Death is a heavy word, and death anxiety is even more ubiquitous.

Jin Wei has it, his father Tang Hui has it, and even Tang Mingyao who was reborn has it. It is no exaggeration to say that the ubiquitous anxiety of people in the present and future generations is also a variant manifestation of death anxiety.

Chinese people are very shy about death, Tang Mingyao remembered that people in his hometown said that people died, and they would say "gone" to the elderly, and if they met a young person who died, they would say "ran away". When a young person dies, relatives and friends feel very sudden, so it is like running.

For a protagonist like You, who knows that he has not had much time in the world, how can he write his "run" in a simple way, without being tragic or old-fashioned, and at the same time allowing readers to heal?

In my previous life, there was a Disney movie "Dream Travel", which was a good movie to relieve death anxiety:

As long as it is remembered, the soul will not disappear, it will always exist, and it will not really "die".

On the contrary, it is completely forgotten, and the soul disappears instantly.

And You is different, he is not forgotten by others, but he is about to be forgotten by himself. He died of his injuries and had only one year to live, and he could only watch himself die but could not do anything.

The intense fear of death enveloped him, making him forget his former prestige and scenery, and even more so making him forget his original appearance. He was almost gone in his mind.

There is no greater mourning than death.

How can a mortal tour be "lived", and live a sound and vivid life, so that everyone in the Kyushu mainland admires and remembers it?

This is the soul thread of "Kyushu Death Note" throughout the whole text.

Death is the inevitable end, but death cannot change what he once existed, it cannot change the past, nor can it change the present.

He can't change the outcome of death, and death can't change his existence at this moment.

How can I not be bothered by death anxiety?

Live in the moment!

Live every present, let yourself have no regrets, let yourself be helpful to others, and be remembered, so that when death really comes, you can also happily say goodbye to the world.

Through the character setting of the game, Tang Mingyao felt that he had been healed again, and his heart was much more relaxed.

The psychological state is easy to repeat, just like a cold, if you are cured once, it does not mean that you will not suffer from it again in this life, so you need to adjust your state from time to time to make yourself live a healthier life.

At the same time, he also thought of his father Tang Hui, who dismissed him once during the Chinese New Year, I don't know if it is better now.

He decided to take the initiative to call his dad.

"Son, why did you remember to call, is there something wrong?"

Tang Hui maintains a businesslike attitude towards his son, he doesn't know how to get along with his relatives softly, he only talks about things reasonably, and never praises Tang Mingyao and Tang Lingfeng.

Sometimes, Tang Mingyao has a lot of resentment about this, but today he was in a good mood and decided not to care.

And he also temporarily decided to praise his father in turn.

"It's okay, I just miss you and Mom."

"Study hard, your mother and I are fine, don't worry." Although Tang Hui's words were very rigid, his tone was never happy.

Tang Mingyao could hear it.

"Dad, I was thinking just now, you are really good, you accept new things quickly, your thinking can keep up with the trend, you are serious and careful, our family's business depends on you to get to this day."

"Huh?"

When the father didn't react for a while, he thought he had heard it wrong: "What did you say?" ”

"I said I'm proud of you, you're not an old-fashioned dad, I'm proud of you."

"This kid, hey, hey, hey...... This kid ......"

Tang Hui on the other end of the phone smirked, and he was a little excited.

After hanging up the phone, Tang Mingyao also felt unprecedented relief, he used to have all kinds of knots for his father. The original intention of making this call today was to let the father feel recognized by his son, so as to relieve the father's death anxiety and improve his insomnia.

What I didn't expect was that my heart seemed to be touched.

Father-son reconciliation is sometimes just a matter of recognition and appreciation.

Everyone has a father, and everyone comes from a parent. When you recognize your father, you recognize yourself. On the contrary, it is to deny oneself.

A person who denies himself all the time will inevitably not be able to live the present, and he will inevitably not be able to grasp the present, so he will naturally be afraid of unknown death.

Tang Mingyao felt that he could sublimate the soul main line of "Kyushu Death Note" again.

However, he didn't catch up with the schedule, he only kept the pace of writing a little bit every day, and slowly advanced, so that it was just right not to hurry, if he messed up his learning rhythm in order to finish the book, he would lose the original intention of writing.

Therefore, he expects that it will take about half a year to complete the book.

In addition to writing, he now has to prepare a little bit for the English 4 exam in June.

This is the first important exam after entering the university, so the whole class entered the state early, and one by one they reviewed and prepared, just like the college entrance examination.

In fact, Tang Mingyao had experience in his previous life, and knew that if he could score 1230 points in English in the college entrance examination, as long as the university was not completely abandoned, English level 4 could be passed casually.

In the university of his last life, the average English score of the college entrance examination in the class was more than 120 points, and he took the fourth-level English test in the second semester of his freshman year, and there were only two of the 50 people in the class who did not pass the fourth-level test at one time - one of them was because of mistakes.

In this life, when I arrived at Jinghua University, which student in this class did not have an English score of more than 130?

And the learning atmosphere here is also better than the school in the previous life, so there is no problem in passing.

It's just that other students probably don't think so, those students who took the fourth-level exam for the first time, as soon as school started, some people went to the study room and the library to occupy a place and study hard, a few in Tang Mingyao's dormitory, don't look at each one seems to have their own problems, but the reading is unambiguous, go out early and return late, day and night.

Influenced by them, Tang Mingyao also picked up an English dictionary and exercise book early.

For two weeks in a row, he re-flipped through the English four-level dictionary, and the problems of dictation and memorization were not big, and then he did more than a dozen sets of mock questions from previous years, and found that his level had far exceeded the passing line, with a total score of 710 points, about 620 points, nearly 200 points more than the passing score of 425 points.

Well, with the previous results as a foundation, it is really not difficult to pass.

However, it is still a lot short of a perfect score.

Don't force it.

When the other people in the dormitory came back in the evening, they asked each other and found that everyone's scores were not low when they did the mock questions, at least 550 points or more.

The reason why they are all working hard is that they are afraid that if they play abnormally, they will be moths; The second is the competition between classmates, after all, if the whole class can score an average of 600 points, but you have only just passed, it will be too embarrassing to say it.

Tang Mingyao didn't have anything to worry about, and set aside more time to read other books.

The library of Jinghua University has a rich collection of books, which finally meets his needs for reading.