Tang Guo didn't expect Qin Cang to suddenly say such things to herself, all along, she felt that Qin Cang was like a sealed jar, filled with all kinds of emotions and all kinds of thoughts, but she didn't reveal a drop of water, she refused to say a word to share with others, and the door of her heart was always closed. She has never had the habit of listening to other people's secrets, so Qin Cang didn't say it, and she didn't ask.

Why did she start to hate birthdays, this question, Tang Guo really never thought about it, because she still likes birthdays since she was a child, when she was young, it was because she had gifts, cakes, and she could be taken out by her parents to play, and she still liked it when she grew up, after all, it was a lot of luck to be born in this world, so Tang Guo always felt that she didn't necessarily need much achievement, as long as she lived a full year before, and there was no waste. Looking back, there are also many pleasant memories, so this year is worth celebrating, and the birthday has become a milestone.

So Qin Cang's question, Tang Guo couldn't answer, and she could hear it, although it was a question, Qin Cang didn't really expect her to give any kind of answer, but in a situation like today, he needed someone who could act as an audience, just listen quietly and not speak.

Sure enough, Qin Cang didn't really wait for Tang Guo to give any answer, he looked very different tonight from usual, originally the whole person seemed to be wrapped in a thin layer of ice, and now that layer of ice was shrouded in an indescribable aura, making him seem faintly sad.

"When I was very young, my father resigned from public office and went to the sea to do business, which is not a big deal now, but in that era, it still required courage, and it was equivalent to fighting." He opened his mouth, his tone was light, and he couldn't hear the joy or sorrow, as if he was telling someone else's story, or a story from a book or newspaper, "My father's luck is not bad, except for the first year or two, it has become more and more smooth. The income from business, especially at that time, must be more generous than that of other people's salaries, and our family's living conditions have also improved. During that time, my mother in the in-laws and mother's house, there is a feeling of raising eyebrows, every gesture is more Mrs. Kuo's energy, relatives and friends attitude towards us has become different, very close and enthusiastic, I was still young at that time, not very sensible, I only remember that they would often be very enthusiastic to pull me as a guest, let me play with their children, praise me for being smart. ”

Tang Guo'an listened quietly, she knew that no matter how pleasant what Qin Cang was talking about now, there would definitely be a turning point in the future, she had not been seriously exposed to things in the field of psychology, but she knew very well that Qin Cang's awkward personality was definitely not something that could be caused by a happy family atmosphere, there must be some unknown twists and turns, and even she would faintly feel a little nervous, afraid that the things Qin Cang said earlier would be too happy and too happy, which also meant that the gap was greater when the transition came.

"In the middle of this, there have been many people who asked my father to do errands and asked my father to borrow money, my father is a man with no scheming, and a little vain, thinking that he is the first in the family, so he almost responds to those requests. In this regard, my mother and him are on par, originally in her mother's family, she was married to a more general one, and now my father has changed from a poor clerk to a small businessman, she also feels that she has a light on her face, in her mother's house in order to show her own scenery, noble things are not less, from clothes and shoes and hats, to gold and silver jewelry, as long as her sisters speak, she can give it to others generously, just for others to envy her magnanimous development, I didn't know a lot of things at that time, It's just a superficial impression of these things, and even some things may have been blurred and can't be remembered clearly. ”

When Qin Cang said this, he suddenly smiled, and his smile was full of mockery.

"In fact, that kind of glorious days did not last long," he continued, "the initial little bit of success may still be the majority of lucky ingredients, my father's strength is not so strong, and the foundation is not thick enough, but the publicity is very strong, so after a period of time, the price of the previous high-profile publicity has been found one after another, and the business has not been smooth again, but the initial stumbling can still be maintained, and then it is becoming more and more stretched, from the beginning to the turnover is not effective, In the middle, there were only about two or three years of effort, and our family's life fell directly from the peak to the bottom. My father owed some debts outside, and there were not so many savings in the family that could be used to pay off the debts, so he went to those relatives who had borrowed money from him in the past and asked them to repay the money, and those people either pushed it today to tomorrow, tomorrow and the day after tomorrow, or they refused to admit it, insisting that my father did not lend it to them at the beginning, but funded them, and said that they did not need to pay it back. ”

"How are these people like this! It's too bad! Although Tang Guo had originally planned to make no noise, she just listened to Qin Cang's story silently, but when she heard this, she still couldn't hold back.

"Human nature has a greedy side, and it's not surprising that if you're willing to act as a fat man, you will naturally attract so many vampires." Qin Cang's tone was flat, but his attitude of being accustomed to the ugly side of human nature made people feel even more sad, "In short, I don't know if this situation can be regarded as a family downfall, at least the original so-called scenery is gone." My father has not dared to go home in order to avoid debts, relatives and friends see that he is at the end of the road, and they are not willing to lend him money for turnover, it cannot be said that the tree is falling down, at least there is a little wall down and everyone pushes the posture, many people began to stand up and say, they were not optimistic about my father's risky approach, put a good stable income iron rice bowl, have to go to the sea to make money, but in the end nothing was caught, and was slapped on the beach by the waves. ”

When Tang Guo heard this, he only felt that the world was hot and cold, but he didn't hear how much this had to do with birthdays, and he didn't understand why Qin Cang seemed to be so disgusted and rejected by birthdays.

"I remember that during that time, our family lived very poorly, and we had to carefully avoid the people who were looking for my father to collect debts every day, sometimes we drank porridge three times a day, and it was common to be hungry, not to the point of being poor, but mainly because my mother was frightened every day, and she was not in the mood to go to the meal. After a while, when it was time for my birthday, I came home from school as usual and found a birthday cake on the table. ”

Tang Guo's heart suddenly hung in her throat, and she knew that the main event was coming.

"I was young at that time, and I was very happy to see the birthday cake, so my mother cut a big piece for me," Qin Cang's eyes fell on the birthday cake in front of him when he said this, and it seemed a little cold, "I was very happy to eat at the time, after all, I haven't eaten anything serious for a long time, and probably no child can refuse to get something like cream and sweets, so I did eat very deliciously." My mother was eating with me at the time, and after eating she told me to go back to my room to sleep, she said she was tired and wanted to sleep. After I returned to the room, I soon felt nauseous in my stomach, I had some colds during that time, and then I ran to the bathroom alone and vomited for a long time, after vomiting I felt very dizzy, and then my eyes were black. ”

"Ahh When Tang Guo heard this, she was taken aback, although her qualifications were relatively shallow, but after all, she was from a professional class, and her logical thinking was not bad, so she quickly had a guess in her head, but she didn't dare to say this guess, for fear that if she misjudged, it would make Qin Cang unhappy, so she still asked, "How can this be?" ”

"You already have the answer in mind, right?" Qin Cang's eyes were a little cold except when he recalled this paragraph just now, but now he is much calmer, and his mood has become turbulent again, "When I woke up, the person was already in the hospital, because I took sleeping pills and rat poison, so I received gastric lavage, fortunately, I had a cold in my stomach, and I vomited almost everything I ate, so the poisoning was not deep, and I picked up a life." ”

Tang Guo listened to him reveal the answer so plainly, only to feel a little chill up and down her body, this kind of cold is different from the cold that emitted the heat when Fang Cai hurriedly went to get the cake, Fang Cai's cold is the cold on the skin and flesh, and now, she feels as if a large piece of ice has been stuffed into her heart, and a trace of coolness emanates from the bottom of her heart, and she suddenly feels that the whole person is not good.

"That'...... What about your mother? She asked cautiously.

"When she died, she ate the medicated cake solidly, so when she was discovered, she was already cold and couldn't be saved." Qin Cang's voice still sounded very cold, there was no sadness, no anger, hatred, etc., "Later, I found her suicide note at home, and she felt that she couldn't bear the shame and pain of falling to the bottom all of a sudden, so she wanted to do it all at once, and she felt that it didn't make sense for me to survive, so it was better to go with her." It was the last birthday of my life. ”

He paused, exhaled slowly, then raised his eyes to look at Tang Guo, and said to her, "Do you understand now?" ”

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