He sneered: "So you are lonely, lonely, and unbalanced in your heart, and you don't refuse the admirers who come to your door, just to disgust me, right?" ”

I suddenly felt so strange to the people in front of me, and everything around me seemed to be quiet. Outside the house, it is clear that spring is shining, but there is no trace of warmth.

After a while, he squeezed out his voice: "Luo Jincheng, is this what you mean?" In your eyes, am I such a watery poplar flower! If I'm lonely, I won't refuse to come, why did I leave my first time to you? ”

"Leave it to me?" He hooked his lips and smiled, but it was a contempt I had never seen before, "You are not leaving it to me, you are leaving it to any man who has a one-night stand with you." It's not me, it's someone else, it's just that I just met it. Isn't it? Didn't you have a man to find comfort with your friend? You know very well who your friend is, and like ...... gathers like things."

I threw a direct slap in the face, the sound was crisp, but it used up what little strength I had left.

The only indulgence was nailed to what he considered to be a pillar of shame.

He was stunned, not expecting me to do it. Then he was cold, "Aren't you very at ease?" Holding hands, hugging and kissing with that man, he turned around and I acted like I was nothing. I've been thinking, maybe it's a misunderstanding, I shouldn't doubt you, you are a person who is so serious about feelings, you will know how to cherish it more if you lose your feelings. I have never doubted your sincerity. He hated, "But is your sincerity only for me?" One is a misunderstanding, two is a misunderstanding, and three times if there is still a misunderstanding, then how stupid should I be to believe it. Why do you want to challenge my bottom line again and again! Yes?! ”

He roared the last word, furious as if he were about to shatter everything.

I was angry, and I felt a kind of sadness that I had really wrongly paid. I held back a burst of abdominal spasms, and said sadly: "It turns out that you haven't believed me all along, you think I'm casual, so you sent someone to secretly photograph me, obviously gritting your teeth but silent." Is it time to settle accounts after the fall? Have you ever thought about my feelings when you and Zhang Jingen were in and out, and what did you do when I was insulted? Luo Jincheng, every time you say you don't have to think about it, everything is up to you, but you never explain it to me, never reveal the truth to me. I stood behind you, silently watching you play with the other women, watching you receive everyone's blessings and approvals. And you're just a last resort, and I'm nothing to do with her. You have perfunctory me with a light sentence, and everything you have done seems to you to be taken for granted, and I should understand. Even if you have wronged me for a few years, I feel that it is understandable.

But have you ever thought about it from my standpoint? You ask me if I'm really just for you. Then I never doubted that one day you would lose your way among the swirling flowers? If you say a few misunderstandings, you will challenge your bottom line, because a one-night stand questions my single-mindedness; So where do you and Zhang Jingen's many intimate interactions put my bottom line? "I was very aggrieved in my heart, and the dissatisfaction I had been feeling for a while had come flooding up, so that the more I spoke, the louder I became. After saying it in one breath, the whole person trembled as if he had been drained of his strength, and his breathing was blocked, almost suffocating.

But in exchange for his yelling: "If you don't believe it, if you can't bear it, then there is no need for this relationship to continue." ”

"What did you say?" I looked at him in disbelief, tears in my eyes.

"It's lonely and unbearable, or it's a misunderstanding. Since you don't want to guess, you don't want anything. He looked at me indifferently, "You don't have to worry about my mother's business, and you don't have to worry about my business." You don't have to go to Binjiang West Road. You're still you, I'm still me! I still have meetings, if you like to rest, you can rest, and if you like to find a man, you can find a man! He turned around and walked to the door without looking back and pulled it open.

I trembled like fallen leaves in the autumn wind, and my throat choked so that I couldn't make a sound. When there was a loud bang on the door, I was shaken. Abdominal spasms hit in waves, and fluid seemed to ooze from the lower body.

I stumbled to the bathroom, and when I opened my pants, I saw a little blood clot on my lower body, and the red blood stains made me panic. I leaned against the cold wall and tried to calm myself down, but it was just a little bit and it should be fine. A colleague had a similar bleeding experience, but the mother and son were safe.

I kept pinching the back of my left hand with my right hand in an attempt to relieve my abdominal pain by kneading nerve endings.

When I got better, I struggled to crawl back into bed, wrapped myself tightly in the quilt, and thought that I would go to the hospital when I felt better after lying down for a while.

However, his mind was groggy all the time, and his abdomen began to cramp violently again, and his internal organs seemed to be about to be divided by five horses. I rolled back and forth in bed.

Finally, I crawled and found my mobile phone next to the bed, and I saw that it was turned off. When the machine was successfully turned on, my first reaction was to call Luo Jincheng.

Quarrels are quarrels, and now that I am pregnant with his child, he will not ignore it.

However, even after dialing a few times, I only heard a cold female voice of "on the phone". I panicked, and suddenly despaired in a hurry, and finally the mobile phone shook in my hand, I was startled, and immediately picked it up: "Luo Jincheng." ”

As a result, Li Wei's concerned voice came: "Shuhua is me." Are you okay? ”

I was instantly disappointed, but as if I had grasped a life-saving straw, I trembled and whispered, "I'm very uncomfortable, can you come over?" ”

"Okay, I'll be right over!"

After hanging up the phone, I waited in pain and waited, but a few minutes was a long time. I simply got up and leaned against the wall to open the door first, and he could take me to the hospital as soon as he came.

But the small opening seemed to be exhausted. It was as if I had been slashed in the abdomen by a sharp knife, and the pain made me almost dizzy. The humidity in the lower body is increasing.

I lay on the sofa weakly, counting the time for a second, but Luo Jincheng's cruel voice echoed in my mind, and the pain filled my whole body. In the chaos of my thoughts, I seemed to get a glimpse of my fate and his fate.

The love between me and him will never turn around with the death of the child. The child is here, no matter how he decides whether he goes or stays, it will win a buffer for our relationship, and if the child is gone, we will really be finished.

I trembled and cried, tears over and over again.

When Levia pushed the door open and rushed in, my voice was as weak as a mosquito, and my hands and feet were as cold as frost.

I leaned into his warm arms, and fainted with a soft mutter of "Luo Jincheng".

……

I feel that every life is alive, even if it is not yet three months old, it has not yet taken shape. Otherwise, how could I have seen it so really.

It was so small, standing so close and so far away, staggering in circles. Behind it was a thick fog. He spun around, so cheerful, and his laughter was so innocent and pleasant, but why did it gradually blur as it spun around, gradually disappeared by the white mist, and finally disappeared?

Why is it gone?

I was in a hurry, I wanted to call it, but I didn't know what it was called. I wanted to call the child, but my throat was like a stone, and I couldn't make a sound. Finally, his throat jerked and his eyes widened. There is no white fog and children around!

Just the time I spent closing my eyes and opening my eyes made me feel like I was being run over by a car.

Levia leaned over to look at me anxiously, then rang the call bell at the bedside.

The doctor came to check it out and said, "Don't touch the cold water, don't catch a cold." ”

I endured the pain and asked timidly in a hoarse voice, "Doctor...... My kids ......"

The doctor, a middle-aged woman with a big face, glanced at Livia and comforted, "You are still young, and you will have children in the future." Take good care of it first, leaving sequelae is not conducive to conception later. She turned her head and said, "Young man, calm down your wife, don't be too sad." ”

I silently watched the doctor leave, and despite all the mental preparations, I was overwhelmed by her final verdict.

Like a silent pantomime, I cried with my hands on the quilt, and my heart was like ashes.

I cried and asked, "Has Luo Jin been here?" ”

Levia moistened my dry lips with a cotton swab and said in a deep voice, "He said he would come later." Tonight is like having a dinner party. ”

Where there is a dinner party, there will be Zhang Jingen. With her glamorous and illustrious family, I must have my stump insignificant.

A child can prove something. He can't give what I want; What he hoped for, in this life, I can't be satisfied.

I turned my head, and the curtain had been pulled down outside the window, and there was no light in the gray air.

Levia said again: "You have a good rest first, don't think about anything." Only when you take care of your body can you have the energy to eliminate misunderstandings. , I have already helped you ask for leave, saying that you have an urgent matter at home. ”

My tears overflowed again, running down my cheeks to my neck and seeping into the quilt.

I cried for a long time, but my heart was miraculously calm, like a calm harbor after stormy waves.

I said, "It's getting dark." ”

……

The next time I saw Luo Jincheng was on the morning of the third day after hospitalization.

In a daze, I caught a glimpse of a strong light, as if the sun was being reflected in, and I realized that the sky was already bright.

As soon as I turned my head, I saw Luo Jincheng sitting on the chair next to the bed with a solemn face. This is a double room, and only one patient has been arranged for me at this time.

When I met his deep eyes, tears overflowed unconsciously, as if a spring of water had just been hit, and suddenly it was like a spring.

He sighed and said, "You wash up first and eat something." ”

I heard something strange, so I was so anxious that I grabbed the corner of his clothes, and said in a trembling voice: "You...... If you have anything to say, just say it, don't be a mother-in-law like a girl. ”

At the end, my heart fell, "I don't eat!" You just say it now, you say it now! ”

He slowly broke away from my hand, like in slow motion in a movie, little by little. After sitting down, he said indifferently: "There are some things that I want to wait for you to say after you are discharged from the hospital, but you still have to say it early and late." The doctor told me you're okay and you'll be discharged today. I just came over and talked about it, so that we could save each other from being restless......"

I interrupted anxiously: "You have always been concise and to the point, when did you stink and grow like a footwrap." ”

His dark eyes glanced at me, and finally said, "Your pregnancy was unexpected, and I was kept in the dark all along. However, since it's gone, there's no need to be so entangled. ”

"Don't worry about what you mean. Have you struggled? You've struggled with it a long time ago. I asked with tears in my voice.