, and she forgave me, look, I was so cute, and smiled......

In my impression, my father's existence is as tall as a mountain, I admire my father, and I also longed for my father to accompany me and my mother to an amusement park to play, and a trip to the beach to see the rising sun, but I waited for five years, until my mother left, I did not wait for this opportunity.

I also have a kind grandmother who treats me very well and treats me as the jewel of her palm.

I also have a sister, she is not related to me, I met on the street, she also loves me, with their love, I thought that I could still live happily without my mother, but all of this collapsed in an instant when I was sixteen years old.

I often wonder, why is this happening? Why did fate play such a trick on me?

I sat by the beach and thought about this question for most of the day.

How can a person's fate be destined? It's not something that anyone else can change, fate is in my own hands after all, and I'm also sad, and I only understand this now.

I'm stupid, really stupid, I've always been unable to see my own position, I want to carry all the responsibility on my shoulders, I want to be a giant who shelters my loved ones, in the end? It's ridiculous that I have to beg people over and over again, beg for mercy over and over again, and even bend my knees and put my self-esteem at their feet, isn't it?

One day, I was diagnosed with stomach cancer...... Advanced.

Unexpectedly, when I learned of my illness, my heart did not fluctuate too much, maybe this is God's punishment for me, who made me do so many bad things when I was young.

In the past 21 years of my life, perhaps the only thing I have really been happy about is the time before my mother died, and ...... I had a good time with the only warm sun in my life abroad.

My life is very rich, I have experienced everything, glory and wealth, hardship, from a carefree lady, to a laborer who does farm work, to a cleaner and dishwasher, and finally returned to the place where I was born, going around for more than 20 years.

So, I have no regrets.

When I was younger, I did a lot of stupid things, but I didn't know that when I lost everything, I couldn't go back.

How ridiculous, isn't it?

I used to be such a willful and chic person, when did I become this submissive and even I hated it??

I don't want to be tortured by the pain of the disease, instead of being tortured, I might as well choose to end it myself, farewell, my relatives!